BPOV
I felt like I was in a mental institution or something. Everything was white. Even my fucking clothes were white! Where the hell was I?
"You are where all the people that fall into comas go. It's an alternate heaven. I either decide if you should wake up, or stay forever in a deep sleep." A very motherly voice said behind me. I turned around and looked at the woman in front of me.
She had long brunette hair and she wore a solid white sundress that fell to her knees. Her features were that of a mother.
"Who are you?" I asked timidly. The mother like woman stepped closer to me.
"My name is Angelina. You can call me Angie. I'm your angel. I'll be helping you on to the path you'll take." I stared at her confused. She simply smiled warmly at me and grabbed my hand.
"If you want to go back home to Jacob," Jacob, I thought, and I couldn't help but break out into a sob, dropping to my knees in front of Angelina. I felt her warm hands rub my arms soothingly.
"Jacob is fine, sweetie. He really, really misses you. I watched you in your final minutes and saw just how much that young man loves you." I cried harder, missing my Jacob. Angie made an 'Awe' noise and enveloped me in her arms like my mom used to do when I was little and was upset.
Mom. Why did everyone I think about make me cry harder? I sobbed into Angie's chest. I cried for Jacob mostly, but I cried for my family, my friends, my pack. I missed them so much, even if it had been just a few hours.
"Oh, honey, I know it hurts, but you need to be strong if you want to go back to them." Her voice rose, making me lean away to look at her face.
She put strand of hair behind one of my ears.
"I'll do anything to be back with them. Just, please…help me." I begged in a soft whisper. Angie gave a small smiled and patted my cheek gently.
"Come on, Isabella, I'll show you to your room." She stood up and I lazily got to my feet. She held out her hand for me to take and I took it and gave it a small squeeze.
JPOV
I had laid there beside Bella for hours, just listening to the slow beat of her heart. It was dark outside and I could hear around me the night creatures awaken and come to life. I had been absentmindedly smoothing down Bella's hair, crying myself to sleep, then waking up, then crying myself to sleep again.
What Alice said earlier flashed through my mind. "Carlisle wants to see Bella. He thinks he has a theory on how to save her."
Could the leech save my Bella? What if he did something wrong? I couldn't lose my Bella again.
"Jacob." I jumped at the sound of Edward's voice. He was standing in front of me, across from Bella. His eyes were black as night, and the expression on his face was like he had been crying. Had he? Why should he? He's in love with someone else…
"I still love her just the same, Jacob." I flinched. Damn, he heard my thoughts. Get out of my head.
"You know I wish I could." He muttered. He obviously wasn't in the mood for talking about it. I sat up, and brought Bella to my chest, cradling her to me. I was exhausted. My eyes were still blurry from crying and my body felt so emotionally and physically weak.
"Jacob, may I…hold-
"No!" Who the hell does he think he is to hold her after all that he's done to her?
"I know that right now you must loathe me-
"With a passion…" I interrupted. Edward gave a small smile, but continued.
"You must realize, I haven't seen Isabella in almost a year, Jacob. I left her because I was afraid. I was afraid that one day, I would accidently hurt her. It would be so easy! It could be a touch, a caress, a kiss, or a hug, but if I wasn't being careful with her, just once, she would be gone like that." He snapped his fingers as he said the last word.
"It had three months since I had left her, when I found Tanya. She lives with the Denali clan up in Alaska-
"I don't want to hear about you finding Tanya and how you decided to marry her. Look, parasite, what do you want?" I spat. Who does he think he is, to talk about his fiancé while he's just standing across from the girl who got her heart broken by him, and who'll now, never wake up again.
I squeezed her tighter to me, as I thought that. "I didn't mean to hurt her, dog. I was only doing what was best for her." He snapped. My body was too weak to be angry, so the only thing I did was glare at him.
"Oh, and leaving her here for months, crying and walking around like she was dead was just so good for her, wasn't it?" I replied sarcastically, rolling my eyes in disbelief.
"I just wanted her to have a normal life. One that she could grow old in and have children and grandchildren, and just live life the way I wanted her to." He said softly. My brows furrowed in confusion as he said the last part.
"You wanted her to…live?" I whispered.
He nodded. "She wanted to spend forever with me," He huffed once before he continued, "She even wanted me to change her at the prom that night, in front of all those people." He pinched the bridge of his nose as his expression changed to anger and then softened.
"I wasn't going to damn her into a permanent hell. She was so stubborn. She wasn't thinking about what she was going to give up."
"She was going to give up me…" I muttered, looking down at Bella. I sensed Edward nodding.
"So, in a way, you should be glad that I left her, because if I hadn't, I have a strong feeling that she would've all but forgotten about you." I looked up at him. He was staring at Bella, and the same expression the pixie parasite had on earlier was molded onto his.
She would've forgotten me? "Why do you say that." I asked quietly. Edward never returned my stare. He simply kept his eyes on Bella.
"You saw her at the prom that night, and you saw her with me. Did you see the way she looked at me?" he asked. I nodded and he continued.
"It was like she imprinted on me, Jacob. I wouldn't say she was obsessed, but I pretty much consumed all that she ever wanted to do. She never brought up anything about seeing you or visiting her mom, or just hanging out with friends. All she ever said was that she wanted to spend the rest of eternity with me." he paused and cracked his knuckles.
"I wasn't going to let her just forget that she had a life. She was scared of being older than me," he threw his hands up in the air in disbelief, "Jacob, you must understand; I never, my family never wanted to be like this." He moved his hand in the air down his body.
"We all should've died at least a hundred years ago. We didn't have the choice like Bella did, though. We were dying when Carlisle…saved us. He didn't want this life, either. Carlisle was pretty much attacked when he was damned into this hell. He woke up as a vampire not knowing what he was."
"Anyways, I know you don't want to talk about my damned life. I came here to ask you to take her to our house. Carlisle does have a theory on how to save her, but he wants to tell you first." He waited for my response. I simply just got up with Bella in my arms and nodded. We walked in inhuman speed back to the leech mansion.
BPOV
"Whoa, this room looks just like my room at Charlie's." I said as I sat down on the bed. Angie smiled warmly while her hand gently roamed over the dresser.
"All your clothes are still in here, too." My eyebrows rose I stood and ran over to the dresser. She giggled and opened the first drawer for me, proving that my clothes were indeed there. I smiled and went back to lie down on the bed.
"Isabella, sweetie, you need to rest. In the morning, your path to waking up again begins. You'll need your rest." Angie pulled the covers up for me to climb underneath. I nodded and climbed under the covers and she tucked me in like a mother does her child.
"Angie, h-how long could it take to get back to my family?" I whispered. Angie sighed and pulled back a stray piece of hair from my face.
"Well, sweetie. It could be weeks, months, years before you can wake up again. I have faith in you that you'll wake up sooner than expected. You need to get some rest, though, if you want to wake up one day." I nodded and turned on my side in a more comfortable position to sleep. I felt Angie's lips on my cheek and sighed deeply before closing my eyes and falling into a deeper sleep.
JPOV
"Okay, Dr. Fang. What's the update on Bella?" I pressed, impatiently. Eddie and I here had walked back in silence to their mansion of a house and Bella was immediately given to Carlisle who had inhumanly rushed up the stairs. I was going to follow behind him before pixie put a hand on my shoulder telling me to stop. I shrugged her hand off and sat down on their couch which to me smelled like bleach.
Carlisle scratched the back of his neck nervously. "Well, she is indeed in a coma, but it's more than that. I tried to touch her, but her body was ice cold. Almost as cold as mine. I wrapped her up in at least four or five blankets. She is…resting peacefully up there right now." His voice was calm and serene. I nodded.
"Thanks, Doc for not…saying she's…."
"Yes, if the situation was in my position, I wouldn't want someone to say it either." He finished before I could say the word. I nodded again, thanking him. He gave a small smile before walking into the kitchen beside his mate or something. Esme, was her name I think. Don't know, don't care, I thought. I felt a cold hand tug on my wrist.
It was pixie again. I looked up at her and was about to say something before she mouthed a 'shush' and ordered me to come upstairs. I groaned and got up, following her into her room. There wasn't a bed there, not surprising, but there was a pull out couch, that had the bed made already. I stared at little pixie in shock. Did she do this for me?
"Yes, you're sleeping in here. I already have a bunch of shorts in the closet for you. I didn't give you any t-shirts, because I know you don't wear them, so hopefully the shorts will do." She said with an annoyed tone in her voice.
I rolled my eyes. "Yes, it'll be fine. I never thought I say this, but thanks, parasite." I grumbled.
"You're welcome, mutt." She replied just as annoyed. I walked over and plopped down on the bed.
I don't know how long I just laid there until the leech walked towards me and was suddenly sitting on the other side of the bed with her face in her hands. Her stench made me wrinkle my nose. "What is it?" I asked, slightly irritated.
She lifted her face out of her hands to look at me with a sad look. "Jacob, I'm sorry, but…right now I don't see her waking up…ever." My hands dug into the sheets as a lump rose in my throat. She's lying, she's lying, she's lying. I chanted on and on that statement in my head.
"But my visions change, Jacob. I'm not saying that there is no hope for Bella to ever wake up; I just wanted to update you." I looked up at the little pixie and nodded my thanks to her.
"I am truly sorry, Jacob. If I could've seen that they were coming I would've had the whole family over there to help. Carlisle could've saved Emily. It's just, Bella was surrounded by your pack and I just couldn't see around it until you were away from her and then I could see what was happening. It was only me and Edward at the house, because the rest of the family were out doing something, I just am so sorry."
"Hey, what's done is done. I'm tired of people coming to me saying it was their fault-
"But-
"But nothing. We can talk about this in the morning. I'm…exhausted right now, and unbelievably sad, so just give me my space okay!" Pixie stood up quickly and was out the door in seconds.
I turned onto my side on the bed above the covers and pushed my head further into my pillow. My hand roamed over the empty space next to me and I wished so badly that Bella could be here with me. I already missed her warmth and her fingers going through my hair absentmindedly as she fell asleep. I clutched the sheets tighter, but softened my hold when I realized I was about to rip the sheets apart.
"Wish you were here with me, Bells…" My voice cracked and I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to fight back tears. I relaxed after a moment and curled myself on the bed falling into a sleep.
BPOV
Dreaming:
I was walking on First Beach in a white sundress and I wasn't wearing any shoes. The sound of the tide hitting the shore was calming and I stepped into the water just far enough that it came up to my ankles as I walked along the shore.
Wait. I was on First Beach? Then that means that I was close to Jacob! I turned around frantically, my eyes blurry with happy tears until I ran into something hard, solid, and unbelievably warm.
JPOV
DREAMING:
I was just running around the area in my wolf form when I saw this girl in a white sundress walking along the shore of First Beach. I phased back and quickly put the pair of sweatpants on that I had tied around my ankle. Stepping closer to the girl that was slowly walking along the beach, I froze when she did. Did she know I was here?
And then it hit me. Those curves, that long wavy brunette hair. The girl turned around crying and started to run in my direction. I narrowed my eyes as I realized just who was running towards me. It was Bella. She ran into my chest hard and I didn't know how to react. My mind was filled with all these emotions, the only thing I could do was tremble. It was a nervous tremble, not an angry tremble. Bella's hands were on my chest as her head leaned back and I was gifted with the depths of her beautiful big brown eyes.
"J-Jacob?" She whispered, her eyes widening in disbelief. Why was she crying? I wiped the tears away from her face, nervously.
"Bella, is that you? Are you really here?" I managed to get out in a nervous breath. Tears fell from my face. A smile made Bella's eyes light up with love and joy. She wrapped her arms around my neck and touched her nose to mine.
"Yes, Jake. I'm here." I smiled at her while the tears fell from my face and I wrapped my arms around her, spinning us around in a happy circle. She laughed that beautiful laugh that I loved and I squeezed my arms tighter around her. When we stopped spinning around, she put her bare feet on my toes and looked up loving into my eyes.
"Jacob. You're here." Her voice was cracking from her happy tears as the smile I loved was plastered to her face. I couldn't help myself. I murmured a yes and pressed my lips hard against hers. She giggled into my mouth as she bit down onto my bottom lip before licking it with her tongue. I opened my mouth and our tongues made love to each other's mouth. I couldn't stop the happy tears that flowed down my face. I was just SO happy. I lifted her up into my arms and her hold on my neck tightened as I spun us around again. She leaned her head back and laughed happily, and I couldn't help but join her.
"I miss you, Bells." I whispered as I kissed her neck. Her arms tightened around my neck even more and I sat us both down in the sand. She sat on her heels in between my lap while I held onto both of her hands. I just had to be touching her, I just had to.
"Jacob, is this a dream?" I frowned when I noticed the slight pain in her voice. I shrugged my shoulder.
"If it is, then I don't ever want to wake up." I smiled and leaned in for a kiss, which she squealed and kissed me back. I pulled her to my chest and she sighed, wrapping her arms around my torso while she leaned sideways into me.
"How is Emily?" She asked casually. I laughed at her normality of the moment.
"She's not handling it well, honey. She blames herself for what happened."
"Why?" She asked quickly. I shifted nervously, and kissed the top of her head.
"Well, she feels so bad for walking through the woods. She blames herself for getting bitten and causing all what happened happen. I told her to not do that to herself, but she didn't listen."
"Of course she didn't. She's just as stubborn as I am." We both laughed at that. After we calmed down, Bella sat up and turned to face me.
"It's going to be okay, Jacob. I'll be with you soon." Her voice sounded wrong though, like it was fading away. She stood and started skipping down the beach. I ran after her.
"Wait! Bella, where are you going?" I called. She giggled and turned around to face me.
"I have to go on the path to come back to you. Tell Carlisle that the only thing he needs to do to help is just keep me warm." She smiled warmly at me. I shook my head.
"What are you talking about?" I gently demanded of her. She placed her hand on my arm, and I was instantly calm.
"Jacob, it's time for me to go. Do you want me to come back?"
"More than anything." I replied confidently. She smiled brightly and leaned in to kiss me on the cheek.
"Then you must let me go. Don't worry, Jake. I'll see you again. In your dreams, I'll see you. All you have to do is just think about me before you go to sleep and I'll be there. I love you." She murmured and wrapped her arms around my waist and craned her neck to look at me. I caressed her cheek with two of my fingers.
"I love you more." I smiled her smile and leaned down to kiss her fiercely on the lips. When her lips parted from mine she giggled.
"I don't think so." She said joyfully before releasing her hold on me and skipping down the beach again. I watched as her body started to fade away. When she was almost gone, she turned and looked back at me with her warm brown eyes.
"I love you, Jacob. Now, wake up. Wake up, wake up…" she kept cooing that before her whole body disappeared and I opened my eyes back to reality.
When they were open, I could smell grease and hear the sizzling of bacon coming from downstairs. I sat up in the pull out bed and rubbed my eyes, smiling at the dream I had last night. If what Bella said was true, that all I had to do was think about her to see her in my dreams, I would do that every night before I fell asleep. I stood and walked to the closet and opened it, grabbing a pair of shorts. Once I was done changing into them I sniffed the air and followed Bella's scent down a hall to a door on the left.
I opened the door and smiled when I saw Bella sleeping soundlessly in a king size bed. I walked over to her and sat on the edge of the bed beside her. Gently, I pulled her hand out from under the sheets and held it in both of my hands.
"Thank you, Bella. I desperately needed that." I kissed the palm of her hand.
"And I'm hoping to see you again tonight." I whispered before turning around to walk out the door. But, I swear, just before I closed the door, I knew she was smiling.
BPOV
"Bella, in order for you to go back to your loved ones, you need to face all of your fears and nightmares." Angie said casually to me as we walked back to my room from the breakfast room. I stopped and faced her when we reached my door.
"What do you mean, 'face my fears?'" I asked her, my brows furrowed in confusion. She patted my arm, comfortingly.
"When you go in your bedroom, you're going to close your eyes, and what I will have to do is put you in this nightmare state, and if you face it well enough then you'll move on to the next fear or nightmare." I looked at her in confusion.
"What do you mean by, 'face it well enough?'" She gave a weak smile.
"It means, if you can go through these nightmares and not beg to go back once, or beg to die, then we'll let you wake up from this coma you are in." My expression changed to horror. The nightmares were going to be so bad that I would beg to die? I simply nodded and headed inside, closing the door behind me.
"Jacob, I'll be strong for you. I'll be strong." I chanted to myself as I got situated under the covers.
"I love you, Jacob." I murmured as my eyes closed slowly, and then everything was dark.
NIGHTMARE: #1
"Okay, Angie. What do you have planned for me now?" I whispered, my voice a little shaky.
"Bella, this is going to be the hardest one to go through. I figured it would be easier if I hit you first with the hardest one and then the rest get easier." A heavenly voice boomed from the sky. I looked up and didn't see anything, but I knew that Angie was there, watching.
I huffed once nervously, and continued walking down this trail. It was dark outside, and I could tell it was late at night. The mist covered the soggy ground and I walked slowly and carefully on it; to make sure that I didn't fall.
I stopped dead in my tracks as the setting changed and it was bright outside. We were on First Beach and I narrowed my eyes when I saw a bunch of people in black attire circling something. I stepped closer, and then another step, and another before I heard an elderly voice say aloud, "My granddaughter," I gasped when I realized it was Billy Black's voice, "Has written a special speech for her Uncle Jacob Black." I sucked in a breath.
"No, it couldn't be." I walked quickly between the people, but they seemed to not notice I was there. I cried out in horror as I saw the huge coffin that everyone had been circling around. I ran to the coffin, and shoved all the flowers off of it while I banged my head down on the top of it.
A young girl who looked about ten years old cleared her throat with a cough. I looked up at her and noticed the features in her face. Her smooth black hair was held back in a bun and a black veil covered her face. She wore black pantyhose under a frilly black dress. Her eyes were red and puffy as if she had been crying. She had Jacob's features written all over her face. Was she..?
Then the small beautiful little girl began to speak in a raspy voice. "My Uncle Jake…. Unkie Jakey, was always fun to be around." Oh no, please tell me this is not his funeral! I looked down at the coffin and read the inscription on it that said, 'Jacob Black.' It was his funeral!
The girl continued and I listened to her through my cries of horror and pain. "When momma came home and told all of us that Uncle Jake was attacked by an animal, I was running through the front door tellin' momma that we needed to go to the hospital." The little girl started to whimper and cry as she continued her eulogy, "Then Momma told me that Uncle Jake wasn't at the hospital that he had gone to see Aunt Bella in heaven." I whimpered like the little girl who was apparently my niece as a lump rose in my throat. It felt like a sob and sure enough I let out a breathtaking sob that was so loud it echoed off the La Push cliffs. I expected everyone to hear me, but they didn't and they continued they're silent weeping.
Everyone seemed to disappear then, and I banged my fist on the coffin hard. "Why, Jacob Black, why!" I shouted, and my vocal cords protested against the sheer pitch of it. I didn't care. I flung the coffin open and gasped when I saw Jacob's aged features in front of me.
He looked to be about in his late 20's or early 30's. His face was not his original color. Instead, it was paler than usual. Oh God, Jacob, you really are dead. "No." I managed to gasp and I pulled Jacob up and into my arms. His head rolled limply onto my chest. I ran my fingers through his hair while my tears fell onto the top of his head.
"Oh, Jake…" I murmured, my voice cracked as another onslaught of tears fell from my eyes.
"Bella?" A warm and husky voice said from behind me. No, it couldn't be. It WAS.
JPOV
"So, Dr. Fang. I really think that seeing Bella in my dreams last night wasn't just a coincidence. She told me to tell you not to worry on trying to save her, that she would do it. She obviously knew that you were trying to save her, Cullen." I grumbled as I sat across from Carlisle at their dining room table. My head was in my hands and I was rubbing my temples, trying to get rid of the headache I had from listening to him lecture and ask me all these stupid questions.
"I'm just trying to get my facts and reasoning straight, Jacob. If…if what you are saying is true, then when you see her in your dreams tonight, can you ask her how she is going to save herself? I'm just innocently curious. I love Bella as my own daughter and I dream of the day she wakes up just as much as you do." I nodded my head in confirmation and ran up the stairs.
Today was pretty much boring. I got up, ate breakfast with the leeches which was awkward, then I went over to Sam and Emily's, and Emily was going on and on about how much she missed my Bella. I had to tell her about the dream, and she did feel a little better after that. After hanging out at Sam's place, I patrolled the area for awhile. By the time I was done patrolling, it was 10:00 o'clock and I was tired. So, that brings me here, in the leech layer, in a pull out bed, thinking about Bella. Sighing deeply, I fell asleep thinking about Bella that time she gave the pack the 'surprise.'
DREAMING:
I was on the beach again. Except, Bella was crying, and saying my name, and…holding someone. I took a few steps closer to her, narrowing my eyes when I saw the man she was holding. Is that…?
"Bella?" I asked. When she looked up at me, the man disappeared and she dropped to her knees on the ground.
"Bella!" I called, while running over to her and wrapping my arms around her waist, bring her onto my lap. She sobbed into my chest, laying her tears on my bare skin. I smoothed down her hair and cooed to her, trying to calm her down.
"Shh, Bella, what's wrong?" I pulled away from her far enough to look at her tearful eyes that were staring at me with want, need, passion, and…lust.
"Bella, I don't-
She put a finger to my lips and moved so she was straddling my waist. "Shh, Jake. Please, make love to me. I need you. Now." She pressed her lips to mine fiercely and I groaned into her mouth, biting on her lower lip.
God, this woman was going to drive me insane. I pushed her down to the side and moved so that I was on top of her. My hand trailed down her body and I brought her leg and wrapped it around my waist.
"Bells, you're going to be the death of me." I breathed.
BPOV
DREAMING:
I let out a nervous laugh, and bucked my hips against his crotch, letting a moan escape his lips. I smiled in content, and let out a cry in pleasure as wetness pooled from my center. Jacob was only wearing his boxers and I was only wearing the same dress I wore earlier, so his hard on was grinding right against my center. I moaned out loud.
"Jake, I need you now." I gasped. Jacob grabbed the bottom of my dress and I arched my back, letting him takes it all the way off of me. I heard his gasp as he realized I wasn't wearing a bra and only panties. Grabbing the back of his neck, I pulled his lips down onto mine. I felt his tongue on my bottom lip, asking for entrance and I open my mouth to be gifted with Jake's warm tongue.
My hands trailed down his chest and I pulled at the waist band of his boxer shorts. He helped me pull them down by shrugging out of them. He kicked them to the side basically ripped my panties off of me hungrily.
"Bells, come here." He murmured seductively as he sat back on his heels and pulled me on top of him so I was straddling his waist. I wrapped my legs around his torso and moaned when I felt his member between my slick folds.
"Jake. Inside me, now." I moaned. Jacob growled as he sucked on my neck, grinding against my center creating wetness between my legs.
I couldn't take it anymore. I grabbed his member firmly in my hands and sat up a little straighter so I had a good angle for him to enter me. Jacob bit me earlobe as his hands gripped my hips tightly. I felt the tip of his member enter me and I cried out in pleasure.
Jacob growled and his primal instincts came out when he pulled my hips down, and shoved himself deeper inside me.
"Jake!" I gasped. Jacob was still deep inside me as he moved me so my back was on the warm sand and his hot skin rubbed against my clit, causing another wave of warm liquid to fall from my center. His hips thrust into mine hard, and honey it wasn't gentle.
He was going way too fast. His movements were too animalistic, and his top lip was curled back in a snarl. He wasn't mad at me was he? I felt his body trembling and I immediately got panicky.
"Jake. Jake, stop it. You're going to phase. Jake!" I pushed myself off of him and cowered away from him. I suddenly felt very exposed, so I brought my knees to my chest and covered my chest with both of my arms.
Jacob was sitting on all fours and staring at me in horror. He sat back on his heels and shuddered once, before putting his head in his hands.
"Bella, I am so, so sorry." I heard him whisper. He looked more relaxed, but his body was trembling as if he was…crying. I crawled over to him and gently touched his forearm with one of my fingers.
"Jake, look at me." I crooned. His hands dropped from his face, and sure enough, his eyes were red and puffy from tears. I cupped his face in my hands and looked at him seriously.
"It's okay, Jacob."
"No, it's not, Bella. I could've phased when you were…" he trailed off and I shook my head.
"But you didn't, and I forgive you, so stop stressing over it. It's over. It's the past now." He nodded his head and pulled me onto his lap.
I don't know how long we sat there in silence, but I didn't care to break the silence. Jacob was the one who broke it and I was grateful.
"Carlisle wants to know how exactly you are going to 'wake up?'" Jacob mused after a long awkward silence.
"Why? Didn't you tell him not to worry about me?"
"Yes, I told him, but he doesn't want that answer. He wants to know EXACTLY how you're going to wake up."
I waited another moment before I answered. "Well, tell him that the only way I CAN wake up is if I go through all my…fears successfully without begging to die or go home."
Another long pause. "Bella, what were you doing earlier? You were crying…" he trailed off. I, too, was sad at remembering the painful fear that I had to face.
"Well, one of the fears I had to face was the fear of you dying. I saw you dead, Jake…" Jacob's arms squeezed tighter around me. "It was and always will be one of my greatest fears. I can't lose you. Ever. Even if I'm not in the real world with you now, the thought of you going away, would make me want to crawl up into a ball and die." I whispered. It was painful enough, talking about him dying.
His lips touched my ear softly. "Bells, if I died now I would be with you." I shuddered as his hot breath whisked over my ear.
"No, Jake. You wouldn't. I'm in an alternate heaven. Even if you did get into a coma like me, you still wouldn't be with me because the alternate heaven I am in now is only for the Kanuwats." I sighed deeply, closing my eyes at the brutal truth in my words.
"Bells, please come back to me," his voice was pleading and sad, "I can't stand to be without you in my life. I'm not complaining about seeing you in my dreams, but I want to wake up and know that you are lying right beside me. I want to hold you in my arms and be with you every second of every day. Having you in my sweetest dreams, if that's what these are, is not enough for me, honey. I want you; every last bit of you, in all senses of the word." Jacob let his forehead rest on my shoulder and I put my cheek against the side of his head comfortingly.
"I know, Jake, I know. Believe me; I'm doing everything I can to hurry up this process so I can be back with you. I want to come back and stop phasing after a while so we can start a family of our own." I laughed at a distant memory I had when I was first imprinted on Jacob. "You know, I already have seen our children." Jacob leaned his head to the side on my shoulder and looked at me with love and joy. My smile formed on his lips, and I couldn't help but lean down and kiss the sweetness of him.
"What are our children's names?" he whispered against my lips. I closed my eyes in content.
"Ephraim Charlie Black and Sarah Marie Black. Twins." I could honestly feel the hugest smile on Jacob's lips. I leaned away from him to look in his eyes and smiled widely as I saw all the love, devotion, and longing Jacob had for me.
"Twins?" I giggled as he squeaked that one out.
"Yep, and trust me; you don't have to worry about Sarah having boy troubles, because Ephraim is on those teenage boys like a hawk stalking its prey." I smiled even wider as the loving in Jacob's eyes burst through. "He's like the father when it comes to Sarah dating. I know you won't have to worry about Sarah, cause' Ephraim's got it covered." I murmured as I bent down to place a hot, wet kiss on his lips.
"Please, come back to me. I want to have those oh-so-amazing twins you have seen." I nodded and then I felt myself slipping away.
It was what I felt whenever I was going to wake up. "Jacob, it's time for me to go now. I'm fading." I said standing up and skipping down the beach like I did last time.
I felt his warm hand grab my arm and spin me around, pressing my chest to him tightly as he crashed his lips to mine. I moaned in pleasure, and let his tongue enter my mouth as it played across my lips. Before we could even get any more heated in the moment, Jacob stepped away and smiled my smile at me.
"See you tomorrow night, Mrs. Black." And with that, I was gone.
A/N: Okay, guys. It took me a while to put this up, and I'm glad I finally did, because I'm leaving for a family reunion tomorrow and won't be back until next Sunday. I promise to have the next chap up as soon as I can when I get back. Review please! It's what keeps me motivated!