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Chapter 17
Rose's POV
Wordlessly Adrian picked me up again, comfort rushed through me as I met his gaze. Then I remembered why this was all happening and was flooded with guilt. It was my entire fault. Adrian was staring at me expectantly and not moving into the room. It confused me, why wasn't he going in? What was I thinking before? It was my entire fault. What was my fault? My mind reeled; my head spinning as the reality of it came crashing in. I'd killed Dimitri. I didn't deserve friends. I was pushing them away and then somehow I'd ended up crying at Lissa's feet? I'd made her cry. What a horrible person I was.
I'd stopped breathing, when? I couldn't remember. Adrian was looking at Christian. I could hear him talking, but it seemed distant.
"What are we going to do?" Christian looked concerned as he questioned Adrian.
Adrian had a small smile plastered to his lips but it seemed false, his eyes were sad and desperate. Something about his expression haunted me, it was... serious. He shouldn't look so old and knowing, he was Adrian. I had aged him...
"Can you stay with them out here for a moment? I'll go organise things."
Christian must have raised an eyebrow because Adrian explained,
"The windows open and the sunlight won't be good for Lissa. Plus I think it would be better not to leave empty bottles in Rose's path." He looked back at me sceptically.
It wasn't right for him to be caring about me this much. I didn't deserve it. If he knew what I'd done...
The memory crashed into me, I vaguely noticed Christian put Lissa down and sit against the wall, pulling her into his lap.
That night... The feelings poured into me all over again. Anxiety, Hesitation, Fear. Mostly fear.
Adrian sat me down next to Christian and kissed my forehead.
Christian stroked my hair as he kissed Lissa's neck.
I ran through a dark forest.
My vision slipped from Christian and Lissa to the trees, a figure stalked me.
My head spun and everything went black, then I was against a tree, red eyes penetrating my soul. Eyes that should have been brown.
"No Rose, Don't you want to join me? Eternity together, Really together, forever."
I shook my head afraid to open my mouth, knowing I would say 'yes'.
In my mind I said yes, knowing what would come next. But it was unstoppable, fate at work. I should have dropped the stake but instead I raised it, poised and lethal.
"Oh Rose, Don't be so pathetic. You're not going to do it so don't even pretend. When we're together we can rule the world... We can take down our enemies. Lissa can't control you anymore. We could end the Dragomirs! Everyone who every wronged us will pay!"
How could his voice get that cold? He must have been lying. His voice was too cold, exaggerated even. He was lying. I was sure of it now. He would never hurt Lissa. But that didn't stop what happened next.
My stake pierced his heart. Slowly his eyes returned to brown and he spoke in a rough voice filled with pain,
"I'm so sorry Roza, I love you. Be careful and don't do anything reckless. I'll never forget you, my strong Rose. You kept your promise. Thank you... I just wish... It wasn't this way. Love you. Always."
This was a twisted nightmare, it couldn't be true. Internally I screamed. My vision flashed black again but this time stayed locked on a flashing image. In a millisecond the red eyes in my mind turned brown, staring at me. Seeing me, for the last time, and what would he see? A broken girl? His executioner? Or would he see me as what I was? Dying and heartbroken.
"No Rose, Don't you want to join me? Eternity together, Really together, forever."
My mind screamed the words at me. Over and over, loud and accusing.
My world snapped. One moment Dimitri's eyes stared at me with love, the next Lissa was crying hysterically and shouting my name. Christian pushed her back and I screamed, torn from Dimitri again. The pain was tangible. He looked startled for a second and then whispered,
"Sshh, Are you okay?"
I started wide-eyed at my surroundings. Adrian was jogging through the doorway, crouching in front of me.
"What happened?" he asked with an intensity that seemed out of place in his voice.
Christian shook his head as I started to cry again, "I think she fainted. But she's back now."
Adrian lifted me into his arms, "Let's go inside and figure this out."
Moments later I felt a pillow under my head, I was on a bed. I turned sideways and Lissa was lying there, weeping. She grabbed my hand and clung to it.
"I'm so sorry Roza, I love you. Be careful and don't do anything reckless. I'll never forget you, my strong Rose. You kept your promise. Thank you... I just wish... It wasn't this way. Love you. Always."
You have nothing to be sorry for. I do not deserve your love and concern. Remember me as what? Your strong Rose? Sorry, I'm not strong. I wish I was. I'm a murderer. I wish the same, I mourn this life; I would trade anything for it not to be this way. To be with you...
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