The next morning as Ciel entered the High School he was immediately attacked by Drocell.

"Hey cuuuutie~" He said approaching the younger and seemingly constantly irritated male.

"Damn it…" Ciel muttered trying to pretend Drocell wasn't there. Drocell snickered, rubbing his hand against Ciel's ass. Ciel continued to ignore him.

"You're spicy aren't you?" Drocell informed Ciel giving his ass one more grope and then stalking away. Ciel shook his head in agitation.

"Why is it always me?" He mumbled entering his first class.

The day went by quickly considering Ciel slept through most classes. The final bell finally rang and Ciel bolted out of the locker room and into the hall only to find Drocell waiting.

"Let me walk you home" He practically ordered Ciel, Ciel looked the opposite way.

"You are overly persistent"

"You like men don't you?" Drocell asked, actually not knowing what the answer would be. "I mean I hear a lot of things about you and that football player and part time cheer leader. What was his name again?" Drocell rambled "Flounder or something?"

"S-Sebastian" Ciel stammered his face leaving its irritation behind and taking the emotion of sadness under its wing, Drocell nodded.

"That's right, so are you gay or not?" Drocell pried becoming impatient.

"I-I'M NOT GAY!" Ciel stammered in a way that made it impossible to believe him, Drocell fought back a smile that longed to stretch across his lips.

"Just let me walk you home" He barked, Ciel flinched.

"F-fine" Ciel was becoming scared.

"And I'll come along too!" Joker cheered as he came around the corner he had been hiding behind.

"No!" Drocell whined. Joker gave him a suspicious glare.

"Yes" He said ending the argument. Ciel let out a sigh of relief; this Joker guy seemed unlikely to rape Ciel.

The walk to Ciel's home was awfully quiet, whenever Joker would even try to speak Drocell would stop him.

"Can we come in for some water? I'm parched" Joker asked obviously not lying. Ciel left the door open for them, Drocell bolted in.

"What a dread this place is" He thought aloud "Doesn't it creep you out?" he asked. Ciel gave him and amused smile and shook his head as he filled up two glasses of water and handed it to the older males. After playing a nearly endless game of you leave first, Drocell finally left.

"Jeez I thought he'd never leave" Joker let out a sigh of relief, as he prepared to take his leave, just as he was about to exit Ciel's beaten up house, Ciel grabbed his coat sleeve.

"Can't you stay…for awhile?" Ciel asked the older male his face slightly flushed. Joker stopped in his steps and closed the door.

"Of course, what's the matter?"

"I-" Ciel didn't complete his sentence before he leaned up and kissed Joker's soft pale lips. Joker kissed back for a moment and then pulled away.

"N-no Drocell likes you, I can't" Joker said a light blush on his cheeks. Ciel cocked his head to the side, it's not like he had a thing for either of the older males; he only longed for connection, to feel alive.

"Does he even have to know?" Ciel asked his lips only inches from the older males. Joker looked Ciel directly in his dark blue eyes.

"No" He replied kissing Ciel's lips playfully. Ciel blushed kissing him back. 'It's not like I'm gay or anything' he thought as he began to unbutton Joker's collared shirt. 'I'm just lonely' he continued as he led Joker to his bedroom by his shirt, walking backwards. 'I need to feel connected to another person, or I fear I'll disappear' the younger boys thoughts continued as Joker shut his bedroom door behind them.

Joker knocked Ciel onto the bed, kissing him passionately. Ciel blushed, Joker didn't kiss like Sebastian, he wasn't better or anything; it was slower, softer even. Ciel forced his tongue into the older male's mouth; he didn't know why he just enjoyed it more when there was tongue.

Joker began to suck the younger males tongue gently as he began to unbutton his shirt. Ciel could feel 'it' stiff against his leg. Ciel's breath became uneven as Joker began to kiss down his small figure, giving his nipples a nip or two before he continued down his body, undoing the younger male's trousers, removing them, and exposing his length. Joker's face was slightly flushed as he gave it a few hard rubs followed by some gentle ones, Ciel let out a moan and Joker began to suck on his member, making it wet with his spit, thrusting it in and out of his mouth sucking hard. Ciel was gasping, he couldn't take it, it had been too long, he released into Jokers mouth; his face flushed from embarrassment.

Joker pulled back as some of it released onto his lips, Ciel covered his face he was horribly embarrassed. Joker licked his lips and began to un-do his belt, followed by the unbuttoning of his trousers. Was shaken with surprise as Joker fixed himself at Ciel's entrance, making himself wet with saliva before he began to guide it in, Ciel cried out; Joker was thicker than Sebastian. Ciel closed his eyes tightly and clenched his jaw in pain. Joker could feel his body getting taken with pleasure as he began to thrust in and out of the younger male. Pounding into his small body tears ran down Ciel's face 'how did it come to this' Ciel thought as Joker continued to thrust. Joker was gasping his climax wasn't close but it was approaching. Ciel was in pain, Joker had rushed it. Ciel rapped his arms around Joker's half naked body, digging his nails into the older males back. Joker gasped as Ciel clawed into him. His thrusts became deeper, his gasps becoming closer; a few more tears overflowed from the younger males eyes. One last thrust was all it took for Joker to finish, he cam hard inside of Ciel his body going limp afterwards as he fell onto the younger males small figure. They laid this way for a few more moments before one of them spoke.

"Can you leave…" Ciel asked in a monotone. Joker jumped to his feet, returning his member to his trousers. Joker was flushed as he found his shirt and buttoned it up.

"S-sorry, I-I'm not very experienced…" Joker apologized, Ciel waved Joker away. Joker hurried out of the house.

"Are you fucking kidding…that sucked!" Ciel shouted into the silence of his empty home. Ciel slid off his bed onto the floor curling up into a comforting ball. "S-Sebastian…" Ciel whispered. He sat still for awhile before he reached for his trousers, searching his pockets for his razor. Ciel removed his arm bands and band aids, staring at his arm for a few moments before swiping the blade across his arms. "Why do I feel so empty!" Ciel cried continuing the cutting of his fragile skin. After cutting his arms multiple times he dropped the blood soaked razor to the ground. "FUCK!" he yelled falling over onto his side, curling up into a ball.

Ciel went to school the next day only to be marked off for his attendance; he dreaded this last Friday he would have to spend without even seeing Sebastian's face.

"M-morning!" Joker stammered when he saw Ciel in the hall. Ciel didn't even give him a second look he only waved. Joker's face became flushed as he wondered to his first class.

"You're quite the player" Ciel turned to see Drocell sitting on a near by bench. "You've even got Joker tongue tied"

"You…are and idiot" Ciel informed him entering his class that was right next to the bench, he sighed deeply and glared across the room until he spotted his chair. He quickly sat down and smirked as he tuned out the lesson, not really caring if he failed anymore.

Sebastian used him, molested him, Finnian's sick; the only true friend he had in the whole school, and Maylene and Bard were on the trip. He felt useless, like he was only supposed to be used his whole life and not anything in the world would change that. He sighed again, this time not caring if the teacher kept trying to get his attention. He gave the woman an incorrect answer and heard snickers across the class, which were quickly silenced by his glare.

Finally forty-five minutes passed and the bell rang, Ciel thanked himself for surviving a class.

The day passed by, every class seemed as if it were out to get him, calling on him and wanting him to give them the correct answers as usual, he kept giving them incorrect ones, he didn't give a fuck.

As soon as he went around the corner of the school's exit, when school was out; he saw Drocell in the distance, waiting for him at the school's gate, it looked as if it was going to fall apart, but it was just designed that way. Ciel sighed and made his way over to Drocell; he smirked and looked down at the petite boy as if he were his prey. Ciel glared off into the corner, his eyes no where and holding no interest to anything that was around him. Drocell smirked and leaned down to Ciel's ear, many people watched but looked away; Ciel's intense glaring scaring them. The taller male blew into Ciel's ear, causing Ciel to shiver, then he took a deep breath and licked Ciel's ear.

"Make it out silver and gold, silver and gold, silver and gold. Make it out of silver and gold, my fair lady~" He whispered seductively making Ciel shiver again. He watched Drocell pull away and Ciel leaned up, wrapping his arms around the taller boy's neck. He tilted forward and pressed his forehead against the Drocell's lips, barely brushing against the soft pink.

"…You're weird." Ciel said, taking Drocell's hand. Drocell smiled and dragged Ciel towards the forest that was by the school, but it was located in the back of the school. Ciel gasped as they got deep into the forest, then forcefully pinned against a tree. He tried to call out to Drocell, slightly wondering what was going on, but felt hot lips quickly pressed against his. Ciel tried to push Drocell away, but Drocell forced his body against Ciel's even more; his fully erected penis arching up against Ciel's. Ciel gasped sharply, feeling the hot groin press against his made him moan out. "Dr-Drocell" He gasped as he felt sweat press down his face, Drocell now grinding against his core made him feel as if his whole body was on fire. He looked at the orange haired man, the make-up he had on his face now slightly wearing off. Drocell swiftly pulled down Ciel's pants and smirked, quickly pulling down his own pants and boxers. Ciel gasped as he felt something hard enter him without being lubricated first, then he felt it stay there for a moment, move slightly, then quickly be pulled out. Ciel fell to the forest floor and looked up at Drocell in a slight daze. He felt drool fall down his lower lip as he gazed up at Drocell. "What-" He started gazing at the older male. He gasped as he saw Drocell smiling down at him.

"I just need to tease you. He-he~ Good day." He sang as he pulled up his pants and boxers as he walked away, a small smile or smirk never leaving his lips. Ciel sighed and gazed down, then pulled his clothing up as well as he took out his blade, slashing into his arm multiple times. Ciel longed to fill the void that Sebastian had left behind, but nobody seemed to be capable of doing so.

"Why…do I need you so much…" Ciel spoke to himself into the dark silence of his room. "I…hate you…" He added closing his eyes, he knew he wouldn't be able to fall asleep but he had to at least try. Hours past, the boy tossed and turned in his twin bed; until he finally gave up on the idea of sleep, sitting up and rising from his bed he excited the room and made his way into the kitchen. Looking around the empty house, the young boy felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness, he headed for the coffee maker that he had found in the basement; and had been using for awhile now. He poured himself a cup and scooped three table spoons of sugar into the small cup of coffee, filling it all the way to the rim afterwards with crème. Ciel took a seat at the dusty table of the dining room, sipping the coffee slowly.

"Why can't I stop…?" the boy asked himself as he looked at the cuts he had inflicted upon himself after being abandoned by Drocell in the forest. "I feel reliant" He added putting his head down on the table, watching the trees that rested in his dark yard flutter lightly in the breeze. Ciel lied there for a few hours thinking, unable to shut his mind off; until there was a knock at his door. The boy rose from the chair he had been seated in and made his way to the door, unsurprised to find that it was Drocell who awaited him on the other side.

"Good morning~" He said entering the younger males home and closing the door behind him.

"What do you want?" Ciel asked through a glare. "To tease me I'm assuming…" Ciel guessed.

"Awh, no" Drocell replied rapping his arms around the younger boys small waist. Ciel continued to glare. Drocell merely smirked and pressed his warm lips to Ciel's. As much as Ciel found Drocell annoying, no matter how hard he tried to fight it he captivated him. Drocell ran his hand up the back of Ciel's shirt, resting it on the younger male's bare lower back. Ciel let out a slight gasp as the older male's cold hands grazed his skin. Drocell continued with the lip to lip kissing for a few more moments before he kissed the younger boy's neck hotly, pressing his leg against Ciel's stiffening length as he began to lay the boy on the ground.

"N-" Ciel began to say but then interrupted himself, he longed to say 'No' but his body was yelling a 'Yes'. Drocell laughed lightly as he removed the younger male's shirt. Pulling him up into an upwards position afterwards, Guiding Ciel's hand to his own length. Ciel's face flushed, he had never been the one to give something like this. The smaller male rubbed Drocell's member lightly, becoming flustered when the older male let out a light moan. Ciel continued to go at the friction, only causing the older male to be come stiffer and stiffer. Before Drocell reached his climax he pulled Ciel's hand away, stopping his finish, as he leaned in and bit the younger male's neck. Ciel let out a squeal. Drocell snickered devilishly.

"Make it out silver and gold, silver and gold, silver and gold. Make it out of silver and gold, my fair lady" Drocell sang into Ciel's ear, grabbing the younger male's wrists and pinning him down. Ciel was gasping for air, his face flushed; somehow this kind of treatment got him off.

"m-more…" he stammered quietly to the older male.