Hey you! how are you? i'm excellent because today i'm done with the second chapter! so here it is. enjoy. hope you like it. =)
WARNING: i've never been in New Zealand before or now. part of the story is there because i like the idea of it. i apologize i someone who has really already been there or know it bettter than me, or actually lives there; and what i've written has no conexion with the actual place.
ps: this is the longest chapter i've ever written! LOL
Hours passed by and I was still sitting on a bench at the airport. My bag was somewhere on the floor, my face was hidden by my hands and my heart was broken.
-Excuse me, sir. Are you feeling well? – A voice said somewhere around me. I looked up. The same lady who has gave us the welcome to New Zealand, was now standing in front of me.
-No. –I replied dryly. There was no reason for me to lie to her now. I didn't care what she was thinking about me at that moment but it must be 'poor guy'.
-Do you have somewhere to stay a reservation in a hotel room, or maybe, somewhere with a friend or family?
-No. – I repeated myself in the same tone. It was not because I wanted to be mean with her, it was because, well you know. She disappeared then for a couple of minutes. Then she appeared sitting next to me. She handed me a brochure with the name of a few hotels in town. She had marked one of them with a red pen.
-I have booked you in this hotel here for you and also called a taxi. It is already waiting for you outside, Mr. Ishida. Sorry for doing this things without your permission but I thought that…- I cut her off.
-Thank you. - I said nicely. I looked at the brochure and then at her. I give her a sad smile and then walked away and got into the taxi. I handed the driver the brochure with the hotel name on it. Several minutes passed till we got there. I paid him the 21 box he asked for and got out. I asked for my hotel key and tried to find my room. Half and hour later I found it. I got inside without turning the light on. My bag fall somewhere on the floor and I fall somewhere on the bed. I tried to sleep again. It was almost noon and I haven't closed my eyes since I discovered that Sora was cheating on me with Tai. The curtains were shut and the room was dark. I thought about it again and again and again.
She was supposed to be mine and only mine. We were supposed to be together. Everyone thought so. I thought so. But it seems she didn't. But there is also something that keeps bothering me more than the fact that she has cheated on me. Why?
Why would she cheat on me like that? I have done nothing to bother her; I have done everything she wanted me to do; I even have plan the stupid wedding the way she wanted because I wanted to make her happy. I have never lye to her. I have never ever cheated on her. I have never forgotten our anniversary or her birthday or her parents though. I have been the perfect boyfriend; I could be the perfect husband. I'm kind, I'm funny, I'm respectful, I'm cute, I'm rich, I'm hot, I'm lovely, for god sake I'm everything a girl would want me to be. I'm the fucking dream of every single girl on earth and my girlfriend cheated on me?
Who I'm kidding? I'm nothing. I'm crab. If she had her reason, might be because I'm not worth it. I'm a loner. That's who am I. I'm supposed to stay alone forever. I have no real friends, I have no girlfriend and I'm in somewhere I don't even know where it is. Where the hell am I?
I stayed in the room for many days. Not even once I opened the curtains. I ordered some food when it was required. But other than that, I haven't talked to anybody for a few days. I just thought about her and drank a lot.
One day I eat lobster and it reminded me of Sora because she doesn't like it. And how one day she almost broke–up with me because I invited her to a lobster restaurant. Who doesn't like lobster? And who for god sake, would break-up with her lovely boyfriend because he invites her for dinner to a fine restaurant?
The more I thought about something, the more it reminded me of her. How can a heart-broken man live with that? I have never yelled at her, nor even insulted her. Well, just once but it does not count.
I have always given her expensive gifts. The ones she loved, and she always used, the ones she always talked about.
Shit! How do I do to take her out of my mind?! She is driven me freaking crazy!
I opened another bottle of whiskey and started drinking again.
-Has he called you? –Kari was sitting on the couch when TK came into the room.
-Nope. – He replied taking a seat next to her. He hugged her and kissed her softly on the lips.
-What are we going to do? We don't know where he is, nor even what he is doing or with who! What if he tried to kill himself? – Kari was nervous and worried about Matt. TK hug her and asked her to never ever again say something like that.
-He is going to be fine. He is Matt. – TK tried to calm her down. The phone rung and TK picked up.
-Yeah? - Almost instantly he recognized the voice over the phone.
-TK? – It was her.
-For the freaking hell, Sora, stop calling here. Matt won't talk to you. He doesn't want to see you or know anything about you. Leave him alone! - he hung up and hugged her fiancé again.
-Should we delay the wedding date? – Kari asked.
-I don't know. I mean, he needs time to recover himself from it but… - Kari cut him off.
-I can wait. I mean, a couple of months are nothing. We are spending the rest of our life together right? If we get marry in three months and three weeks, Matt surely won't be able to sing for us. - TK smirked. – You told me once that you have asked him to sing in our wedding, remember? And I really want to hear him singing, It will make our wedding more special, don't you think?
-I guess I can call and asked for a change. How long are you thinking to wait?
-Maybe we should get married in, I don't know, 6 months? SO he has 4 months to get over it and two months to write us a song. –TK couldn't help it but smiled.
-I love that idea. - He kissed her on the neck and the phone rung again. Both of them sighed. It might be Sora again. She can't stand a 'NO' for answer, she is such a brat.
-I have told you for millions of times, stop calling here! He doesn't want – The other voice cut TK off. It wasn't Sora at all, no. It was actually Matt.
-TK, I'm fine. – Said Matt on the other line. He was not drunk yet.
-Where the fucking hells are you? - TK yelled up over the phone. Automatically Kari understood that it was Matt on the phone.
-I'm… out. – Kari has just picked up the other phone and was hearing the conversation as well.
-Where? Out where? – TK asked again trying to calm himself a bit. His brother wasn't dead. That was good.
-Please, Matt. We are worry about you! – Said Kari on the other phone. Matt's voice was sad and depressing.
-I'm… I'm in New Zealand. – He said after a long paused.
-New Zealand? You mean, New Zealand like a new bar somewhere, or you mean, New Zealand like the country. – Asked Kari.
-I needed to get out of there. I wasn't thinking. I just got to the airport and got a flight to get out. Then I first realized what I was doing like an hour ago. That's why I'm calling. Sorry for make you guys worried about me all of this time.
-Are you really there? –TK couldn't believe his brother. How does he do that kind of stuff?
-Yes.
-When are you coming home? –asked Kari again.
-I don't know. But I'll be there for your wedding guys. Don't worry, I'll be there.
-Hey about that, we have just decided to delay the date. – Matt wanted to complain, to tell them not to. That he was going to be just fine that they don't have to do that. But he didn't. He knew he was not going to be fine. He knew that they knew it. He also knew that it was going to be a long and tortuous recovering. The moment he lost her, he lost everything. He lost his confidence. He tried his hardest to get her back, but it didn't work. He lost his friends. He lost his happiness and also; he has lost the love of his life. At least that's what he thought.
-We have not decided the date yet but it is going to be in 6 months or more. –added Kari. Matt couldn't help but sighed. He was so depressed and so alone. He didn't know what to do.
-Hey man, listen to me. Make us a favor, ok? Now that you are in New Zealand, have a good time. Get out of your hotel room and try to get over it. I've heard that the beaches there are amazing and the mountains, too. Take lots of pictures and don't forget to buys us a souvenir when you come home. – TK could swear that he heard a softly laughed coming from Matt. He smiled. This was going to be a long wait but it might help Matt to get over Sora, who knows.
After hearing my brother's speech and promising them that I was going to call them soon, I hung up. I thought about what he says and what Kari's. I rolled over and over the bed. I didn't want to go out, not yet. I was not ready. I stood up of the bed wearing nothing but my boxers. I got in the bathroom and turned the shower on. I was down. I wanted to kill this pain that I was feeling. Maybe a hot shower would help.
It felt nice; the hot water crashing against my naked and vulnerable body. Then I remember Sora taking a shower and me standing in the bedroom. For some reason she didn't want me to take a shower with her. I have always tried to convince her but she never gave in. I thought about Tai and Sora having sex in the shower.
I threw up at that single thought.
I dried myself with a towel and dressed myself. The more I spent time alone and the more I tried to forget about her, the more I think about her. Maybe it's not a bad idea to go out today. I looked at the clock. The curtains were still shut and the room was dark. I turned on the light to recognize the numbers on the clock. The light almost blinded me. 03:12 a.m.
Maybe I should wait a few hours before going out.
I looked at the almost empty bottle of whiskey. I handed it to my mouth and stopped before drinking from it.
I have been drinking since I came. People, if they saw me, would think of me as an alcoholic. But I'm not that. Why does she have this power over me? Why do heart-broken people want to be more vulnerable drinking the hell out of them, instead of trying to fight against it? She was not going to damage me more than what she has done till yet. No; instead of me suffering, I am going to make her suffer.
With that thought on my mind I let the opened bottle somewhere on the floor, and I fall asleep.
The Sunlight woke me up but I refused to keep my eyes opened. I tried to think about how it was possible but the only way of knowing was to open my eyes. I did so, and so a petit young lady with a broom on one hand and with the other one she was opening the other curtain. It seemed that he hadn't notice that I'm still in bed. I seat on the bed and she stared at me.
-I'm so sorry, Mr. I didn't know you where still sleeping. I'll come back later to clean the room. – said the lady. I looked at her and then around the room. I was a mess.
-No, no. – I said covering my eyes with my hand so the sunlight wouldn't hurt my eyes. – It's ok. Do your work, I'll take a shower.
The lady stared at me again. She nodded and I got out of bed. I looked at the broken bottle on the ground next to the bottle I was going to finished yesterday.
The room was the exactly reflection of myself right now. Shit.
I took a long shower, this time without throwing up. I found these little shampoos and aromatic stuff there. I used them. Today I was going to start new. I was going to stop thinking about Sora and living again my life how it is supposed to be.
I got out and looked for my bag. It was somewhere in the room. I searched for it but I couldn't found it. The lady handed me my bag.
-I found it under your sheets. – She said. I tried to smile at her but today was not my day. I think I smirked or kind of.
I got dressed; a simple pair of old jeans (Who would know I still had ones), a white shirt and black snickers. I put my cell phone in my pocket, said 'goodbye' and 'thank you' to the lady, cleaning my hotel room and went out, leaving the room keys on the reception.
The moment I stepped put of the hotel, I could breathe for the first time in a long time. I don't know why but this place, this air, this country, this opportunity; made me feel lucky. I was starting thinking positive for the first time since the engagement party.
I called a taxi and asked him to drive me to somewhere spectacular. He smiled and nodded.
-Sir, wouldn't you mind to pay me now the half and when we reached our destiny the other half? – asked the taxi driver halfway away from our destiny. I really didn't know where he was taking me but I really didn't care. I looked in my pocket but I didn't found my wallet. Shit. He was going to murder me.
-How much is it? – I asked him. He smiled.
-Until now, 27.
-I…hmmm… When we reached our destiny could you take me to a bank or something, I'm out of cash, right now. – Suddenly the drivers face darkened. He pulled over and literally threw me out off the taxi.
I lied on the ground watching how the taxi drove away, leaving me somewhere in nowhere. I looked around; mountains, river, mountains, road, mountains; nothing else. I didn't know where the hell I was. I didn't know where the hell I was going. Neither do what the fuck what I was going to do.
A car past by and I made it signals but he wouldn't pull over. I found my cell phone in my pocket. I also found the brochure with the hotel number on it.
I tried to call but there was no signal. I wanted to kill myself. What the hell was I going to do?
No cash, no food, no cell phone, no bed, no civilization, no nothing.
I sat down on a stone looking at the river. I was so pissed off that the only think I could figured out to be less angry with myself was throwing my cell phone away.
I should have not leaved the hotel today. I should have stay on my bed. I should have yell at the maid, so she would leave me alone and nothing off this would have happened.
I heard a noise down in some bush near the river where my cell phone has landed.
Fuck. Now I was really dead. Maybe some mysterious and danger animal was going to attack me and kill me. Why does this happen to me? I'm already miserable, why is life against me today?
I stood up and ready to run away, when the animal showed up. I would have run away if it has been an animal, but she was definitely not an animal. Yes, I'm talking about a girl. Why is a girl hidden behind some bushes in the middle of nowhere? I could not tell.
At the beginning I thank god, for being such a wonderful friend, who has giving to me the opportunity to get myself back to civilization. Then I realized that it was not going to be possible.
She walked to me. I could tell by the looked on her face that she was pissed. The moment she stood right in front of me, she started yelling and insulting me because of ruining her photo shoot. She almost slapped me. I stared at her. She kept yelling and yelling and yelling. She was mad. Then the unthinkable happened. She slapped me and I fell to the ground. She walked away and I stared at her back. Could you believe her?
Seconds later I stood up and started walking in the other directions. Several minutes later, a car stopped next to me but I didn't look at it.
-Want a ride? - I looked up at the driver. It was her. The same who just minutes later was ready to kill me without me knowing why, was now trying to help me. I couldn't help it but smile. For the first time in what it seems like an eternity, I smiled. It wasn't a fake smile, not even a happy one. But it was a smile.
I didn't refuse. I got into the passenger seat and she drove back to the city. Well I guess. It passed like 5 minutes before she started talking.
-I'm Mimi. – She said without looking at me. I looked at her.
-Matt. – That was the only thing that came out of my mouth.
She looked at me and smirked. Then she looked back at the road.
-So, what brings you to New Zealand? – She asked me.
-How do you now I'm not from here? – I replied. I don't know why but I didn't want to tell her everything about me. She seemed to be nice and real; but there was something like a barrier stopping me from talking. Besides I didn't know her.
-I don't. But I bet you are running away from something otherwise you wouldn't have been thrown out from that cab.
-How do you know I've been thrown out from a cab?
-I'm not stupid; beside why else would you be here, 20 miles away from the city?
-Maybe I run.
-Right, with jeans? No sweat? And don't take it personally but you don't look like a person who would run 20 miles just for fun and then 20 miles back to the city. If you were, you wouldn't have thrown your cell phone away, and the most important, you wouldn't be sitting in my car now. – She said matter-of-factly. I reminded in silence.
-Are you alright? –she asked with worry in her eyes. –You looked depressed.
-I just had a rough day, that's all.
-Liar – she said still looking at the road.
-I'm not lying. – I replied.
-Yes, you are.
-You don't know me.
-That's true but anyway I can tell that you are lying. – I looked at her. –So what's wrong?
I have never met a girl or a person in general like her. She was persistence and one thing I could tell about her, is that she knew what she wanted and she would fight for it no matter how hard it's going to take her, have it. I didn't know how did I know that but I just did. And I liked that.
-I broke-up with my girlfriend. - It was true, in a way. But I could tell that she has waited for more information. I thought she would ask me for more, but didn't happen.
- And that's why you are here?
-Yeah, you could say so. – She looked at me and smiled. – What? - I asked.
-Nothing. – She said still looking at me. I couldn't help but think that she was reading me. She knew that it wasn't the whole story, but its kind of, right?
-Can I ask you something? – I asked looking out the window.
-Ask.
-Why did you slap me?
-Why did you throw your cell phone away?
-I was angry. – I said defending my action.
-Same here.
-I know that. You slapped me.
-I'm sorry. I really am. I shouldn't have slapped you. It was rude.
-No problem. But what were you doing in those bushes?
-I was taking a picture for a magazine. There was a bird and I was going to take the last shoot when your cell phone scared it. I was mad because the position and the light were in that instant, perfect. It was going to be the best photo ever.
-I'm really sorry; I didn't know that – She cut me off.
-Don't worry. I still have some pictures about that bird I can use for that article.
I bet that national geographic won't really care about which picture of mines they are going to use. I was angry because that photo was going to be great and you ruined it. But I don't care about it anymore. – I stared at her. I couldn't really tell if she really cared about the photo or not. It seemed not but I wasn't sure. There was something in her that made me doubt. Maybe it was because she is not the kind of woman I'm used to talk to. She is nothing like Sora. The way she talks, moves, drives, think. Also the clothes she used. She was nothing like any girls in the world or must I say in my world.
She was different. Jeans were covering her legs. She was wearing also a black top and grey snickers. Her eyes were hidden now under a pair of sunglasses. I couldn't tell her eyes color but. I have notice it at the time she yelled at me, but I couldn't think about it now. Her caramel hair was done in a nut.
After a few minutes in silence she turned on the music. I could tell she wanted to keep talking but something made her shut up. I kept an eye on her the rest of the trip. She sang along many songs she knew. I knew also some of them. I used to listen to them before I met Sora. She never like them, so I stopped listens to them.
Ten minutes passed by and we were already there. She pulled over and I kept staring at her. She looked up at me.
-What? – She asked.
-Nothing. – I didn't move. She couldn't help but smile. I smirked.
-We are already there.
-Where? – I asked her innocently not wanting to get out of the car. It felt like if I returned to my hotel room I would be hunted by the memory of that day.
-To your hotel. – I sighed and got out of the car. I stayed at the window for a couple of seconds waiting for her to say something but she didn't. I walked away. I got to the elevator when she called me.
-Matt? - I looked at her. She was standing at the entrance. –I was wondering if you are not going to do something tomorrow, maybe I can show you the city and so.
-I would like that. – I didn't know how did I do to answer her but I did. She kind of smiled.
-Really? – She asked back. Then she realized how stupid did that sound. –Ok, if tomorrow you still want to come with me, I'll be waiting at 8:00 a.m. outside. If not, it's ok. - I nodded. She smiled again. Then waved a goodbye and disappeared through the door.
I got into the elevator and the reached my room. I got inside and found my room all clean and ordered. For fraction of second I felt happy. Then a thought appeared in my mind. What happen if she doesn't show up?
I'm not mean and i don't like Matt to suffer, but he is going to be jsut fine with time. Mimi is going to make sure he is ok.
SO how is it?
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love,
M