A/N: Okay, some of you might have thought that that last chapter was rushed, but it was planned. Don't worry, I know what I'm doing here ^_^ okay, now for chapter 4

Chapter 4: I Hoped So...

Roxas cursed under his breath as he went to the door. He was not in the mood to deal with- wait, not in the mood... Roxas shook his head, forcing the thought away. He opened the door, and leaned his elbow against the frame, resting his forehead in his arm.

"Yes?" He asked annoyance dripping of his voice.. He felt Axel look him up and down, and just remembered he only got halfway through changing. All he had on were a pair of black boxers and a tight black tank top. He rolled his eyes at Axel, and stood to the side.

"You gonna come in or not?" Roxas asked when Axel still didn't move. Axel walked in slowly, glancing around the apartment. His eyes stopped at the empty bottle of Jack on the breakfast bar, and then to the red stain on the floor. He rose a quizzical eyebrow at Roxas who stormed past him into the kitchen to get a rag to clean the floor with.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" Axel asked, walking towards the blond who wad grumbling while he tried to clean up the stain.

"That's not gonna come out." Axel said, leaning against the wall. He watched in amusement as Roxas threw the rag down and glared at Axel.

"Oh really? What would you suggest I do?" Roxas spat out. Axel chuckled, and walked over to the fuming blond, and looked into his slightly dilated eyes.

"Are you... drunk?" Axel asked with a smirk. Roxas growled. He had had a few shots of jack, and s couple glasses of wine, but his body wasn't that of a humans, so it shouldn't affect him, but he felt his vision blurring... what had Sora done to him...?

"Roxas?" Axel asked, clasping a hand on Roxas' shoulder. Roxas growled out again, swaying a little at the added weight to only one side of his body. Axel laughed again, he couldn't believe this, this kid was drunk! Well, he wasn't a kid, he had to be at least eighteen to have his own place, but he sure didn't look like it.

"Shuddup!" Roxas yelled, shoving Axel's hand off of him. He growled and plopped on the couch. He sighed when he knew what Sora had done. He felt his heart race in his chest. He tried to rub his eyes to focus them again, but he couldn't, and he was starting to feel a little... giggly.

Roxas giggled a little, but stopped himself, trying to get his head about him, but it wasn't working. He felt his head growing heavier, and leaned back, resting his head on the back of the couch. Axel watched as the blond giggled again, not entirely sure was going on here.

His cheeks flushed slightly when Roxas sighed and tugged at his own shirt, wining about how hot it was.

"Do you want me to go?" Axel asked, looking at the door of the apartment.

"No! I wan' you ta siddown." Roxas said, smiling at Axel and patting the spot next to him on the couch.

"Why?" Axel asked, raising an eyebrow at the blond. He knew that when people get drunk, they get honest.

"Cuz you need luv..." Roxas slurred out, before he giggled again.

"I think I should go." Axel said, turning to walk out the door, but he was tackled to the ground.

"No Axie, you can't go! I need you here!" Roxas mock cried onto Axel's back. Axel growled, and flipped himself over so that he could see Roxas. Roxas was giggling and pinning him down. Roxas smiled, and slightly moved his hips, making Axel grit his teeth.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Axel asked, quickly flipping their positions so that he was the one who was pinning Roxas. He was going to stand and leave till he looked at the blond's face. His cheeks were flushed, and he was panting slightly. He looked up at Axel, and something about the blond's eyes turned him on.

"Roxas... what the hell do you want from me?" Axel asked, setting up and rubbing the back of his head. Roxas thought for a moment, his mind still extremely hazy. But he knew what his brother wanted him to do, and it sounded like a damn good idea right now.

He leaned up, resting his elbows on the floor, before looking at Axel with a pleading look.

"I want you to love me. And I want to love you back." He whispered, looking into Axel's widening green eyes. Axel shook his head and stood up.

"I think that's just the alcohol talking Roxas. I'm going home now, come over to my place when you've sobered up." Axel said, not looking at Roxas watched confused as Axel left, closing the door behind himself.

"Damn, I thought that would work." Roxas jumped as he hued someone talking. He looked over his shoulder at Sora, and growled at him.

"You thought what would work?" He asked, The haziness in his mind start to leave. Sora sighed and walked over to Roxas, touching his chest once again. Roxas immediately felt his mind clear.

"That's what I did... I thought if I replayed the scene with you, he'd fall for you." Sora said quietly, thinking about why his plan didn't work.

"Really Sora, are you that dense? Didn't you stop to think that maybe it would hurt him? And I never want you to control my body ever again!" Roxas yelled. He had his fists clenched tightly.

"You're right... Maybe I should have thought it out... but this needs to happen quick. Xira is already on the move." Sora said, looking worried.

"Then just let me do it! Geeze Sora, don't trust me?" Roxas asked, throwing the damp towel on the floor at his brother.

"No, I trust you, but this needs to happen fast, before Xikan can interfere..." Sora said quietly. Roxas just rose an eyebrow, and before he could ask what Sora meant, he jumped out the open window he had come in.

"Yeah, thanks for the information Sora..." Roxas said bitterly. Slamming the window shut.

XxX

Axel slumped onto his couch, he threw his arm over his eyes. What in the hell was Roxas trying to do to him? He didn't get it. He didn't think he wanted to. But at the same time... even though it reminded of the say he and Sora first made love... he couldn't help but feel attracted to the blond.

He sighed, and thought about going over to talk to Roxas, to make sure that he was okay, but decided against it. He wasn't in the mood to deal with a drunk right now any way. He had been dealing with them all night.

He jumped when he hued a knock at his door, and looked at his clock. It was four in the morning, two hours after he got home, who could it be. He sighed, and walked over to the door, looking through the peep hole. He frowned when he didn't see anyone.

"Fucking kids..." Axel growled out. He turned, and there was another knock. He looked back out the peep hole, but still didn't see anyone. He angry swung the door open.

"Listen here you little-" he stopped when he saw Roxas.

"Oh, sorry Roxas... I didn't see you through the peep hole..." Axel said, scratching the back of his head sheepishly.

"Yeah, might be because it's a foot taller than me..." Roxas grumbled out, looking at the floor.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Axel asked, looking quizzically at Roxas.

"Look, I just came over to say sorry about what happened. I don't know what I was thinking." Roxas said blushing. I hope this works... he thought.

"No need to. Nothing happened. Do you want to come in?" Axel asked, stepping aside.

"I don't know... it's pretty early." Roxas looked at Axel, then quickly looked away.

"I'm not gonna bite you... unless you want me to." Axel said with a smile and a wink. Roxas felt heat rise in his face, and wasn't sure why, but he just smiled at the older man.

"I don't think you'll need to do that." Roxas said with a laugh, walking into Axel's apartment. It was the same as it had been the other day, but he really hadn't expected anything different. His eyes stopped on a photo on the table. He walked over and looked at it, his eyes widening.

"That's Sora, my... ex." Axel said, looking over Roxas' shoulder to look at the picture. Roxas could hear the hurt in his voice. He bit his lip, and decided to ask about him.

"What happened?" Roxas asked softly, turning around to give the picture to Axel. Axel looked at the picture and smiled.

"Why don't we sit down... it's a long story." Axel said, walking over to the couch. ***

Roxas followed, sitting on the couch while Axel sat on the coffee table. Axel took a breath, and looked back down at the picture.

"He... died, about a year ago." Axel started, looking into Roxas' stunning blue eyes.

Roxas looked back, trying to figure out if he should pry more. He knew the details in Sora's death, but he wanted to know what Axel knew...

"How did he die?" Roxas finally asked softly. Axel paused, thinking about weather or not he should say, but in the end, the shear want to tell someone one.

"I'm not really sure. The officer said he just dropped dead, and couldn't give me a reason. I tried to figure it out on my own, but I had no idea where to start, and eventually, I had to stop asking for answers I knew I would never get." Axel said, looking down at the picture.

Roxas bit his lip. What would Axel do if he knew the truth? Some part of him wanted to tell Axel, but the other part didn't. And it wasn't because of Sora's orders, it was something else he couldn't quite figure out. Roxas pushed the thought aside, another question biting at his mind.

"What... what was he like?" Roxas finally asked, looking down at the picture of his brother. Sure, they had spent time together, but that was when neither of them had emotion. Sora was always cold towards Roxas, and they didn't really talk to each other about anything other than the missions they had. He waited patiently for Axel to continue.

"Sora... he was cold at first. He didn't even show emotion, but slowly, he came out of his shell. He started to smile more, and we talked more. I was always my happiest when I was around him. Soon, he was a completely different person than when we met." Axel smiled at the picture, and ran his finger along the surface of it.

"He was the happiest person I had ever known, aside from Demyx. They were friends. He had made friends out of all of the people he met. He seamed to draw people to him." Axel paused again, to look into Roxas' eyes. They were wide with focus as he intently listened to Axel's description of his brother. His heart hurt, knowing that his brother didn't act like this with him, but knew that if he had, it would only put both of them in danger...

"But the thing that stood out most about him, was the way he cared about people. He didn't hate anyone, I don't think he was capable of hate. No matter what someone did to him, he would forgive them. I never understood how he did it." Axel shook his head, and looked back at the picture, and sighed.

Roxas smiled back at Axel. He knew that Sora couldn't hate. None of their kind could.

"Axel... Do you still love him?" Roxas asked, looking intently into Axel's jade eyes. As soon as Roxas saw the hurt there, he knew he shouldn't have asked. Axel had tears forming in his eyes, and he set the picture down.

"You know... I think there will always be a part of me that loves him... but as time goes on, it gets smaller and smaller. I know that he would want me to move on, but that thought scares me. I don't know if I'm ready... I just miss him so much." Axel was shaking now with his sobs, and Roxas felt his heart drop.

Now look what you've done... he scolded himself. He instinctively stood up and wrapped his arms around the red head, letting Axel cry into his chest, rubbing his back and whispering comforting words into his ear. He didn't know if it was working, but he had to try something. He didn't like seeing Axel like this.

Roxas froze, and thought about that again. What in the hell was he feeling? He had never experienced anything like this before. He mentally growled, wondering if Sora had done this to him, but a small voice in the back of his head told him otherwise.

You're falling for him...

He felt Axel's sobs slow down, and stop. He released the redhead, and knelled in front of him so that he was looking Axel in the eyes.

"Axel, I know Sora would want you to move on. Believe me, I would want the one I loved to be happy if I died." Roxas said with a smile, his deep blue eyes shining with kindness. Axle looked into them for a few long moments, before he spoke again.

"You know... you remind me a lot of him... I think it's your eyes... they look just like his. And your smile... it makes me feel the same way his did..." Axel whispered out. Roxas closed his eyes and smiled again.

"I hope that's a good thing." He laughed out softly, his eyes still shut. Bit they shot open when he felt something press against his lips. He stared in shock at Axel, who quickly pulled back from the kiss.

"Sorry..." Axel said, looking down at the floor. He started fiddling with his thumbs, and Roxas smiled. He used his hand to lift Axel's face to look at him once again.

"Don't be sorry." He breathed out, locking eyes with the jade orbs. His entire body tingled, and he didn't know from what. It was another new feeling. He felt his face get hot as he looked into those pure jade orbs.

Suddenly, Axel had grabbed him, pulling him into another kiss. Roxas felt his eyes slide shut, clutching onto Axel's arms as he kissed back. He felt Axel's tong flick at his lower lip, and opened his mouth, letting Axel map him out.

"Axel quickly pulled back, a thin line of saliva connecting their lips. Roxas was panting, his cheeks were flushed, and he didn't understand what was going on. All he knew was that he wanted more. He locked eyes with Axel again, and the redhead stood up, pulling Roxas up with him.

"Axel...?" Roxas questioned out as Axel took his hand. He looked into the jade eyes, his own filled with questions.

"Roxas... do you like me?" Axel asked, looking intently at Roxas' face. Roxas froze. He knew what he wanted to say. He wanted to scream no at the top of his lungs, because it put his and Axel's lives in danger, but he couldn't. Slowly, something else leaked quietly out of his mouth.

"Y...yes..." Roxas couldn't figure out why he had said that. He was so confused at the emotional onslaught that was now bombarding him. He cursed his brother for what he did to him, but underneath that he thanked him. He loved the feelings, he loved this new warmth that filled him.

"I hoped so..." Axel whispered down, Planting another kiss onto Roxas' lips.

A/N: Okay, I have to stop it here. I've got two ideas for the next chapter: do you want a lemon, or do you want it to come later? I'm not going to tell you which I'm already leaning towards... anyway, review and tell me what you want to happen.