HEY y'all I am writing this next chapter because I promised. I hope I get lots of reviews; I want to make sure y'all all want these stories so badly. Because If not I'm going to stop writing most of them. Well Thanks for always reading and loving my stories.
When I woke up I was in my room, I can't remember how I got here. I don't even know why I'm home, the last thing I remember is Rose fighting with Jessica. I don't know why they were fighting but I know it was over me. One minute I'm in school the next I'm lay on my bed confused to death. I sit up, I flinch in pain. Why does my head and back hurt? I bring my hand up to the back of my head, I feel something hard. I have a bandage on, I wander why? And who put it there?
I move my legs to the side of my bed trying to push the dizziness away. I look at the clock to see it is two in the afternoon, I sigh trying to remember what happened.
I stand up from my bed slowly and walk over to my door, I know Rose and Jasper are probably still at school and Dad is probably still at work so I'm home alone. I walk down my hall and to the stairs.
I go to the kitchen because my stomach just started to growl. I open the refrigerator to find it empty; I guess every one forgot to go shopping for food. I'll have to get Rose to go with me to load up the refrigerator.
"Darlin' what are you doing out of your bed." I scream I turn around freaked out from the voice that came behind me. Jaspers face softens. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you." I breathe.
"It's okay for some reason I thought I was home alone." Jasper moves over to me. "What happened today?" I ask him. Jasper looks at me trying to make up his mind if he should tell me or not. "Is it bad?" He comes all the way over to me and takes my hands in his.
"It's not that bad, I'm just trying to think why you don't remember. You got freaked out in school today, I guess had a flashback and fell on the floor, hit you head really hardly. Carlisle came over and help me with you head. Can you tell me what you were seeing?" Jasper asks. I flinch not wanting to tell him. "Please tell me." He pleads.
I look down.
"Remember that time when we were in the basement, like normal?" I look back, he nods telling me to go on. "And James came in and throw me to the floor, you tried to help but Laurent grabbed you before you could help?" Jasper flinches; I know it hurts him to think of that day. He is always mad and sad that he could never help me; he told me a long time ago that he wouldn't have lived with himself if James did anything really bad to me. I didn't want to tell him about it, I don't want to upset him and I know I did. Jasper lets go of me remembering the night, he turns his back to me. I know I hurt him by telling him this, I know he hates himself for not stopping James from hurting me all those times he did. "Jasper please look at me." He doesn't. I move over to him trying to turn him around, he walks out of the room. I follow him into the living room.
"Jasper don't blame yourself, it's not your fault James hit me all the time."
"I could have stopped it if I tried hard enough." Jaspers voice sounded like he was in so much pain.
"He would have killed you if you did. If you would have died, I would be worse off. If you weren't there I know he would have done so many worse things then what he did do." I walk behind him and wrap my arms around his waist. I put my head on his back. "If you fought back I wouldn't be alive at this moment. You did all you could to keep me save, I know you tried." Jaspers hands move to my arms and rubs back and forth.
"Bella," He sighs. "You're more to me then life it's self. I just wish you didn't have to go through all the stuff you did." I turn my body over so I'm facing him, I look up into his face to see tear falling down his face. I bring my hands up to his face wrapping his tears off of his cheeks. He looks down at me; through his eyes I can see so much pain that it is unbearable to look in them.
"Jasper honey, it's not your fault. You must remember you weren't the one who was causing me pain; you weren't the one who would hit me just for the fun of it all. You were the one who would hold me when I was scared and you would always make me feel safe even know we weren't, you are the one who helps me to be the person I use to be, even a better person. And you are the one who loves me even when others don't, even when I hate myself." He pulls me to him hugging me tightly, I hug him back not wanting to ever let go. He breaks down in my arms; I can feel his tears falling on my shoulders.
"I…love you…so much Bella."
"I love you to." He kisses my forehead.
(I was going to end there but I haven't updated in forever…okay back to the story =D)
'Three hours later'
Jasper and I after awhile of just standing together holding each other moved to the couch and just sat together. Rose walks through the front door and looks at us, Jasper smiles.
"Hey sis, why are you home so late?"
"I was with Emmett, we just hung out for awhile. Charlie called me and asked me to ask the Cullen's and Alice over for dinner, Bella how are you feeling? Well enough to help me cook?" I sat up to make room for Rose on the couch.
"I'm feeling fine, the problem is we don't have any food in the refrigerator, so we have nothing to make." I tell her. She sighs.
"I knew we should have made a weekly shopping day for groceries. We were running low on food." She frowns
"Okay," I look at Jasper. "Rose and I will go to the grocery and you clean the house." He frowns.
"Why do I have to clean the house?" He moans, I laugh along with Rosalie.
"Because you do." I kiss his cheek and move away from him. "Just let me go get dressed and we can go. Will talk about what to make in the car, I can't believe Dad would do this without telling us." I tell Rose. I run up the stairs and change, I try not to touch my head but I also try to fix my hair up.
I walk back down the stairs to find Jasper on the couch. I go over to him and pull him up. "Clean up." I kiss him quickly and run out the door to meet Rose in the car.
"So what was going on with you and Jasper?" Rose asks me. I gaze over at her.
"Well we had a big talk about the flash back I had this morning at school." Rose looks over then looks back at the road.
"What was it about?"
"Are you sure you want to know?" I ask I know that my stories will probably hurt a lot of people, they would be scared.
"I want to know what they did to you."
"Okay…well my flashback was about this one day in the basement. I was lay with Jasper on the cold floor, when James and Laurent come in. James grabbed me and made me kiss him." I look down at my hands in my lap. "Jasper tried to get to me but Laurent grabbed his arms and made him watch, I tried to push James back but he got mad that I wasn't kissing him back so he throw me on the floor and sat on me. Jasper has been so hurt by not being able to help me." I look over at Rosalie; she's trying to hide her face from me. "Sorry I shouldn't have told you."
"No, I wanted to know. I just wish you guys didn't have to go through that; I know you and Jasper are a lot stronger than me. I don't know how I would be right now if that all happened to me."
"I'm not strong the only thing keeping me in one piece is your brother, without him I would probably never leave my room." She looks at me.
"You love him don't you?"
"I love him so much I don't know how I would be without him." She smiles.
"He loves you a lot to you know, I know my brother and he's never cared for someone as much as he does for you. I don't think that will ever change." She tells me.
I smile.
"We should probably talk about dinner." Rose says.
"We should make beef stroganoff." I tell her.
"Oh that sounds so good." We pulled in to the parking lot of the grocery. Rose gets out of the car and look at me, I take a deep breath and I get out of the car.
"Bella do you want to stay in the car?"
"No, I need to do this." It's a small grocery how scared can I get in here? I walk in and try not to look at any one, I keep my head down. Rose puts her hand on my back to lead me over to the carts. I pull one out.
"We should fill up the house so we don't have to come back for awhile." Rose says, I agree with her. We go throw the isle and get all the food we need for dinner and every other night.
Every time a person would come by I would make should I stayed far away from them, I was really jumpy near them and I couldn't think. I try to breathe normally but it is really hard on me. I can hear people talking about me; I know most of them have seen me on TV. I look at Rose.
"Do you have everything clear in here? I think I might go outside for some air." She looks at me concerned.
"Do you want me to go with you?"
"No, I'm fine."
"Yeah I'm almost done. Here take my cell call Jasper if you need to." I smile trying to make her feel better about me going outside alone.
"Okay, Bye." I walk away from her, when she can't see me anymore I start running for the door all these people make it hard for me to breathe. When I get outside I sit against the wall taking deep breathes.
I really wish I was able to go places without freaking out so much; I want to be a normal person again. I want to be able to go to school, the mall, and the grocery without being scared. I don't want Jasper to feel he has to help me do everything in life, one day he's going to want a normal life without me. When and if he ever stops liking me he's going to want to make sure I'm okay enough to leave me. I know I don't want him to be with me just because he feels bad for me, I hope that's not why he is dating me now. He is the only one who can help me out of my flashbacks about James and he is the only one who can calm me down. I know if he wasn't here I would go crazy. I just don't want him to feel he has to stay with me because of that reason.
I bring my legs close to my chest and put my face into them. I can calm myself down, I can. I don't want to be like this anymore.
"Oh look who it is." Oh no, this can't be happening today. I look up to meet the eyes of my worst nightmare. (Hmm should I stop hehehe?)
(Oh maybe I should but I don't want to so I won't)
Jessica is standing right in front of me smiling. (Ha-ha I bet no one thought it was her lol)
I stand up.
"Hi Jessica how are you?" I try to ask calmly but I know something bad is going to happen.
"Oh I'm good, and how is your head?" She asks in a rude voice.
"It's fine thank you." I look behind me. "I think I'm going to go back inside now, see you around." I try to move away from her but she comes running to me and slams me into the wall. I cry out in pain. "Jessica it doesn't have to be…like this. Just walk away." She laughs.
"It doesn't have to be like this, just walk away…Who are you miss peace maker?" She pushes me harder against the wall. "You see I have a problem with you, a big problem." She moves her head so she is talking in my ear. "You see, I have this thing for Jasper, and you're getting in the way of it with that little act of yours. I'm sure you're not having those flashbacks and you just making them up so he stays with you. Because you know if you don't have them anymore he will leave you. So if you don't stop you're going to pay badly for it." Her voice sounds ready to kill.
"Jessica, we use to be friends, I know you."
"You know nothing about me!" She yells.
"Please let me go, I won't tell anyone about this. We can just go are own ways and forget about this forever." I try to tell her but she has no means for what I am saying.
"No, you're not going to forget this you're going to remember it because when Jaspers mine you will be living a sad life."
"Jessica, I can't stop the flashbacks, they are real. I'm not faking them, please I'm not lying to you."
"Oh shut up Bella! You've known I've had a thing for Jasper, but no you had to go and get kidnapped and played that scared little girl so Jasper can play your hero, but I see right through it. And I'm not going to fall for it anymore." Jessica brings her hand up to my face and slaps me.
I scream.
"Now break up with him! Or there will be more pain coming."
Someone pulls Jessica off of me, she screams.
"Jessica! What did I tell you about messing with her?" Rose has her by the neck. "If you ever touch my sister again I am going to kill you and I'm sure most of her friend and Jasper will hurt you to. Now get away, and we will be telling her father about this and I know he is going to put you in jail! Now go." Rosalie pushes Jessica away and stands in front of me. Jessica glares at me.
"There won't always me someone with you Bella."
"Walk!" Rosalie yells. "Now!" Jessica goes to her car and drives away. Rosalie looks at me.
"Bella are you okay? Did she hurt you?" She walks closer to check me out. "We need to get home and tell your dad what happened and get Carlisle to check you out." Rose grabs my arm and pulls me to the car. She puts everything away and gets in the car and speeds down the road.
When we get home I walk inside and Jasper comes to the door, he has a smile on his face until he sees my face and neck. He frowns and runs over to me.
"Bella what happened?" He asks freaked out.
"You want to know what happened." Rose walks in after me. "I come out of the grocery and there Bella is pushed up against the wall with Jessica's hand on her neck." Jasper looks at me.
"Bella are you okay?" Jasper pulls me into his arms.
"She hasn't said a word to me since I pushed Jessica away from her."
"Darling talk to me." Jasper pleads. He leads me to the couch and sits me down, he crouches in front of me. I look down at my hands.
"Rose call everyone over now so Bella and tell everyone what happened so she doesn't have to do it a thousand times." Rose listens and goes to get the phone. Jasper just stares at me.
When everyone gets here, Charlie comes running to me along with Carlisle.
"Bella baby what happened?" Dad asks me. Carlisle pushes him over.
"Charlie let me look at her first before we ask her questions." Dad backs off but I can see he wants to know as badly as everyone else. Carlisle moves his hands up to my neck and pushes down, I flinch. He frowns, his hand moves to my face and gentle presses down on my cheek. Again I flinch in pain.
"Bella you're going to be bruise around the neck and on your face. Your neck is forming a hand print, now you need to tell us what happened so we can get to the bottom of it." I look at everyone to see they had fear and concern on their faces. I sigh.
"Jessica came to the grocery and when she saw me she got mad and pushed me up against a wall and she had her hands around my neck." I tell them.
"Why would she do that Bella?" Charlie asked.
I look at Jasper.
"She's mad at me for taking Jasper away from her or something." Jaspers face turns to shock, everyone looks at him confused. He shrugs his shoulders. They look back at me wanting the answer for what I said. "When we were friends I guess she would tell me about how badly she wanted Jasper to herself, so I guess she thinks I got kidnapped so I can become closer to Jasper and I'm faking my flashbacks so that Jasper will stay with me." Jaspers face turns red in anger not embarrassment.
"I'm going to kill her!" Alice yells.
"Did she threaten you?" Charlie ask ignoring Alice's outburst. I nod. "What did she say?"
"She says if I don't break up with Jasper I will be in a lot of pain." Jaspers face moves from a hundred different emotions. He walks over to me.
"Bella…I'm so sorry." His voice is in pain yet again. I hate seeing him this way he is always in pain because of me and I don't want him to be in pain.
"Jasper it's not your fault, it's mine, and Jessica's. Stop blaming yourself all the time." I take his hand.
"Well I am going to call the station and report this." Charlie says.
"No, dad don't she's just being weird she doesn't mean anything by it."
"Bella I know you don't want her to get in trouble because you are that type of person but those bruises around your neck and on your face say differently." Dad walks over to the phone and calls.
"Alice, Esme I know you guys came over for dinner but we haven't had time to make it, will you help me?" Rose asks them, I get up.
"I'm so sorry guys, too much drama. Rosalie I'll help you."
"I don't think so." Jasper, Emmett, Edward and Carlisle say at the same time. Alice looks at me.
"Well it's settled then Bella." She and Rose walk away.
"Well I guess so." I say.
Well I hope this chapter was long enough, it took me all day to write =D I hoped you enjoyed please tell me what you think. Thanks and Review!
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