Elis POV

we had been walking around the forest for like 10 minutes when i knew I had to say something, she was mad, I was pretty posotive I knew why

"Clare, Im sorry." I finally started with! yes, thats perfect. get the apology out now

"You dont even know why Im mad, so why be sorry?" I watched her stop dead in her tracks at the sound of my voice

"Your mad becuase Liz told you about me and Julia before I could." That had to be it, there was nothing else.

"Actually your kind of right, Im mad becuase you didnt tell me, and I had to find out from your sister A WEEK AFTER LOOSING MY VIRGINITY TO YOU!" shit, she was right.

"You never asked, so i just assumed you knew that since we had been togehter for a while that we probably had." shes not going to like that answer, I knew it as I was saying it, I was making things worse

"I never asked! I shouldnt have had to ask! you should have told me, besides I wouldnt assume that! two years ago you were fourteen! I wouldnt assume that two fourteen year olds were having sex!" I always forgot how Saintly she was...or used to be.

"So this is all my fault?" I was suddenly more angry then I had been in a long time, Im not sure who I was angry with more, me, her or Liz.

"Yes! Yes it is!"

"Well i cant go back in time, and un have sex with julia!" Fuck, Why was i making things worse? I knew I shouldnt be saying what I was saying but it was all coming out before I could think All I could see was red.

"Oh my god! this isnt about that fact that you had sex with her, its about the fact that you let me go against my faith and have sex with you, without telling me that it wasnt your first time!"

"Clare, I." I stopped myself, I had nothing to say. I could feel my heart breaking, and her pulling away

"You what Eli? your sorry?" she asked looking at me, tears welling up in her eyes "Also, how long were you and Julia together before she found out about Liz, and your mom, and your dad."

"What?" why did she care about this?

"Did you tell her, or did Liz text you and suddenly she knew."

Oh, now I knew why. i should lie! no I cant..."I told her."

"when?"

"before we started dating, about a month after I met her" I looked at her face, her blue eyes soaking wet "But Clare that doesnt mean anything!"

"So it was ok for HER to know your whole life story, but I had to find out by accident? do you not trust me?"

Of course I trusted her! I told her before why I didnt tell her! "I didnt want you to think less of me" I eventually said.

"I cant keep feeling insecure like this, I cant keep being jelous of your ex girlfriend."

"What are you saying? that you dont want to be with me anymore?" My heart was breaking into a million pieces, we couldnt be breaking up. I loved her too much to loose her. especially liek this.

"Im saying." please no "That im going to bed, and Ill talk to you tomorrow"

She didnt say anything else just turned and walked past me heading back to the campsite, I walked about 5 feet behind her again, tears running down my face. when we got back to the campsite I watched as Clare climbed into her tent not saying goodnight to anyone.

"Eli, Im so sorry, I had no idea she didnt know" I turned to face the face of the voice Id just hear, I wanted to be mad at Liz I wanted to kill her but I knew it wasnt her fault.

"Its not your fault Liz, its mine, I was an idiot. I should have told her about everything before." I looked up at her again and suddenly realized Adam wasnt sitting there "Where Adam?"

"He went to bed, we heard you guys coming back and he figured you would probably not want company right now." she said with a small smile

"So why are you up?" I asked grabbing the hot chocolate she handed me

"Becuase I know you better then most people." she answered sipping her hot chocolate

"Why did you drag us camping in November?"

"I told you, I thought it would be fun."

"Liz." I looked at her face, and she knew I knew she was lying. I wanted the truth and I wanted it now.

"Dad and Max both called on Wednesday." she explained simply

"And?"

"They are both in Toronto and are leaving tomorrow and wanted to come see us, so I figured if we wern't there then they couldnt."

What was going on with her? Why was she so against seeing Max? I mean I understood running from dad...but Max?

"I get running away from Dad believe me, but Max? why Max?"

She didnt say anything just took off her coat and rolled up her sleaves to show me the bruises all up and down them.

"Did he do this to you?" I was furious,

"Lets jsut say he wasnt thrilled by the idea of me moving to Toronto, he thought It would be better for all of us if you moved out there,"

"He didnt want you to come out here so he what? beat you? Im gunna kill him!"

"Listen, I left him didnt I? there is no need to do anything! ok? Im fine," She looked at me sternly, usuing her, what I liked to call, mom look.

"Are you sure your ok?" I hated knowing that Max, A guy I liked and had known majority of my life had done this to her!

"Yes, Now why dont you tell me what happened with Clare?"

I started off the whole story and at the end I just sat there more confused then when I started.

"So, are you guys, broken up?" she sounded almost as confused as I was.

"I dont know. I just need to talk to her, I cant loose her, I dont know what I would do" I was crying again when I felt Liz sit down beside me.

"I cant believe im saying this, but, You go share the tent with Clare, shes definetly still awake in there and then you can talk to her, and I will share the tent with the sleep talker."

I just smiled at her and stood up and walked over to the tent, opening it up I took a deep breath before stepping in and seeing Clare sitting up, clearly waiting for me,

"Hi" was the only word she said to me

"Hey we should talk."

************clifffffffffffffffffffffffff...I STILL havent decided if they are breaking up.****************