Hmm. Erin and Ashley, again? That could deff be a possibility but I am a fan of spashley but at the same time I can't be biased sooo… we'll see.
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I stop the car in front of the main mall entrance, "Out you go." I say putting vehicle in park.
She scoffs, "Trying to get rid of me so fast?"
I nod, "Yeah. I mean if I'm not getting laid then…"
"Ew," she hits my arm and I shift away from her, smiling, "You're so gross sometimes."
"Please, you know you have daydreams and wet dreams about the things we could to together." I am so clever.
She laughs, "Oh, you know it."
I smile, "Nah, but that's not it. I just don't want you to be late for work." I'm caring, what can I say?
She looks at me and smiles. I guess she realizes that we're friends and that I care for her. Or maybe she's thinking about taking me up on my offer.
Nah.
"I thin there's something else." She says.
I hope she doesn't guess it, "Like what?"
"You're thinking abut going to meet Erin at Starbucks." She says. Jesus, she's worse than Kyla, reading my mind and all.
"No—no. I—I wasn't even," She shoots me an 'I know you look' and I sigh, "Okay, I was thinking about it. I just wanna know that I'm hating her for all the right reasons. I mean if there's more to the story then I wanna hate her for everything."
She smirks, "You don't hate her."
"Yes, I do." I say.
She shakes her head, "No. No you don't. You don't really hate people. You don't even hate Madison."
I shrug. I don't really hate anybody. If Madison was in some kinda of trouble I'd most definitely help her out. "True."
"So you're gonna go meet her and see what she's got to say and then you're gonna come to school tomorrow and tell me the whole story." she says opening her door.
I smile, "Alright, but just don't tell anyone yet, okay? I don't want everyone to freak out."
"Unless there's something to freak out about." Nicole says rather odd like. What is she getting at?
"What do you--"
"Gotta go," she steps out of the car, "Gonna be late. Tel me how it goes." and she slams the door and walks off.
I watch her disappear into the mall before I drive off.
What was she implying? It couldn't possibly that I would ever go out with Erin again. No, she wouldn't even think that. She knows how much Erin hurt me. How much I wanted to ring her neck. How much I wish she would fall off the face of the earth.
How much I was in love with her.
Ugh.
I drive to a stoplight, it's red. I pull out my phone, flip it open go to my texts. I have four new ones. First one: Are we hanging out after school? Jammyjam. That's from Jamie. No, we're not, I'm hanging out with Spencer for a little bit. Keep chillin with your new boy toy. Love, Ashes.
I check my other messages.
So what do you say? Starbux at four?? That one's from Erin. Um, yeah, I guess. Which one? But I swear if this is another trick… so help you gawd. Send. That was intimidating, or it was meant to be at least.
Number three, from Spencer. This cheerleading routine is kicking my ass. Madison keeps telling me I suck. I could use you right now. Spen. Huh? She could use me right now? How do I respond to that?
Let me check text number four, it'll give me time to think about what I'm gonna say to Spencer. I don't know why she leaves me so flustered some times. Need your humor. Need you to make me laugh. ♥ Spen.
Okay, that clears stuff up. But you know... she must've been thinking about it too because she wouldn't have felt the need to tell me that she needed me for humor. She wouldn't have specified. Okay, I'm over analyzing, I gotta stop doing that with this girl, it's gonna be the death of me for sure. I'm sorry. But I don't think me being there would help you in anyway. I'm thinking I'd probably kill Madison on sight. Lol, I'm sure you could do it, tho, you look pretty limber. Send. I wasn't trying to flirt, it just comes natural.
The light finally turns green and off I go, on my way to Starbucks. I can't believe I'm doing this. I don't know why I'm doing this...
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It's 3:55pm.
I park my car in front of the lovely cafe, did I mention that I'm in love with this place? I'm telling you, they sneak crack into their ingredients.
I get up the courage to get out of the car. I sigh.
I walk to the entrance. I sigh before opening the door. I open the door and walk in. I make eye contact with, Derek, he knows me, I'm a regular. I came here a lot with Erin, he knows our whole story. He's told me many times that he's rooting for Erin to get her head back on right. He thinks we're the cutest lesbian couple to ever walk this earth. Meaning we were better than Portia De Rossi and Ellen Degeneres.
He tilts his head to the side, like he's pointing me toward something or someone. I look in that direction and I see someone familiar. Long brown hair. Erin. I send Derek a nod, telling him thank you. Actions speak louder than words.
I walk over to Erin and sit down in the chair across from her, "Hey." she says watching me sit down.
"Hello." I say looking at her. I take one more look at my sidekick before I'm ready to have this serious talk with her. Another text from Spencer. I've been talking to her all the way over here. She kept my mind off of this. She was telling me about all these crazy positions she has to do. Cheerleaders don't just stick to the pyramid. Apparently, there's so much more. Okay, I really have to get focused now. Madison's all on my ass. She's like a slave driver. Lol, I'll talk to you or text you after practice. Don't miss me too much ;) ♥ Spen.
Don't worry, I won't. Just don't miss me too much, I know you want me. Muah! Send. Okay, that's done. Wait, how is Erin here, the co-captain, and Spencer, the newbie, is at practice? Why am I even asking? Erin's co-captain.
"So, are you ready?" she asks with an uncomfortable smile on her face.
I shrug, "More or--"
Her phone rings. "Hold on a second." she looks at it then back at me, "Sh, Madison."
I roll my eyes and look away then back at her.
"Oh, yeah, sorry. I really want to help you guys but—yeah, Madison I... Maddie, I met the hottest college guy, though. You'd be really proud of me." she smiles big. I guess my new name is hot college guy now. "But yeah, sorry. I'll tell you how it goes, okay?" she pauses and I guess she's listening to Madison yap, "Okay, love, bye." she hangs up then places the phone on the table.
I smirk, "So I guess that's my new name?"
"What?" she says lost.
"You met the hottest college guy? I guess I'm the hottest college guy. When did I turn into a man?" I chuckle.
Erin sighs, "I just didn't want her to know that--"
I cut her off, "I'm sure. So why are we here again?" seems like we're breaking up all over again. Why does she care so much what people think of her? There's always gonna be someone in this whole wild world that hates you. But they'll only be one that loves you for you... I thought that I was that person for her. Guess not.
"I wanted to tell you the whole story." she says trying to forget my last comment.
I lean back in my chair, "What are you gonna tell me that I don't already know?"
She sighs, "Do you want to get some coffee first?" stalling. That's one thing that Erin was good at. Anyone that really knows her knows that she only stalls when she's nervous.
I shake my head, "No and you don't have to stall. Get to the point."
She sighs, yet again, "Okay."
I wait.
"I broke up with you like that because Madison said she would kick me off the cheerleading team and—don't cut me off." she says just as I open my mouth. This is why she didn't finish what she was saying last time, I got angry and cut her off. I shut my mouth. "She said she would kick me off the team but I couldn't care less about that. I don't care about being popular." she gulps, I see her throat thingie go down then up again, "But she also said she would tell my parents."
Some people may think, "Oh, wow, your parents? Well you're gonna have to tell them some time." but that's nowhere near the case. When she was 10 and her brother was 14 he decided to tell their parents that he liked the male anatomy... a lot. Her parents didn't handle it well and sent him off to boot camp. He didn't call while he was there. He didn't write any letters, well, there was one addressed to Erin but her parents took it away before she could read it. And then there was another that just said that when he turns 18 he's done with this god forsaken, sick ass family. Or something along those lines but a lot worse.
So it's been like seven years since Erin's seen her brother because now she's 17 and her brother's 21. I understand why she decided to break up with me, she didn't want the same fate as her brother. But why did she have to wait half a year to tell me?
"Ashley?" she says.
I guess I tuned her out for a while.
I look up at her, "Yeah." I say.
"So do you get it now?" she asks.
"Yeah, I get that part but..." I shake my head, "Why'd you wait six months to tell me this? Why'd you wait so long? And why'd you do it so cruelly? I mean, you told me about your brother. Did you not think I would understand?"
"Madison was watching me. I couldn't just talk to you--"
"That's the thing. Why do you care so much about Madison? What kinda of secret does she hang over your head to make you cling to her like a sick puppy? I mean I was in love with you that's why I clung to you but what's your excuse for Madison? You in love with her?" I ask.
She shakes her head frantically, "God no! Look, I couldn't just walk up to you or anything. She was still hanging it over my head. And she made me break up with you like that. She told me to put you on speaker. She told me to say all those hurtful things to you..." she trails off.
I bite my bottom lip, "And you said them!" I raise my voice a little but no one's paying attention to us.
"Ashley, calm--"
I shake my head, "No, don't tell me to calm down right now. This is as calm as I'm gonna get." I sigh and she doesn't say word, "I hate the fact that Madison has this control over you. I hate the fact that you waited so long to say something to me. I hate the fact that you couldn't even tell your--"
"No, no, no. You don't get to say that part to me. Have you told your parents? No, I didn't think so." she just answered her own question... bitch.
"They're never home! You know how many times I've planned on telling them? But no they have more important things to do then talk to their screw up of a daughter. But if it was Kyla I'm sure they'd be there in a couple of blinks." I shake my head slowly and bite my bottom lip. I think I'm gonna bite it straight off, "They know, they just don't want to talk to me about it. They'd rather just not look at all the signs." I stand up.
"Ashley, are--"
I cut her off. I need to, "Look, I cant talk to you right now."
"Ash--"
"I said I cannot talk you right now." and with that said I walk away from the table and towards the front door. Derek looks at me with a wondering look on his face. I shake my head, "Nope, it's worse." I mouth to him.
He shrugs and mouths, "I'm sorry." to me. I walk out the door and get in my car. I sit in the car and don't crank the engine. I lean on the door and put my head in my hand.
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