As requested by 1dreamkeeper here is Jasper's POV on chapter 21: Panic

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Chapter 21: Panic

JPOV

Before everyone cleared out Emmett told me good luck, cuppin' my shoulder and squeezin' like it's suppose to give me some sorta support. I know I definitely needed it to get over this next hump.

I told everyone goodbye, keepin' as calm as I could. Once they were out the door I settled on the couch tryin' to figure out how to spill the beans.

Bella shut the door and turned to her daughter, our daughter. This is still surreal to me. "Okay Alicen, time for bed."

"I'm not tired."

"I don't care, it's time for bed."

"Fine," Alicen huffed and added for her room.

"Alicen," Bella called, "what do you say to Jasper?"

She turned around and ran to me, jumpin' in my arms and wrappin' her little arms around my neck in a hug. "Nice to meet you Jasper," she murmured. "Night."

I was kinda stunned. It took me a while to wrap my arms around her. This was my daughter, part of me. There was warmth radiatin' from my chest for this little girl in my arms. There was no turnin' back now. "Nice to meet ya too Alicen. And goodnight darlin'."

I released her and smiled a little as I watched her walk to her momma. Alicen took Bella's hand and guided her away. "Momma?"

"Yes sweetie?"

"Does he say that to you too?"

"Yes…"

I chuckled a little. If I had known she existed… well would I? Would I have taken her away from Bella? Altered her and Alicen's life completely? If I did know would Alice and I have been together? I don't know but I did know that I wouldn't have taken her away from Bella; she needed her more than she needed me. I missed her grow up for three years. I'm not gonna miss anymore. I just don't know how to approach the subject. I can't just come right out and say it. I mean I could but how would Bella take it?

I felt the couch beside me move and I glanced over at Bella, concern written on her face.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

I took a deep breath and grabbed her hand before turning to fully face her. "Bella, I have somethin' to tell you, somethin' that I just found out, but first I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and I never want to hurt you."

Her eyes widened a little. "Jasper, you're scaring me. What is it?"

"This whole thing is scary to me darlin', but you need to know that I think…" Oh crap how do I say this? I looked up to the ceilin' as if the words would be magically written there.

"Just tell me," she whispered.

I took another deep breath and looked into her beautiful brown eyes. "I think I might be Alicen's biological dad."

"What?" she breathed. "Why do you think that?"

"When I was watchin' her and Jackson, I noticed some things about her that are similar to me. Then I saw the picture by the urn. I remembered that I met that girl at Emmett and Rose's weddin' and we slept together. A little bit of mental math and askin' Alicen how old she was I figured it out. Bella I had no idea."

She gently pulled her hands out of mine and covered her mouth while starin' at me.

"Oh my, you were the guy Alice hooked up with."

"Yes, but Bella-"

"Alicen has your eyes. Why didn't I see it before?" she asked herself.

I could feel her slippin' away as she took her eyes away from me and focused on the floor.

I reached over and grasped her hands again. "Bella, baby, I don't wanna take her away from you. I just felt that this needed to be said, that you should know the truth." She still hadn't looked up and it was killin' me. I couldn't see if she saw me different or not. "Are you okay?"

"Um, I don't know. I think I just need some time to process everything…" she whispered

I nodded. I understood that she did, I still haven't processed it myself.

"Do you want me to stay?" I hated askin' but I didn't want to stick around if she needed to think. I didn't want to hover her and risk her kickin' me out of her life entirely.

She shook her head. "No. I'd like to be alone, thanks."

I nodded and stood. She needed time, I could give her that. I just hope its not forever.

I turned to ask one last thing. "Are we okay?"

She gave me a smile, granted it didn't meet her eyes but that smile meant enough.

I returned it. "Call me tomorrow when you're ready?"

When she nodded I bent to kiss her. I wasn't sure if she'd allow me but she did and I still felt some of that spark there was nothin' left to say so I headed for the door and out into the night feelin' as though I'm on the verge of leavin' my life behind me.

I drove slowly to my place, takin' my time I was in no rush and I would really rather be somewhere else.

Once I got there I laid down for a while to see if I could go to sleep but it wouldn't come. So instead I got up and did some work lookin' over our quarterlies and bills and such. When I got bored with that I fiddled some on my guitar, strummin' aimlessly at around four in the mornin' I popped in Push and settled to watch before finally fallin' asleep midway through the movie.

I woke in the mornin' with a start. I didn't really sleep that well and for a moment I was confused until I remembered all that had happened. I have a daughter. And I really hoped Bella would call me tonight. Hopefully everythin' will be okay.

I pulled out my phone to check the time. It was almost noon. Before I knew it I was scrollin' through my contacts. I needed to talk with Emmett ASAP.

It rang a couple times before his deep voice answered. "Hey man, how'd it go?"

"I have no damn clue."

"Well what happened?"

"Well she put Alicen to bed and I told her what I thought. She realized I might be right and asked to be alone so I left. I'm worried buddy."

"It's gonna be okay Jazz. Chances are she's going over to Mom's to talk about it. I'll head over and see how everything's going. Hang in there man."

"Thanks Em."

"Sure."

I hung up with him and jumped in the shower but once I got out and dressed I didn't know what to do. Bein' the weekend I cant go into work because it's closed and I usually just go over to Bella's. I tried to sit and read but after a few pages it just wasn't captivatin' my interest. I turned on the TV and put in Legion to watch before sittin' back on the couch. I barely watched it, checkin' my phone every five minutes.

When the movie was over I put Supernatural on and tried to watch it.

I had just gotten into the story line when my phone rang. I looked down at it and my heart sped up as I slid the button over to answer.

"Bella?"

"Hi Jasper."

"Hi."

"Listen, I was wondering if you'd like to come over for dinner?"

"Yes. I'd love to. I'll be right over."

When we hung up I grabbed my wallet and keys and stuffed them in my pockets as I was headin' out to my truck.

Once I arrived at her house I put my truck in park and ran up to the front door. I was suddenly unsure how to handle all this. Normally I walk in but I'm not sure. And when she opens what then? Do I hug her? Kiss her? Thank her? I'm at a loss. Best bet is to follow her lead.

I knocked on the door then stuck my hands in my pockets and waited for her to open the door. I could hear Alicen yellin' somethin' then Bella's voice got louder as she got closer.

She opened the door and smiled. "Hi."

That smile was back to normal and I smiled in return. "Hey."

She walked out and wrapped her arms around my waist and I reflexively wrapped mine around hers. "Sorry about yesterday."

"It's okay, I'm glad you called."

"Me too."

She raised up by her toes and kissed me. All my worries disappeared.

"Come on in, dinner's almost ready."

She led me to the kitchen and I watched her as she checked on dinner and honestly I loved watchin' her work. When she was done she grabbed my hand and led to the livin' room where Alicen was playin'.

We sat on the couch as Bella got Alicen's attention.

I watched as my daughter turned to us.

Bella took a deep breath and leaned into me. I squeezed her knee for support. "Alicen, Jasper is your-"

"I know."

What? "You know?" I asked.

She nodded and her dark curls bounced all around her.

"What do you know, baby?" Bella asked.

She looked up into Bella's eyes and you could see knowledge in her eyes, way more than a normal three year old would. "I know Jasper is my Daddy."

"How do you know that?" Bella asked.

Alicen smiled innocently. "I heard you last night."

Bella gasped. "You didn't go to sleep did you?"

Alicen shook her head. "I wasn't sleepy. I played with my dolly and listened."

"How do you feel about Jasper being your Dad?"

"I like it." she whispered to Bella and a warmth came over me. It's amazing what power a little girl has over her dad. It's a terrifyin' thing. I felt I was bein' wrapped around her little finger. I would do anythin' for my little girl.

"I'm glad." Bella said.

Alicen smiled and gave us both a hug.

"I'm glad to have both my girls," I said as I kissed their foreheads.

"It feels like home?" Bella asked.

I smiled and nodded. "Yeah. Feels like home." And it did. This was where I belonged.

And there it is