Hey guys I was going to update yesterday but I had a really bad headache so I didn't...
I hope you all enjoy this chapter
It will mostly be in the pov of kukai and utau in this chappie there might be some amuto.
And OMG ireviewforfree are you psychic? Seriously? How the heck did you guess i was gonna do that? haha!
Let's just see how it goes...
Kukai's POV
I can not believe I just told her that. And I completely just blurted it out. I wasn't thinking straight and the next thing I knew I kissed her on the forehead. What the hell is wrong with me? I didn't want to see Utau upset, I really didn't and suddenly the words I had kept bottled inside me came out. Just like that. She was speechless after I told her I loved her she didn't say anything. I didn't want her to though, I was very sure that she would decline me anyway. We have been together for a really long time but I can understand if she can't feel the same way as I do. Of course I will be sad at first but I'll live with it. I sighed as I leaned back in my chair putting my right hand on my face. I didn't even think it through. I just came out and said it. Damn, now what am I supposed to say? This awkward silence is killing me. I peered at her seeing that she was blushing and looking down at the very interesting table. I knew it. She was thinking of a way to reject me nicely. I wish she would just say it so the silence would disappear. She looked troubled, I think it was time for me to just accept defeat. She looked at me a fierce determined look that made me shudder. I wish I could tell what she was thinking behind those beautiful violet eyes of hers. She then spoke something that I would never have thought would have come out of her mouth. Guess this was just sheer awesome luck.
"Kukai, if you really feel about me that way, then...I could try going out with you," she glanced at me and then back to her hands.
I stared at her my eyes wide with shock, I know I probably looked like a freaking goldfish but that was the last thing on my mind. Did I hear her right? This wasn't what I expected at all. I smiled at her taking it in. God must really love me tonight.
"Really? Are you ok with that?" I asked her.
She nodded shyly, I was seeing another side to her that I hadn't noticed before. She was usually not like this but tonight she had revealed her true self. I just loved her even more.
"Yeah, I was told that to fix a broken heart it was best to fall in love again," she flipped her blond hair away from her eyes and stared at me intently.
So that was her intention. I was like her personal band aid. But I've always been like that to her. Ever since we were young. When she broke up with Ikuto I was the first one by her side, I always supported her. But this was different. This time I wanted her to feel the same about me and not just think of me of some kind of therapy. I gritted my teeth, she wouldn't understand that though. She never did. Maybe I would have to wait a little longer before we both see eye to eye.
"I think it would be better if we went out when we both had the same feelings. So when that happens, I'll be here," I smiled at her as she looked up at me confused.
I then reached inside my pocket and felt the star that I had forgotten to put on top of the Christmas Tree. For some reason, I never did it. I just stared at it thinking of her. I grinned to myself as I handed it to her. She looked at me quizically and then back at the star.
"Why are you giving me this?" she asked.
"It's your first early christmas present," I answered her.
As I gave her one last quick look and walked away. Did I do the right thing? Was it right to just wait for her to really love me? And was that actually ever going to happen. I felt regret fill me up as I stopped in a random part of the dance floor. It's for the best, and if she still didn't feel the same then I'd just be what she thought of me. Her band aid, the person who would catch her when she fell.
I thought of Ikuto's song earlier as the lyrics sinked into me. Although the situation wasn't the same, I was learning to fall. I laughed at this shaking my head, I am overreacting, there was no point to start acting depressed. I looked over at Ikuto and Amu chatting together at the other side of the room. I was glad for them, after all that had happened they were together. Ikuto said something, probably a little perverted, as Amu hit him in the head. Ikuto pouted as Amu raised her eyebrow. At least even as a couple they still acted the same. I walked over to them interrupting Amu from hitting Ikuto on the head again.
"Hey," I greeted them.
Amu smiled at me as I slumped into the seat beside her. Both Ikuto and Amu could tell that I wasn't in my normal happy mood. Amu was worried right away.
"Kukai, are you alright?" she asked.
This reminded me of the situation when I had found her crying in the car park of the concert. But men don't cry, especially when the girl you love was could see you. Instead I rested my head against the table and whacked it hard. I wasn't being a masochist, I was just letting out my anger and frustration.
"He doesn't look alright," Ikuto said in a 'know it all' tone.
Amu hitted him again as he winced and glared at her back. She rolled her eyes.
"Shut it, Ikuto," she warned.
Ikuto faked a scared look which Amu didn't seem to find funny in any way. Ikuto looked at her and smirked.
"Sorry, Amu-koi," he teased.
She was now becoming frustrated but she shook her head ignoring him and looked back at me. I was still letting out my anger on the poor table. Seriously, everything would have been ok if I just said ok when Utau said we could go out. I wanted to go out with her didn't I? Of course I did. But I was determined in her going out with me because she loved me, not because she wanted to try to forget Ikuto. Deep inside I knew it would take a very long time for her to forget him. I glared at Ikuto. It was all his fault. Even though he was my friend he was the reason why this all happened. But I really just needed someone to blame, so it might not even be his fault. I slammed my fists on the table, I don't freaking know. You know what, I've had enough of this crap party. If only I had the energy to move, then I'd leave this joint. But my legs are dead. Guess I'll be staying here for a while.
"Did something happen with Utau?" Amu asked hitting the nail on the head.
I really wish she hadn't asked that. It just made me realise what an idiot I was. And why the hell did I give her that lame star for? What kind of christmas present is that? She probably thinks that I don't really care for her. Damn, maybe I should go back and tell her that...
My thoughts were interrupted when something splashed on my face. I was totally out of it that I hadn't noticed what was going on around me. I looked in front of me and saw that Ikuto had stood up and splashed his drink all over me. I wasn't the bin. So why the heck did he do that for? I scrutinized him as he stared at me back.
"Stop acting like that and do something about it. If you really want her to fall in love with you then try harder. Don't freaking give up!" he exclaimed.
I stared at him shocked. Ikuto didn't hear the conversation between Utau and me. I was sure of it. But his words had imprinted itself inside my mind making me feel determined. Yeah, I never would give up. I would keep on trying again and again. I grinned at Ikuto as we high fived. But that was really no need to soak me. I smirked to myself, oh, he was definitely in for it. I picked up Amu's drink as I grinned at him and stood up splashing it all over him.
"That was for drenching me, sucka," I grinned.
He smirked, "Oh, well guess, what sucka? You're in for a waterfall."
I knew the exactly what he meant and staying there any longer would have meant me soaking from head to toe in juice. I could tell he was mad for me drenching him in front of Amu. She, however was laughing at him. I had ran away extremely quickly so I was out of sight, but I could still hear and see them. Ikuto gritted his teeth annoyed that I had got away.
"Damn, that Kukai. I give him advice and that's how he repays me," Ikuto said wiping the water off of his suit.
Amu stifled a laugh as Ikuto looked at her raising an eyebrow.
"What do you find so funny, huh?" he asked her as he grabbed her into a head lock.
She giggled uncontrollably as Ikuto patted her on the head.
"Don't laugh to much or you'll die, Amu-koi," he snickered. Amu tried to get out of his grasp but was failing terribly. "Stop calling me that!" she demanded.
"Can't, cos you are my Amu-koi, Amu-koi," Ikuto grinned at this and shook his head.
Amu folded her arms in annoyance which only made Ikuto laugh in amusement. I stared at them from afar and finally looked away and gasped when I saw who was in front of me. Hoshina Utau, to be prescise. Her arms were folded as she raised an eyebrow at me. My first reaction: run. But Utau was quick to stop me. She grabbed my hand a rather pleading look on her face. She wanted me to stay. I sighed, was she now going to turn me down. She let go of my hand as I waited for her to speak. I looked at her hair noticing that the star I had given her was nicely put in it. How the heck did she get that in her hair though? It was for a christmas tree. Oh well, she didn't know that. It did look lovely on her though.
"I understand why you didn't agree to us going out," she stated, "It's because you know that I probably won't be able to get over Ikuto, right?"
She had understood everything I was feeling and put it into words. I was sort of shocked, however I knew that Ikuto was something very important to her. I smiled weakily and nodded.I already knew what was coming next. She would tell me that she couldn't go out with me and that would be that. I'd go home, wet, and feeling like hitting my head against the wall again. No way was I going back happy. Maybe in an alternate universe, but not here. Not now. Utau grinned surprising me. Weren't you supposed to turn down people with an unhappy kinda look on your face. If you smiled at them it would be kind of odd. And freaky. But freaky is basically the same thing as odd. Ok, stop rambling on and pay attention.
"Kukai Souma. You're an idiot," she pointed at me and smirked.
Now I was being accused of an idiot. Okay, this actually might be an alternate universe after all. I stared at her blankly not knowing where she was going with this.
"Don't look at me with that blank expression. When you confessed to me, I realised something," she paused still leaving me confused, "What I've failed to understand, and what I've been missing."
What the heck did she mean by that? She rolled her eyes as she stunned me by pressing her lips to mine. At that point in time my mind had completely blanked out. I felt like nothing happening, like nothing was real. But when I blinked once again I began to realise the sensation on my lips that made me want more. Damn, maybe I am in an alternate universe. If I am, I kind of like it here. I kissed her back as I held her waist and her hands trailed every feature of my face and tangled themselves in my auburn hair. This felt like a dream, but all amazing dreams come to an end. There was a coughing noise as we both broke apart and looked at who had interrupted. It looked like one of the teachers or something.
"No, urm, kissing here please," he ordered as he walked away to annoy someone else.
I looked at Utau at her red face and laughed. I was so glad I had listened to my friend's advice.
Utau's POV
I looked at the boy with auburn hair and emerald eyes before me a blush creeping across my face. Never did I think that I would kiss Kukai Souma. I was so intent in getting my revenge on Amu and trying to make Ikuto fall in love with me again that I didn't notice. I should have noticed. And when I heard him confess to me I realised how much I really loved him. Maybe even more than Ikuto, which is a lot. I smiled weakly, this boy had always been there for me. Always. I truly was greatful for that. He grinned at me laughing, probably because of that teacher interrupting us, from kissing. Yeah, he was right about there being a better boy out there. Ikuto is pretty fine but Kukai was just right. It was like something clicked.
"You wanna kiss again now he's gone?" he asked cheekily.
I smirked and shook my head. He shrugged as he entwined my hand with his.
"So, wanna go out?"
He already knew the answer to that question before I told him, "Sure."
He smiled pulling me close to him. But there was one thing I hadn't told him yet. I had said earlier to him that I wanted to go out with him to forget bout Ikuto. And that was still true. But I knew that if I told him this he would say no. But I did like him, a lot. I didn't want to let go of him. I know that sooner or later I will forget about Ikuto. But forgetting about that Hinamori Amu was another story. I was not through with her yet. She would see the full wrath of Hoshina Utau.
But it was best not to tell Kukai this yet.
We walked into the hall again as Kukai practically skipped in happiness over to where Ikuto and Amu were sitting. I smiled to myself, he was really cute. Ikuto looked up when he saw them and smirked.
"So, what happened?" he asked nudging Kukai.
Kukai grinned, "We're together!"
Amu gasped in delight and hugged him hard. I glared at her as she looked at me and backed away apologising.
"You wanna sit down?" Ikuto asked as he looked around noticing the lack of chairs and smirked, "Ah, there's not enough seats. Amu sit on my lap."
Amu looked taken aback at this statement. Ikuto was fully enjoying it.
"But we can just borrow some chairs..."
She was cut off when Ikuto interrupted her with a sly smile on his lips.
"Sit on my lap," he smirked.
Amu was about to protest when Ikuto grabbed her by the waist and pulled her onto his lap. She folded her arms in annoyance as Ikuto grinned bemused.
Kukai laughed at this as both of us sat down around the table. I stared at Amu thinking what could really crush her. I have a great idea. Ikuto was still hiding that all important secret from her. If she found out it would be sure to seperate the two apart. Kukai looked at me suspiciously noticing that I was glaring at Amu. He leaned in to whisper in my ear.
"Utau, you don't need to get back at Amu," he told me firmly.
I looked at him surprised that he knew what I was doing. I shrugged but began to think of what Kukai had said. What was the reason I was so focused on ruining Amu's relationship with Ikuto? I had Kukai now. I nodded there was no reason to hate her anymore.
"Sorry, I've given up on that," I told him truthfully.
But Amu really did need to know what Ikuto was hiding. If he didn't tell her then their relationship was sure to crumble. Especially if he left it any more longer than this. I looked at Ikuto, did he understand that? Did he realise that if he didn't tell her then Amu might even hate him? Maybe hate was an exaggeration, but this situation wasn't good at all. Even if I was still intent of creating havoc on Amu's life I wouldn't have to do anything. Ikuto was the one doing it himself. If he was not careful he'd be the one to ruin everything he had with Amu.
Amu's POV (AS IN MA NORMAL ONE!)
Why does Ikuto have to make me so embarassed? Is he purposely tormenting me. Although his knees are pretty comfortable. Shut up. Ikuto wrapped his hands around my waist and pulled me back so my back was touching his chest. If I wasn't trying to keep my cool I know that I would have gone beetroot by now. I ignored Ikuto's amused smirks as my eyes met Utau's. I was glad that she and Kukai were going out now but something didn't feel right. She was looking at me, no, glaring. Kukai looked at her as he leaned in to whisper something to her. She looked away from me as the glare disappeared. She was now contemplating. I really wanted to know what she was thinking. The glare from before had sent shivers down my spine and I really wondered whether she was still okay with me. But now she was acting different. I sighed looking away from her. It was best not to think about that for now. I yawned as Ikuto looked at me.
"You tired?" he asked.
Tired. No way was I tired. Well, I did yawn there, but I wasn't tired. It was coming up for 11pm and the Christmas Dance was soon coming to a close. The night had been amazing but I didn't want it to end. I shook my head.
"Nah, not at all," I lied.
Ikuto smirked as he picked me up, princess style.
I hit him on the shoulder demanding him to put me down but he did not do as I instructed. He smirked at me which only made me madder.
"PUT ME DOWN! ARE YOU LISTENING? I SAID PUT ME DOWN!" I screamed at him punching his arm relentlessly.
Kukai grinned as Utau stared blankly into the distance unaware of what was happening.
"I'm just going to take Princess Amu back home, see ya," he waved by to Kukai and smiled at Utau but she wasn't really paying attention. He turned around and flicked me on the forehead to stop me screaming. I shut up immediately and folded my arms. Damn this guy. When we stepped out of the dance hall he dropped me down so I could walk as I glared at him. That was really unescessary and everybody had been watching me. Everybody. Ikuto could tell I was annoyed as he squeezed my hand. Not gonna work, buddy. I walked ahead of him as he grinned at me from behind seeming to enjoy my annoyance. I stopped in my tracks as he did so too.
"I don't wanna go home. Let's go back," I said as I walked back towards the direction of the school.
Ikuto stopped me and looked at my drooping eyes. Ok, I had to admit I was a little tired. But just a little. I'd be fine. Ikuto smirked.
"Is the reason you don't wanna go home because of me?" he asked.
He had this really adorable and irresistable look on his face that I just couldn't look away from. But the fact that I had told him I loved him had really gone to his head. I snorted thinking it would be fun to tease him.
"No, that's far from it," I told him.
He could tell I was trying to tease him as he pouted playing along. He looked away putting on an unhappy face. Even though I knew it was fake I couldn't stand to see that look. I had seen to much of that recently there was no way I was seeing it again.
"Ok, fine. It is because of you. So stop pouting!" I ordered him.
He flashed a wide grin as he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the direction of my house. So he still wanted to take me home. Oh well. We came to our house and instead of going to the front door he went round the back and pulled out a ladder. He motioned me to climb up as I stared at him quizically. Was that really a good idea? I could fall down and break my neck!
"If you fall I'll catch you," he put his hand on the ladder to sturdy it.
I rolled my eyes. Now I was really reassured. But even so I climbed up. Ikuto held onto the ladder as I came to the top of my balcony and climbed over it. I thought Ikuto would leave but instead he climbed up. But not by the ladder. He climbed onto the tall tree very close to the balcony and leapt onto the balcony from there. I giggled, that really reminded me of a cat. He opened the balcony door as I walked through and sat on my bed. He sat next to me in close sat there in silence as I began to wonder when he was going to leave.
"What do you wanna do for Christmas Eve or Day?" he asked.
Was he asking me out on a date? Sounded like it. My parents would probably not like me going out on Christmas Day. Eve sounded more acceptable. But what to do though. And what to get him! Maybe I should buy him some tuna.
"I can't do Christmas Day so Eve would be better. I don't know what to do, erm, you can decide. Surprise me!" I suggested to him.
He nodded agreeing with this idea. But what was his surprise going to be? He grinned at me already thinking of the things we could do. Christmas Eve wasn't that far off as today was the 22nd of December. It would leave me enough time to plan presents for everyone. I yawned and blinked feeling tired again. Ikuto pecked me on the cheek and stood up.
"See you later, Amu-koi," he smirked as he jumped out of the balcony.
I didn't have time to shout down to him to stop calling me that. But I guessed that name had now stuck.
End Of Chapter
I guess there was a bit of Amuto and Kutau in this chappy
I hope you enjoyed it!
Look forward the next chapter!
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