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Chapter 7:
ChibiUsa eyes opened early in the morning from a faint tapping noise. She slowly sits up and yawns as she rubs her eyes. She looks next to her and smiles at Helios laying beside her sound asleep. She then scootched closer to him. He looked peaceful. ChibiUsa brushes a strand of his sliver hair away from his face and suddenly gets startled by a tap at the door. That must have been what had woken her up. ChibiUsa frantically tries to wake up Helios.
Helios' eyes shoot open quite fast. "You almost made my heart stop-", before he can finish his sentence ChibiUsa covers his mouth and that's when the door swings open.
"Good morning, darling. I have-" Neo Queen Serenity stops dead in her tracks and stares at the sight before her; ChibiUsa and Helios sitting in bed with her hand over his mouth. Her mother then rushes to the door and closes it behind her and quickly turns back to them, trying to speak quietly. "What in the world is going on here!"
ChibiUsa stutters at first and then decides to stand on her feet.
"Mom, I...uh..."
Helios looks over at ChibiUsa who was rather flustered and then her mother who looked as angry as ever. He sighs and stands up before them. "My queen...", He then gives a slight bow, "I humbly apologize for this inconvinience. I had come to see ChibiUsa two days ago and I didnt inform you about my arrival because ChibiUsa was frightened to bring up my presence. I know you're not quite fond of me. But, I know the way I have affected your daughter was a mistake and-"
"Of course im not fond of you! If you knew that then you should have left as soon as you found out!" Neo Queen Serenity was outraged as she swung her arms around. The height of her voice was heard and King Endymoin rushed in. "What's the matter?" Neo Queen Serenity rushed over to him.
"I found these two in bed!"
"What?"
ChibiUsa tried to defend herself. "It's not what it seemed! We werent doing anything at all! It's just that-"
King Endymoin raised his voice at her. "He shouldnt be here at all! Do you not understand what we've been telling you? This boy does not love you! If he loved you he wouldnt have kept you waiting for so long! Come on, ChibiUsa, it's been much too long!"
Helios noticed ChibiUsa's eyes filling up with tears. "King, I assure you that it wasnt my decision to keep ChibiUsa waiting so long. It wasnt my-"
King Endymoin snapped back at him. "Don't give me none of that crap! You've caused my daughter so much grief! I want you to leave my territory at once!"
"Father, you can't!" ChibiUsa was now crying. Neo Queen Serenity came over to her and put her arms around her. "Darling, you have to stay out of this! You may love him. But, his actions showed nothing but the complete opposite."
ChibiUsa was too upset to protest.
"I want you to leave. Now." King Endymoin stepped closer to Helios. Helios knew there was nothing he could do. He then looked over at ChibiUsa. She was wrapped in her mother's arms who had a spiteful look on her face. ChibiUsa looked up at him, her eyes puffy from crying. He then sighed, looked down, closed his eyes. "I'm sorry for the trouble I've caused..." He was then wrapped in a blue light and disappeared.
ChibiUsa sobbed as Endymoin stomped out of her room, murmuring words she couldnt understand. When he was gone, Neo Queen Serenity let go of her and looked at her daughter. "Darling, I know you are upset now. But, you know all we want is the best for you."
"Helios is the best for me."
"No. No, he isnt. You just think he is. Small Lady, love can blind you. You are not thinking straight. How can you forgive that boy? After all that pain he's caused you? After how long he's kept you waiting? After all the tears you've cried? Much too many times have you cried yourself to sleep. No. I will not let you make a fool of yourself." After her sentence, she left the room. ChibiUsa was left standing there with tear stained cheeks. She then looked up and all around her. The room felt cold. She then held herself.
Later...
It was dark out now and ChibiUsa had spent the whole day in her room. She'd go downstairs every now and then when she needed something to eat but she hasnt spoken to her parents or anyone else ever since the incident that took place earlier in the morning. She now stood infront of her bathroom mirror, slowly brushing her long rosey pink hair as she looked at her reflection.
Everything felt so quiet. So still. She placed her brush down and walked over to her bed and layed under the covers. During the day, she has thought about many things. About Helios. She thought of how angry she was. But, every now and then the thought of her parents being right has lingered through her mind. Everytime she had considered it, she would push the thought away and would feel guilty afterwards for thinking of such a thing.
But..her parents always knew better.
"But, not everyone could be right all the time...right?"
She was beginning to actually consider that her parents were actually right. But can she turn her back on Helios just like that? No, she cant.
"Yes, I can..."
Maybe, just maybe, she could let him go. She wasnt about to start to disrespect her parents. They were always there, unlike Helios, of course. Shouldnt they be more trustworthy?
She agonized over this. Confusion ran through her and the thought of giving him up hurt her. But if things were going to be the way they are she might as well right? After making her decision about letting Helios go, she sighed and reached out to turn off the light on her nightstand. She wiped away a tear in the dark before it could fall. She didnt want to cry for him ever again..
ChibiUsa's dream...
ChibiUsa found herself sitting under a tree in the middle of an endless golden meadow. There were no other tress in sight. When she stood up, she felt someone behind her and quickly spun around. Helios appeared from the other side of the tree and walked over, closing the space between them as he layed his hand on her cheek. "My maiden, I've missed you.." As he was bending down to kiss her, she gentley nudged him away.
"Maiden..?"
ChibiUsa worked up the courage to say what she was about to say but she remained looking away from him.
"Helios, I dont want to see you no more."
Helios was stunned.
"What? Love, but...why?" Helios wore an expression of pure worry.
ChibiUsa glanced at him and went back to looking away. "I have come to my senses and...I realized my parents were right. You dont love me..."
Helios just stood there, shocked, and then ran both hands through his silver hair.
"My maiden.. I...I do love you." He then tried to step closer, but was hurt to find as soon as he took a step forward, ChibiUsa took a step back.
"Maiden..."
ChibiUsa then looked up at him and he could see clearly what she felt through her eyes.
"Maiden, my love, you dont want this." He then extended his hand and brushed his fingers through her hair, she closed her eyes and clenched her fists as if she thought he could break her with his gentle touch. He noticed this and continued, "I dont want this either...You know very well I do love you."
ChibiUsa all of a sudden harshly slapped his hand away and looked up at him with tears in her eyes. "You dont! Helios! You dont! You dont care for me at all!"
"What can possibly make you believe that?"
"Helios! What kind of question is that? My parents are right! If you did love me, you would have come to me sooner! At some points during the past years of not having you here, I actually had been pushed to where I'd doubt you're love for me. I dont know why I didnt stick to those feelings!" she then looked up at Helios.
He looked like he was just stabbed in the heart.
"No...no, maiden." Helios walked over to ChibiUsa and with both hands he held her face up to his and looked deep in her eyes. "I already told you... I regret keeping you waiting so long. I regret it all. It was all my fault. I'm sorry, love, im sorry. You know that I'd never hurt you on purpose. I never ever wanted to hurt you." ChibiUsa looked in his eyes and she knew he was telling the truth. He continued on, "You're the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes upon. And I dont want to let you go. I dont want another man to come in and take you away from me. I love you, my maiden, I love you." He then held her tightly, burying his face in her neck.
ChibiUsa tried to push him away, but he was holding too tight. She tried again but with more force.
"No,Helios. No..."
She looked up when she managed to pull apart from him and her eyes widened at what she saw.
Helios was crying. Diamond like tears were rolling down his cheeks. Just the sight of that made her heart felt as though it was being clenched tightly. She fought the urge to hold and comfort him.
What have I done...?
He wasnt looking at her. His eyes were fixated on the ground but she could still clearly see his face.
"Helios..."
As soon as she said his name, she saw him bite his lower lip. She tried again.
"Helios..."
He then looked up at her. "My maiden...you dont actually believe that I don't love you, do you?"
ChibiUsa turned away. She wasnt even sure on what to believe. But she wanted to believe him. She wanted to be with him.. But, she still knew what she had to do. "I believe that you dont love me.."
Those words stung him really hard as another tear fell from his eye.
Then she woke up..
ChibiUsa was laying in bed, she realized her whole body was sweating but she wasn't hot. She was freezing cold. She then turned to face her clock and found that it was 4:11 AM. She then turned and buried her face in her pillow and began to sob and cry as hard as she could.