Chapter 15.

Disclaimer: I don´t own anything in Beyblade.

Warning: Yaoi story, harsh language and violence.

"Talk"

´Thoughts´

On with the story!

"When is he going to wake up?" Wyatt asked in a hopeful tone. The doctor who was in charge looked at the door when the other staff members rolled the teen into his room. "Hard to say really, when the drugs stops, the it´s all up to him. But we are hopeful. Things look much better now than before. Excuse me."

Wyatt smiled at the new and received a smile from his mother as well. He looked around for his rival for a minute and found him placed on the bench. His arms were crossed and he had his eyes closed just like Kai use to do. He knew he wouldn´t be able to get the other to leave now so he put his feelings aside for a bit and took a seat next to him without a word. Even if there would be hours then they would wait for Kai to wake up.

Everything was a mess. He had caused so much hurt.

He couldn´t help but to think back a couple of years. When he was by himself. He remembers that he wanted to lead the new team Bladebreakers to the final in the Russia Championship. When he just had an invincible spot on the team and that nobody except Tyson wanted to make his presence known. How many times had he not tried to make it clear that he didn´t want to form a bond with his teammates? He had made that clear even the first time they had talked about forming the team.

(Flashback)

"Hold on a minute and let me get this straight. I can win all of my matches but we don´t advance unless the rest of this brat- pack wins."

Mr. Dickenson looked a little tense after the comment. "Um… yes everything but the brat part." He said and tried to prevent a conflict. "Nothing will defeat us if we stick together kids, nothing! There is no I in team, remember that. "

"Yeah well sorry, there is no Kai in team either." He said and told the group how he wouldn't stand the group and left.

(End of Flashback)

He had been so sure that forming a bond with those people would be such a waste of time. Boy, had he been wrong. He had been wrong, but also stubborn.

(Flashback)

Tyson had been so shocked by the fact that he had helped the kid called Antonio to beat him. It hadn´t take much effort and the hot tempered teen´s face had been priceless. It had really been worth it. Tyson had yelled at him like he had betrayed him.

"I can´t believe I just heard that. You always saying, just leave me alone and now you come biting in, do you mind explaining what up with that?"

He just snorted. "You little fit only shows you complete lack of maturity Tyson. What I choose to do is my business so why don´t you butt out."

(End of Flashback)

The fact that he could betray them had been put to the test more than one time. Like the first time the team was depending on him against the team that called themselves Dark Bladers.

(Flashback)

"I´m not afraid of you side- show freaks" he said with a nonchalant tone even though he almost felt his teammates shocked face behind him. Why would he help them? The kid was barley important anyway.

The freak called Cenotaph reacted. "So foolish, your little friend is counting on you to save him."

He crossed his arm. "Yeah sure, whatever. Enjoy your home cooked Kenny- burgers."

The younger boy called out in fright, "KAI!"

(End of flashback)

Everything had been so easy, because he didn´t feel anything for them. He had chosen not to. It wasn´t like he wanted to hurt any of them, but he didn´t want them to come to close. In the end he had lost that battle. After team literally had broken the ice between them, he had started to care how he treated his friends. He had not changed much in his personality but he had started to think before he snapped at Tyson and show a little more emotion there and then. And it had gone easier as the time passed by.

He and Ray had not been the first ones to get friendly with each other. The tiger had not been especially impressed with his cold behavior and he hadn´t cared less of what the Chinese thought. Tyson had been the one who reached out to him first. Then after all the drama, Max and Kenny had started to talk with him too. But not the tiger. But even that changed. He was very surprised to see that even though Ray had disliked him in the beginning, he still had been having an open mind about getting another kind of relationship with him. He was not judging him for his past mistakes.

After they had gotten together for real, he had really started to care about not hurting anyone and that feeling grew even stronger when he met his first real friend outside of the team, Wyatt. It had been such a big step for him and he had been happy.

Maybe to happy. Maybe too naïve. Because just a week after he mixed his two worlds together, he ended up hurting his loved ones.

"I'm sorry." He cried out in the darkness. But didn´t get any answer. Had he pushed them away? Was he alone again?

He had betrayed Wyatt´s friendship. He had tested the limits of Ray´s and his relationship. He had been in the middle of this hell and hadn´t been able to solve it and now he had hurt the most important people in his life.

He loved Ray. He couldn´t see the future without him by his side. He had taught him so much and he wanted without doubt a future with him. Ray and his relationship was for him safe, strong, interesting. It had everything he was looking for in life. It was just… right.

And if he ever woke up again, he would be sure to tell him that. He felt it was good chance that Ray still loved him back. He didn´t doubt his partner.

But another thing that was to important to miss was his situation with Wyatt. He had almost left him before the accident and it had felt wrong. He would miss the kid so much if he left it like this. He didn´t regretted the words he had told him in the fight, but… he wanted to fight for their friendship because he knew they would be able to get over this situation if he made him understand.

He had been so lucky to get another life like this, and he wasn´t ready to let it go. Either Ray or Wyatt. He needed them both.

"Let me return to them…I´m ready."

It all happened so fast and before he knew it, the cold around him changed to extreme pain and he fought to open his heave eyelids. An annoying beeping sound shot through his ears and his eyes tried to see through the clouded vision he had and soon he could see the white roof above him with some difficulty. ´Am I in the hospital?´ was his first thought.

"I'm glad to see you awake." A woman voice said as she stepped into the room and closed the door behind her. He couldn´t see her properly until she stepped into his sight vision. It hurt too much to move his head and he also wanted to keep his eyes still until the most pain vanished.

"I guess I shouldn´t ask you how you are feeling." She started and looked over his papers. "You fell down the stairs at your school, and you have been in surgery… twice. To be honest, you gave us and your friends quite a scare."

"… W-whe…" All that came out of his voice was a horse whisper, making him cough. She raised his chin up so he could breathe better and gave him a sad smile.

"You shouldn´t try to talk yet. What you do need to do is to sleep a little more. I know you don´t want to, but your body needs it. You friends are sleeping outside in the hallway." She looked at him to see if he understood but he almost looked a little bitter of the statement.

"It´s still early in the morning. Try and sleep. I will come bye to check on you if you need some painkillers."

The nurse words were irritating, but that was probably because he didn´t like hospitals. He didn´t want to sleep anymore, he had done plenty of that. If he had been in to operations then he guessed a couple of days had passed. Even though he just wanted to force himself out of his bed, he couldn´t prevent his eyes getting heavier and heavier and soon he was yet again pulled into darkness.

Ray´s eyes opened by a sunshine hitting his face. He groaned as he felt how sore his muscles were from the bad position he had slept in. Was it really morning already? Then he remembered that Kai condition was stable. He must have relaxed for the first time in days and his body must have really taken the opportunity to build up some energy. Wyatt was still asleep in the chair next to him.

He never wanted to experience this hell again. He had been so caught up in Kais condition that he didn´t know what he would do know. The only thing he could do was to talk to Kai about it. He refused to go back to the school and Kai would probably want to finish his education when he was better. Wyatt wouldn´t let him out of sight again after this.

All in all… he knew that except from Kais accident, nothing had changed. If things were going to be changed for the better then the only person who could do that was him. Kai couldn´t because he was torn between his partner and friend still. He wouldn´t want to give up his friendship with the kid or he would have done that by now. And Wyatt wouldn´t because he just didn´t want to.

A cold chill ran over him as he started to realize what he was thinking about. After all this hell, was he really going to give up the fight and leave? He didn´t know. The only thing he did know was that he wouldn´t let Kai get hurt again like this.

End of chapter 15. Next chapter will be up next week. Cya!

Sparkleshadowcat.