This letter was written on October 6th,2008….but the reply came the 9th of October…the same day that brought a smile to ME was the day she lost herself….again…

October 6,2008

YOU, I can't anymore, I can't be strong anymore and act like I don't care. I do care…a lot. Please don't hurt me anymore, please no more, if you like another girl, tell me, even if it hurts I'll let you go. Why can't you see that I miss your touch, you kisses, your hugs and in that time we were together in our school in junior high…you made me addicted to you. You gave me love and gentleness and I missed you during summer a lot and when I finally get to see you…you don't even look at me. I miss when you said in my ear that you loved me, when you tickled my neck just to hear my laugh, I miss that every chance you got you gave me a kiss… I miss the letters that I randomly found on my and I love you's with your handwriting, I miss that even if you saw me a bit thoughtful you'd ask me if I was okay, I miss when we shared special moments and you told me that you loved me deeply and that I was yours… Where did that go? Where did the love of my life go? You promised me you weren't going to change…that you would always love me, do you have any idea what that meant to me? When you said I love you, or was that just until you got bored of me? YOU, I still love you with everything I have, you have my soul my heart, my mind I gave you absolutely everything. I thought you had too…Please, tell me what I am to you? You have no idea what it is to have this question on your chest and think of the worst every day and going to sleep only to have nightmares about it. Just tell me how you feel because I need to know. I'm dying slowly because of you. I need you to breath, to smile, you're my everything….No one is going to steal that place. Because your name is engraved in my heart, and in the last kiss we shared, I gave it to you… I gave you my life…. You can do whatever you want with it.

I love you,

Your ME, always yours

The only reply October 9, 2008

Hi! Hey I'm sorry for not answering the last one, and I'm sorry about earlier… well, I want to say I'm sorry and that you can please understand me please… I'M SORRY, but… I was forced to only be my friend and well, I love you with all my being but… from the start my intention wasn't to hurt you… but I've been an idiot.

Love ya!

YOU

P.S.

No, it's not another girl.

It's ironic, I promised that I'd read it when I got home, but I didn't keep that promise…I read it in school, it was the first promise that I ever broke, the only one at that…and I regret it…I just remember running out of the school and crying in a nearby park on a bench…that's where ME never came to be her self ever again….she was lost.