I turned around to see Cody stood there completely confused and upset. I mentally kicked myself. I had n idea he would be there when I was telling John. Just my luck that he was. I didn't know what to say to him.

"Cody, I swear I was telling her to go to bed!" John defended himself as Cody just nodded.

"I know. I heard everything.." Cody said. "Are you gonna explain yourself or just stand there looking stupid?"

"Look, I don't know what happened. Ever since I came to Smackdown to be with you ive been missing John. Like missing him more than I should. I just I don't know okay!" I said throwing my arms up in frustration. Id got myself into another situation again between the two men I cared about most in the world.

"Lets all just go to bed and sort this out in the morning. Stacey's drunk, it was probably nothing!" John suggested but Cody shook his head.

"We're sorting this out right now," Cody demanded looking at me.

"Fine. You wanna know then ill fucking tell you! Everything has been going wrong ever since I got here. First off Cody is in a mood with me for whatever reasons, then I start dating John, Cody falls out with me again, John cheats on me, I get with Cody, I get pregnant, Cody leaves me because he doesn't want his own fucking child, Cody gets back with me, then John tells me he loves me, I lose my baby and get married, what the fuck is my life. Its just been a big mess since I got here and its all because of you two. Back in England I didn't have to worry about any of this. My life was casual and normal but around you two I just cant be normal can I. Everything has to be a piece of work!" I shouted at the two of them. It was all true. I wasn't gonna lie to them. Before id got over here my life had just been normal then it all kicked off.

"Fair play. I know you've had a tough time with everything but you cant just flit between Cody and I whenever you please!" John said and he did have a point.

"Stacey, you're gonna have to pick one of us. I don't want to have to put you in that position but it's the only thing that's gonna work," Cody sighed, leaning against the wall. So I had to pick between the two guys who I loved the most. Not fair at all, right? There was only one thing I could do.

"Im not picking either of you… because im going home!" I yelled at the two of them who both looked shocked.

"When you say home, you mean?" John asked, slightly worried. If they wanted to put me in the position to pick then I wasn't gonna hang around.

"I mean England, John. How can I pick between the two of you. You've been my best friend for years and I love you and I love Cody too. I just cant be around the two of you anymore. Its just best for me to go home," I sighed walking back into the hotel leaving John and Cody stood out there…

"So you're really leaving?" Ted asked me as I was packing my things the next morning. He'd come to make sure I was okay since he hadn't seen me at all since last night and id told him everything. He was really upset, to say the least.

"Its just best for me to go Ted. I love you all but I just cant be around John and Cody anymore," I sighed as I closed my suitcase. Cody hadn't come back to the room at all that night.

"Im gonna miss you way too much but we can still keep in touch right and when you're ready you will visit wont you?" Ted asked me pulling me into a hug.

"Of course. I'll miss you too Teddy. Just make sure you look after yourself and ill ring you as soon as I land okay!" I smiled sadly as I kissed him on the cheek and left the room. On my way down the hotel lobby someone grabbed my arm and I turned around to see Randy.

"Please tell me that John was lying and you're not leaving?" Randy practically hissed at me. I should have guessed he would be pretty mad.

"Its just best for me.. And everyone!"

"John is in pieces, Stacey. I dunno where the fuck Cody even is. You cant just up and leave all the time!"

"Randy, please don't yell at me. I swear once my head is clear I might come back. Just promise me you'll look after them for me?" He knew exactly who I meant.

"I wish you weren't going but you know I will. Try and keep in touch," Randy said hugging me and with that I left the hotel to the airport

I stood in the airport waiting to check in and get on my flight. Don't get me wrong, I was obviously sad that I was leaving everyone but I just needed to do it before I messed my life up even more. I knew I was hurting Cody and John by doing so but it was probably best for them too if I wasn't around anymore. I sighed to myself as I handed the woman my ticket.

"STACEY RUNNELS IF YOU GET ON THAT PLANE THEN I WILL KICK YOUR ASS!" I turned around to see Cody running up to me still in his clothes from last night. He looked like he hadn't slept one bit.

"Cody, what are you doing?" I asked, slightly confused. Last night he had been so angry with me but here he was now.

"You cant leave okay? You cant leave me. I know ive been a dick to you on countless occasions and I know that we've been through so much shit but you just cant leave me. It would kill me. I love you so much that I don't even think you know," Cody said on the verge of tears.

"If I stay im just gonna hurt you more and more. I cant do that to you or John for that matter.."

"Look, I know you love John, I get that but I know you love me more. You wouldn't have married me if you didn't. We have our whole lives ahead of us. If you get on that plane and leave then that's just gonna be the end of everything. Do you really wanna give that up?"

"I don't know what I want. Fuck. I love you so fucking much. Why are you here?" I asked even though it was obvious.

"I cant let you leave. Im not going to let you leave," Cody stood in front of me so I couldn't move forward.

"Why do you have to be so stubborn? I laughed slightly.

"If you go. Im coming with you," Cody smirked at me. He obviously wasn't gonna give up. I thought about it for a second.

"Come with me then.. For a little bit. Just to get away from everything?" I suggested.

"As long as you tell me you're not gonna leave me?"

"Cody Runnels, I wont leave you.."

"Oh thank God for that.." Cody said relieved as he kissed me. "I guess I made your decision for you then.."

"Yeah, I guess you did." I smiled at him. How stupid was I? It was Cody. No matter how much I loved John, it was always going to be Cody.

A/N

FINISHED.

I just wanted to end this before I ruined it anymore. I cant write in 1st person anymore so sometime next year im gonna rewrite this and change it and such so yeah..

Thanks to anyone who reviewed your all amazing even if this was crappy.