Chuck versus The Sandworm

Chuck raced in through the door in his work uniform, he was looking rather hot and flustered. He noticed Ellie and Awesome snuggled up on the sofa with a bowl of popcorn and he felt a pang of jealousy.

"Hi." He babbled. "Is Sarah here?"

"She waiting in your room." Awesome informed him.

"Is everything okay?" Ellie asked as she eyed Chuck anxiously.

"She said she had a surprise for you." Awesome continued as Chuck almost sprinted out of the room. "Get in there slugger."

Chuck came into his bedroom to find Sarah standing before him. "Who is this Laszlo character? He just ID'd me-"

"Relax, we're going to get to him, you did the right thing." Sarah said softly.

"I didn't do anything, I just flashed on the guy." Chuck argued.

"You followed protocol and I'm going to check in with you first thing in the morning." Sarah said calmly as she began to make her exit.

"Wait, wait!" Chuck shouted as Sarah span around. "Look.." He said awkwardly, "If it's okay with you would you mind hanging out here for a while?"

Sarah gazed at him questioningly.

"Awesome and Ellie think I'm getting lucky in here right now and I wouldn't want to disappoint - them." Chuck looked at the floor.

"Oh, uh, how long do you want me to stay?" She asked equally as awkwardly, barely able to get her words out.

"Forty-two minutes and fifteen seconds." He blurted. As Sarah looked mildly amused. "Arcade Fire's first album it's like an auditory aphrodisiac - your not really ready for it yet, I'll put it on." Chuck said, turning on his ipod as music started swirling around the room.

They sat on the bed shoulder to shoulder in silence. Chuck was desperately trying to think of something to say, come on Chuck, anything! Finally an eureka thought struck him.

"Why were you waiting for me in my room, anyway?" He asked.

Sarah thought for a moment. "Well, I wanted to uh, surprise you.." She said, picking up a picture from his bedside table. "It's us at Comic Con." She handed it to him. "What do you think?"

He looked down at the two significant figures in front of him, they looked so happy, Sarah looked breathtaking in her two piece costume and he looked happier than ever, but then as he studied it more, he looked fake and so did she.

"But we've never actually been to Comic Con, have we? Wow, we actually look like a real couple." He admitted.

"We are a real couple." Sarah lied. "Just a different sort of a couple."

"That we are." He said quietly. "Sarah do you think we're-"

"Think we're what?" Sarah willed him to continue.

"Getting too close? I mean you could leave at any moment." Chuck said quietly.

Sarah felt a little stung. She didn't get close to anyone, she didn't need anyone.. Did she? "No of course not, and I don't think I'm going anywhere for a while."

He lay down on the furthest side of the bed and hugged a pillow close to his chest. Sarah wished she could be that pillow, but she didn't know why. She lay back next to him and propped herself up onto one elbow and let out a deep sigh.

"I'm beginning to see the person you are, Sarah." Chuck admitted. "And I like her."

"You shouldn't be seeing that side to me." Sarah whispered.

"What? Why?" He asked.

She glanced at where she thought the camera was and anxiously thought of Casey, sitting the other side of the lens watching in anticipated amusement. She pushed it out from her mind and just wanted to be Sarah for once, she wouldn't reveal anything, she just would prove that she was human enough to have a conversation other than something involving work.

"Spy's aren't meant to show emotion." She replied.

"But, you are human being, you can't hide everything. Don't you want to enjoy yourself for once, Sarah? Let someone know who you are? Show the world your not an emotionless robot?" Chuck turned to her, her eyes full of emotion.

"Yes, yes and yes." Sarah said. "But I can't not in this line of work. You can't let people get too close to you Chuck, you never know when your going to have to leave someone or kill them. That's why I can't let people in." Her eyes shone and reflected his, she wanted everything to come flowing out of her, but she couldn't. And he had to know why.

"Knock knock, I want you to let me in." He came closer to her.

"I can't." She couldn't hide the emotion in her voice.

"Just tell me something." He smiled. "Just one thing."

"I told you my middle name didn't I?"

"We need to move on from that. Come on, I'm helping you on your journey to becoming a real person." He said.

I am a real person! She wanted to scream. But I can't show you that side of me, haven't I just explained this?

"I can't do this right now, Chuck. Your just my asset and I'm your handler, we don't need to get the wires crossed and start sharing information. We just hang out sometimes, I suppose it helps with us getting along at work, but you get too stressed at these things." She had to say it, even though it wasn't true and it was going to hurt him.

"I don't." He sulked. "But your more than just a handler to me." Shut up! Don't do this to yourself, shut up, shut up, shut up!

"What do you mean?" She leant closer to him.

"You're my uh, friend." He whispered.

"We're friends?" Sarah queried, with her eyes wide and her cheeks gently rising.

"Yes!" He said, amazed at how big a deal this was to her. He couldn't help smiling back, he wanted to kiss her right there and then, but he couldn't not after all she had just said. She wasn't going to let him in, not easily, he could have to chip away until he was left with the person that she was. It was going to take a lot of work. Let the battle commence.

She edged closer to him, desperately wanting to wrap her arms around him. She felt a surge of something shoot through her and as she gazed up at him, she finally acknowledged how good looking he was. He wasn't an obviously right-in-your-face sexy man like Bryce, but he was a more discreet and nerdy sort of sexy, but definitely sexy nonetheless.

She loved his personality too and the way he wasn't afraid to let her in, the total opposite of her. But she had to get away before it got too much for her, she desperately needed her diary. But she still had about twenty minutes left to go until the CD finished.

"What if they're expecting to hear noises or something?" Chuck said out of the blue. "I mean they're meant to think we're having sex."

"Chuck!" Sarah said, clearly disgusted. And then she cracked up laughing. "Your so random."

"But it's true! Ellie probably thinks you've been hired to be my girlfriend or something, she wouldn't ever believe I could get someone like you." He admitted.

"Like me?" Sarah asked. And when he didn't answer she thought for a moment. "OOOOOOHH!" She shouted.

Chuck looked at her in confusion, but then finally it clicked. "Sarah!" He hissed, half grinning.

"What? You were concerned that we weren't believable enough!" She said defensively.

" Fair enough." He said. "OH GOD SARAH!" He moaned loudly as they both looked at each other and started to giggle hysterically. "GIVE IT TO ME BABY! LIGHT MY FIRE!" He screamed.

"OOOH!" Sarah could barely contain her laughter, she rolled onto the floor and couldn't catch her breath. About fifteen minutes later she wiped away her tears of laughter. The music ended abruptly.

"I guess it's time to go." She smiled.

"Oh. Wait you don't looked dishevelled enough. Come here."

Obediently, Sarah came to him and he ruffled her hair until it was messy. "There!" He said admiring her. She smiled back at him.

"Well uh, bye." She said awkwardly. She walked away from him but then he pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her. Her heart stopped, she felt light headed, she went weak at the knees. She pulled away.

"Friends hug!" Chuck shrugged as she walked out.

Walking into the living room, Sarah eyed Ellie and Awesome nervously, they looked at her in amusement.

"How was the 'surprise'?" Awesome asked.

"It was amazing, he loved it." Sarah smiled knowingly. Ellie and Awesome looked at each other, and giggled as she walked out of the door.

It's getting worse. Sarah wrote. I don't know what to do. I can't be falling for him, I just can't! Okay I admit I like him. Crap, I just admitted it. What the hell am I doing? Well, It's not like he'll ever know, it's just, I can't help it, he's like a magnet, he draws me to him.

I've never felt like this before, not even about Bryce. I have to stop it now! I have to!

Earlier, we laughed so hard. It was barely an hour I was in his room but yet it felt like forever, we were chatting like old friends. Yet I don't think old friends feel weak at the knees for one another, do they? I guess not.

God, I hope no one ever reads this diary.

Anyway, I finally admit it to myself and I'll never admit it to anyone else. I like Chuck Bartowski.

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