I do not own Twilight, I'm way too normal (or weird, depends on how you look at things...) to own it! It all belongs to Stephenie Meyer.

As I thought this over, I felt the hole in my chest opening further, and I knew that I will fix this between us. I had faith that we will pull along, with struggle, but fine. I will make sure she was back where she belonged, and I was too.

If it was the last thing I did...

Actually, I will much rather have much longer than that with her. Forever didn't seem to be nearly enough.

Bella's POV

Sunday morning I woke to Alice jumping excitedly on my bed. It was one of those mornings you had no intentions of leaving the bed, but your meddling siblings were not having it. So they decide to drag you away from the safe and comfortable space you will not willingly let go of.

At least that was what Emmett, Jane and Alice were doing as Emmett carried me forcefully into the bathroom.

I had tried to grab onto the bed sheets in my effort to find more restless sleep, but Emmett wasn't having it as he carried me away from the bed.

''Emmett let me go! It's Sunday and I want to sleep in!'' I demanded as he threw me over his shoulder and ignored my struggles to get away.

''Sorry, Bells, I'm following Alice's orders here,'' he replied happily.

Knowing I wasn't going to win, I gave up and let Emmett carry me into the bathroom that was covered with beauty products and a very cheerful looking Alice and Jane.

''Alice, I am certainly not in the mood for a Bella Barbie Makeover so let me go,'' I told her as I looked at every product in the bathroom counter.

Alice smiled sadly as she shook her head. ''Do you not know what day it is?''

''Sunday. Now let me get back to bed!'' I tried to turn around but Emmett was waiting there by the doorway waiting for me to try to fight him.

''Bella, Bella stop,'' Alice said from behind me. ''I know you're sad, we all do, but that is not the reason why you are here.''

I turned to her, avoiding looking at the mirror, waiting for her to explain. ''We all know that you don't want to go anywhere and we can try to understand it. We also know you're sad but we are so worried about you Bells, it doesn't feel the same without you anymore,'' she stopped for a second wiping at her eyes the tears that had started to form and I instantly felt bad about my actions. ''But, like I said before we are not doing this to get you out of your shell,'' she informed me.

I nodded. ''Okay, then I will get going...back to bed,'' I responded and I heard an annoyed sigh behind me.

''You really don't remember what day it is, do you?'' Jane spoke, reminding me of her presence.

I sighed and looked at the three of them. Okay so maybe I was being childish for acting this way, but I couldn't help it. I just wanted to get back to bed and sleep. Not that sleep was actually restful, filled with nightmares of a perfect couple laughing at me as I stumbled out of the room.

I made a face, unwilling to remember my dreams as I turned back to Alice. ''Umm, I know it's not anyone's birthday. Oh, is it our parent's anniversary?'' Alice shook her head, so I tried again looking at Jane this time. ''Yours?'' I got the same response and I was beginning to loose my patience. They dragged me out of bed at the wee hours of the morning, and they wouldn't even offer me an explanation for it. ''What then? Oh let me guess, I have been in the bed for months and it is Halloween? Christmas? How about New Year?'' The sarcasm was evident in my voice.

''Close. The event is today,'' Emmett responded. I turned around to face him, sure he was lying.

There was no way that the event was today. Had it really been a week since the mall occurrences? I looked at Alice and Jane for confirmation, and they were both nodding their heads.

Great. Just fan-freaking-tastic.

Edward was attending the event, I was sure of that. So I had to go when I didn't even want to get out of bed, but I had to go and probably make a fool of myself out there.

''I'm not in the mood of going. Can't I just skip it?'' I asked, already knowing the answer before Emmett answered.

''Everyone has to go.''

''I don't even have a dress,'' I pointed out.

This time, it was Alice who spoke. ''That's what the trip to the mall that you refused to go to was for. I chose your dress and you are wearing it.''

''You can't make me.''

''Oh help me God, Bella! You are going to the event with the rest of us, not matter what! I found you the perfect dress for you to wear and I am not just about letting you ruin that because of the huge misunderstanding between-''

''Stop. I'll go, but please just stop,'' I pleaded. If I was going to act normal tonight, I couldn't let those comments bring me down.

Alice nodded. ''Okay, then take a quick shower before we get you ready!''

You have to be kidding me.

...

The day passes excruciating slowly as Jane, Alice and I got read for most possibly, the longest night of my life.

The event was going to be starting at six o'clock PM, and was taking place somewhere in Port Angeles. I didn't care to listen to the details.

At the moment, Alice and Jane had finally finished with the make-up for the three of us, and we were just sitting on the three chairs that Alice had instructed Emmett to bring. Alice was all about instructing people today, it seemed.

Finally, finally Alice agreed that it was time to put our dresses on. I hadn't been allowed to see my dress, and I wasn't too eager to. Knowing Alice, she would probably fit me into a dress that would be hard to even sit in, and the shoes! I just pray to God, that she didn't actually bring me high heels.

I hadn't been allowed to even look at the mirror, now that I though of it. According to Jane, they wanted me to see myself only after I was completely ready.

''Okay, Bella close your eyes so you don't see your dress. Don't cheat!''

I nodded and closed to my eyes to Alice's instructions. Alice and Jane helped me into my dress because I couldn't get into it blind.

''Okay Bella, open your eyes.''

I opened them to find a pale beauty in the mirror. It was hard to believe she was even me.

The circles under my eyes were gone. My face looked smooth and perfect. My make-up was light, and it brought out my brown eyes.

They had both fit me into a pleat front bubble hem dress. It was blue with a black thing just below my chest. It was strapless and it fell to just above my knee. It was elegant and beautiful. I was ordered to put on a blue pair of cascade earrings, a ring that looked to be a little too expensive and a beautiful necklace. And to my whishes, Alice didn't force me into a pair of heels, just a pair of black flats.

I turned to thank them both and found that they both had finished getting ready.

Alice had a silver and black ombre dress. The dress was black on top, but elegantly faded into white. Flowers were in her one shoulder dress. She wore it with a necklace, a mix bangle set, and a pair of flower earrings. To my surprise she was wearing a pair of flats, but when I asked her she simply answered that ''today is going to be a long night, and I don't want to get tired of dancing with Jazz.''

Jane had a black embellished babydoll dress. It was all black and had this weird silver thing that went through her chest. She paired it with a necklace what had a necklace, a pair of cascade earrings and a bracelet. It wasn't surprising that she was wearing a black pair of pumps, making her look taller.

''So what do you think?'' Alice asked me as she pointed towards myself in the dress.

''I love it, thank you both.''

Alice squealed and they both jumped to hug me, but then Alice said we will ruin our dresses, so they pulled away but smiled at me. I only threw a small smile back, but I was positive it looked forced. It was anyway, no matter if they made me look pretty, I was still nothing compared to the woman Edward had kissed.

Yes, I was jelous of her looks. Could anyone really blame me? She was the type of woman that deserved Edward; that was worthy enough for him. Could I really blame him for going for someone who deserved him?

It was all a lie anyway. Though every time I remembered his actions or words, I couldn't understand how he could be such a good liar. It all looked so real to me. Too good to be true.

...

''...Bella, Jane, Alice, and Alec will be riding with Emmett in his car. Emmett you have the address, but if for whatever reason you happen to get lost-''

Emmett rolled his eyes, and interrupted Renee's rambling. ''I know, Mom, I'll immediately stop and call you,'' he finished, clearly evident in his voice that he didn't believe that would ever be necessary.

Mom smiled and nodded and continued her speech before we got on the rode towards the event.

I felt out of place in the room. Everyone seemed to be excited, or at least pretending to be. I wasn't. I wasn't really excited for anything anymore, and it was driving me crazy. Sure, I wasn't the first girl, nor was I the last to experience this kind of pain, but the pain was so much greater.

I truly loved Edward, utterly and unconditionally so. I missed him so much in one end, but I was still so furious for his actions. I thought I knew Edward Anthony Cullen, but apparently not.

Edward Cullen will never be part of something to get back at me. Edward Cullen will never hurt nor lie to me. Edward Cullen would never cheat on me. Edward Cullen was really close to loving me. That was the Edward I fell in love with, but it was all a lie. For all I really knew now, Edward Cullen could be a heartless womanizer, and this didn't mean a thing to him.

''Bella, are you ready to go?'' Alec asked me in a small voice. He had been acting strange as well, he wouldn't look me in the eye, and not that it really mattered, but still. I will find him staring at me with an almost guilty expression that was different from the other stares.

I nodded and forced a small smile, but knowing it looked forced, I dropped it and continued my way into Emmett's car.

It was about half an hour when it happened. Emmett started to look around the road, but there wasn't anything except trees and more trees. He almost looked anxious, and it seemed that I wasn't the only person who noticed.

''What's wrong Emmett? Are you afraid of the road or something'?'' Alec asked from the passenger seat. Alice and Jane finally stopped their rambling about fashion, and paid attention to their surroundings.

Emmett clearly looked uncomfortable. ''I was trying to use a shortcut, to get there faster than everyone else, but I don't know where the hell we are now, but hey no worries, I will get us back on the rode.''

''Emmett, just stop and call mom,'' Alice demanded.

''No.''

''Yes.''

Alice glared at Emmett, and even I felt intimidated. However, Emmett didn't even flinch.

''Emmett, man just stop so we can look at a map or something,'' Alec suggested, looking at both my siblings.

After Emmett agreed that he needed to check a map. It turned out, after the guys tried to find out location, that nobody really knew how to read a map and there weren't any street names that identified where we were.

Hello complications.

''We need to call our parents,'' Alice demanded.

''Well, we don't even know where we are, so how do we tell them where we are?'' Jane asked.

Everyone looked around trying to find a solution for this new problem. ''We can just drive until we find some civilization,'' I suggested.

Everyone quickly agreed and we were left driving, all of us looking to see if we can recognize something. It was a pretty lost case for Alec and Jane, but they stilled tried. It wasn't until we were in a road that seemed to be leading to a forest that I recognized where we were.

''I know where we are,'' I announced in a sad whisper. They were a lot of ''Finally!'s and ''Yay!'s, but they didn't seem to notice my change of mood.

I had no idea how we ended up on the rode that lead to Edward's meadow, but that didn't matter at the moment. Right now all that mattered was getting us into the event, while trying to stay in one piece.

I drove us all to the event. No one questioned my change of mood, though I was sure it was evident in my face. Emmett was on the phone with our parents the whole time, reassuring them that I was driving everyone and that there was no need to throw a search party. It seemed the Cullen's and our families were quite worried about us.

I felt a few tears escape as I drove but I paid them no mind, and decided that maybe if I didn't pay attention to them, they will go away. No such luck.

When we finally arrived at the event, all of our families were waiting by the door for us. As soon as they saw Emmett's car, they walked closer waiting for us to get out.

''Thank God you guys are all safe!'' my mother cried as she hugged everyone. I just nodded into her chest. I stepped out of the safety of her arms, willing myself not to be a child, and waited for everyone to finish.

As I was waiting, I caught sight of Edward watching me sadly. His green eyes held so much pain, and I wanted so much to hug him and take that pain away, but I knew I couldn't. I looked at him, and he looked older. There were bags under his green eyes, and his eyed didn't seem as light as before.

I felt a tear slide down my cheek, and I quickly turned around hopping he didn't see the sign of weakness. I couldn't let him see how much he affected me. I noticed no one as by his side, and I felt a little glad by the fact, but I had to remind myself that that didn't matter.

Be strong, Bella. You can do this. Think positive!

Yes. Okay. I only have to pass the rest of the night surrounded by people who expect me to dance and have a good time.

Oh dear, what have I gotten myself into?

Okay! There! I'm sorry for the long time between updates, but I have good news. I already have the next chapter written out, I just have to add a few things and send it to my Beta, and there I'll post it!

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