Well here is chapter 8!!! Finally the weekend. I was looking forward to this because its the only time I get to use the computer or watch t.v. School man, just takes away all the good stuff. I received good reviews for the last chapter!! I'm so happy you guys enjoyed it and plus I got a few new reviewers. Thank you all for giving this story a chance!! Love ya!!
Chapter 8: Gone Forever
I feel, so much better! Now that you're gone forever!! I tell myself that I don't miss you at all. Not lying, denying, that I feel so much better now, that your gone forever.
-Three Days Grace
Next Day
Morning
"Little Lady." Reu said. She slightly shakes Sakura but the girl did not show any signs of life. "Little Lady please wake up…" Sakura rolled on her side.
"F-Five more…minutes…" Sakura mumbled covering her face with her pillow. Reu smiled warmly.
"All right Sakura, but you must wake up before your father does." Reu exited the room and went to the kitchen. She began to prepare a small breakfast for Sakura.
Sakura's Dream/POV
I wondered through the darkness searching for her. But she had disappeared completely. I was so scared. Where could she have gone?
"Mama?" I asked but no one answered me. "MAMA!?" still there was silence.
"Where is she?" My heart began to beat harder and faster. I felt so vulnerable and scared. Nothing made sense here. Just a few moments ago, I and my mother were playing in the garden. She was telling me a secret when everything went black.
I ran a bit. But the scene never changed. The blackness did not waver and somehow my heart was beginning to beat slower. It was as if it believed I was already dead, but it just took too long for it to figure it out. The slower it beat the harder I ran. The last thing I wanted to do before I dead is see my mother. Just one last time I wanted to see her smile. I missed her so much.
I started to sob. I was in pain. My body hurt all over. I couldn't run anymore. I tried to get up but my body went limp and I dropped to the floor. My heart was about to stop any second. I wouldn't see her again. I wouldn't see my mother smiling at me. I would not see the pride in her eyes when she said she was happy she had me. My sobs became louder. They echoed in the darkness giving my heart more of a reason to stop soon.
"MAMA!!!" I cried.
Then I finally heard something. A women's scream. It sounded like she was being tortured.
"Mama?" My mind clouded with fear.
Then I was falling. I had no control of my body. But a hole formed around me and I fell through it. I couldn't even scream anymore. I saw fire, I was falling in a pit of fire. I forced myself to be able to scream once again.
"Shut-up!!" I heard someone scream.
It was him. It was my father. They were fighting again. I could walk once again. So I stood and wandered aimlessly. There was an entrance, it was rectangular and in the midst of the fire. There they were, fighting again. My mother's back was to the fire and she was holding a baby; My father stood in front of them. His face twisted in rage.
"NO! Why are you doing this?! I-I thought you loved her…" She wasn't supposed to show fear in front of him. She had taught me that. So why was she crying?
"PLEASE?! THAT PIECE OF TRASH!? WHY WOULD YOU GIVE BIRTH TO SUCH A WORTHLESS CHILD?! YOU'RE AS DISGUSTING AS HER!" My mother held the baby closer to her chest.
"Don't you ever call my Sakura worthless you ungrateful bas-"
My father raised a hand and slapped her. I turned away not wanting to see the abuse. My father pushed her into the flames and shut the door. The fire erupted and began to lick her skin.
"MAMA?!"
My mother's body laid in front of me. She cuddled closer to the crying baby. Her covered the child with a shawl she was wearing. Then she went limp over the baby. I ran towards her and shook her body. Tears streaked my cheeks as I shook her again and again. But I couldn't get her to wake up.
"Don't go…mama…mama…please…" I whispered. But the flames burned her alive. Her body fully protecting the crying child. "MAMA!!!"
End of Dream
Sakura's POV
"Little Lady!! Little Lady!! Sakura!!" I bolted awake panting heavily. My eyes were fogged but at least my heart was still beating.
"I-I can't see you…"
"Sakura, oh honey look at me!! Blink, maybe that will work. Its me Reu!!" Her voice sounded urgent. "Honey, please your eyes are gray…"
My eyes, gray? I didn't really understand. But I tried to blink. When I did I could see her. I focused on her face. Something wet was on her face. I raised my hand to touch it.
"R-Reu…why are you crying?" I asked completely confused. She wiped them away and sat up.
"It's nothing dear," When she was sure that her tears were dry she came and took me into a tight embrace. "You scared me Sakura…I thought your father was in here. You were screaming so much." I said nothing.
When she realized my silence she loosened her hold on me. But I quickly held her from doing so. I tightened my grip on her as I also hugged her.
"Don't leave…mama." Reu gasped. I had no idea why I was calling her that but her hug, it felt like my mother's.
"I'm not going to go, Hun." She said soothingly into my ear. "But you," She looked at me with a sad smile. "You my little blossom must go to school."
"School?"
"Yes, dear you're late."
"Late?" It took me some time for what she said to register. "HOE!! I'M LATE!!" Reu covered my mouth.
"Shh, calm down." Reu removed her hand and this time I whispered.
"I'm late!" I repeated.
"Yes, I prepared breakfast but you are going to have to skip that. Remi is waiting outside., so hurry and wash up."
"Right!!"
I quickly got out of bed and took a shower. I got into my school dress and didn't even stop to dry my hair. I fiddled with the white bow on my yellow dress. I rushed down the stairs and grabbed my bag. I kissed Reu and almost tripped over my dress. She shook her head.
"As clumsy as ever I see." She sighed.
I stuck out my tongue out at her and got into the carriage before she lectured my on how growing ladies as myself should not do that.
"Ready Little Lady?" Remi said opening the carriage door for me.
"Yes! But hurry I'm-"
"Late yes I know, my mother told me."
He flashed me a smile and closed the door. He went to the reigns. The school was far so even if he did go fast I was still going to be a little late. There was actually no use for worrying so I sat back and looked out the window and began to daydream. As we slowly passed the Royal Castle my heart started to race and I caught myself blushing in the mirror.
"Syaoran." I whispered to myself. "What's wrong with me? E-ever since he…" I gently touched my lips remembering the small kiss we shared. I was not feeling well. I felt like I ate a bowl full of butterflies and they were fluttering in my stomach widely. That happened when I thought about his smile. It was so enchanting.
"Little Lady?" I heard a voice call out to me. I didn't answer. I was still caught up in my thoughts about a certain prince. "Little Lady, snap out of it. School is going to start soon."
School? Wait, SCHOOL!! I rushed out of the carriage almost knocking down Remi.
"Oh! I'm so sorry Remi-kun!" I said trying to help him up.
"No, No, it's alright. Hurry before the church bells ring."
"Alright!" I helped him up and dashed inside. Quickly I changed my shoes and ran up the stairs to the room. Sliding open the door there was silence. "What in the world?"
"Sakura-chan?" I heard a girl say from somewhere in the crowd. Currently that same crowd was glaring at me. I sweat-dropped and waved nervously.
"Y-Yes?" A head popped out of the center of the masses. "Tomo-chan?!" I received more glares. Yikes.
"It is you!!" The crowd reluctantly split in half as Tomoyo came running towards me. She got me into a bear hug and she let go of me. I looked at her outfit and my jaw dropped. She was wearing uniform, my uniform.
"Tomo-chan, why do you have the school's uniform on?" Tomoyo twirled around for me and smiled.
"Because this is my permanent school until further notice." She leaned in a whispered something more in my ear. "And until I find a suitable husband to marry."
"Oh," I whispered back. Unfortunately Syaoran was eaves-dropping nearby. I smiled boyishly.
"Don't you already have one Daidouji?" He asked eyeing Eriol.
"Do not!" She said blushing. I giggled. "You know that very well Syaoran!"
"Leave her be, Li." Eriol said shaking his head. "After all you are here for the same reason and so am I." Syaoran frowned and glared at him.
"You are ruining my fun, Hiragizawa."
I giggled some more. They were such good friends. But then a light bulb clicked in my head.
"Wait, Syaoran-kun, I thought you all had private tutors."
"Shut your trap, girl. We do not need to give you a reason why we are here." Melin sneered popping up from behind Syaoran. I really was starting to dislike the girl.
"You Melin are not in the same position as us. This is your school because none of the tutors we had wanted to take you." Syaoran shot at her.
Syaoran's POV
"WELL SO WHAT I CAME HERE ON MY OWN FREE WILL! I-" I quickly covered her big mouth before she could continue with her angry shouts. Goodness she was so annoying.
"Sakura-san?" Eriol asked dumbfound at Sakura's sudden disappearance. I knew that was going to happen. She always seems to vanish when shouts fill the air. Hopefully Melin had not noticed. She was being so cruel as of late.
"Sakura-chan, she won't scream again so don't worry." I saw her shaking behind Tomoyo. I took my hand off of Melin's mouth. She was smiling wickedly. That raised an alarm in my head.
"So, you're afraid of screams are you?" She was getting ready to unleash another scream when thankfully the teacher stepped inside. He set his books down on his desk and looked up at his students.
"Alright class, take your seats!" He said.
"You're one lucky girl," Hissed my cousin like a damned rattle snake, and then she headed to the front of the room.
"As you have noticed we have four new students." I could see him eyeing me with hatred. This would be fun. "Please come and introduce yourselves.
Normal POV
As they neared the front of the class many whispered and rumors spread through the room.
"Quite down everyone," The class instantly shut up.
"Well, I'm Princess Tomoyo Daidouji." Tomoyo said bowing slightly.
"I'm Prince Hiragizawa Eriol." Next was Syaoran. But he kept his mouth shut. Eriol elbowed him but I still didn't say anything. His friend sighed. "This is my friend Li Syaoran, better known as Prince Li." The girls in the room sighed dreamily except of course Sakura who merely stared at him. He stared right back but the class didn't seem to notice.
'Who…' thought Sakura.
'Are you…' thought Syaoran.
"Really." They both said aloud. The teacher rolled his eyes and scoffed.
"Are you that surprised that you are a prince, Li?" Syaoran looked at the man and shot him a glare. He was in no mood to deal with rebels opposed to his family.
"Why must we introduce ourselves if everyone here already know who we are?" The teacher did not respond. Syaoran turned to him and continued. He would make sure he didn't annoy him any further in his stay at the school. "What's the matter, cat got your tongue?" The man did not reply. "Are you that surprised that I have asked you a question sensei? You are the teacher after all. Or is it something you must tell me that I can bring to my mother?" The man scowled.
"You may take your seats." He finally said turning to the board. He took up some chalk and held it up to write.
"But, we don't have any." Tomoyo said looking around.
"You may sit wherever you want." He waved them off and started writing on the board.
Tomoyo sighed and shot Syaoran a glare. They began to walk around the classroom with stares following them.
"Did you have to scare the poor man?!" She asked.
"He had it coming." Syaoran stated simply.
"Yeah! No one mocks my Syao!" Melin said jumping into the conversation.
"As I recall no one was talking to you." Tomoyo said glaring at Melin. Melin glared right back until they reached some empty seats.
Tomoyo sat beside Sakura, Syaoran behind Sakura and Eriol in front of Tomoyo.
"Today we will be learning about…"
Afterschool
The students hurriedly came out of the building. Not able to wait for what the rest of the day had planned ahead.
"Bye, Sakura-chan!" Tomoyo said patting her friend on the shoulder.
"PRINCESS TOMOYO!!" Melin shouted. When she saw Sakura flinch in response she giggled to herself.
"Must you be so cruel to her?" Eriol said suddenly appearing behind Melin.
"Oh, so sorry, I had not realized I was being cruel." She walked up to Sakura ready to shout some more. Melin opened her mouth ready to let out a scream but Syaoran shut her up just in time by covering her mouth with his hand.
"Don't scream! You're giving me a headache," He stated simply still covering her mouth.
"Thank Syaoran-kun." Sakura sighed with relief.
"Your welcome blossom." He replied with a sweet smile. Sakura blushed and quickly looked away. Melin scowled under his hand.
"I-I must go, father will be angry if I don't get home on time." Syaoran snorted.
"Your father gets angry at too many pointless things, it's not normal." Panic began to grow in Sakura's dull emerald eyes.
"N-No!" She said so suddenly that Syaoran's eyes narrowed at her reaction.
"Are you hiding something? Because you're not very good at it." He said suspiciously.
"O-Of course not!" She smile sheepishly. She couldn't lie to save her life. "I'm just not a very obedient daughter so it's natural for him to be angry often." Tomoyo shook her head.
"That's not true Sakura-chan!" Tomoyo said sadly.
"No, father tells me all the time." She said without a second thought. Everyone including Melin went silent. "Oh! I must get going! Bye!" She said waving at the group. As she turned around ready to sprint off Syaoran caught her arm.
"I'll walk you home." He said.
"Yes, Li that's the best idea you have had in a long time." Tomoyo teased. That earned her a glare from him.
"Shut it, Daidouji."
"B-But Syao-kun…I thought you would show me around the castle!!" Melin cried dramatically. Syaoran merely rolled his eyes at her and started walking away. His hand slid down to Sakura's. "Syaoran!" Melin called out but he did not turn. "SYAORAN!!" Sakura flinched and that same panicked look entered her eyes. "SYAORAN! LI SYAORAN!! DON'T YOU DARE IGNORE ME!" Sakura started to shake violently.
Syaoran noticed this and swooped her off her feet. He carried her bridal style and began to run out of the court yard. Melin tried to follow but Eriol held her back. She screamed and fought against him. Other students watched her like she was crazy. By the time Sakura and Syaoran were out of site Melin could no longer chase them. So with an indignant glare she stomped off to her personal carriage and went to the castle. Eriol and Tomoyo shook their heads and laughed.
Syaoran carried her all the way towards a small bridge which connected the two sides of the town. He set her on her feet and walked a little ahead. No one was crossing the bridge. He sighed heavily.
"I'm sorry my cousin is-"
"In love." She replied looking down sadly. He gave her a crazy look.
"What?!"
"She's…she's in love with you." Sakura said again holding tight onto her uniform. Syaoran shook his head.
"No."
"But-"
"No! She is not in love with me. She is more in love with my status as prince than anything else." Sakura remained silent. He shook his head. His mind failed to grasp what she was so sad about.
"Oh, well…that's better." She whispered to herself. Syaoran didn't even catch what she said. And she preferred it that way.
"Anyways what's with you?"
"Excuse me?" Syaoran tugged her down near the river. He sat her down beside him near the river bank.
They were at the Bridge of Wolves. It was named in honor of Syaoran's birth. But for some reason that was not why the Bridge was so special to him. Not because it belonged to him but because it was the perfect place to hide and think. To get his thoughts straight about things happening around him.
"Why are you so jumpy?" He asked but his question was only answered by silence.
"I'm not jumpy…it's just…just…" She shook her head. Why would he even tell him? He could get hurt.
Syaoran's POV
"Just what?" I asked but she still did not answer me. Instead she looked at the water. "Sakura." She kicked at the water scaring nearby fish. It surprised me that she didn't take off her slipper.
"It's just…he…always…" Her shoulders began to shake. I was becoming angry. Not at her but at what was causing this. I jumped into the shallow water and kneeled in front of her. I grabbed her shoulders and held her firmly.
"Who are so afraid of, Sakura? What do they do to you?" She looked away from me and closed her eyes.
"I can't tell you." Her voice shook. What the hell was wrong with her?!
"SAKURA YOU" She jerked out of my grasp quickly and stood up. Tears began falling from her cheeks.
"Please…don't….I'm sorry!" She choked out.
"Sakura, no I'm sorry I never meant to scare-"The loud bells from the church began to ring. They sounded ominous.
"Oh, no." She whispered her eyes widening in fear.
"What's wrong?"
"I must go! I must go now!!"
"Wait! Sakura!" But she did not turn back.
Sakura's POV
"Wait! Sakura!" I heard him call out. But in fear I did not let myself stop running. The church bells rung when I was already suppose to be home. I was late and that meant father would be very angry with me. I ran faster and harder. My uniform got dirty but all could really do was hope my father was not home. As I neared the entrance to the house it looked like no one was there. All the lights were off but the door was slightly ajar. Hesitantly I entered.
Bottles.
There was every bottle of whiskey and alcoholic drinks on the floors. They were spilled over and other had nothing left but a drop. There were no servants anywhere. My heart picked up speed. Quickly I headed to my room and closed the door. I never left it locked because this would make him angry as well. When I turned he was right there on my bed. He was finishing a bottle of red wine. My heart stopped.
"Ywor late!!" He slurred getting off the bed groggily.
"I-I know…" He looked at my body and sneered. But somehow I felt he was not only looking at my cloths. I wanted to cover myself up badly. I felt so dirty, not because of my cloths but because of the looks he gave me.
"Ywo look like a whore." I stated simply as if this was a known fact. I remained silent. "Where were you, wench?" I didn't answer. "WHERE WERE YOU!?" I stepped back at his booming voice. I wanted to hide but I couldn't. So I stead there shaking in fear like a fly caught in a spider's web.
"With the p-prince at a-a lake," I sputtered out.
"Ywo and you're damned lies." Of course he wouldn't believe me. He was drunk.
"No, I'm n-not lying!" I insisted stupidly.
"SHUT UP!!" I did as I was told but turned to walk away.
All of a sudden I felt him pull me back and into my bed. He held my arms up over my head so I couldn't get away. He traced the outline of my body with his forefinger. His face was solemn but a glint of amusement shined in his eyes. I wanted to kick and scream. But my energy quickly left me and all I could do was lie limp on my bed. Tears began to roll down my cheeks. I was so fed up with crying but it was all I could do to relieve the pain and emptiness I always felt. I wanted someone to be with me at this moment. My mother and someone else. Someone I had grown attached to over a short period of time. But I couldn't figure out who that person was. I was slowly growing unconscious. My eyes did not want to see what my father was about to do to me. It was a trick I had learned long ago, but as of late, the trick was beginning to fail me.
"I wonder why I have never tried you." He murmered quietly.
"T-tried me?" My voice was beginning to fade as sleep tried to take over me.
"Yes, your body is perfect and must be wonderful. I must have at least a taste." He stuck out his tongue and licked my cheek. I shivered in horror.
"S-Stop."
But he didn't listen to me. As if he ever had in the first place. I knew what he wanted to do to me even before he had mentioned it. He must have said the same words to my mother before. My skin crawled as he lifted my dress. But he grew impatient and tore it off of my body. This only left me with my underclothes. He surge of panic and discuss went through me. I went hysterical.
"NO! GET OFF OF ME!!" I shouted but he didn't listen. He played with my breasts and reached down south. He began kissing my neck and touching me more deeply. I couldn't make out the difference between pleasure or disgust. But disgust was slowly taking over. He said more things to me. Vile and dangerous things but I refused to hear them anymore. Suddenly the door swung open and my father got off of me. I passed out before I knew what was happening.