A/N: Sorry this took so long!
I accidently put the wrong numbers on my chapter and had 14 twice and no 13.
But I finally realised my mistake and this is chapter 13.
I feel horrible for leaving you with a songfic last time! Sorry!
But I had to let you know Adrian's feelings!
SPIRIT BOUND is released tomorrow! YAY! I'm going to read it tomorrow night, but I have written some chapters that just need editing so you won't have to wait for long.
I hope you love this short & sweet chappie but beware the next one is like 5 pages long! I might split it into a few chapters. It is the saddest chapter yet. I wanted to cry writing it. Seriously.
Chapter 13:
Diary POV
Dimitri,
Well, what can be said about today... It was excruciating.
I wish you would come back, really I need you. I need... life, again.
I need a reason to live which you offered with support everyday at training but now is lost.
It feels like night, numb and cold, dark and unforgiving in my life.
I went back to classes today not by choice.
I hate everyone but when I see my old friends something in the back of my head is screaming that I need to go to them, be with them. The voice is familiar and Russian, like a shadow of your voice before the attack.
I feel the safety of the academy suffocating me as I walk blindly between classes. So safe that I cannot escape, cannot breathe.
You once told me that I had your heart. I question that, because I don't have any heart, much less one as pure as yours.
I remember making snow angels together a long time ago, with the man I loved and adored, learning to be the person who could protect Lissa.
Lissa... I can't do anything about her right now. I have to focus on myself because she's got everyone else.
Does that make me a bad person? Probably. But what else do I have to lose? I have lost my life, my love, my heart, my future. What can touch me now?
I'm lost but I'll always be yours,
Rose.