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I looked for her everywhere in Tyler's house but she was anywhere to be found. I was worry; I did screw things this time. She was my friend. The only true friend I found in this foreign country and whole world. She was nothing compared to the people I've known. And now she was thinking I am the biggest jerk ever because of using her to get Sora out of my mind. But the true is that I'm a jerk but there's something telling me that I was not using her. Maybe at first I was but then it change. The moment I felt her lips against mines my whole world stopped and the time froze. It was just her and me. No thought of Sora, no pain, no nothing but a warm sensation in my chest. What the hell was that? I could not tell.

"Have you seen Mimi?" I asked Tyler. He stood up from the table where he had been talking to his friends.

"No" I was about to run a keep looking for her but he grabbed my arm and stopped me. "What the hell did you do to her?" he asked warningly.

"I… I kissed her" Tyler stared at Matt blankly for a second then he lose his grab and smiled.

"You did" he said more than asking.

"Yes but she thought I was using her to get over my ex and I can't find her anywhere"

"Did you?" the warning tone appeared again in his voice and the smile faded.

She was sitting near the sea. The moonlight was illuminating the place. She was there, still, not moving. I walked slowly to her. She looked beautiful but didn't look up at me. She knew I was there but refused to glance at me. I felt ashamed. How should I explain it to her? How could I apologize? Would she forgive me? I sat down next to her. She ignored my presence. Her gaze was stuck in the sea and a single tear run down her cheek. Great, I've made her cry. I must be a real jackass.

"When I was a teenager, I had my rock band at school. I only wore dark clothes and sometimes a white t-shirt. I listened mostly rock. I had no girlfriend. I had a couple of friends. Mostly I like to spend the time with my band or by myself." I started explaining myself. I didn't know how to start so I started at the beginning.

"I was use to be by myself. The only true friend I had was my brother. My parents are rich so I was rich at that time. I never care about money. I never really need it. I was into my music, nothing else. Then one day, my mother told me to quit the band. We had a huge fight about it and at the end, I quit it. My parents didn't get me. They always talked about money and their reputation and how I was not fitting in the picture. My brother always told me it would be alright. But I felt empty without my music. I could no nothing about it thought; I had to fit in the picture." I felt her gaze on me but did not look at her.

"I felt alone, was alone. TK never understood it but anyway he accepted it. My parents didn't though. So, I got this tattoo." I get my Shirt off and show her my back. "It would remind me that I was a loner, that I would never find someone who would be with me forever. I just realized that so I didn't wanted to forget it. I was very pessimist with my life back then." Mimi was about to say something but reminded quiet.

"No one understood me; no one really cared about me. Then one day my grandpa died. It was the saddest day in my entire life. My parents were totally disappointed on me, so I change. I started dressing the way they wanted me to. I listen to the music they wanted me to. I became I lie, I was just acting. My relationship with my parents after my grandpa's dead was just right. Like how it was supposed to be. I spend years acting like it, so got use to it. I became an adorable lie. People like me. People wanted to spent time with me. I'm hot, I'm sexy, I could have every girl I wanted. My family seemed to be fine, the perfect family picture. But I was not. I wasn't being myself. In a way I was. I was still someone you could trust, someone you could count with, it was kind of still me but without me." Mimi paid attention to me carefully. "Confuse, huh?" I gaze at her and then returned my gaze to the sea.

"One day, I was thinking about moving out of that kind of life. I was thinking about moving to another country and restart everything all over again. That day, when I was sure I was going to do so, I met Sora. I was on a family reunion. She was the fancy, sexy girl flirting with everybody. Then she saw me and flirted just with me and no one else. I just couldn't believe her. At the moment, she was the only girl that really matters in the world. My parents liked her because her parents were as rich as us. They were going to make a contract to have more money and make business bigger. We talked and I thought I fall for her. She had this something that I couldn't get out of my mind. Maybe it was because she was nothing else than another lie." Mimi looked away again and focused at the horizon.

"She was superficial, shallow, egocentric, unmoral, manipulator. She was also a good actress. She always made me believe that she loved me; that I was the man of her life; that I was the world for her. So, I accepted her with all her stupidities and superficial things. I did care about her. I was in no position to hurt a girl that was so deep in love with me. So I convinced myself that I had to love her back. So I did. But it never has born from the inside of my heart. I did love her but the main reason was because I didn't want to hurt her or disappoint my family again, so I fall in love." Mimi looked back at me and me at her. We kept our eyes locked for merely a minute without saying a word. She parted her lips and was about to say something but I cut her off before she would be able to pronounce my name.

"For many years I believed no one could love me the way I would love someone. The she appeared and tells me she loves me. It was a chance I would not let pass. Then I found out, after four years that her love for me was a big lie." I paused. I didn't want to remember what was coming next but it was time to talk about it to let it go" I found her in bed with my best friend, also best man, the day I was going to proposed her. The lovely picture I had built in four years, the effort I made to love her, not to hurt her. Everything was ruined. Then I realized that she had been playing with me. They have been lovers for almost 3 years since we started dating. I felt confuse, I didn't understand it. How could it be happening? We were supposed to spend the rest of our life together because it was said so. But she didn't care. For four years I pretend to be someone I wasn't so she would like me and fit in the damn picture. The moment that was going to actually confirm that fact demonstrated me that I didn't wanted to live my life next to someone who didn't love me. I thought she did but she didn't. It drove me nuts but it also drove me to you" I let my voice softened at the last part. It had been not so difficult to share it with Mimi. I thought I would cry or it would actually hurt again but it didn't. I felt nothing but relief. For the first time in my whole life I had tell the whole truth about me to another person.

I was about to continue but Mimi hold my hand and shushed me. I stared at her and she smiled at me. "It's ok. I know the feeling."

"You do?" I asked confuse.

"I actually never thought you would tell me the actual reasons that have brought you to New Zealand. Thank you for telling me" I looked at her. She paused and then continued.

"When I was young, my dad and my mother loved each other. They told each other every second of the day how much they loved the other. When I was 8 my dad found out that my mother was cheating on him. She had been doing it for a long time and my dad never thought of it. She gave her everything that she wanted. But for her it was not enough. His step-brother seemed to be everything for her. He was also married but they did not care. So my mother left my father and her lover his wife and they got married two weeks after that. She sends us invitation to the big wedding." I couldn't believe my ears "My dad never recovered from it. They were 10 years married, he believed that they would spend the rest of their life together and it wasn't that way. He was heartbroken."

Mimi looked at me once and then at the sand. "He tried his harder to move on, to get over it so it would not affect me. He also dated so I could have a mother but when I was ten I told him I didn't mind to be just the two of us. So he stopped dating. He did not like it though. He felt like he was forcing things"

"My dad tried to fight against it and when he was with me it was everything ok, he acted normal, and smiled. He was happy. But at the moment I was gone to school or I leave him alone he got depress and it was really sad. He did not deserve that. He was the most special person ever. He was kind and gentle. My mother didn't love him. It hurts. It hurt me too. When I was 14 we discovered that he had cancer. It was non-operable and it was supposed to be terminal. But he didn't die when the doctors said he would. He came back home. He said he would not leave me until I was ready, until I understand it would be better that way. But I refused to accept that my dad was going to die sometime soon. I blame my mother for it. I hated her. She had ruined his life."

"I'm so sorry" I said to her.

"Then at the hospital he met a woman when I was 16. She was sick too. She was gorgeous and they fall for each other. I believe their love gave them the strength to hang on life. They didn't want to let the other go. He kept on visiting her every day for 4 years until my dad got sicker, he had to stay in the hospital. I talked to the hospital and they could share a room. It was nice. For the first time, since he met this woman, he was truly happy. They die the same day, holding hands." I squeezed her hand she smiled brightly.

"My point is, I know that being betrayed by the woman you love the most hurts and it's hard to get over it. But you can't go on playing around with me or another girl to make it easy for you. Other people can get hurt without you wanting or knowing it. You will find someone; you just have to be patient."

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you. It was stupid of me. I won't tried to use you again." I apologized. She smiled at me nicely. My heart twisted as a reaction. What the hell was happening now?

"You know, I think you are wrong"

"About what?"

"About your tattoo"

"Really? How's that?" I asked her.

"First, wolfs aren't loners. They are always in groups, family. When they are alone, are not because they want to or are their destiny. It's because they are lost and they are trying to find a partner or family again." I stared at her "My dad always told me to keep on looking for a special person. He used to tell me stories about the lonely wolf that was lost and had to find his way back to his family and true love." I was speechless "I think you are not a loner, I believe you are looking for you partner only but you haven't realized it just yet"

"How do you know that?" I asked her really surprised but this. She might be possibly right about it. I was lost and I was just looking for someone to understand me. I was just looking for someone you just did what no one had ever done before.

"Because I am looking too" she stood up and zipped her dress open and let it fall to the ground. The she walked to the sea in her dark blue underwear and I stared speechless at her back. She had the same tattoo as I had on her back. Not on her shoulder but lower. I was amazed. I stopped breathing jus thinking of this. She was just perfect now. I could felt my heart beat faster and what Kari would call "butterflies" dancing in my stomach. I stood up and followed her getting rid of my clothes while I walked. Then something she told me appeared in my mind you will find someone; you just have to be patient.

I got into the water just after her and it was freaking cold. I felt the urged to hurry. She was right. I was going to find someone or better said I've already found her. A shiver went down my spine. I didn't know what I was going to do but there was something for sure I was already doing. I realized it, how the hell could I been so blind?

I was falling in love with this particular girl…

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"I thought you said you were not going to use me to get over your ex again" she said breaking the kiss.

"I'm not" I whispered against her lips and kiss her once again hoping that she would kiss me back. And--

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