"I don't know how you are either." I say as she laces her hands with mine, she actually wouldn't be a bad girlfriend, you know? Maybe I should just ask her out.

She bites my bottom lip kinda hard but it didn't hurt. Uh, I wonder if she's aware that we're in the middle of the hallway and anyone could see her being gay with me, "So what do you wanna do?" she asks dragging us down the hallway while she swings our intertwined hands.

I stop and take my hand back, "I actually have to go to the office."

She smirks, "Not really."

I send a smirk right back at her, no one does it like me, I could make anyone melt, "What'd you do, Chris?"

She bites her bottom lip, thank god it's not mine, I'm still feeling that one, "I might've taken a slip and forged a signature here and there."

"No," she smiles and giggles, "You didn't. You're too good of a good girl."

"Wanna bet?" She says still smiling. And that made her kinda hot, I grab onto her hips and pull her into me to kiss her. What a wonderful dance our tongues do. I go on for the next four seconds kissing her then stop, "Wanna go back to my place?" she asks.

I'm not looking into her eyes, those lips are what mesmerize, "Okay, the rest of my day's gonna be boring anyway."

"Your car or mine?" she asks.

I think about it. If we take my car someone would notice because I swear the people at this school always have an eye on me. But if we take her car... we're free as birds, "Yours." I say.

She doesn't even respond back. She just grabs my hand and drags me toward the parking lot.

Damn, dude, by the time we got in the house she was completely naked. Well, I kinda stripped her in the car but still, damn. We went at it for 2 hours and then some, it was just... brilliance. But I think that was only because I couldn't keep my mind off of Spencer. I know I told myself that I wouldn't fantasize about Spencer when I was getting down with Chrissy but I can't get my mind off of her.

Chrissy's laying on top of me with her head resting on my bosoms or lack thereof. I'm somewhat flat chested but I gotta little something up there. Her hair smells like cinnamon, inhale. Exhale. "Mm, I love your shampoo."

She looks up at me, "And I love you." Ugggh. What? Maybe I heard her wrong, I hope I did.

I smile uncomfortably but I'm sure she can't really tell, "Um, what?" I add a chuckle.

"I'm sorry, I know this wasn't supposed to be a relationship kinda thing but," she swallows the spit in her mouth. And I hear the clock ticking, "But, I love you."

Whoa, I just got a migraine, I think it's time to get back to school. "Um," cough, "I think I'm gonna be late for 4th period and, we should go." Ugh, she pulled that on me.

Her face goes from happy to sad in a split second, tops. She sits up with the cover covering her body, "Aren't you gonna say anything?" she asks.

I grab a sheet and wrap it around me. I stand up and walk over to my, now wrinkled, clothes, "What am I supposed to say?" I ask.

She stands up, sheet still in hand, "I don't know, say it back maybe."

I look at her, "Look, don't do this—I told you simple and clear what this was, what we were." I bend down to looking for my panties under this heap of clothes.

"I know you told me that but I get the feeling that you care about me more than you say. I mean, you wouldn't talk to me everyday and call me baby if you didn't mean anything by it." Now she's hovering over me.

I look up at her then stand up. Now we're face to face, "I do mean something by it but not what you think. I mean it affectionately but not like that. I like you a lot, Chriss--"

She cuts me off, "Okay, okay, it's fine. Let's go back to school." And she turns away from me.

I sigh, "Chrissy, I'm not trying to--"

"Hurt me? I know." Then she walks into her bathroom and slams the door. Why does everyone know what I'm gonna say before I even say it? How is that even possible? This is so messed up, no one understands what I want and when they do get it then... I'm a jackass or a bitch. Maybe I shouldn't let anyone into my world ever, again. I continue looking for my underwear, damn, where did she even toss them? Well, I don't need them, I'll get them later. I put on jeans, yes, I'm gonna wear jeans with no panties. It's actually not as uncomfortable as you would expect. It's liberating. Anyway, I put on my bra and then my shirt and right as it's sliding over my head Chrissy comes back into the room, "Ready?" she says with a smile.

I look at her and shoot her a crazy smile, "Yeah, you okay?"

She nods with that smile plastered on her face, "Yeah, let's go." Before I have a chance to respond, she's walking down the stairs. Okay, she walked away from me, I'll remember that.

"So, I'll see you later?" she asks.

I nod then stop. Shit, I'm hanging out with Spencer, "Uh, no. I forgot I had other plans maybe tomorrow?"

"Your plans are gonna run until tomorrow?" she asks standing in front of my locker with me. I don't know why, I'm not getting any of my books.

"I don't know." I answer. She's being kinda nosey for us to not even be together.

She shrugs, "Okay, I'll text you later. Or you text me," she looks away from me, "Which you probably won't."

"Um, okay?" did she think I couldn't hear her because I did.

"Nothing, bye." And she walks away from me, again. Ugh, girls are so confusing sometimes. I look at my watch, hey, I still got like 10 minutes until 4th period. And you know what that means... lunch!

I walk into the lunchroom, this is my lunch so I start walking to my table. Who sits at my table? Well, let's see Daniel and Micheal, the hottest set of twins on campus (says Jamie), Shelby, the new girl, and Jamie, the biffle. Oh, and Nicole, man, I was never able to turn her gay and it sucks because she has a tongue ring and... she could do wonders. But, damn, her and Micheal are definitely an item but he wouldn't say no if me and Nicole were to get into something. Anywho, Daniel had a thing for me and Jamie way back when but that was forever ago. Shelby's the new girl, cute, doesn't talk much, has like... 0 gauges. I'm not sure, I never asked her what they were.

"Hey, where were you 3rd period?" Nicole asks as I pull my chair out.

I sit next to Shelby and Nicole, "Out."

Micheal smiles, "Out doing what?"

I look at him and smile, "None of your business."

"It's kinda obvious that out young Ashley got some." Jamie says sitting Daniel says sitting in between me and Nicole, "I mean look at her face, it's so full of--"

"Fear." I say out loud, oops, I was just supposed to be thinking that.

They all turn their heads to the side, including Shelby, "What?" asks Nicole.

They know all about me and Chrissy, how I can't go out with her. They know about how big of a bitch Erin is. I tell them the whole story about how I met Spencer and then about Chrissy and the 'I love you' thing and Erin talking to me today, "What the hell was she even thinking?" I say taking a sip of Shelby's Gatorade.

Nicole scoffs, "You have too many girls in your life."

I shrug, "Maybe I don't have enough, hmm?" that's supposed to be directed at her. Kinda stupid but hey I think it's clever.

She rolls her eyes but smirks, "Shut up, but in all seriousness, what the hell was Erin thinking?"

I shrug, "Hell if I know."

"Maybe you were, like, the best lay she ever had and she wants your body back." Micheal says smiling. Ugh, I don't even know what's up with guys and their lesbian fetish. They get so excited about girls making out but most girls don't get too hyped up when guys kiss guys. I guess that's a reason why I really don't like guys very much.

I smile at Micheal while laughing, "Probably, I am pretty good."

"Oh yeah, you were amazing last night." Shelby says starting a joke. She hasn't talked the whole time I've been here, I wonder what she's been doing.

"Nah-uh!" Micheal screeches at me, "Don't even joke like that, man."

Shelby smiles, "I'm not even kidding." She looks at me and winks.

We can milk this forever. I put my hand on her knee, "No, I don't think we are. I gave Shelby a taste of the good life." Shelby's been torn between girl and boy since the beginning of time. She has a crush on me when she first came to King then she had a crush on Daniel then Jamie then me... ugh, then Aiden then me again. Ew, Aiden, but at least she went back to me... I don't think she's still stuck on me now. I couldn't do anything with her, she doesn't seem like my type. You know, super straight and totally out of my league, sorry Shelby, you're too good for me.

Daniel looks over me to see my hand on Shelby's knee, "Y'all are shitting us."

Shelby shakes her head while staring deeply into my eyes, "No way," and she starts leaning in... is she trying to kiss me? I shrug, mentally, in my head, I'm weird, fuck you.

Anyway, I might as well have a little fun, I lean into her, "What are you doing?" Kyla says to me.

I close my eyes then sigh as Shelby pulls away from me. I open my eyes and turn my head to Kyla, "What are you doing?"

She raises her left eyebrow, "Watching you." She's either talking about Spencer or about the joke just now.

I roll my eyes, "Why are you in here? This isn't even your lunch." it's best to just change the subject.

"Skipping." she says. Yeah, right. I cock my head to the side, "I got let out early."

"There we go, that sounds like my little sister." I know she's older I just love pissing her off sometimes, I mean she's like my best friend but she's also my biggest enemy.

"I'm older than you." I roll my eyes and turn back to my friends. Daniel is looking her up and down, I narrow my eyes at him and I think Nicole sees it because she's making eye contact with me and laughing. Kyla touches my shoulder, "Can I talk to you for a second? Really quick." she asks.

I look at the the clock, bell's gonna ring in like four minutes. I stand up, "I'll talk to you guys later."

I turn away from the table but someone calls to me, "Hey, Ash, are you gonna take me to work?"

Shit, oh yeah. I'm the only one out of this whole group that actually drives, "Yeah, Nic, meet me in the courtyard after fourth." She nods and Kyla and I walk out of the lunchroom.

We walk until we're in front of my fourth period class, "What's up, Ky?"

"I'm just curious in knowing..." is she gonna drag this out forever? What the hell, hurry the fuck up. "How are you gonna bang Spencer when she's trying out for cheerleading?"

I look at her, confused, "What's that gotta do with anything?"

"Erin's on the cheerleading team, they're gonna talk, you know?"

I shake my head, "I've got nothing to worry about."

"And why's that?" Kyla asks.

I sigh, "Erin wouldn't dare mention anything about her being intimately involved with me. Keep in mind I'm the reason she almost got kicked off the team and, god, we wouldn't want that."

Kyla nods, "So you're not worried a tiny bit?"

"Should I? Is Spencer even interested in me? I mean in the tiniest notion?" I ask Kyla, I'm trying to figure out if I have to pull out the good game. Who am I kidding? All my game's good.Kyla narrows her eyes at me, "What's up with the look? You were fine when I told you I was into Erin, what's so different about this?" I'm trying not to compare Spencer and Erin in every way humanly possible but that's only one similarity, I shouldn't mention anything else or I might talk myself out of liking her. How can I even turn off liking this girl?

"That's classified information." Kyla says... and that was a dead giveaway, I'm wanted! I could skip through a meadow of daises.

I smile creeps across my face, "You already gave her away." I turn away from Kyla, she grabs my arm.

"Look, don't say anything. She's--"

I cant easily finish this sentence, "Been fighting with her sexuality?" I smile, "I could help her come to a final decision." I wink at her.

"Seriously." Kyla says sternly.

"Kyla," I sigh, "I'm not gonna hurt her, okay? Trust me this time." I look around, there's no one in the hall but I still feel the need to whisper, "I feel something different with her," I look away from my sister, "I feel like I just wanna always be with her or around her."

Kyla gasps.

I look her directly in the eye, "Look. I know it's weird, I only talked to her like twice but I don't know she's—she's got this flair about her. Like, I wanna know her." I sigh, kinda the same feeling I had when I first met Erin but the ones for Spencer are... bigger? That might cause a little problem with me. Ugh, I got those feelings all over again for her, why the fuck did she have to talk to me today? But it was kinda odd, those feelings kinda got overpowered by my excitement of seeing Spencer. Wait, wait, no, no, no, no. I don't do this. Ashley Davies doesn't go crazy over some girl, this is—this isn't me. I'm blowing this way out of proportion, it must be the medication I'm on, or the pheromones in the air or whatever.

liked it? a handful of people said that Ashley sees girls as a piece of meat or something of the sort... maybe Spencer's the one to change all that, who knows. Well, hope you enjoyed this chapter, i had to end it kinda abruptly, sorry. xoxo