A/N- And this is WITH my thoughts in there, the (words inside this that are slanted). i was going to put just this one up, but i thought maybe i should do one with and without so yea. not much more to say enjoy s2( if you have any type of imagination, you could see tht s2 is a lop sided heart. gogogo see if u can see it and tell me in a review lmao)

DISCLAMER- i do not own Naruto. I know right, its like their rubbing it in since i have to do it twice in one day :(

Sakura blinked, as if it would rid the confusion away, "Your… Father?"

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"Why don't you want to have the sleep over at your place?" The five year old Sakura asked as they walked through the field, a short cut to their home.

"My dad doesn't work tonight." The five year old Ino answered, she sounded kind of nervous.

"Does it matter?" Sakura asked, confused and watched as Ino looked at her with eyes she couldn't define then, but they were sad and worried. Confused and saying so many other words.

"Yes… It does…"

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Sakura's eyebrows came together as she narrowed her tear filled eyes at the floor trying to remember, "I don't think… I ever met him." Sakura said finally, looking up at Ino with the same look. She didn't get it, what about her father? She opened her mouth to ask only for Ino to continue. But not in the speed she did when she was nervous, but in a slow tentative way, almost straining.

"My father…was all about titles…" Ino's expression was strained, "And very competitive… He was… A lot of things. He had degrees in everything that dealt with the human body. Even in biological engineering. But what he really dealt with was… microbiology…" Ino closed her eyes. The strained expression still on but the words seemed to flow easier, "He was absorbed by it… even mom said so. He was always working, wither it was for the company or he was just studying what he liked most about microbiology. Viruses."

She paused, her eyes still closed and now sitting up, she sat there. She continued slowly, "He was…fascinated…on how viruses could not be treated by Antibiotics and can even pass by the immune system with no problem. The only things that could cure them were antiviral drugs, but only the life threatening ones He was absorbed…" She took in a shaky breath, "So he opened up a research committee with a group of workers who were willing to the work for extra pay. The research was for…" Ino hitched. She swallowed a breath and tried again, "The research was for creating a new virus of some sort. One that would heighten shinobi's ability, making them stronger and have more endurance, having to rest just for a short while and they were able to come back and fight again… It was meant for things like wars or high classed missions…" She paused again and Sakura began to wonder how she knew all of this. Even Sakura didn't hear about this in any type record of any thing that came close to this. "My father, of course, was the first to crack the code, and only in a couple of months."

"So he cracked it first because he was competitive?" Sakura asked, tears now dried up and she looked normal again.

Ino blinked, completely forgetting Sakura was there in the room. She looked at her confused, "Huh?"

"You said your father was all about titles and was very competitive…"

Ino blinked again and then smiled, but it wasn't warm. It was cold and it didn't reach her eyes, "Ha. No. He cracked it because he was that absorbed. To everyone else, this was just a side project that if worked, would be a break through. None believed in it, they just did it for the extra money. My father did it for... another reason."

(There is a sixth sense)

Sakura felt her pump hard, like it hurt and made her breathing stop for a seconds. This was wrong, what she said was wrong.

"He worked on this twenty four-seven. He ate when he needed to, and he slept a couple of hours a day."

"But one day you said that your father wasn't working that night." Sakura said. There was something wrong about this. There was something that wasn't right. And in the back of her head, she knew what wasn't right, but she pushed that thought away. It couldn't be…

(The sense of knowing)

"He wasn't," Ino replied, emotionless without hesitation, she knew what Sakura was talking about, "I knew if we had a sleep over at my house we'd be noisy and he'd yell and you'd… see some things that you just shouldn't have to see…"

Her stomach was now in so much pain it was unbearable.

(Often it comes.)

"The virus was called Toriga(1)." Ino said, staring off.

"Trigger?" Sakura asked, confused.

"Yes. It had a special trigger to activate the virus. There was nothing that was small enough to mix in the virus for it would trigger from the outside of the body…"

(Often ignored)

"…How was it triggered?"

Ino then closed her eyes again. "By emotions."

(But other times, we obey it.)

Sakura's stomach lurched and she felt as if she had to throw up. Her heart hammered in her chest as she tried to breath. The thought she locked away was now in her head, and in a soft shaky whisper, she let it come out, "You said your father did all of this for… another reason?"

(No matter how much we don't like the outcome.)

Ino turned to Sakura with a soft smile on her face, "It was for me…"

And as it was confirmed the pain just intensified…There was more to it…

Then Sakura realized why it hurt so much, why things felt so wrong. Her sixth sense was right, there was something wrong, but she was wrong about what exactly it was. She started to shake her head and tears started to sting her eyes.

Ino eyes turned pained and pleading as she watched her friend realize, "I was always weaker then you. He was competitive. He wanted me to be stronger than-"

"You weren't weak!" Sakura yelled, cutting Ino off, she knew what word was next. Shaking her head continuously, trying to ignore that the pain suddenly disappeared, confirming her worst fear, "Just because I studied more didn't mean you were weak!"

"That might be true but," Ino smile looked warm but it was strained. She was trying to comfort Sakura, trying to let her know that she didn't blame her, "You were stronger then me, he wanted me stronger than-"

".." Sakura repeated to herself, tears now streaming.

"You…" Ino finally finished.

Then there was silence. Ear ringing silence. Sakura tears spilled quietly as her stomach now churning of guilt. The room was dark now, the sun that was shining through the window that seemed like moments ago, was now gone. The only thing you saw were the two dark figures, one standing near the door, another on the bed.

She took a step back, towards the door.

Ino noticed the movement through the darkness, "It wasn't your fault Sakura…"

(But Sakura started all of this. It was a chain reaction like dominos falling. And the first one that fell was when Sakura said they weren't friends anymore.)

Sakura took another step back. She realized this.

"You didn't even know" Ino tried to reason.

(The second domino was becoming rivals. Sakura studied hard and practiced harder just so she could beat Ino, trying to win the stupid competition. She cut off everything they had together, threading it back together with rivalry.)

Sakura took another step. She knew this.

"And I should have made up with you anyway."

(After continuously beating Ino all that came after that was gloating, pushing Ino further away. Not giving her a reason to believe that she stilled cared or was anything else but ex best friends.)

Sakura took another step, grabbing the knob. It was sinking in now as the dominos fell in her mind.

"But I was stupid. Afraid. Weak."

Leaving Ino to leave without saying bye. Leaving her to believe she was nothing, to Sakura and to her father..

"I should have been stronger." Ino's voice cracked, and Sakura could hear tears coming.

(With that, Ino was left alone, blaming herself and taking it proudly. Of course she didn't complain. Of course she didn't tell Sakura till now.… and now here she was here, asking Sakura for help and Sakura couldn't fix anything.)

Sakura opened the door, crying she stepped out. Before stopped before closing the door, "I'm sorry…" and with that, she left Ino in the dark.

(1)- my lame attempt for some japennese, im sure its not right but wat ever :(

Anyway, there you go, with and without. Tell me how u like it, give me your thoughts. Tell me which one was clearer, or if you liked the way i did it. or if i spoiled anything. i feel as if i did since i put my thoughts in there and not let u figure it out. or save it for another chap. it was like Magic for the chap without, and then magic disappears for the chap with.

LOVE YOU FANS. GIMME UR THOUGHTS.

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