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BPOV

"Charlotte, if you have any kind and generous bone in your body you will just kill me now." I moaned at her from my position on the bathroom floor. I groaned and leaned back over the toilet dry heaving. There was nothing left to throw up.

"Bella, what is going on? Is this normal?" She asked while rubbing soothing circles on my back. Her touch actually felt good, my skin was burning up. I could hear the fear in her voice and knew she was worried. But right now there was nothing I could do to try and ease her anxieties. I felt like shit.

I wiped my hand across my mouth and leaned against the wall closing my eyes. "I don't know. I guess I caught another bug or something." I muttered mostly to myself. "If it's not gone by tomorrow then we can call Carlisle and maybe he can give me something."

I opened my eyes and waited for the room to stop spinning before standing up. I walked slowly to the bed and collapsed on top as the darkness pulled me under once again.

"Heart beat is regular. Fever is rather high for her though." I felt something cold being slid across my chest and shivered. "Dehydrated, that's for sure." I woke up and could see the sun shining in through the window.

Carlisle was standing above me rubbing a cold wash cloth across my collar bone and face. "Hey sweetie." He said kindly with a small smile, "How are you feeling?"

I just groaned and put my arm over my eyes to block out the sun. Stupid sun. I heard Carlisle chuckle as he continued his ministrations with the wet cloth. "That good huh? I'm afraid you still have a little ways to go though. Your very dehydrated so I'm going to have to start an IV for you and you have a nice fever going for you too."

I couldn't bring myself to care. "This is Jasper's fault." I rasped, half awake "If he had just changed me in the first place. Stupid human germs." I muttered before being pulled into the darkness once again.

"AAAAAHHHHHH" I woke up to a sharp shrilling scream that made my head throb. Jesus, who the hell was that and why were they screaming? I felt a surge of pain shoot through my abdomen as another shriek filled the silence. It took me a second longer before I realised that the screaming was me.

Another wave of pain coursed through my lower body as nausea overwhelmed me. I could hear voices all around me but couldn't make anything out. I could make out cold arms lifting me gently and Jasper's voice whispering in my ear. My screams were reduced to whimpers at this point. Why was I in so much pain? As another round of pain hit me I could feel Jasper's arms tighten around me. He must have been feeling what I was feeling.

I kept my eyes shut tight and tried to block out the pain and everyone around me. I just wanted this to stop. "I don't care what you have to do Carlisle, just fix this dammit!" Jasper's voice jolted me awake. I didn't even remember being able to fall back asleep.

"Bring her in here and lay her down." Said my dad urgently. "I just checked her a few hours ago Major, I'm going to need to run more tests." I felt a prick in the crook of my elbow and heard Jasper's sharp intake of breath.

"I'm going to check her blood level, that will at least give me a starting point." Said Carlisle as he finished drawing my blood. I opened my eyes to see his face lined with worry. "Dad," I whispered. Carlisle looked up at me sharply before his face softened, "Make it stop. Please." I begged as tears slipped out and ran down my cheeks. The pain was still there but at least it was dulling.

"I will babygirl." He promised before running out of the room with the vile of blood.

I looked over to Jasper as he grabbed my hand in his and placed a kiss to my forehead. "I am so sorry Isabella. We'll get to the bottom of this I promise." He said. I nodded my head and clung to his hand like it was a lifeline.

I sat up and rolled over onto my stomach really slowly to try and ease the pressure there. Jasper helped me get situated when I felt a gush of fluid in between my legs. It felt like I just peed myself. I was about to say something when Jasper's hand gripped my hand harder than ever. I looked into his eyes and saw a vampire. He wasn't My Jasper in this moment. He was a predator and I was his prey. Why was he acting so strange?

I couldn't tear my eyes away from his until another wave of pain hit me like a ton of bricks. "Jesus Fucking Shit!" I screamed, pushing my face into the cot and gripping the sheets.

I heard the door bang open and then Jasper's hand was ripped from mine. Then the sound of two boulders crashing against each other filled the air. I felt myself being scooped up into another pair of arms. I looked up shocked then relaxed. Mom.

I started crying harder and clung to her like my life depended on it. "What's happening to me?" I whispered in her shirt. She didn't answer me, instead she stood me up on the bathroom floor and quickly started the shower. She then turned back to me and began stripping me of my clothes. I noticed that she wasn't breathing and she stared into my eyes the entire time.

She brought me over to the shower and stood me under the water before getting in with me fully clothed. Another wave of pain shot through me and brought me to my knees. I screamed loudly as I curled into a ball on the shower floor. I was floating in and out of conciseness as I felt Esme clean me up. When she picked me up I saw pink water running down the drain. My pants were still on the floor and they were covered in red. Blood. My blood. Suddenly it all made sense. The pink water was the remains of my blood on my body. That's why Jasper freaked out in the room and that's why Esme stopped breathing while bathing me.

It showed me just how much she loved me to still have cleaned me up and not given in to the blood lust that I'm sure was trying to take over. But why was I bleeding in the first place?

As another dose of pain shot through me I gave in and slipped back into the darkness where the pain couldn't touch me.

"How did this happen Carlisle?"

"I am almost positive you do not need me to explain the facts of life to you Jasper." Replied Carlisle shortly.

"I know how to make a baby god dammit! I mean how does a human get pregnant from a vampire?" He practically yelled.

I wanted to tell them to stop fighting but I couldn't move. Wait. Pregnant? I thought I was the only human mated with a vampire. Was there someone else like me?

"I don't know Jasper, I don't know. I wasn't aware it was possible either. Obviously we were wrong. Very wrong." He muttered.

"Jesus, what am I supposed to do now? We agreed not to change her until she graduated high school but I refuse to sit by and watch this happen again." Said Jasper.

"Okay explain it to me. Please." Begged Jasper, "What stage was she at and what would have happened had she not lost it?"

Lost what? None of this was making sense. Why couldn't I open my eyes? I was getting scared and felt my heart beat accelerate.

"She can hear us." Jasper muttered, "She's scared."

I heard one of them sigh before feeling a kiss to my forehead. "It will be ok Isabella. I promise you." Jasper whispered in my ear.

"I can't have this conversation while she's unconsious," Said Carlisle, "I'll be back in an hour, the sleeping pill should be fully worn off by then and then we can discuss this."

I heard a door shut softly before falling asleep once again.

"Come back to me Isabella." I heard a voice whisper in my ear. "I need you to open your eyes."

I groaned and tried to blink against the sleepiness that was trying to overcome me. As my eyes adjusted to the lit room the first thing I saw was Jasper hovering over me with a small smile on his face. For a moment I thought I saw a flicker of sadness cross his beautiful face but when I looked back it was gone and I wondered if I even really saw it at all.

"God what happened?" I moaned. I felt like I was just hit with a freaking dump truck or something.

"You just went through a pretty horrendous experience." He replied softly, rubbing his thumb against my knuckles.

"Care to explain?" I asked him.

"I think we all need to sit and talk Bella, are you up for it?" Asked Carlisle walking into the room. He must have been downstairs or somewhere close by.

"Of course." I replied wincing as I tried to sit up.

Jasper helped lift me up and sit me back against the head board so that I was facing them both. "Okay, I'm ready."

"Bella, did you know that you were pregnant?" Carlisle asked me never taking his gaze away from mine.

I felt my heart stop and I'm sure my eyes were wide. Pregnant? I'm pregnant? How was that even possible? I'm eighteen for the love of Christ! Wait-

"What do you mean 'were'?" I whispered, afraid that I already knew the answer to that question.

"I'm sorry sweetie, you miscarried the baby about ten hours ago." Said my dad.

I wasn't sure how I felt at this point. This was too much to take in. "H-how is that even possible?" I asked.

Carlisle sighed before rubbing his chin. Some human traits are just hard to break. "I don't know. The only thing I can think of is that it's because you are still human. Vampires can't have children but with a human- I guess it is possible. Thank God Aro is dead or he would be using this information to his advantage." Said Carlisle absentmindedly.

I took a deep breath and tried to sort through my thoughts.

"Okay so Isabella was pregnant and obviously it could happen again. How far along was she?" Asked Jasper.

Was she. Was. Past tense. As in not any more. Gone. Done. Dead.

"It looked to be progressing at a human rate, she was about ten weeks along. But that's not saying that things could have changed later on." He continued, "It could start off as a human pregnancy then progress rapidly later on. There would have been no telling how long it would have taken. If it would have taken the whole nine months or just a few more weeks."

Ten weeks. I went ten weeks carrying Jasper's child inside me and I had no idea. What if it was something I did that caused the miscarriage? Carlisle brought me back out of my thoughts.

"I don't think contraception is really an option either. I don't think human birth control is going to work against a vampire." He said honestly. "You can either abstain or be changed." He said.

I looked up sharply, ideas running through my mind like crazy. "Carlisle, can I maybe have a moment alone with Jasper?" I asked quietly.

He nodded and swept from the room. I knew he wasn't happy right now but this wasn't about him. I looked at Jasper and saw that he still had my hand in his.

"Isabella, I don't understand your emotions and it's worrying me." He admitted, looking into my eyes.

"Jasper, you realize that I have the ability to give you something that no one else can?" I asked him.

He looked at me skeptically but I saw a brief flicker of hope in his eyes before it was gone. He quickly put on his poker face. He wants this. I know he does, I thought happily. I didn't have to be an empath to see that.

"Listen," I sat up straighter and grabbed his other hand with mine. "Jasper this is something that I can give you! I know that you want this. I can see it in your eyes." I whispered to him. I didn't want to come on to strong and scare him away.

"Isabella," he growled, "Do you not remember the pain that you just went through? I could have lost you. It was bad enough losing my child, but to lose you on top of that? I couldn't take it." He admitted.

"I want you more than I want what you can give me." He said, "I will change you just as soon as you've recovered."

"Jasper, just think about it," I begged, "Carlisle said it was developing at a human rate. I know that that could change but-" I didn't get a chance to finish my sentence though.

"No!" He stated. "I don't care about that. I am not willing to jeopardize your health over something that I want. I never knew I even wanted a baby until I was told it was possible. But that's all it is to me. I want a baby. I need you. Do you see the difference?" He asked.

"I see where your coming from Jasper. Perhaps we can discuss this another time?" I asked, "I'm hungry."

He leaned down and kissed my lips before leaving the room. I would have to find some way to convince him. We could do this, right?

"Bella!!" I heard the screeching before I saw the source. Of course. Charlotte. I giggled and got out of the car as she pulled me into a fierce hug.

"Sweetie, I'm so sorry." She said looking me in the eyes. Everyone was sorry, but there was nothing anyone could do. I held up my hand to stop her from saying anything more. I didn't want to hear condolences. I wasn't over it.

Every time I got the pity look I felt a sharp pain in my chest. It hurt to know that I had something and then it was taken away before I even knew I wanted it. I felt like a failure as a woman. I mean that's what we were meant to do wasn't it? We were made to have babies and I couldn't even do that right.

"I'm fine Char." I said trying to smile like I meant it. "What have you been up to while we were away?" I asked her.

Carlisle insisted on keeping me at his house for a week to make sure everything went back to normal. I felt pretty stupid when he pointed out that I haven't had my period in months and I didn't even realize it.

Jasper came and kissed my forehead before walking inside with Peter, while Charlotte dragged me out to the gardens so that we could talk.

"If you ever want to talk about it, I'm here for you." She said, holding my hand.

"I know, thanks." I said. I felt hollow inside.

"You know, it could happen again." I whispered to her.

"Excuse me?"

"It could happen again, I could get pregnant again. I don't want to be changed and I doubt Jasper is going to abstain and Carlisle said that birth control won't work for us. Therefore it could happen again." I said in a rush.

"Is that something that you would want though?" She asked.

I shrugged my shoulders before laying down and putting my head in her lap. "I'm not over this yet. So no, not right away. I never even knew it was an option for us and now that it is I feel like we would be crazy to give that up. You know?"

"Understandable." She said while running her fingers through my hair. "But it's also dangerous. Look at what happened to you already."

I sighed. I knew she was right. And like I said, I wasn't ready now but it could still happen. I was not going to let Jasper abstain from me. "What does Jasper say?" She asked.

"He is against it. He wants to change me right away...I just don't know." I sighed. This all became so complicated quickly. I jumped when I heard his smooth voice from behind us. "Isabella, come inside please. We need to talk." Said Jasper.

I gave Charlotte a kiss on the cheek before wrapping my arms around Jasper's neck and gripping my legs around his waist. Either way we would have a solution worked out before the end of the night. I just hope it would be the right decision for us with no regrets later.