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(The poem in this chapter was written by me.)

Chapter 8:

Helios was asleep on a chair resting his head in his arms on the table. He then awaoke and propped his elbows on the table as he ran his hands through his hair repeatedly. He held his head. It hurt so goddamn much! After the incident in ChibiUsa's dream, he had returned to Elysion and was too upset to get any rest and just went to sit down and cry. He must've accidently fallen asleep. He then got up and walked outside. Elysion, as everyone knows, is a wondeful place. But this time, he didn't pay attention to any scenery. He was just much too upset.

He not only felt bad for ChibiUsa denying his love for her but, he thought that he was too persistant. The way he kept saying that it wasnt what she wanted and how he kept trying to hold her no matter how much she pushed away. He thought he was acting rather inappropriatley. Or was it just him? Helios suddenly felt his eyes well up with tears again but quickly brushed them away before they could fall. He then leaned against one of the trees.

He never felt so hopeless.

Ever since he had to leave back to Elysion many years ago, he had lived to meet the day he will see her again. That's what kept him going. That's what kept him strong. He remembers wanting nothing but seeing her smile again. He remembers yearning for her touch, the scent of her hair. The way she giggled and the talks they used to have that would last almost past midnight. Those memories were so precious. But, now that she's gone, now that she doesn't ever want to see him anymore...

...what else is there to look forward to?

What else is there to do?

It seemed like there was nothing left. Nothing else that was sweet in his life. Yeah, he was the protector of dreams but, is that all that his life was suppose to be? Was that it?

There was no way.

ChibiUsa had taught him so much. She had taught his heart the sense he never knew he had. She taught him to trust. He did not want to lose the most precious thing in his life. His love.

Next thing he knows, he's trying to come up with excuses to see her.

Maybe he could go and visit her in her dream to apologize for acting so "inappropriatley"?

Helios bagan to convince himself that it was a good reason to go and see her once more.

"Just one more time..."

That should be enough for him, right?

ChibiUsa's room...

ChibiUsa was sitting on a elegant bench on her balcony as she plucked petals from a flower. She looked up to look at the beautiful view that stood before her. She looked down at her flower and got up to throw it over. Then she just stood there, with no expression at all. She has been thinking about him...

...again.

All over again.

ChibiUsa knows that what she did was the right thing to do. But,then, why doesn't it feel right? Why did it feel the exact opposite? She then clutched the top of her dress where her heart was located. It hurt much more than all the years of waiting for Helios. It hurt way more. But, it shouldn't..

It just can't..

Especially since she knew that this time, she would never ever see him again. Even though she secretly wanted to. Even though it pained her so. She keeps telling herself that she should stay strong. That she should just force herself to move on. Force herself to forget about him. This time for sure.

But first, she has to try to get him out of her mind. Thoughts of Helios keep forcing themselves back into her head. They keep returning..they keep pushing...

...back into her heart.

She still hears his voice when the wind blows softly. She still feels his touch as she closes her eyes..

"This can't be happening."

Hours pass by and night falls over the palace. ChibiUsa is laying down on on the floor in the center of her room where she is reading a book filled with poetry, parts book marked saving the spots of her favorite poems. She flips to one and catches her breath.

Thoughts of you have drifted near

I sense them in my heart

Along with all the sorrows

Not being with you has brought

My tears are no longer empty

They are filled with pain and such

The sea they form is lovely

Yet deadly to the touch

When peaceful sleep encloses me,

I only dream of you

These dreams are what hold me

When my wishes dont come true

This longing never ends

and will never be satisfied

Until my life is over

And my heart and soul have died

Chills ran down her spine.

ChibiUsa looked up at her ceiling. She started to make images appear on the ceiling useing her mind. She remembers how she told Helios about her love for poetry..

"Maybe I should write one for you..." Helios had told her once as he brushed his lips across her forehead.

ChibiUsa sighed and her eyelids suddenly felt heavy and they soon closed, falling into deep sleep.

ChibiUsa's dream..

ChibiUsa found herself standing in the middle of a stunning, gorgeous room. The walls were made of mirrors and there was a chandeleir on the ceiling. she looked back and took a look at the bed behind her.

The blankets were made of deep plum colored silk with golden trimmings. A golden canopy was hanging above it flowing down to the sides and all around. It was beautiful.

"Maiden..."

ChibiUsa turned back to see Helios standing before her, a couple of feet away.

She immediatley noticed his soft smile.

It was so fake. It wasn't the smile she usually saw. This one was sad, gloomy, almost looked forced upon.

"Helios.."