WARNING: This story will contain mature themes, this story is truly rated M, for more than just sexual relations.
DISCLAIMER: I unfortunately do not own anyone in this story except for Harley. If I did, Baley would have been together on the show years ago!
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Walk You Home
"Breathe," Brooke told herself repeatedly, over and over again in her mind as her three closest friends walked towards the table. It would be a lie to say she wasn't terrified of their reactions, but no matter which way the conversation went, she wasn't entirely worried. If any of them had a problem with the situation, than she knew in her heart that she deserved better friends. Harley was a part of her, and nobody who didn't accept him had a place in her life. But, it wasn't even Harley that worried her, it was more a fear of them not being okay with the fact that she was into girls. Not all of them were as open minded as Haley.
"Hey," Nathan greeted as he slid into the booth beside Brooke, a puzzled look covering his face as he took notice of the little boy on her lap. Peyton and Lucas followed suit, giving nothing but waves and small smiles as they took their seats beside Haley.
"Hey," Brooke said in a husky whisper. She barely looked up at her friends, instead entranced with staring at the little boy coloring in her lap.
"Hey guys, how was practice?" Haley asked Nathan and Lucas, attempting to start a conversation, rather than leave the situation awkward.
"You're really gonna do that Hales?" Peyton asked a little confusion evident in her voice, "Brooke…" She turned her attention to her best friend, "why are you holding a baby?"
Leave it to Peyton to just start the question asking, rather than just let it come up. Brooke couldn't blame her though, if the roles were reversed, she would have done the same thing.
"This is Harley," Brooke started, slowly looking up from her son and into the eyes of the blonde seated across from her, "Harley Davis."
Harley perked up at the sound of his name and smiled at the three new people who had joined the table during his coloring trance. He lifted a tiny hand and waved at the three, "Heyo!"
She watched her best friends' jaws drop and diverted her eyes away from them. Now they knew, and as scary as it had been, it felt as if a huge burden had been lifted off her shoulders. Maybe now Harley would have a real family, one that consisted of more than just herself and Sienna.
"Davis? This is your son?" Lucas managed to choke out once the initial shock ran out.
Brooke nodded her head slowly, "he's two. I had him in New York during my internship. He's amazing, really."
"How? Why didn't you tell us? Who's his father?" Peyton began to ramble the many questions running through her head.
"Well, I'm pretty sure you know the how Sawyer. I just went through a lot over the last two years, and I couldn't share that part of my life with you guys. I don't really know, but I know it was wrong. I'm sorry for never telling any of you about Harley. But, I'm home now… and Haley helped me see that I needed my friends in my life, in order to raise Harley in a healthy environment. He deserves the best, and the way things have been, certainly haven't been the best," Brooke explained as the child in her lap chugged his sippy cup like a parched camel.
"You were raising him alone?" Peyton asked as she examined the little boy in her best friends lap. Now that she thought about it, the little boy looked just like Brooke. The genes were definitely there, but so was the sense of style. The two year old had his hair spiked up into a faux hawk, and was wearing a simple white t-shirt, a pair of tiny dark colored jeans, and tiny white Adidas sneakers.
Brooke shook her head, "Not really, no. Harley's father never knew I was pregnant, and I've gotten past that. Kyle's lifestyle wouldn't have been a good environment to raise a child in anyway. But, I guess this is where the big shocker comes in…"
Brooke was cut off by the sound of her phone ringing. I'm Only Me When I'm With You by Taylor Swift rang gently through her ears, and a small smile appeared on her lips. She rummaged through her purse and retrieved her phone.
"Das See?" Harley asked, twisting his body to look up at his mother happily. He always got excited when Sienna called, it was the closest thing he had to having her around all the time like he was used to.
"Yes baby," Brooke grinned, kissing his head quickly before answering the phone and pressing it to her ear.
Harley grinned, "I talk to See!" He yelped as he reached for the phone.
"You can talk after okay?" Brooke said to her son then turned her attention back to her phone, "Hello, gorgeous."
Brooke could hear the smile she was sure Sienna had on her face when she gently replied, "I never get tired of hearing your voice."
"You're cute. What's up?" Brooke said, holding a finger up to her friends to silently request a minute to speak on the phone.
"I just wanted to see how your lunch went, did everyone take the news alright?" Sienna asked as she lay down on her bed in her bedroom at her parents' house.
"I'm actually still at lunch, everyone just met Harley," Brooke replied, happy that Sienna had called to check on her. She was always worried about her, and it made Brooke feel good.
"Oh, I'm sorry gorgeous, I should let you go then," Sienna replied. "Call me after you get home?"
"Of course baby, I love you," Brooke said with a smile. She couldn't help but notice Haley's eyes shift downwards at those words. Suddenly, it seemed, that Haley's hands had become a whole lot more interesting to her.
"I'll never get tired of hearing that either. I love you," Sienna answered, smiling.
"Harley wants to talk to you," Brooke told her as she passed the phone to her son. His eyes lit up and he placed the phone onto his ear, and immediately starting babbling a mile a minute to Sienna.
Brooke looked back at her friends, and down to her son, then back, "I'm sure you're wondering who that is… and I guess that's the last big thing I needed to talk to you guys about."
Nathan nodded his head and smirked slightly, "Since when does Brooke Davis settle down?"
Brooke chuckled and gently wacked his arm, "Since a year ago… when I fell in love with someone who fell in love with me."
"Who is he?" Lucas asked, glaring at her a little. He'd always had a crush on Brooke, and it annoyed him a little that any chance he had with her had gone down the drain.
"She," Brooke corrected. "Her name is Sienna Vario. She was one of the girls in my program. I was really vulnerable, and falling apart when…"
Peyton quickly cut her off, "wait… did you say she?" Peyton's eyes shifted towards Haley who was still looking at her hands. She was slightly bothered by the fact that Brooke had said I love you to someone other than her, again. Nathan's eyes had also found Haley, and neither look had gone unnoticed by Brooke. Did Haley have feelings for her?
Haley felt the intense stares on her and looked up, "Yes… I knew she was dating a girl."
Lucas stood up. This was too much. First Brooke had a child, and now… now she was into girls. "I can't handle this…" His voice trailed off as he started to pace back and fourth beside the booth. "So, you're dating a girl, and you have a son?"
Brooke nodded, "We've been together for a little over a year, on and off. She's beautiful. You'll all get to meet her soon. She's moving in with me in a week or so."
Lucas stopped in his tracks, just as Nathan coughed, choking on the water in front of him. He couldn't even imagine how Haley must be feeling right now.
"Wow Brooke," Lucas started, "I can't say I was expecting any of this."
Peyton hadn't said a word, she was still staring intently at Haley, who was staring at Harley, who was happily blabbing to the woman on the phone that Haley so desperately wished was her.
Lucas too, turned his attention to Haley, "When did she tell you?"
Haley snapped back to reality, and looked up to her blonde haired best friend, "Not long ago. Brooke didn't really even mean to tell me. I snooped on her a little."
Brooke laughed, "Though, I'm glad that she did. I needed to get all these things off my chest. I need my friends and their support."
Peyton smiled and reached across the table to touch Brooke's hand, "I'll always be here for you Brooke."
Nathan and Lucas both nodded in agreement.
"We just wish you'd told us sooner," all three of them coincidentally said in unison.
There was a light chuckle from the whole group, and suddenly… things felt the way they used to, only this time, there was a tiny person involved.
By the time the cold weather had started to infest Tree Hill, Sienna had already moved in with Brooke and Harley. To Brooke, things had started to look up. She had her best friends, her son and her girlfriend all living with her, or, at least in the same town. For the first time in a long time, she truly felt happy again.
Brooke was sitting on the couch, snuggled up in a blanket, her son lying asleep on her chest. He'd fallen asleep while watching a cartoon Christmas movie on ABC Family. The holidays were approaching, and winter break from school had just begun. She heard the front door of her apartment open, and could immediately sense the presence of her girlfriend.
"Hi baby," she heard Sienna call from the doorway as she hung up her coat and closed the front door.
Brooke smiled and leaned her head up from the couch to look at Sienna and whispered, "Hello beautiful."
Sienna took notice of Harley and grinned, walking over to the couch and placing a soft kiss on Brooke's lips. "Little sleepy head," Sienna cooed as she looked down at the little boy.
"Where were you?" Brooke asked curiously, having been still asleep when Sienna left this morning.
"I went for a run," Sienna answered as she moved towards the kitchen to grab herself a drink, "then I bonded with Peyton for a little. We decided we'd need to get to know each other a little better. I hope you don't mind."
Brooke smiled and slowly began to wiggle herself out from beneath her son, "Why would I mind? I'm glad you're making the effort to become friends." Finally, she had managed to get herself out from under Harley and wrapped him in the blanket, letting him continue to sleep on the couch. She swiftly walked towards Sienna, and sat down on one of the kitchen stools, watching the girl before her intently.
"What are you staring at?" Sienna asked, giving her a sideways glance. She closed the refrigerator and leaned on the counter across from Brooke.
"You," Brooke answered with a smile, "It still shocks me that you're really here."
Sienna returned the grin and leaned closer to Brooke, placing a chaste kiss upon her lips, "I couldn't stay away from you if I tried. I love you Brooke."
"I love you too," Brooke answered happily.
A knock on the front door interrupted the two from their stares, and Brooke got up to check whom it was. Once the door was open the smiling face of Haley met her. Brooke pulled her into a hug and greeted her with an exclamation of, "Haley!"
Sienna turned, and headed into the bedroom the moment she noticed who had come over. In all honesty, the coldness between the two girls bothered Brooke. It was never anything too terrible, and it wasn't like they were evil towards each other, but for some reason, unbeknownst to Brooke, they hated each other. It was more like they simply ignored each other's presence. Things had gotten worse, to the point that Sienna barely even greeted Haley anymore.
"Are you ready for the meeting?" Haley asked Brooke as she returned the hug still slightly bothered by the fact that Sienna had resorted to not even saying hello to her anymore.
Brooke nodded her head, "Yeah. Let me just say goodbye to Harley and Sienna, and we can get going."
She allowed Haley into the apartment and skipped off towards the bedroom, closing the door behind her.
"I don't see why you have to go to these things with her," Sienna told Brooke once the door was shut, "Shouldn't you be sharing this side of you with me, not her?"
"Sienna, we've been over this," Brooke told her, avoiding meeting her eyes, "Haley's my best friend and I trust her. I'm not ready to deal with this with you yet."
The truth was, she needed Haley to help her deal with her drug addiction. She needed stability to get away from cocaine. Things with Sienna had been great, but it'd only been a little over a month since she'd moved in with Brooke, and there was no telling when another fight would come between them. Brooke didn't want that fight to send her right back to drugs; she had Harley to worry about. Haley was stability that she'd need if Sienna were to run out again.
"If you trust Haley so much more than me, why don't you just date her?" Sienna snapped, instantly regretting the comment once it'd been made.
Brooke's reassuring smile immediately disappeared as those words escaped Sienna's lips; she hated when she brought that up. Shaking her head, Brooke picked up her coat from her bed and grabbed her purse, not saying a word, and turned towards the bedroom door.
"Oh, okay… just ignore me, that makes everything better," Sienna growled, clearly ticked off with the whole situation.
"How can you tell me you love me one minute, than treat me like this the next?" Brooke asked as she lifted her eyes to meet Sienna's. With a single saddened sigh, Brooke opened the door to her room and left, leaving Sienna with her thoughts.
"I'm ready Hales," Brooke said, wiping the sad look off her face and moving to kiss her son's head.
"Good, I'll drive. I thought we could do lunch after?" Haley suggested as they walked towards the door together.
Brooke nodded, "that'd be nice Haley."
Their drive over to the community center was silent. Haley could tell something was wrong, but she didn't want to press it. Brooke was usually happy; at least she had been getting much better ever since Sienna had moved into town. That was really the only thing that made Haley feel better about the fact that she wasn't the one kissing Brooke every night before bed. As much as she hated it, Sienna really did make Brooke happy, and they loved each other. Besides, selfish wasn't really Haley's forte.
"I guess the hardest part is staying away from it after the fights," Brooke said gently, barely above a whisper. Who she was in these meetings was nothing like the girl she really was. Brooke was reserved and quiet, uneager to share her thoughts and clung to Haley like a child to their mother. "It brings me back to the way things used to be. Living in the constant fear that she's going to leave me again, and I'm going to fall apart. It kills me to know how badly I need her. I've never really loved anyone this much before, at least no one other than my son."
That last comment really took a toll on Haley's heart. Brooke had loved her once, and thanks to her own stupidity, she'd never get to experience that love. She was left, loving Brooke from afar. Her hand, which was intertwined with Brooke's squeezed a little harder, reassuring her it was safe to continue talking.
"I really never talk about it," Brooke continued, feeling a little better knowing Haley was supporting her. "My girlfriend, her name is Sienna. She came into my life at a really vulnerable time. I'd known her for a while, but there had been no friendship there until I gave birth to Harley. I was raising him alone, and one night she offered to take care of him for me so that I could sleep. I'll never forget it. She told me that the dark circles under my eyes were making me look ugly, and that she missed the competition she used to have every morning trying to make herself look prettier than me. Our friendship started that night, and I immediately let her into my heart. She watched me fall apart; she watched it all. Sienna rescued me from my habit, and for some reason saw the goodness that was still in me, even after all the things I'd done. Somehow, this gorgeous girl had fallen in love with me. I fell in love with her, and this… beautiful fairytale type of love began to build. Her insecurities started to build up… and every time it got to be too much for her, she'd run. I was weak without her. Harley cried while she was gone, and I couldn't handle anything. I'd either sleep, or turn to drugs. The last fight we had was over… her." Brooke gestured towards Haley and winced a little. "And I'm scared. We didn't leave it on a great note, and I'm afraid I'm going to come home, and that she'll be gone… again. And the last thing I want to do is start to do coke again, but I know me. I know if I can't get up, I'm going to turn to drugs to function. To provide for Harley in the only way I can."
"Thank you Brooke," the woman across from her stated with a grin, "It's good to hear you share your stories with us. Do you think this fight was a big enough one to make her leave?"
Brooke shrugged her shoulders; "she's run out on me for less."
"Do you think maybe it's time for you to find someone stable, someone who won't be a constant negative influence on your recovery?"
Once again, Brooke shrugged. It was awkward talking to this woman sometimes, and letting everyone hear her stories. Narcotics Anonymous meetings were… not somewhere Brooke ever thought she'd find herself. Though, she had to say, the woman was sweet, even her name was sweet, Caroline. She was an elderly ex-social worker who now dedicated her life to helping teenagers get off drugs, for good.
"Maybe that's something you need to think about Brooke," Caroline told her sincerely, "Perhaps, though you love this girl, it isn't a good idea to continue seeing her. Your own problems are more important than hers right now."
Brooke couldn't do anything but nod, knowing that Caroline was right. But, the thought of being without Sienna scared her more than the thought of getting back on cocaine did.
Authors Note: So, I finally figured out where I want to take this! It's probably going to be one more chapter before we're really into the Baley aspect. I had to get her friends involved, and Sienna down to Tree Hill before I could pull together my master plan! Which, you can expect in the next chapter. Is there anything you guys would love to see happen? Let me know!