After the crazy morning everything went pretty smoothly, I didn't see Jacob anywhere in school. It was weird because I had one class -english, last period- with him but he wasn't there. I felt a little sad not seeing him there, but wasn't I supposed to be avoiding him? I mean that's why I spent lunch in the library instead of in the cafeteria. At home everything was okay, when I came home Junior was on the porch waiting for me. We went inside my house and into my room, Junior said hello to my brothers and mom before we went into my room.
"How much homework do you got?" He asked me as he set down my bookbag on the floor. I sighed as he looked through my bag taking out all my books and then my notebook, the special one. I reached over to get it but he grabbed it before I did. I almost snatched it out of his hands but I just slipped it out of his hands instead, I flipped through it and then I saw my doodle. I closed the book and put it in my lock drawer, I hand never had a need of it except now. I put in my notebook, next to my wand and close it. When I turned around, I saw Junior's puzzled expression and I just gave him a smile and it was like it never happened. When we finished with everything but spanish homework, I was tired as hell.
"Say, Beso." Junior said looking into my eyes, I smirked.
I knew what beso meant and I also knew Junior wanted one or more than a few.I got real close to Junior's lips and I looked him in the eye and I whispered "Beso." What's funny is that when I was thinking this "seduction" plan I knew that I didn't want to do this to Junior but to Jacob. And it wasn't all that funny but it shouldn't be like this, I'm not supposed to like a jock, I'm an emo chick for crying out loud. Jacob and I are total opposites not even a smidge alike, I'm sure. Yet I can't help myself from feeling this way, I know it's wrong but that's what makes me fall more for Jacob. No, stop Alexis Marie Russo! You like Junior not Jacob! But why am I wishing I was kissing Jacob and not Junior?
Why does this sort of thing always happen to me? Well this is just another day in my life. I stopped kissing Junior and told him that he should probably leave. Especially before my mother barges in and sees us making out on my bed, no doubt thinking we were about to have sex with her in the house. He understood that, this wasn't the real reason I wanted him to leave but he didnt say a thing. Junior was just nice like that, which made me feel even guilter. Ever since I met Junior he's always been like my best friend, and not like a real boyfriend aside from the kissing of course. He's always supported or protected me, never asked questions when I didn't want to be asked any. Some would even say he wasn't dating me but instead he was my big brother. It would have been nice that Justin was like this, instead he was some paranoid idiot, jerk face whose scared half way to death by his little sister.
So that's why I couldn't leave Junior, aside from this he also loved me. Maybe just maybe I could get Jacob out of my head and try to love him, I'm pretty sure on my birthday in December he's gonna plant the big question. I can just imagine it now; Junior on one knee, me sitting in some chair. Millions of people surrounding us all jam-packed ina tiny circle. Junior with a little black box in one hand asking "Will you marry me, Alexis Marie Russo?" and I having no flipping ideas what to say just nod for his sake. Even though my love was never meant for him.
So now THE question of the century for Alexis Marie Russo will be, does she or does she not love Jacob the quarter back from her high school? And the sad part is... she has no flipping clue.
Now that, is tragic.