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Coming Back To You
Chapter Song: Haunted – Kelly Clarkson
Chapter 1: The Pain Slowly Fades, But The Memories Won't
Life is not the same. Life's not the same, without him. Six months ago, Edward Cullen was my boyfriend. His 'sister', Alice was my best friend. His 'brother' Emmett, was the big brother I always wanted. I even miss Rosalie, his other 'sister' who always hated me. And Jasper, who constantly avoided me because of my scent. He was new to the vegetarian diet they had. They were all vampires. I also miss his 'parents', they were like my own, dream parents. Now they're gone. Everyone.
Edward broke my heart. He broke up with me in a forest outside my house. He left, and they did too. I still can't get the dreadful words out of my head.
Bella I don't want you to come with me.
Your no good for me.
I can't be something I'm not.
I've let this go on to long.
I can remember him breaking up with me, clear as day. Every time I think about it, it feels as if a whole has been punched in my chest. I have nightmares. Vivid ones. The kind that wakes you up screaming, crying with tears in your eyes. The dreams wake up my Dad, Charlie. For first three months he would watch me, to see if I would fall apart, and cry.
I've been doing better. As much as I can, but the memories of him are everywhere. But I sort of find comfort in the pain, because it's my only memory, my only knowledge that he was really in my life. I don't listen to music at all anymore, it brings back the memories of my lullaby that he composed for me. I stay away from TV, it just reminds me of the night before our breakup. The blank stare, that was in his eyes. The lack of emotion in his words, when he would speak to me. He was watching baseball on the flat screen with Charlie. I can't make myself watch TV. If I do I would see him sitting the recliner, the rigid posture of himself, or I would remember when we watched 'Romeo and Juliet', the soft kisses, and conversation we had.
But for the past month I've been hanging out with Jacob Black my best friend, who's also a werewolf. When I'm with him, the whole in my chest goes away, but comes back when I'm alone. Jacob and I are close, but he's not him. We're more like brother and sister.
Jacob and his pack had killed James' other coven members, Laurent and Victoria. Victoria wanted to kill me, for him killing James. Mate for Mate. Laurent was trying to help. But they both had gotten ripped apart and killed by the wolves.
It's Friday night and I'm cooking diner for my dad, Jacob and his dad, Billy. I'm happy, and somewhat together. But I'm not completely healed. I always wonder if he would ever come back to me. But not often, because that thought brings more pain than the memories.
As I was finishing dinner I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see my best friend standing there smiling. Not the Jacob smile, but the 'I want something' smile. I could tell what each one of his smiles meant. I knew this couldn't be good.
"What do you want?" I asked, crossing my arms, trying to act tuff. But what was I kidding, I looked like a child next to Jake, he was 6' 8'. And I was 5 foot, 4. Plus he looked older than 16 years old. He looked older than me, and I was 18!
"Nothing. Gosh can't I talk to my best friend without wanting something?" He said innocently.
"Ah-no. I saw the smile Jake, it's the, 'I want something smile' And I don't play the innocent card at all." I said.
We starred each other down until one of us, Jake, cracked to say he was wrong.
"Fine, I was wondering. . . .If you wanted to. . Go out somewhere, tomorrow. Like the movies." He said.
"Um, like a date? Or like two friends just hanging out?" I asked sheepishly.
He laughed. "No Bella, I ready have a girlfriend, remember? Leah? Why do you have feelings for me?"
Ugh, Bella you are such an idiot! He has a girlfriend, one of your other friends Leah? Remember? You won't have to worry about him having feelings for you, and you not returning them. Just breath.
I stopped my internal monologue by responding. "No you just know how I get around the words go out. That's the only reason I was panicking. Oh and I know you have Leah, your PDA was so gross."
Leah and Jacob have been going out for two months, when Jake and I started hanging out their PDA was gross, they would make out every five minutes. But it also made me think of him and I, when we kissed. I asked Leah and Jake if they could tone it down a bit. I also told them about the memories, they said they would, and they did.
Leah is a good friend of mine. We hang out once in a while, she's not jealous of Jake and I's friendship at all. Because I told her everything, even about them being vampires, since she's a werewolf too. She's the only girl in the pack. She understood completely.
He laughed at my reference to their PDA. "Oh come on, that was so last month." He said in a valley girl voice. I laughed.
"So what do you say?" He asked. "Sure." I answered. "What time?" I asked.
"12 o'clock. We're going to see, 'Face Punch'. It's supposed to be good. I asked Leah if she wanted to go but she said no, because she said it sounded stupid. Can you believe her?" I laughed again. Jacob was unbelievable, stubborn, and funny.
"Really? 'Face Punch'?" I asked in a girly voice. But laughed at his fake expression, he was actually hurt.
"Jake, I'm kidding." I said.
He laughed, "Go get our Dad's, Diners done." I told him. He nodded, and instead of going into the living room and telling them quietly, he yelled, "Dinner's ready!" I hit him with the dish cloth, not my hand, I didn't want to break my hand like the first time. "I could have done that myself." I muttered under my breath, but the werewolf heard me, and laughed.
Charlie and Billy came in the room. "What did you make, it smells really good?" Charlie asked. "Fish." I replied.
Charlie always goes fishing with Billy and Leah's dad, Harry Clearwater, on the weekends. So we always have fish in the house.
"Well it smells good Bella" Billy said. I blushed I always blushed when someone complemented me, or when I was embarrassed.
"We're going to see 'Face Punch'" Jacob said excitedly.
"People in the station said that movie is going to bomb" Charlie said.
Charlie was chief of police in Forks, he often found out the town gossip when he was working there.
"No it's not!" Jacob said stubbornly.
"Okay Jake, lets make a bet, I bet you 'Face Punch' will bomb. I win you have to admit it, and if you win I will see 'Face Punch', myself." Charlie said to Jacob.
"You're on." Jacob said while shaking hands with Charlie.
How come Charlie and Ed-. I cut myself off from that thought. Shaking it off, and wincing.
This was my life so far without him.