ELI POV

I was driving to Clare's house, she looked hesitant to have me over, but I REALLY wanted to meet those kids, and she was the only one who could allow it, if she honestly believes after getting to re-know me, that it's a bad idea, I'll accept it, and tries to better myself.

"Right, then it's the green house, on the left." I nodded, as she instructed me towards her house. We went inside, and I noticed there was a box that said CLARES PICTURES, and another one that said KIDS' PICTURES. There were plenty of other boxes with the names sprawled out across them. She first went over to a box that said CONNIE on it. I loved the names she picked for them, oddly suitable.

We walked into a room with a box that said CONNIE, so I'm guessing its Connie's room. We put the box down and she went to get more, I fallowed her out, and she handed me a box, and said to bring it to the last door down the hall, can't miss it. Of course I couldn't it was a black door, when all the other ones were white. It was a COBY box. I smirked; it was refreshing how he liked black too. We kept loading boxed into two bedrooms, I noticed how we never went to Charleigh's room.

"Where's Charleigh's stuff."

"She already unpacked, she is very sufficient, and works hard, she NEVER half asses, ANYTHING, her room looks like we've been living here for years. Already painted, and clothes already sprawled out of the dresser." I laughed, and went to the bedroom, which had a sticker on it that said.

"CHARLEIGH, BITCHEZ!"

"You let her get this sticker on her door?"

"Well, she I don't mind them cursing, just not at me, and plus her girlfriend made it for her, before we moved, I couldn't say no." it was cute.

"So, she's gay?"

"No, she's bisexual, she has had a boyfriend before, and Katherine is her first girlfriend, I love that girl."

"I never thought Saint Clare, would support cursing in her household!" I said with sarcasm.

"Help me hang this up."

I saw the most beautiful picture I have ever seen, it was a portrait of the four of them.

"How much did this cost you?"

"Nothing, Constance made it when she was 13; it made me cry when I first saw it. She spent a week on it."

"That is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."

"She hasn't ever been so passionate about anything before, I love her to death. Charleigh on the other hand, is the BEST singer ever, she doesn't think she is that good, but I swear she gives me goose bumps every time, she refuses to public singing, alone. She was in elementary choir, but in middle school, she has a solo, and quite, she has stage fright. Coby, though, is like an open book, never tries to hide what he's feeling, and the best writer I have ever met in my life. He wrote a book, when he was 12, about our family, it was a hefty book, and he let me read it, I was crying, he thought I hated it, but it was the best thing ever. I never thought I was a good mother, but they always told me other wise. It breaks my heart knowing that I made a mistake not telling you everyday, but they said that they had me, and never needed a dad, but I knew that you were in Charleigh's dreams all the time.

She used to send letters to Santa, begging him to bring you here; she was too cute, saying to wrap you up in a purple box, with green polka dots. She said that it should have wholes. She said this no lie, direct quote.

"I wouldn't want him to die, of no air MOM! No wonder we don't have pets." I laughed for 5 minutes; it was the cutest thing ever. She wanted to wrap you in a box with holes." I started to laugh along with her, we were laughing so hard, and then I looked in her eyes, and stopped laughing, she soon did too. I slowly moved closer to her, as did she. I was this close to kissing her; no other thoughts were in my head, until she pulled back.

"Eli. You have a girlfriend, we cannot be doing this."

I sighed, I knew she was right, but I didn't know what surged through me, but I NEEDED to kiss her, when I thought that at that last moment, I remembered those lips on mine, and I crave it like an addict watching the supply, but can't ever have it, because he's trapped. Only instead of chains holding him back, It's Jess. He really likes Jess; he can't hurt her like this.

"I think you should go," I could see the tears, brimming her bottom eyelashes, as she turned away, towards the door, and held it open.

ELI'S APARTMENT (JESS IT THERE)
ELI POV*

"Eli, baby, where were you? I thought we were going to relax today, just you. And just me. Alone." She was trying to seduce me, but I couldn't imagine anything but Clare's whispering in my ear's from so long ago.

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"Eli, you will NEVER guess, the kind of news I have." I was confused, what was wrong?

"Are you there Eli?"

"Yea, I'm here, what is it?"

"You, are coming over tonight, pack a bag, with clothes, for 2 days. My parents are away, and I don't want to be alone, so I thought of inviting KC, but I realized that I could bribe you," I knew she was joking about KC, but it still made me feel jealous.

"Be there in 20." She giggled, and hung up. What was in her head?

20 MINUTES LATER…

Knock

Kno-

"Eli, come in!" Eli walked in and saw all the living room lights were off, he slowly made his way up the stairs, to see Clare, sitting on the bed, with the hugest smile on her face ever, he gave her a suspicious look, and she giggled. He walked up to sit next to her, when she stood up, and walked up to him.

"Eli, tonight, for the first time, it's just you. And me. Together, I want you to have me," he wasn't sure of this, he was turned on, by her whispering, seductively in his ear, but when she licked, then quickly bit his ear, all uncertainty that he had washed away with that kiss, and he took it from her, he took the girls innocence, slowly, and passionately, then, the next night, he took it again, and again.

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This thought made Eli shutter, it isn't right to think about another girl, when your with one, he knew that, he just didn't want to hurt her… what he didn't think about, was how much more he was hurting the girl, he really loved.

"Elijah, I think, I think I love you." Eli stayed silent. He didn't love Jess, he liked her, but definitely not love.

"Now is when you say 'oh jess! I love you too!'" I sighed,

"Jess, I, honestly, do not love you. I just like you, I'm sorry."

She sniffled,

"Why, Eli! WHY?" I was feeling bad about hurting her, but I couldn't let her believe I loved her.

"I really am sorry, maybe I could grow to love you, it's just, I've had a lot of heart break in my life, your really good to me."

She nodded,

"I guess this could work."

"I have to be honest with you though, I found out something today, that will change my life forever, and you deserve to know. I have kids. 3 children, well teenage children. I just found out today,"

"TEENAGERS! TEENS! Your 30! For crying out loud, Elijah, what kind of person are you? I cannot do this, I enjoy your money, I enjoy your sex, but I can't have this drama." He was shocked.

Did she really just say that?