once again nothing is mine.
--
I thought I might die from the throbbing. The light was burning through my eyelids, making it impossible to open them. I knew that I would have to get up soon if I wanted to make it to P.O.P. I decided I would get it over with or it would never happen. But then the light on my eyelids registered with the time of day. There was only one small light in my bedroom that I didn't face while sleeping. I flew out of my comfortable position and the room spun painfully. I squinted to my window and saw that it was bright outside. How long was I out? I scrambled out of my bed and almost fell to the ground. The room was spinning even more violently now. I looked around as my room came into focus and guessed it was midday. I swung around onto my bed again and went back into my own world.
--
"What are you still doing here?" Alex's voice rang in my head. That's odd.
"Kimber seriously, wake up," again. God couldn't he just give us a second?
"Jay, Tony, and Stacy are here, they're waiting," he said and I heard him leave my room. That was really weird. Jay couldn't be here he was… I must have been dreaming that was it. What a weird dream. My eyes opened slowly to reveal my bedroom. My headache had decreased sufficiently and I got out of my bed and headed to the bathroom. I really looked a wreck. My hair was sticking out on one side and my face was imprinted with the marks from the sheets and pillow.
After I had thrown my hair up and brushed my teeth, I went to the kitchen to find my friends talking to Alex. When I entered they looked up expectedly at me as though thinking I was going to yell, or be sick.
"Hey guys," I said looking at all of them. "Sorry I didn't make it out there today, I really passed out."
"Yeah we all thought you had gotten yourself lost. Even though you're always there I wouldn't put it past you," Tony said smirking at me.
"Shut up," I replied as I made my way through them to the shelf with cereal.
--
My hands were tight around the bumper of the bus. The speed was amazing. A natural high. I waved my hair back and gripped tighter with my right, so I could flip the driver off with my left. I thought this was when he really became frustrated. Jay on my side was hanging his tongue out. We were approaching a turn and I prepared to grab his waist. Stace let go first then Tony hooked onto him, Jay grabbed Tony, and I latched myself onto Jay. We spun off perfectly and skated right through the cars in traffic, hitting them as we went.
--
--
--
The door jingled as I entered Zephyr surf shop.
"Hey guys," a friendly voice called. It was Sid. The long brown hair and light brown eyes approached us carrying a broom.
"What's up Sid?" I asked with a smile.
"Oh, your sister came in today," he said, a look of apprehension on his face.
"What?!" I didn't believe my ears. Nicole? In Zephyr? No way.
"Yeah, she was saying that your mom had gotten a call about you not showing to school all week."
"Aw, shit," I moaned.
"She said to tell you," he told me and then turned to the guys, who had all been listening. "But all I wanted to do was-" he made a squeezing gesture with his hands, " If you know what I mean." He finished, smirking.
Tony laughed and said, "Don't we all."
Not wanting to hear their wishes about what they could do to my sister, I walked to the counter where Skip was slouching.
"Hey, grommet you weren't out there today, where'd you go?" Skip said in his drunken tone.
"Overslept, man. How was it?"
"Great, as always. But anyway I have to tell you something."
"Okay," I replied wondering if it was about Nicole again.
"I'm thinking of starting a skate team."
My eyes lit up. Was he saying he wanted me on it?
"Seriously?"
"And I want all of you here tomorrow, sometime in the day. At the same time," He slurred, looking at me over his sunglasses.
"Yeah, no problem man."
"Oh and your sister might kill me if I don't tell you-"
"I already know."
--
I crossed the threshold of my house, not wanting to make a sound. I needn't have bothered though because my mother and Ted were standing right in front of me.
"Hey, you guys. How are you?" I said at a desperate attempt for a good conversation.
"Sit down," my mothers voice was firm.
I took my place at our circular wooden table and sat. My mother sat across but Ted stood standing.
"Stand up," he said.
"Oh now this is confusing. One wants me to sit the other stand," I mumbled, standing none the less.
"What the hell are you wearing Kimber?" He said angrily.
I looked down at my clothes. I thought I looked fine. A pair of old faded jeans, that had been ripped and slashed in many places from falling, a black Stones shirt that I had cut a spiderweb design in the back, and my Vans.
"What's wrong with what I'm wearing?"
"It looks like you haven't showered in a week, shredded your clothes, and is too revealing!"
"I'm not showing anything. Be thankful I didn't cut this in the front." I said.
"Don't talk to him like that. And sit back down," Kendall said adamantly.
"Kimber, you haven't been going to school. I'm not paying for you to go and surf all day. And at night all you do is drink and party. You really need to start thinking about your future," she stated looking me in the eye. Here she goes, the whole speech about how I'm messing up my life. Whatever. Ted had disappeared, probably off fuming somewhere.
"Look, mom, I'm not screwing my life up. I swear I'll go to school tomorrow and start trying a lot harder-"
"WHAT IS THIS?" came Ted's booming voice, then his loud footsteps and he stopped in front of me holding a brown paper bag. His entire head had gone red, and a vein in his forehead was threatening to burst. Because he was bald this was especially intimidating.
"Um… what?" I asked trying to look innocent.
He thrust the bag open and shoved it under my face. I looked down to none other than my stash.
"What are you talking about Ted?" my mom said looking from his red face to my guilty one.
"Look at this!" he yelled passing it across the table to her. She took the bag cautiously and opened it.
"Kimberly. Azure. Wolffe," she was shaking with rage. I winced at the sound of my full name. Kimberly. Ugh. Ever since I was old enough to think for myself I've gone by Kimber.
"Do you want to explain?"
"Um…" for one of the first times in my life I was speechless.
"I can explain!" Ted shouted. At this second shout I noticed some of my siblings come out of their rooms to listen. "She's a slacker, careless hippie who does nothing but surf, skate and party! She has a new boyfriend every week and is only 16! She rips all the clothes I buy for her and wears this shit! I've had enough of it! You are going to start going to school and are grounded for two months!"
"Fine!" I could yell right back. "I don't care!"
I stood angrily from my sitting position and stomped to my bedroom, passing my siblings stunned faces. I slammed my door with a boom and fell onto my bed. I lay there for a while wondering if I would really go to school tomorrow. I sure as hell didn't think so. A light tapping on my door resounded through my room.
"Go away Ted," I called. Yet the door opened anyways, and not the bald head of Ted appeared but the long brown hair of Alex.
"Hey," he said. When I didn't reply he continued.
"Sorry my dad got onto you like that. You know how he is, just so straight," again I didn't answer. There was a pause.
"So, is your middle name seriously Azure?" he asked chuckling a little.
"Ugh, shut up man," I said although a grin did escape me.
"Look, Kimber, I'll cover for you if you want to go out," he offered. I was overwhelmed by how sweet he was being and hugged him.
--
--
--
The window slid open silently. I grabbed my black hoodie and pulled it over. I stretched my leg through the ledge and window and slid my body through. My feet touched the concrete of the ground and I headed off down the street to Jay's place. My hands in my pockets I tread the familiar path to his house. Not even five minutes later I reached his place. I grabbed some pebbles from the ground and began to throw them against his window.
The window opened and out popped Jay's blonde head looking down at me.
"What are you doing here?" he asked.
"Can you just let me in?"
"Just climb that tree and I'll help you through."
The giant tree stood with a low branch I swung up on. I grabbed the branch above me and slowly made my way up the tree, scratching my hands as I did so. When I finally made it to the branch that I was able to climb through his window on, he pulled me by the arm into his messy bedroom. The light was off and he had clothes, papers, shoes, and some books he had been reading scattered on the floor.
"What are you doing here?" he asked immediately.
"Just wanted to see what you were up to," I said sitting on his bed.
"Uh-huh. That's believable. Seriously."
"I just got into a little fight with Ted and didn't want to be there anymore," I shrugged.
"Oh," he said obviously sensing I didn't want to talk about it. We sat in silence for a moment, then he said,
"So are you really dating this Ryan guy?"
"Sorta, I don't really know. It's nothing serious."
"What's he like?" he said. His voice sounded odd.
"Like any other guy I guess. Why do you care?" I asked looking up at him.
"No reason."
I lay down on his bed and breathed in. It smelled so good. It smelled like wood, but sweet. I couldn't put my finger on it. My eyes shut and I saw the fury in my mothers and Ted's face in my mind. I opened them again to find Jay on the bed too.
"Do you need to stay here tonight?"
"I shouldn't, but I really don't want to go back," I groaned.
"You want a beer?" he questioned.
"Absolutely."
He got up from the bed and walked out of his room quietly. I stayed still on his bed and nothing ever crossed my mind. It was blank. Jay reentered the room with two beers. He handed one to me and I popped the top off. I took a long gulp. Jay had his back to me and was obviously doing something. When he turned around he had a joint in his hand. This guy really knew how to calm me down.
He lit it and gave it to me.
Before I knew it, I was stoned.
"Jayboy, I love you man," I said as I lay across his chest.
"Aw Kimber so sweet."
"Yeah, I know man."
I felt him move as to get up and I shifted so he could. But when I shifted my head fell into his lap. He was sitting and making no motion to move my head. Simply staring down at me with a grin in place. Then his face came closer and before I could figure out what was happening, we were kissing and I wasn't stopping him.
--
--
"Get up, I'm taking you to school today," my mothers voice entered in my sleeping state. I awoke with a start, thinking I would still be at Jay's. I only remembered going to his house and getting a beer. From that point on, I couldn't think of anything that had happened. But I must've walked home at some time.
I got out of bed, threw on the clothes I had been wearing yesterday and went to the bathroom. When I had brushed my teeth and washed my face, I headed into the kitchen and got myself a bowl of cereal. I sat down at the table and stared into the bowl. I was trying to remember what had gone on last night. But I was so completely high I couldn't think of any of the night's events. Dammit. My mother tapped me on the shoulder and said,
"Come on. I'm making sure you get to school."
--
so that's that. please submit reviews. please, please, please.
--lette.