Clares POV

It was Thursday after school and we were all piled in Liz's car heading towards our final destiination, The camp ground, joy, we had already had to make 2 stops, one at the grocery store to get our supplies and one at Canadian tire to get literally everything else we needed for camping, so 2 tents, 4 sleeping bags, 2 bags of marshmellows nad 3 hours later we were on our way. I was squished in the back seat with Adam, we had the sleeping bags and a cooler jammed between us because Liz had such a small car, A bright yellow volkswagen bug wasnt exactly an ideal camping car.

"Clare, is there anyway he can push the cooler a little that way? or are you too squished?" Adam suddenly asked breaking into my thoughts,

"Um, I might be able to make room if i move this sleeping bag" I replied, "why? whats happening over there?" I could barley see his head over all the stuff

"I cant really feel my right arm is all" He replied laughing

"Hand me the sleeping bag" Eli said from the front seat, him and Liz were the tallest so they got the front apperently "I might be able to put it at my feet with the case of water and her cds." He said her like a dirty word that tasted bad in his mouth and Liz laughed. Adam and i both reached to hand him the sleeping bag and dropped it. We leaned down to pick it up and bashed our heads together

"Ow!" I cried out at the same time as adam yelled out "Crap, that hurt!"

"Well im glad that were here finally! so you two dont kill yourselves or each other back there!" Liz laughed out pulling into our camp site.

Getting out of the car was a challenge all in its self, as soon as I opened my door stuff started falling out from around me,

"Adam, dont open your door" Eli said to him, "We are goign to have to unpack around you two" everyone started laughing hysterically,

A FEW HOURS LATER

We were all settled around the camp fire that the boys had made while Liz and I were cooking dinner, discussing pretty much everything, when the conversation took a turn to sex and Eli got really embaressed and Liz said the sentence that would start mine and Elis first, and possibly last fight.

"Its not like its the first time we ever had the sex talk Eli, remember 2 winters when you guys came to visit me?"

My eyes widened and so did his, you guys? I prayed silently that she ment him and some other friend, and not her, Julia, his first love. I was sad for Eli that he had lost her like that, but i couldnt help feel jelous of the things we had done with her. Did he? I mean did they?

Thankfully Adam asked the question I was too afraid to ask "You guys have had several sex talks? who were you in Vancouver with?" he asked looking at Eli who in return glared back slightly, and shook his head.

"If i didnt talk to him about it no one would have, oh and he came out with Julia i barely saw them" she said smiling at Adam obviously not seeing the look he was being given.

"Liz," he finally said to his sister just looking at her.

I just sat there, all these questions in my head, they must of? why didnt he tell me? i thought we might have lost it togehter...i should have asked him! he told Julia about Liz? they had visited her? I couldnt sit there and think all these things anymore, I had to move, to walk to run, to do something. i stood up suddenly "Im going for a walk I'll be back." I started to walk away when I heard him behind me,

"Ill come with you."

"Thats ok Elijah" I spit his name out "I think Id rather be alone."

"Well to bad, becuase im not going to let you walk around in the dark alone." He just looked at me with his green eyes piercing my soul.

"Fine, whatever." I finally replied after looking into his eyes for what seemed like forever.

We had been walking for about 10 minutes, probably going in circles, with him about 5 feet behind me when he finally started speaking.

"Clare, Im sorry."

"You dont even know why Im mad, so why be sorry?" I stopped walking but didnt turn around

"Your mad becuase Liz told you about me and Julia before I could." he replied matter of factly. I spun around fast, I had never been so furious in my entire life.

"Actually your kind of right, Im mad becuase you didnt tell me, and I had to find out from your sister A WEEK AFTER LOOSING MY VIRGINITY TO YOU!" I screamed that last part and didnt care who heard

"You never asked, so i just assumed you knew that since we had been togehter for a while that we probably had."

"I never asked! I shouldnt have had to ask! you should have told me, besides I wouldnt assume that! two years ago you were fourteen! I wouldnt assume that two fourteen year olds were having sex!" How could he not understnad why I was angry.

"So this is all my fault?" he practically screamed back at me.

"Yes! Yes it is!" I didnt yell it exactly, more like shrieked it.

"Well i cant go back in time, and un have sex with julia!"

"Oh my god! this isnt about that fact that you had sex with her, its about the fact that you let me go against my faith and have sex with you, without telling me that it wasnt your first time!"

"Clare, I." he stopped himself, maybe finally understanding why I was so mad.

"You what Eli? your sorry?" I asked looking at him, tears welling up in my eyes "Also, how long were you and Julia together before she found out about Liz, and your momm, and your dad."

"What?" I had clearly taken him by surprise

"Did you tell her, or did Liz text you and suddenly she knew."

"I told her."

"when?"

"befor we started dating, about a month after I met her" he looked at me then "But Clare that doesnt mean anything!"

"So it was ok for HER to know your whole life story, but I had to find out by accident? do you not trust me?" The tears were falling down my face now, I didnt want them too but they were. He just stood there staring at me. I was right, I knew i was. He didnt trust me. After everything we had been through, With Fitz, with each other, we still didnt trust me.

"I didnt want you to think less of me" He finally said.

"I cant keep feeling insecure like this, I cant keep being jelous of your ex girlfriend."

"What are you saying? that you dont want to be with me anymore?"

"Im saying." I could say it, I cant say it "That im going to bed, and Ill talk to you tomorrow"

With that we walked back to the campground, I didnt say anything to Liz or adam just climbed into the tent and got in bed...

******Long i know! sorry, I got into it, what do you guys think? break up? REVIEW PLEASE!***********