Claires POV
As we laid there together I played over what had just happened in my head, every time he touched me it felt like elctricity, every kiss was like magic, No one had ever made me feel so, so, so alive. For the first time in my entire life I felt beautiful. I knew Eli hadnt judged me, and he had been gentle, making sure I was comfortable the whole time. I had never loved someone more in my entire life then I did at this moment.
"Clare? oh my gosh, your crying! are you ok? did I umm did I hurt you?" I hadnt realized I was crying untill he mentioned it. I reached up and wiped my wet face
"no, well yes, but thats not why im crying," I smiled into his barechest,
"oh, then, this may sound weird, but its kind of an ego shot that we had sex, and now your crying" he replied with that signature grin on his face, all the worry now gone. "So really babe, whats wrong?"
"Im just really happy, and sometimes when im happy I cry. Its a girl things you wouldnt understand" I replied leaning away from him to kiss his lips.
"Well you girls are very strange, but are you ok? i mean, you said I hurt you. is it really bad?" The worried look came back to his green eyes and it made me almost laugh out loud, he was too concerned about me, I wasnt fragile.
"Im fine, really, it only hurt at first. your worry too much. Now Im going to go downstairs and get a glass of water. Do you think its ok if I stay the night? or will Liz get mad? My mom thinks im at Jennas anyway."
"No its fine if you stay, Liz is cool. besides she wont be home untill dawn anyway, Shes on Vancouver time. It midnight here but 9 in her head." He said.
"K, Ill be right back, do you want something?"
"Water please."
"Ok." even though I would only be gone 10 seconds I kissed him "Ill miss you" I said with a giggle.
Walking down to his kitchen, I rememberd back again,
"Clare are you sure about this?" he had whispered to me, he was on top of me looking into my eyes,
"do you love me?"
"Of course I do."
"Then Im sure."
He started of very slow, entering my body slowly, the pain wasn't as bad as I had expected, It hurt but nothing like I imagined, and it subsided quickly, replaced by things I had never felt before. I wouldnt say I enjoyed it as much as I thought I would. But I definetly didnt not enjoy it either. Once Eli had finished he kissed my lips softly, both of us breathing heavily
"I love you" we spoke in unison
**CRASH**
I must have been watching the floor as I was walking, becuase before I knew it I had bumped right into Liz walking into the kitchen.
"Hey Clare, how are you? or do I even need to ask?" shes asked looking down at my current attire, which unfortunetly consisted soley of a bed sheet.
"Oh, hi Liz...umm Im...ummm...how are you?"
"Dont worry about it sugar, if you want we can pretend I never saw you." she winked at me as she said this, Liz was amazing, I had never met someone so cool and friendly, for some reason I wanted to tell her everything, I couldnt tell my mom about this, she would kill me, Darcy was in Africa and I knew she would disapprove, and Alli would ask too many questions. But Liz wouldnt want to hear every thing about what just happened would she?
"thats ok, thanks though" I finally replied looking at the floor,
"are you ok?" she looked genuinly concerned
"Yeah, I just. i mean we just, never mind. you dont want to hear this." I replied suddenly blushing
"Hey, He may be my brother, and yes the thought of my 16 year old brother having sex does kind of gross me out, but If you need to talk, or you feel like he pressured you at all, Im here." I could tell by the look in her eye when she said this, she meant it.
"He didnt pressure me, He wouldnt do that. Its just, I dont know. It was different then I expected."
"Kind of awkward, a little painfull, and slightly uncomfortable?" She asked sipping a large glass of water and handing my a chocolate chip cookie from the jar on the counter, beside where she was currently attempting to climb up and sit.
"exactly, I guess I expected to to feel...better? I mean I expected it to hurt, which it did. but he was really gentle." I couldnt believe I was having this discussing with a woman I had met less then 5 hours ago.
"Thats normal. My first time was on a couch...at my friends house...and I was drunk. I wasnt even dating the person, we were just friends and I dont regret it, but I do wish It had been. Different." She smiled at me crossing her long legs together on the granite counter top. "Do you regret the decision?"
"No. not at all, I love him and I know he loves me." I said looking up at her for the first time in the last few minutes.
"Good...well well speak of the devil." I followed her eye sight and saw Eli standing there wrapped in his comforter off his bed.
"Liz, hi, I didnt know you were home," Eli looked down at me and we both blushed.
"Well I am, me and Clare were just discussing," I looked up with her with pleading eyes I didnt want him to know that I had just told her everything "life. well im going to get to bed. Ill see you two in the morning I presume?"
"Yeah we will be here," Eli replied with a small smile.
"Goodnight"
"Hey Liz?" I turned around so I was facing her
"yeah?"
"Thanks."
"Anytime sugar."
"What was that about?" Eli asked me as I turned back around to grab my water.
"Nothing, she just...listened. thats all. I really like her,"
"I todl you, life is going to be perfect." he wrapped his arms around my waist...and I knew for sure that he was right.