September 30, 2008
YOU, why? Why did you do that to me? Why did you lie? The only thing I ever did was love you and you hurt me to death. Well you know what? You did it, I'm dead MEME doesn't exist. You killed her when you kissed another girl. Don't look for a girl that's no longer part of me, you're not going to find her, like I said, you killed her. I loved you and I won't deny that I still do with all my being. But I'm broken and the hole you left it's bleeding…a lot , it just hurts too much…Knowing that all those kisses, hugs, the caressing, the words your gestures were all just…lies, empty lies. I think…well I know that one time I told you to not play with an I love you because that means too much and you can't play with me…. Why did you lie? You kissed her and told her that you were tired of me that I annoyed you. How could you play with me like that? You hurt me. How could you play with me like that, you hurt me really deep. I trusted you with everything and you… you used me to kill time…. WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU? MY ONLY FAULT WAS TO LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD!... My fault was to give you my whole life. My only fault was to give you everything. You were my first everything, you were the one that showed me how to love for real. I wished this would just be a bad dream and that I'll wake up soon…. But no, it won't matter how much I pinch myself…. The nightmare will still be there.
Sincerely,
The idiot who loved you more than her own life, ME
P.S.
No one will tell you about me, and I won't cross your path anymore.