Sooo, I never even thought to write a story on here. But the past couple days these scenarios just kept running through my head and I just had to get it out there. It even kept me up at night.
I am very glad so many of you have started to read this story. My chapters aren't very long yet. I know I will get there eventually, when I learn not to ramble. So sometimes I decide to end the chapter early when I know I've started to become redundant.
I am typing this chapter while at work, so hopefully I can keep on pace with the direction the story needs to go.
Now from a different point of view.
EPOV
Of course it had been another painful day. Everyday after I left Bella has been painful. I knew what I was doing to myself and my family, but she needed to be protected. If Jasper had been a foot closer, I don't know what I would have done.
Of course I was the odd man out in my family now. They always tried to include me in things, but once again I sat on the sidelines. Alice thought it would be a fun idea to make piles of leaves and jump in them. There was no one around as I could tell, so Emmett took the opportunity, to show off. He picked Jasper up and threw him into one of the piles. Alice started whining that her piles were now messed up.
"Jasper, you're ruining eve-" and then they were silent. I was grateful that there was finally some peace and quite. But this kind of quite never happened. I slowly looked up not expecting to see anything. I looked to my family and they were standing defensively. I looked around and never expected to see what was before my family.
I had to be dreaming. I had to. I knew this couldn't be possible; I left so this wouldn't be possible. Someone was tricking my mind, I knew I had to be the only on seeing this. That was until I looked around and saw the faces of my family were directly mirroring my face. And then my mind was bombarded with all the questions.
It can't be.
Is that..?
Isabella?
How did this happen?
Edward, its Isabella.
She stood so gracefully. Without her moving I already knew what she was. She was gorgeous. She had always been gorgeous. I can't count the times in my head where I saw this vision over and over. Out of habit I breathed in my surroundings hoping to smell anything about her. But nothing. I had expected that. I was not used to how she was portraying herself, and for the first time I diverted my eyes away from her face, and took in her whole presence. She was wearing tight jeans paired with, what could only be assumed, as her favorite pair of chucks. They were worn to the bone.
I took in her blood soaked shirt and smiled inside. She had been hunting.
She started to step back a little, and I wanted to lunge toward her. I wanted to feel her face, I needed to touch her. I needed to know this Isabella. I could tell it was not the same person, years of pain and loneliness wore on her face. What had I done to her? Me leaving was supposed to protect her. And her, here existing right in front of me, proved that obviously didn't work.
Then she was gone.
I chased after her without even thinking. She couldn't just leave when we just met again, after all these years. There are so many questions I didn't know where to start. So my family started for me.
Edward wait for us, don't face her alone.
You'll make her scared, Edward.
How did this happen to her?
Why didn't Alice see anything?
Who changed her?
I would have ran into her had I not been paying attention. Bella had stopped. Her eyes were so angry. I didn't blame her. No one could blame her. My family had been upset with me since the day I left. Alice lost a best friend and sister. While Carlisle and Esme lost a daughter. Although Carlisle and Esme wouldn't say it, I knew they resented me for leaving. Even though they tried, they couldn't hide all their feelings about me.
Her hands were clenched by her hips.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?"
I have never heard someone so mad before. What did she mean? "Did you come to torture me some more?" she added.
And that hurt the worse. I left trying to keep her from being tortured. I was confused again. She was supposed to move on. Find someone else, and not once have to endure what would have happened if I stayed.
My family's faces once again portrayed exactly what mine was. There were so many questions, and all of them left me more confused then the other.
"Look, OK. I will leave. You guys were in Forks first. Just forget me. Leave me like you did before."
I couldn't lose her again.
"Bella, what happened to you? What are you here?" There was a short pause. A human wouldn't even have caught it.
"I, uh, live here?" She made it sound like a question. I put my face into a tight smile, and shook my head.
"I meant, why are you alive?" I didn't know how else to put it.
Her face was in pain before, but now it was in rage.
"You don't have to right to ask me about my life anymore. You lost that right when you and your family" she made it a point to acknowledge them with her chin. "abandoned me, left me, just to die."
That hurt the worst, and I especially saw Alice's pain in her head. She was wavering between being mad at me and being sad for Bella. I was about to stop her, but she made the decision too quick. She started to advance, and I could tell she really wanted to say something important, but the fact of what Bella was wearing kept her distracted. Just like Alice, always thinking of clothes, even in a dire situation like this.
Bella looked at her appearance and started apologizing. Why in the world was she apologizing? She has to know that she never has to say sorry to me. She said something about her feeding earlier, and I was morbidly curious. Who taught her how to be a vampire? I should have been there. I should have walked her through all the desires she would go through. That made me hate myself even more.
"Don't apologize Bella, please don't."
I could tell she was trying to think of something to say. I know there was so much she needed to get out.
"Why are you here?" She asked.
I wanted to go to her, I wanted to hug her and say everything was going to be OK. I know it was the worst mistake for me to leave. It didn't help anyone.
"We live here now, Bella." She took a deep breath.
"Then I guess I will leave, I know you don't want me to be around." What? Of course I wanted her to be around. I never wanted to take my eyes of her again. I wanted to constantly feel her. To make up for what happened.
So when she started to turn away, I ran up to her. Without hesitation I put my hand on her shoulder.
Edward, she's going to need some time. Don't push her. Esme thought.
How could she not think I would go after her? I loved her. I wasn't going to just let her walk away.
Bella fell to the ground, and was making noises to what sounded like crying. I automatically looked around looking for what was hurting her. Then realized I was the one that hurt her. How could I have been so stupid? I needed her to forgive me so I could make it up to her.
"Please don't leave." Alice and I said in unison. "Please stay so we can talk, Isabella." I needed to plead with her.
"Edward," I can't believe she is actually saying my name. Sighing she slowly got up. "Edward," I would never get tired of hearing my name from those lips "I know you don't want me anymore, so I'm going to save you the trouble and leave town."
Edward, tell her. If you don't I swear to God you will never be forgiven for letting her go again. TELL HER. Alice elbowed me in the ribs. I knew I had to speak to her now. I knew if I didn't tell her the truth, there was no way I could ever see her again.
Jasper cut me off before I could even begin "Bella, you're confused." He said it without question. Of course with him sensing her feelings he would know she was confused.
"Well, yes, I am."
"Why don't you come home with us so we can talk? I think Edward has some explaining to do." He glared at me. If he just would have given me the chance I was about to explain. He felt my frustration, because he averted his eyes and looked back to Bella. Everyone kept cutting me off, I knew what I needed to say if they let me.
I turned to Bella, and I looked into her eyes. I searched for anything that might give me a glint of hope. I could tell she was still confused. I wanted to show her how much I loved her.
"Isabella, you are my love. Please come back to the house with me. I love you, and always had." Her face looked stunned, so I knew she was understanding what I was saying. "When I left you, I lied. I knew I had to lie to you so you would let me go. Bella, I never stopped loving you, please follow us so we can talk" I tried to get it all out as quickly as possible. I didn't want to wait another second. I wanted to get passed this. She has to know everything was a lie.
Look at her face Edward. She is in so much pain.
How could you do this to her?
She looks like she is going to run again.
Everyone needed to shut up. It needed to be just me and Bella. No one else had to be around for this.
If you have any advice PLEASE let me know. I am not for sure where I even want this story to go. So I may take a week or two to contemplate on that.
In the mean time if you want some AMAZING stories to read (ya'll might be reading them already-because you should) I have some for ya':
Maniacal by Lavender Sunset- A Renesmee and Jacob love story. What if Jacob never stuck around after Bella's transformation? Mmmm, find out.
Edward Wallbanger by feathersmmmm- An amazingly delicious story. You will not be able to stop.
Discovering you, Discovering me by JSFazz- You knew making out with Edward the pharmacist would be hot? Ohhh, yes.