~Dream ~

"Logie? Logie baby speak to me" Kendall said tearfully as he placed his hand on the smaller boys shoulder. Logan didn't turn his head and showed no signs of acknowledging Kendall was there. Sat beside him were James and Camille both of which had their arm around Logan and were whispering I love you into his ear. Kendall felt his heart ache as he tapped Logan again.

"Logan, please I'm sorry!" Kendall said, continuing to plead. Logan's head turned slightly

"Oh, did you hear something James?" James shook his head.

"No baby" Kendall saw Logan smirk and a tear fell down his cheek.

"Logan..." Logan turned to look at him "Oh look! It's Kendall! Hey, Broken any hearts recently?" James, Camille and Logan started laughing at him hysterically.

"Logan I'm sorry!"

"Sorry doesn't cover it Kendall" Logan's head began to shift and soon enough it had turned to his fathers. "I don't love you anymore, leave me alone"

~Dream end~

Kendall woke with a start, and found tears were pouring from his eyes. He wiped his cheeks after consoling himself, the blanket and pillow coming to his attention. He looked around the room, there was no one in sight and he didn't remember even going to the airing cupboard the night before. He let out a sigh and looked at the clock on the wall. It was only 8 so the others wouldn't be up for another hour at least, or James and Carlos wouldn't and there was no doubt Logan would end up spending the day in his room.

Kendall's eyes stung as he started thinking about Logan, he had been away from him for too long. It hadn't quite sunk in they had broken up and he still couldn't bring himself to admit it. Although Logan had done that with James, Kendall couldn't bring himself to hate him. He loved him too much to even care anymore.

After letting out a loud sigh he stood up and walked into the kitchen, straightening his hair and clothes as he went, preparing himself for the difficult day ahead. He was about to pour himself a glass of water when he heard a door open. He looked around to see James tip-toeing in. He gritted his teeth slightly and went back to pouring out the drink.

"Hey Kendall..." James squeaked. Kendall turned round to him after putting the jug back in the fridge and instantly felt guilty. James' jaw had come up in an ugly bruise.

"That looks really bad... Sorry..." He mumbled. James half smiled.

"Its k, nothing a little cover up wont fix" Kendall nodded awkwardly and went to sit down.

"You look happy considering everything..." Kendall added as soon as he was back underneath the blanket.

"I have reason to be" James half sung "I mean considering Carlos lost his virginity last night and everything" Kendall spat out the water he was drinking from his mouth and started choking.

"What?" James chuckled as Kendall shot up.

"He actually let you?" James nodded, still keeping his distance.

"You know he's never let ANYONE get anywhere close to that before right...?" Kendall said eyes still wide. James leant against the wall, his smile growing as he remembered the night before.

They we're both snapped out of their moods when they heard a crash coming from Logan and Kendall's room. Kendall looked at James pleadingly who rolled his eyes and walked over to the room, disappearing inside for a minute.

The next think Kendall knew Logan was walking out of their room, his eyes slightly red. Kendall looked at the floor the instant Logan looked up. James followed behind, mouthing a sorry at Kendall as he looked up.

Kendall caught Logan's eye for just a second and soon found he couldn't pull away. Logan had been crying, he could tell, and the pain in his eyes was hard to comprehend. He just wanted to run over to him and pull him into a kiss, and tell him everything would be okay but something was stopping him.

He bit his lip trying to keep in the sobs and cries he could let out at any minute. Logan swallowed and pulled his eyes away, looking at the floor. Kendall could feel his eyes tearing up again and soon found himself shutting himself in the bathroom. He buried his face in his hands and sat down on the edge of the bath, taking deep breaths, unable to stop the tears from flowing. He stood up and gripped hold of the sink, leaning against it looking in the mirror. He looked a right state but there wasn't much he could do about it. His head was pounding and all he could think about was getting some aspirin or paracetamol or something to stop the headache and hopefully the heartache.

A thought passed through his mind as he stared into the mirror. He opened the cupboard and pulled out the box of aspirin, looking at the back. The recommended dose was 2. Surely 2 maybe 3 or 4 more couldn't hurt? I mean, It would get rid of his headache quickly... it couldn't do much more than that could it? Kendall bit his lip before pushing the pills from the wrapper and into his hand. He stared at the 6 pills in his hand, his heart racing a little. He swallowed hard before beginning to run the tap.

There was a knock on the bathroom door that took Kendall by surprise. He fell backwards as he tripped on the bathmat and the pills dropped next to him on the floor. Logan opened the door and he cupped his hand to his mouth as he saw the pills lying beside Kendall who was now on the floor too.

"Kendall... What are you doing...?" Logan asked voice shaky. Kendall looked at him and couldn't help but burst into tears. He pulled his knees up to his chest and hid his face.

"I'm so sorry Logan..." Logan picked up the tablets, threw them into the sink and sat down in front of Kendall.

"What were you doing...?" Kendall didn't lift his head but gave a muffled reply.

"I wanted the pain to go away..." Logan stroked Kendall's hair.

"You don't do that by overdosing Kendall" Kendall smiled to himself as he felt Logan's touch but sighed.

"I know... I just... I couldn't handle it anymore. I want this ache to go away" Logan couldn't help but feel sorry for him as he sniffed and wiped the tears from his eyes. Kendall looked up at Logan as he stopped stroking. He was biting his lip and had a look on his face that could break even Gustavo's heart.

"Kendall? I found this the other day..." Logan pulled the small box from his pocket and handed it to Kendall, whose expression had changed, it was almost unreadable.

"Where... Where did you find it?" He said, taking it from Logan and opening it.

"It was on the floor. I saw it when... After..." Logan set his mouth in a firm line as a few tears began rolling down his cheek. Kendall looked at his hurt expression and instantly felt bad.

"Logan about me and Ashton... I don't love him, what James saw wasn't what he thought it was" Logan stood up.

"What was it then?" Kendall swallowed and blushed.

"I was asking him what he thought of this speech thing..." Logan tried to milk more information out of him.

"A speech for what?"

"You..." Logan bit his lip. He had screwed things up with Kendall big time and there was nothing he could do about it. He couldn't handle the pain much longer. He couldn't stand to see Kendall hurt like this. He shook his head slightly and swallowed hard.

"I... I have to go..." He left the bathroom quickly leaving Kendall with the ring in his hand and tears rolling down his cheek.

After a load of sniffs and wipes of his tears he finally stood up. He knew what he had to do and he had to do it now. He couldn't let Logan go and it had taken this to make him realise that.

He walked out the bathroom to see James standing there.

"Where did Logan go?" He asked frantically.

"Downstairs I think, why?" Kendall smirked.

"Just wake Carlos up and get down to the pool in the next 10 minutes, make sure Logan stays there"

James nodded, smiled and ran into his room leaving Kendall to brew an idea in his head.

a/n - :O! Whats Kendall gonna do?

is it obvious? sorry XD im really bad at the whole 'surprise' element XD aw well, i think 2 maybe 3 chapters left? maybe 1... depends... enjoy :) I'll give you the name of the sequel as soon as i begin to write it and will post it as well as any loose ends as a little ending chapter on here... If i can find any loose ends 0.o if there are any you spotted or anything you are confused about let me know xx