At least death was welcome. Death was a release. The one thing that every living thing experiences.

My father was Red John. He'd killed countless people, ruined friends and family's lives.

And worst off, he's destroyed Patrick Jane's life. Patrick Jane, the one person who meant so much to me, I would do anything for him to be happy. And my father has taken all his happiness out of the world.

Suicide had never been my planned way to die, but now I can see the appeal.

Leaning over my balcony, I looked at the drop that would finish me off. I started to sweat, nervous and over-coming my little-known-about fear of heights. Now my father would feel remorse. Now his only daughter, his eldest child, would take her own life because he had destroyed so many others.

I hoisted myself up onto the railings surrounding my balcony. I thought of my mother, Tommy and Chris and Minelli. How my old boss would be ashamed of me. He always said that suicide was the lowest way anyone could die. I thought of Sam, Sam Bosco. He said on his deathbed that he loved me and I still don't want to believe him. Why couldn't he have loved his wife, like most people should? I thought of Kimball Cho, my ever-faithful companion and partner in crime-fighting. I thought of Wayne Rigsby, his non-stop eating and his relationship with Grace Van Pelt. I hoped they would get back together. They were sweet together. Grace, my trusty Wonder-Woman with the computers and loyal friend.

I thought of Patrick Jane. His heart-stopping smile, his entertaining and unorthodox methods. How his jokes failed to cover the damaged person inside. And how I loved him.

I climbed back down from the railings. Patrick Jane had saved my life without knowing it. I knew I couldn't leave him and I knew I had to help him catch Red John, my father.

I sat down on the balcony chair and fell asleep, the image of my beautiful, blond-haired consultant filling my mind's eye...

Okay, unless anyone REALLY cares, I'm finishing this FanFic! :'(

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