If you have any questions (the next few chapters are going to clear the questions up) the please tell me! i might have missed something:)
this is for you RivalAdmirer18:) sorry but i didn't read the book with beyond birthday , so, sorry, no beyond birthday in this story:)
also i will elaborate more in the later chapters too:)
Her plan to make contact with Kira was one that would raise questions about her trustworthiness, and about theirs. Was it better to be as she was, or to act less intelligent?
In the end Misa decided it was better to appear unintelligent, if she appeared intelligent and Kira was not trustworthy then she could not go back to where she was before and she (most likely) would have made a dangerous enemy.
So she contacted them in the way a person with less-than-average intelligence would do- it was something insanely stupid (it could fall apart so easily) but it was a game of luck and chance-
She had to kill again. What other way was there to attract Kira?
Misa went for long walks with Rem, who pointed out the would-be murderers, the ones who made life as miserable at their home as it was for hers, the ones who were going to die in a short time ( she merely wrote the cause of death as a heart attack, she did not tamper with their remaining life) and she steeled herself and wrote in the notebook once more. Once she was in this deep there was no point in stopping.
She had to see who Kira was first. Disguising herself, seeing him from afar, and Rem bent over and whispered in her ear to be careful.
She'd seen it all play out in her mind, vicariously. She could feel that something was not right about his being Kira, she could feel him getting swallowed up in the power a death note gave him. Misa felt something so very wrong with him and a death note-so she decided to keep tabs on him.
Meeting him at his house, pretending that she liked him (after all, he was only, what, 19? And weren't 19 year old boys hormonal?). She had never viewed her body as attractive, but she knew how to use it to her advantage. Smiling at him, acting so idiotic (never mind, she was overdoing it-how thoughtless of her), blinking her eyes wide open shut open shut. And he was falling for her act oh so slightly- after all, of course she couldn't expect him to fall in love with her; she'd have to act smarter for that to happen, but she noticed the slight bulge in his jeans.
And Ryuk. Ryuk was laughing silently whenever Light turned his back on him. Of course Ryuk could tell Misa was acting, Light had no inkling what Misa was doing, even though she was a famous actress. Was he really as smart as she thought he was?
No. He was a dangerous person to ignore. There was always a slight gleam in his eye when he knew something, no matter what he did Misa could always see it if only for a brief moment. She was a better actor than him, she'd had her whole life to practice. And the fact that Ryuk was laughing at Light merely supported the fact that Light really had no idea what Misa was up to. He was so clueless she wanted to slap him.
"Misa, get the shinigami eyes for me. You love me, don't you?" Light said to her one day, smiling at her with ugly flat eyes. She refrained herself from calling him an idiot (she gave herself points every time she refrained from insulting him), instead looking up at him adoringly and agreeing to his order.
Rem looked at Light pityingly.
(Misa would have long talks with Ryuk and Rem whenever there was time, and inclination to do so. They would talk about life, humans, and apples. They always ended up talking about apples.)
Misa knew that Light was no moron. She needed to scope out the general area of things she could and could not do around Light, see how perceptive he really was (so far it was not showing much promise) and, for the meantime, be his lackey. She could not let anyone else be subject to his cruelty, his madness. Her madness still enabled her to see reason, his did not.
He could never be a god, because he could only kill. Why couldn't he see that?
For the time being, she masqueraded as the second Kira. There was not really anything else she could do.
L who was the only one who treated her as an equal despite the fact that everyone thought she was stupid. She remembered the day she met him, his pale skin, the shadows under his eyes. The sunny day, her favorite kind, and they locked eyes and she sucked in an unneeded breath. (What was that breath for?)
She knew he was someone she could trust. His eyes, which held no disgust, lust, or anything for her. He merely observed her with detached eyes, emotional eyes, but eyes she could never read. He knew her secret.
So then it was certain she would be the third player in this game of chess.
Yes im going to try to follow the events of the manga as close as i can, so for those of you that wonder,it was a mistake i made that misa met rem early on, thanks aiushtha for telling me about that:).