Chapter 4

It was 9:30 I didn't know what to do on a Friday night. I thought Marshall would have came over by now. I didn't know what to do. The phone started to ring and I answered it, "Hello."

"Hey babe," Rodney says through the other end of the phone.

"Hey," I say.

"He beat you again didn't he?" Rodney questioned knowing that my tone of voice said it all.

"Yeah, pretty bad, I even have a swollen eye," I told him starting to cry.

I popped me 3 tabs while Rodney talked about how he would be here in no time to get me, he was saving up.

"Please hurry baby, I miss you," I told him as I was hanging up the phone.

I grabbed my pipe and went to sit on the front steps my dad was gone and wouldn't be back home until morning anyways. I put my hoodie up over my head and heated my pipe and took a long hard draw while continuing to cry.

"Well, baby girl finally decide to come out?" Marshall asked walking out of his door. He was smiling at me until he got closer. I got up fast and ran into my house. I didn't want him to see me like this.

I walked into my bedroom and laid down on my bed and continued to smoke my pipe. Marshall walked in and I wouldn't look up at him. I handed him the pipe which he took and sat down beside me on the bed. At this point I still hadn't looked at him. He handed me the pipe and I filled it up again and took a shit load of drags from it and handed it to Marshall. This went on until it was gone and I went to hide it. Still not looking Marshall in the face. I grabbed him a tab and handed it to him, I was already fucked up.

"Baby Girl, look at me," he said. I just shook my head and kept my hoodie over my head and my head to the ground. I didn't want him to see me beat up and crying. "Baby Girl, fucking look at me."

I looked up and his mouth dropped. "I'll fucking kill him," Marshall says and starts to get up.

"It's no use M, just let it go," I said. I put my hands on his chest and it seemed to calm him down a bit.

"Baby Girl, never hide that beautiful face from me," he told me and wrapped his arms around me. I wrapped my arms around him and we stood there for a while like that. I started to break down again, my emotions were weighing me down.

"M, can we just get fucked up?" I asked.

"Baby Girl, no problem," he said and pulled out a blunt. I smiled I hadn't smoked weed in a while and the meth always let me stay up. The weed would help me sleep. I would just lock my door. My dad gave me space after the beatings, he wouldn't know what was going on.

We lit the blunt and passed it back and forth, I was fucking blazed and feeling great. I yawned, Marshall smiled and said, "I just noticed that you nick named me M," he said.

"Yeah, sounds cool huh?" I asked.

He shook his head yeah and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I looked up at him and it happened again, I got myself in a situation I did not want to be in. But with Marshall around Rodney never entered my mind. Maybe just maybe I can test my sneaking around skills. I mean hell Rodney was all the way in Nashville.

I grabbed the back of Marshall's neck and brought his lips to mine. His tongue begged for entrance and I gave permission. We made out non stop for what felt like forever. I didn't want to let go of those lips and he acted like he didn't either.

"Baby Girl," he said whenever we broke apart.

"Yeah?" I asked.

"I really want to be with you, as in you be mine, and I'll be all yours," Marshall says.

"I'd really like that," I told him, Rodney was in Nashville right.

"But, we have to quit the Meth," Marshall said, "Weed and tabs are the only thing that we need to be doing."

"Sounds great," I said.

"It's going to be hard, so we can smoke all the meth until it's gone, but than no more," he said.

"I agree, I'm out of control, the meth has me to where I don't know if I'm going or coming," I told him.

He kissed me on my lips and simply cuddled with me until we went to sleep that Friday night at 11:30 P.M.

I woke up to an arm around me and than I remember and smiled a great big smile and turned over to see that angel right beside me. I kept smiling, and decided to just stare.

Five minutes into the staring Marshall's eyes pop open and he says, "Baby Girl you've been staring at me for the last few minutes do I have a bugger in my nose?"

I start laughing, "why didn't you let me know you was awake?" I asked and kissed him on the lips.

"So, today we going to smoke all that meth up and than we going to stop ok?" he asked.

"It's a deal," I agreed.

We started the meth binge at 11 o'clock that morning and I was putting the last of it in the pipe at 2 o'clock, and whenever that was gone we took the pipe outside and crushed it onto the gravel. We were pretty tweeked though and would be for a few days.

"So, what do you wanna do now baby girl," he asked.

"I don't know but let me get dressed we going out," I smiled….

I took a shower and straightened my waist length black hair, and put on some tight jeans with my black boots, I was from Nashville, and a tight t-shirt and a black jack over the t-shirt.

I walked out of the house and Marshall was waiting on me. We started walking until we got to a club, didn't know the name but we walked in and didn't even get ID'd.

We danced to the rap music that was playing and shared a few kisses on the dance floor. "I knew it," we heard before we separated lips for what seemed like the twentieth time that night. It was DeShaun. He hugged me and patted Marshall on the back and said, "I knew that this would happen, so wanna go battle?"

Marshall said "yeah,"….. Battle? WTF was that shit I was wondering.. Marshall wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped mine around his. I hadn't really met a lot of people but we walked with DeShaun out to the parking lot where a crowd was gathered. Everyone looked at me and DeShaun introduced me as Marshall's girl, Jennifer. I got a few mean looks from the girls, but I waved it off. Marshall kissed me and went and rap battled with a guy… I was amazed…. He was so good at that…. He was done and came back over to me.

"That was so amazing M," I said.

"Thanks Baby Girl," he said.

We stood around the parking lot for a few more minutes before we started walking with DeShaun back to his house. His mom had odd hours so we were going to party at his house.

We partied at DeShaun's for a while, I met some really cool people, and actually talked and laughed without M being by my side. I was actually starting to fit in here.

I was currently talking to a girl named Rachel whenever M walked up and drug me close to him, and started dancing with me. I looked back at Rachel and she gave me a thumbs up. Rachel was a nice girl and I figured we were going to be great friends.

We danced until my feet hurt and we decided we would go back to my house.

Whenever we got to my house my dad was still gone thank goodness and M and myself went to my bedroom and locked the door. We popped a tab a piece and I put on some music and turned the lights off. I had trouble getting to the bed but finally found it.

"Baby Girl, I had so much fun with you tonight," M told me.

"I had fun with you to M," I told him.

Than his arms snaked around my waste and his head was over mine and his lips attacked mine.

"Hey M," I said after he had laid back down beside me.

"Yeah," he asked.

"Do you have a blunt?" I asked I really wanted to get some sleep.

"Yeah, I was just fixin to say do you want to smoke one and sleep," he said.

"Yeah, I'm through with staying up for days at a time," I said. It would be a long and hard road to quit my habit but I knew M would be there for me.

We lit the blunt and got blazed, and soon enough I fell asleep once again in the arms that made me feel so damn good.