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I growl in frustration. Damn you and your stubbornness I sigh "I want you to answer my questions at least…" I reply. I don't mean for my voice to come out this… harsh but the slytherin just drained the last ounce of my patience. You ball your fists aggravated and I hear you sigh heavily in defeat "What does it matter Potter" the question is soft "It's not like there is something you can do" this is final, the of discussion.

Well not for me as I shake my head "Maybe not, but you can't just pretend it isn't happening" I try again. This is going nowhere "What do you want me say?" you growl bitterly "It's just the way thing are, that isn't going to change". I take a deep breath… this is going to be harder then I thought "When did it start?" I ask as a way to get you I watch your reaction. It seems like you're one second away from stomping your feet and whine childishly and despite everything I can't help but to have to try hard to keep from smiling a little. You seem to change your mind though giving in "Ever since I can remember" you voice is flat, tired and soft. I frown "What did he do?" I ask curiosity getting the better of me.

You close you eyes "You don't want to know" you say again turning your head. "I do" I counter although I wonder if I am telling the truth. You simply shake your head "Just leave me alone" you plead again "There is nothing you can do so just spare me you freaking pity" this came strong and cold. I sigh "This isn't pity… it's compassion" I reply fiercly. You smirk "What is the difference?"

I close my eyes "I'm just trying to help" I say my voice frantic. How strange that after years of hate I'm now driven to wanting to help you. You give me a blank look before leaning your head back against the wall exhausted. I can hardly believe how you've changed from when I saw you at diner tonight. I now realize that your hard cold icy manner was just a mask.

You're one hell of an actor having been able to fool everyone for so long. "I don't fucking need anyone's help" you hiss angrily before pushing yourself from the wall shoving past me "Just leave me alone!" you order while you go for the door and head out back to the dungeons… I shake my head still trying to wrap my mind around what had happened. I sigh… well fine you don't want my help? I sure as hell ain't going to worry about it then. I take a deep breath before heading out the door as well and back to bed.

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I practically ran towards the Slytherin common-room and up to my dorm where I let myself fall on my bed the curtains drawn closed around me. I do a silencing spell before I hide my face into my pillow where I cry… God fucking damned, I haven't cried in almost 10 years and I hate that I now seem to not be able to fight the tears.

This is just pathetic. I try and stop my childish sobbing as I hear my father's cold demanding voice in my head. "You better no cry boy, Malfoys never cry, it's chidish and foolish". I sniff as I bite my lip and eventually succeed in willing the tears away. I take the silencing spell of, curl myself in a ball and close my eyes drifting of in a restless sleep.

A few hours later I almost jump out of my skin as I feel a hand on my shoulder shaking me awake. I shoot upright and look into the worried face of my potions professor "Mr. Malfoy…" he asks "Everything alright?" I frown instinctively nodding my head "Fine… just uum a dream… I guess…" I respond quickly. I know he doesn't believe me but he let's it go for now.

Sevvy has some idea of what goes on back home, although he can't be sure. He knows my father well and so is aware what a fucked up bastard he is. There is something like concern in his eyes before he rises to his feet "It's time for breakfast, get dressed" he ordered turning around his black cloak following gracefully behind him. I shake my head trying to remove the memories the nightmare had left behind before getting dressed and heading down the great hall for some breakfast.

My table acts as if nothing has happened and I'm grateful. We joke some until it is time for our first lesson. I can't seem to focus though and find myself staring out of the window. "Malfoy-Potter…" I look up as I hear my name and frown, now what? I see Potter walk towards me and take a deep breath. He sits down next to me and I avoid the raven-haired's eyes. "Are you alright" his concerned voice reaches my ears and I growl an affirmative answer as I get up to collect the ingredients we're going to need silently cursing Snape under my breath….

Oke.. thanks for reading everyone.. sorry about the shortness... but a friend of mine is staying this week so I won't have much time to write... I promis though.. next week will bring a chapter that will make up for this... I hope anyway..

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