So I know I haven't been updating to much and I'm sorry. I've been really swamped and it is going to get worse. AP exams are coming up and I'm taking two this year, finals, regents and all that jazz. I will try to write whenever I can. I think I might even put in really short chapters just so that you don't have to wait so long. This next chapter hasn't been edited, but I'm putting it up because I feel so bad since I haven't been updating consistently.

It's been three weeks since I got out of the hospital. They have been the absolute worst three weeks of my entire life. No one talks to me anymore. Alice, Jasper and Alex are the only ones who will even come close to me. Will still hasn't come back to school; no one knows where he is and Alice says his future is too blurry for her to make out. If I had known that becoming a vampire would fuck my life up, I would have preferred to have been killed and sucked dry by that fucking vampire. I don't feel like myself anymore, like I don't belong. I should have died in that basement. Why did Will save me? If he doesn't come back, I see no reason to remain a vampire. At least as a werewolf I'll be accepted by my father…

"Cat!" Alice yelled. I looked up from the floor to face her. She looked exasperated.

"What?" I snapped.

"I've been trying to get your attention for the past five minutes!"

"Oh. Sorry. I was thinking…" I sighed. "I didn't mean to yell at you. It's just been pretty hard lately to be happy."

"I know…Anyways, prom is in three weeks and I was wondering if you wanted to go shopping for a dress this afternoon?" I shrugged my shoulders. I didn't care either way. I probably wasn't going to go anyways. "OK cool, so I'll meet you by your locker." I nodded in reply and turned my gaze from the table to the cafeteria entrance. Maybe Will would walk in.

"Ready Cat?" Alice asked. I nodded and grimaced. "I'm so excited. I've always wanted to get my hair and make up done professionally. I'm glad your mom said she'd take us!" Alice pulled on my arm and dragged me out of the building. "Only two days left! Then summer…and college. Aren't you happy?" Alice turned around to look at me. I tried to smile and she seemed satisfied. We waited by the curb for my mother's car.

"Alice?"

"Yeah?" Her smile widen as she heard me speak.

"Do I really have to go?"

"YES! Of course you do. You are not missing out on your very first prom. It will be great. Just wait and see. We are going to get our hair and make up done then we're going back to your place and getting dressed and then we are going to have the best night of our lives." I rolled my eyes. I really didn't want to go, especially without a date. "Don't you roll your eyes at me missy." Alice said trying to mimic my mom's voice. I laughed lightly. My mom's car rolled up and we scrambled in.

"Hey girls, how was your last day of high school?"

"Hey mom."

"Hi, Mrs. Brooks. It was great! I had so much fun. We signed textbooks all day and had farewell parties in almost all of our classes."

"That sounds like fun!"

The rest of the ride was silent. When we arrived at the mall, I remarked with dismay the amount of girls from my high school that were roaming the parking lot. I saw Lindsey get out of her navy convertible and tried to hide behind Alice's thin frame. She was one of the few, who in recent weeks, had decided it was ok to socialize with me. However, her happiness and perkiness got on my nerves and right now I did not wish to see her. Unfortunately she saw me and waved. Forced by years of friendship, I smiled and waved back. She took that as a sign to come over and began walking our way. Great...

"Look, Cat, your friend Lindsey is here. Why don't you go shopping with her?"

"I guess. If you want me to."

"There is no making you happy is there?"

"Whatever," I mumbled. Lindsey saved me from the tongue lashing Alice was sure to give me. She was always taking my mom's side and telling me that I needed to be nice and happy and shit.

"Hey Cat, Alice. Hello Mrs. Brooks. I guess its no surprise to see you here. Are you getting haircuts?"

"Yeah. Mrs. Brooks has three coupons for a hair and makeup salon." Alice replied, all bubbly and carefree. I don't know how she can keep it up nonstop. It's like nothing can ever make her angry. Maybe Jasper has found a way to keep her like this…no because then she would have made him use it on me. Unless she doesn't know about it. Hmmm...maybe.

"Oh! Lucky! My mom gave me $15 for nail polish and gloss."

"I've been thinking Lindsey. I don't really need a make over and I have a lot of errands to run. Would you like my coupon?" My so-called mother said. WHY? Why would you do this to me?

"Oh no, I couldn't possibly..."

"No. No I insist." Why does my mother try to make me happy by surrounding me with friends. Why can't she just leave me alone to wallow in misery all by myself?

"Come Linds, it'll be fun." Alice said, encouraging her. I shot her a glare, which she pointedly ignored.

"Well, I suppose. I mean if you really insist. I guess its ok."

"Great! Here are the coupons, Alice. I'll meet you girls back here in two hours. Have fun!" I glared at my mother's retreating back as she walked into the hardware store. Alice put the coupons inside of her purse and grabbed my arm.

"Come on Cat, Let's go." Alice said while pulling on my arm. I followed behind them, constantly reminding myself that dragging one's feet is childish and should be avoided at all costs. The automatic doors of the mall opened and a cool breeze from the A.C. washed over us. It felt good, after the heat, and I had a (the?) sudden urge for some lemonade.

"Hey guys? Do you mind if I get something to drink before we go?"

"Yeah, good idea. There's a pizza place near the store, we can get something to drink there." Lindsey replied with a smile on her face. Only now did I notice what she was wearing. Khaki shorts and a t-shirt that said "Team Edward." My worry over Will came rushing back. Where was he?

"Cat?" Alice ventured. "Are you sure you want something to drink?" I looked at her confused for a moment. DAMN IT! I had forgotten…again. I wondered when I would stop forgetting and it would become habit NOT to eat 'human' food. I remembered when I had taken a piece of chocolate from my mom and how badly I had felt afterwards. I had been glued to the bathroom floor…well toilet for almost three days.

"On second thought. I'm not that thirsty, but we can still go if you want to, Lindsey." I said.

"I'm ok. Let's just go straight to the store." We continued walking in mutual silence. The store loomed before us and I dreaded what was waiting for me on the other side of the black doors. We walked in and were accosted by the pungent smell of perfume and hairspray.

"Good afternoon ladies. How may I help you today?" The receptionist was a well groomed, manicured 30 year old woman, who looked liked she'd rather be somewhere else…like me.

"Hello. We have three coupons." Alice said pulling them out of her purse.

"Ah yes, Let me see." Alice handed her the coupons and she led us to the back of the store.