a/n - yeah i changed the title, the new one sounds better... you agree? and i changed the description. so dont get confused! lol :)

oh and to clear things up, i got asked a couple of times, although the fall may not have been HUGE it was because he landed on his back and there were roots and stuff and i imagine falling through branches isn't going to leave you unharmed... you know this thing sounded better in my head? lol :P ENJOY!

James sat staring out the window in the cafeteria. It was starting to rain outside and he could see all the people running to get shelter and others strolling with umbrella's. He had been kicked out of the room when the nurse came back to take Carlos to x-ray for a quick check over. He had tears still in his eyes from what Carlos' had said to him. He knew he had hurt Carlos but break his heart? He had never thought of it like that. Fresh tears started flowing silently as he thought about the past few days; he had really screwed up this time. He couldn't make them laugh, and he'd be off the hook. He couldn't just take them to a hockey game, or sing them a song, or give his solo to Logan or Carlos. None of it would make any difference. He had broken Carlos' heart and there was still tension between Kendall and Logan, whether they realised it themselves or not.

"James? Dude you ok?" James looked up at Kendall who was standing there. He looked a mess, his eyes were red, his hair was a mess where he had been gripping it and running his hands through it and his clothes weren't in the greatest condition either.

"Not really... How about you? You look like you've been dragged through a hedge backwards or something" Kendall sat down on the chair on the opposite side of the table

"I'm just stressing" James nodded and stared at the table

"what's wrong?" Kendall asked quietly, it was a stupid question but James looked really cut up.

"I went to see Carlos... Everything was fine for a while but he said something that threw me a bit..." Kendall smiled sympathetically and patted him on the shoulder

"what did he say..?"

"That I broke his heart" Kendall's eyes widened.

"He actually said that?" James sighed

"well not exactly, I said that he would heal up soon enough and he said yeah but will his heart"

"oh god... James I'm sure he didn't mean it like that" James turned to Kendall, tears still streaming

"Do you still believe I'm not an idiot?" Kendall sighed and stood up, pulling James up with him and into a hug

"Yes, I do believe you're not an idiot. You made a mistake, and yeah it was a big one, but you're not an idiot for it" James pulled away and looked at Kendall

"You really mean that?" Kendall smiled and stroked James' cheek

"Yeah I do" James blushed slightly

"I miss this..." He said quietly. Kendall sighed and moved his hand

"I know James..."

"Do you?" James asked. Kendall was caught off guard

"what? Do I what?"

"You know... miss it?"

"Well... I... Maybe, I don't know, maybe a bit... okay a lot"

"a lot?" Kendall flushed bright red

"I... I uh have to go check up on Logan...I'll let you know how he's doing..." James nodded as his heart started to ache. He forced a smile as Kendall walked swiftly towards Logan's room.

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"Mr Knight?" Kendall looked up from his seat next to Logan at the doctor. Logan had fallen asleep and Kendall wouldn't have been far behind if he wasn't so stressed out.

"Yeah?" Kendall croaked.

"Can I speak to you for a minute?" Kendall nodded and stood up following him out into the corridor.

"Right, well you were aware he had the flu yes?" Kendall nodded "Well it wasn't the flu..." Kendall looked confused

"go on..."

"Mr Mitchell has pneumonia" Kendall's eyes widened.

"Pneumonia?" The doctor nodded slowly

"I'm afraid so. We have put him on antibiotic tablets; he should start to feel better in a few days. His fever will start to go down and in about 9 days time he will feel a lot better. It'll take him a few months to get back to full health but it will be barely noticeable" Kendall sighed and nodded

"thanks, so can he go home then?" The doctor nodded, smiling

"That should be fine, though you may want to leave him to sleep, oh and your friend, Mr Garcia? I'm awaiting results and he may get to go home soon too, but both he and Logan here will need a lot of rest and shouldn't move around too much. Logan will need to sit up a lot, and do some deep breathing, I'm aware that it could hurt doing to, but he needs to in order to speed up the process and Mr Garcia will find it very painful to move around until his back has healed over. He had a large bruise and we believe he may have bruised the bone" Kendall looked confused as he relayed it in his head

"So... Logan's on antibiotics, they both need rest but Logan needs to move around and Carlos had bruised his back and spine?" The doctor nodded

"exactly, oh and Carlos will have to be on painkillers for a while" Kendall sighed and rubbed his temples

"okay thanks" The doctor gave a sympathetic smile and walked off. Kendall peeked in on Logan and smiled at the sleeping figure, he looked more peaceful and a little more comfortable. Kendall took the opportunity to go and see Carlos.

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Carlos sighed as he sat in his room alone again, he had a pillow propped up against his shoulder to avoid any unwanted extra pain and he had dimmed the lights. He wiped his eyes of any stray tears that had fallen as he sat alone. James had disappeared and he couldn't face him anyway, it hurt too much to see him. He still loved him, more than anyone realised but he couldn't just forgive him for what he had done. He leant his head back against the pillow and stared at the white ceiling, ignoring the pain washing over him. He heard the door open and looked round slightly

"Hey Carlos..." Carlos smiled

"Hey Kendall, how you doing?" Kendall shrugged

"okay I guess..." Worry flooded over Carlos' expression

"What's wrong?" Kendall walked over and sat on the edge of the bed

"Just some stuff with Logan, he has pneumonia" Carlos sat forward too fast and screamed in agony Kendall moved so he was right next to Carlos

"Dude you okay?" A tear fell down Carlos' cheek. Kendall helped Carlos lay back against the pillow

"pneumonia? You can't be serious" Kendall nodded, a tear threatening to fall down his own cheek

"yeah... The doctor said he'll recover soon enough though... and he can go home if he wants, we have to wait for him to wake up first though. Oh, and you might be able to too, but we have to take a wheelchair for you" Carlos rolled his eyes.

"A wheelchair? Seriously?" Kendall nodded

"Afraid so" Carlos let out a frustrated sigh and set his lips in a firm line

"Hey, its fine, you'll have me waiting on you hand and foot for the next month or so" Carlos smirked

"Yeah, I guess that's a good thing"

"And I'm sure James wouldn't mind helping either" Carlos' smirk fell and he became aware of the ache in his heart once again. Kendall noticed the change in expression

"Oh god... I'm sorry..." Carlos' turned to Kendall

"Don't worry about it, it's not your fault"

"I can't help but think it is and I don't know why" Carlos rolled his eyes

"It's not Kendall." Kendall sighed and looked at the floor. He felt a hand on his shoulder and he looked around, Carlos had his non broken hand on his shoulder

"He'll be fine Kendall, and whatever else is on your mind will sort itself out"

"what makes you think something's on my mind?"

"Kendall, you're pretty easy to read, just not easy enough to know what it is that's on your mind" Kendall bit his lip slightly and let out a little sigh. Carlos had no idea how much was actually on his mind and he wasn't planning on him finding out any time soon either.

"Don't worry about it dude" He mumbled. Carlos squeezed his shoulder reassuringly

"If you say so"

Kendall swallowed and put on his normal fake smile.