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This is New Years Eve chapter!
Ikuto's secret finally revealed.
Sozza for the long wait :DD
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Amu's POV
I had a really bad feeling about tonight. I don't know why, but I felt that something wasn't going to go right. Things had started off in a rather bad way. I don't mind Tadase being at the party or anything, but who knows what would happen when the two meet. That's what I was dreading the most. Ikuto, however, knew nothing about it. I was hoping it would stick that way. Rima and I were dressed and ready for the party. We were both wearing dresses, but not the same ones as the ones we wore for the Xmas Dance. Rima's was white and like her other dress it had a lovely black bow. Mine was black and had bits of shiny silver over it to make it glitter and sparkle. The necklace I had recieved from Ikuto for Christmas was placed around my neck.
I had the 'smoky eyes' sort of look and long luscious eyelashes. My hair was quite curly and put into a sideways ponytail. I have to admit, I did look good. So did Rima, but her hair didn't change. Now we were just waiting until Ikuto arrived. Apparently, Kukai and the others were already at Ikuto's preparing it for when peope came. Nagi was going to be the DJ, as they accidentally forgot to get any kind of musical entertainment when planning. It was only 20 minutes until the party started. I was already anticipating it. It was the last day of this year. What would tomorrow bring? Truth to be told, I haven't spent New Years with friends before. So I was even more excited. I looked at Rima and smiled as I decided to play with her hair a little. I thought it'd go into a mess and she'd scream at me. But it didn't. She did scream at me though.
"Amu! What are you doing?" she exclaimed.
I turned her around to face the mirror. I was surprised at how her hair now looked. It was more volumed now and extremely pretty. She smiled at me as the doorbell rang. I knew at once it was Ikuto. I grabbed her hand as we sped down the stairs. I opened the door just before Ikuto rang the bell again.
"How long do you have to take to answer the damn door?" he asked.
He hadn't taken us in yet. He looked at me up and down going silent. I smiled at him waiting for his reaction. He leaned over and kissed me on my forehead.
"You're absolutely beautiful," he complimented me.
I blushed looking down at the floor. Rima rolled her eyes and walked past us. It was already dark out and the snow had already melted away. I shut the door behind me as we made our way up the road.
"So where is this party then?" he asked.
Rima looked at me a confused look on her face. She probably suspected that I would have told him already. I hadn't gotten around to that yet. She sighed and gave me a look I knew meant, 'tell him or I will'. I laughed awkwardly. I looked away from him.
"Yours," I murmured.
Even though I had said that very quietly, he still heard me.
"Mine? How come the party is being hosted at mine and I don't know it?" he questioned.
I shrugged as he rolled his eyes.
"Doesn't matter. But this better be a good party," he said as we reached his house.
Rima had been leading the way so I hadn't really been paying attention. His house was amazingly big. Like a mansion. We walked into the house the party seemed to have begun. The interior inside was amazing.
"Where are your parents?" I asked him.
He didn't say anything, he seemed to have gone silent. I looked at him waiting for an answer. He put a hand on my head and smiled, his eyes were so hard to describe. But he seemed, sad.
"I'm going to go talk to Kukai, I'll see you later," he told me as he walked away.
I watched him go wondering why he didn't tell me. I shook my head, maybe he didn't really get on with his parents that much.
Rima looked at me and said, "I've just seen Tadase come in, make sure they don't meet, ok?"
I nodded as she walked away from me leaving me alone.
Well thanks, Rima. I walked to a sofa and sat down listening to the song playing, which was Teenage Dream by Katy Perry. I looked over to where Kukai and Ikuto were. They seemed to be arguing. So Ikuto wasn't that pleased about having it here then. He still didn't know that this was for his benefit as no one celebrated his birthday. He seemed to give up as he stomped away from Kukai and came to sit next to me. He seemed to be a little bit strange this evening, like something was bothering him. Could he possibly know that Tadase was here? But wouldn't he probably have made a big scene. It could have been something else. Tadase caught my attention as I saw him quite close to where we were. I stood up and grabbed Ikuto's arm.
"Come on, I wanna see those lyrics of yours," I said.
He narrowed his eyebrows, "Why? I've just got here, besides, you can see them later."
I shook my head, "Let's just go now, ok?"
He shrugged as he let me pull him along. I looked back, good, we had walked away in time. We came to the stairway and up the stairs to his bedroom. The room was a dark shade of blue and covering it were many posters of famous music icons. He was on there too. He walked over to a drawer and found random pieces of paper as he placed them on the floor and sat down. I did the same as I looked at the sheets.
"So where's the recent one?" I asked.
He seemed to have the recent one in his hand. The paper was crunched up like he had thought of binning the idea, but he seemed to cling onto it tightly. I looked at him wondering whether he was going to let me see it or not. He seemed not really sure. Why was he hesitating?
"This song, I don't know if I have the guts to even sing it," he said scruching up the paper again.
"Go on, it can't be too bad right?" I asked.
He didn't answer that as he flattened the piece of paper and looked at the lyrics. He reached for a guitar that was placed near him, beside his violin, as he began to sing.
"Therapy By All Time Low"
My ship went down, in a sea of sound.
When I woke up alone I had everything;
A handful of moments, I wished I could change,
And a tongue like a nightmare, that cut like a blade.
In a city of fools, I was careful and cool,
But they tore me apart, like a hurricane.
A handful of moments, I wished I could change,
But I was carried away.
Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
And you can keep all your misery.
My lungs gave out, as I faced the crowd.
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous.
I'm flesh and bone, I'm a rolling stone,
and the experts say I'm delirious.
Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
You can take back your misery.
Arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to.
They're better off without you.
Arrogant boy, cause a scene like you're supposed to.
They'll fall asleep without you.
You're lucky if your memory remains.
Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
You can take back your misery.
Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
You can choke on your misery.
I stared at him quite shocked. What was that? What was that supposed to mean? He placed the guitar on the ground looking away. He stood up putting the lyrics in his pocket and walked away from me. I followed him still not understanding what he was trying to say. This was obvious now that something was wrong. That something was bugging him so much. In his lyrics he called himself a travesty, a fake. Then I remembered something from such a long time ago. I couldn't believe I still remembered what Tadase had said. I see you're still trying to keep that fake facade as usual.
I stood up and tried to catch up to him. I grabbed onto his sleeve making him turn around.
"What was that supposed to mean?" I enquired.
Again, he wouldn't reply. Why wasn't he telling me anything? Did Love n't he trust me? He must have realised I'd ask questions if he sang that.
"It's just a song, Amu," he reassured me.
Just a song. Yeah right. That song had the most deepest meaning he had ever written. He had wrote in lyrics something he couldn't tell me in words. It did not mean nothing. It meant the world. It meant everything that made and broke Ikuto.
"No it's not. Fine, if you're not going to tell me, so be it," I said as I walked straight into someone.
I looked up my mind going blank.
Shit.
Just when tonight couldn't get any worse.
Tadase Hotori has to be right there. I moved away from him and stepped beside Ikuto. I really wanted to get away, but I didn't want to leave these two. They might kill each other. At the moment they were only glaring.
"Why the heck are you invited?" Ikuto hissed.
Tadase smiled smugly as Ikuto writhed in anger. Ikuto seemed to already be in a bad mood.
"How's your arm, Ikuto?" Tadase asked straightforwardly.
His arm? Wait a second. Ikuto had broke his arm a little bit after I first met him. It had been my fault. I was supposed to be a singer until his arm got better, which was in 4-8 weeks. The time had definitely gone over that. I hadn't even realised it. I looked at Ikuto at his eyes. I didn't like the look of them at all. They told me the truth I didn't want to hear. Tadase turned to me, nobody else was on this floor just us three.
"I thinks it's time for us to finish our conversation don't you agree, Amu-chan?" Tadase started.
Ikuto gritted his teeth, "Shut up, Tadase."
Tadase did not shut up.
"Ikuto has been lying to you. He never broke his arm. He was using you to get away from Easter. He wanted extra money as well so they would let him go. It's because his father owed a great sum of debt to them, and as he went missing, Ikuto had to pay for it, with singing. He hated it. You have no idea about the real Easter or the real Ikuto," Tadase finished.
I stared at him dumbfounded. Ikuto was using me? I couldn't believe such a thing, especially when I had been with him all this time. I looked back at Ikuto pleading him with my eyes to deny it, to say it was just a lie.
But he didn't.
Say something, god damn it. I wished so hard that the words I wanted to hear were going to come out from his mouth. Now I understood that song. The real meaning. He was a travesty.
Pretending to actually care about me and to love me. Was that just a big fat lie? Ikuto clenched his fists.
"You have no right to say that," he spat.
Tadase shrugged, "But you did, and you never told her. I just did what you couldn't."
Tadase smiled as he walked away from us both. I looked down at the carpet floor so many different feelings tangling themselves up inside of me. What did I mean to him? Was I something he could just take advantage of and throw away. I could feel Ikuto was still standing next to me, not moving.
"Amu, listen..." he began but didn't finish as I interrupted him.
"So, Tadase was right. You were using me?" I questioned.
Ikuto's eyes looked lost, like he was falling down and down to a deep dark abyss where he wouldn't be able to climb back up again.
"No, Amu. You have to understand, Tadase hates me so of course he'd tell it like that, but you have to know why. Tadase used to be my friend. When my father disappeared Easter was looking for his son. Tadase was part of Easter already so I begged him to not tell them. But he did. You've only seen good side of easter. They take average people and exploit them into celebrity monsters. You can never be yourself. They change you, inside and out. Tadase betrayed me Amu, he sold me out. He has made sure since then that I never find my father. I don't know for what reason. But I haven't seen my father or mother for 15 years. I had to do something, I had to pay back the debt," Ikuto tried to persuade me to see his side of the story.
I looked at him disgusted, "So you never loved me? Ever. Why don't you 'love yourself so no one has to, I'm better off without you!'"
I grabbed the necklace he had gave me and chucked it at him. I ran away not daring to look back. When I stopped running I was already outside the house and in the garden. I fell onto my knees trying to keep back the tears. But they had already started to run. I cried and cried wishing that things had turned out differently. I whimpered silently rubbing my eyes. Kukai wasn't here like last time, I was all alone.
Ikuto's POV
She threw the lock necklace at me betrayal showing deeply in her expressions. She ran away as I watched the necklace fall to the ground. It made a tiny cracking sound, but in my ears it was as loud as a bomb. It was broken, the jewel had been utterly destroyed. I kneeled down and picked it up in my hands. Shit. Why did it have to turn out this way? Why didn't she understand. I love her. I fucking love her. It was already too late. That look on her face hurt me. I knew she would never listen. No matter how hard I tried. Maybe at first I was using her but I didn't know how amazing and stunning she could be. She was the first girl I truly loved this much, and I let her go. The sound of excited screams from downstairs ran through my ears. It felt like a huge headache. I walked downstairs right up to where Nagihiko was DJ and snatched the microphone from him.
"Party's over. All of you get out!" I shouted.
Everybody could tell I was utterly pissed. Even though they didn't seem to happy about it they began to leave. Kukai was now beside me looking at me with confusion written all over his face.
"What's the matter?" he asked.
I glared at him, "Just get out, please."
He looked like he was seriously worried but he left as well as the other obediently. I watched them go as I stumbled over to the sofa and collapsed on it. The door closed behind them as I was left by myself. What was I going to do? I took out the piece of paper and looked at the lyrics.
"Arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to, they're better off without you. Arrogant boy, cause a scene like your supposed to, you're lucky if you're memory remains," I spoke the lyrics.
I clenched my hand into a fist and threw the piece of paper at the wall. It bounced off it lightly and fell to the ground. I needed her to understand, to realise how much I loved her. But would she even care to listen? I sighed feeling like there was an empty hole in me.
I never knew losing someone you loved would hurt this much.
End of Chapter
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