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JPOV

"Hell hath no fury like a pissed off mate." Peter said, standing beside me.

We both watched on as Isabella tore from the gravel driveway, spraying rocks in every direction.

"I believe it's actually, Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." I corrected.

"Whatever dude, she's pissed." He laughed.

Well, no shit Sherlock. I growled in frustration. Two months. Two fucking months and we weren't making much progress. Why was that? Was it that she wasn't trying hard enough, or maybe I wasn't pushing her hard enough...I had no idea.

"She'll get there man, it's got to be hard on her having three powers and all. That's triple the amount of effort she has to put in to trying to control all three." He said, clapping me on the shoulder.

I guess he was right. We only had to learn to control one power, not three. That would be hard. I nodded in defeat and decided to make it up to her when she came back. I was pushing her too hard.

"Oh and Marcus called and asked for a new batch of newborns. Apparently some of their Guard starting fighting amongst themselves and most were burned." He said nonchalantly.

"No." I replied walking away.

"No, Major?" He asked, incredulously.

"No. I'm done with them. All of them."

"Can you do that?" He asked.

I just shrugged my shoulders. I was Major fucking Whitlock. I could do whatever I wanted. I was about to challenge Peter to a game of Call of Duty when Isabella's ring tone went off inside my back pocket.

Opening the phone I could hear the wind blowing and Charlotte screaming Isabella's name.

"Charlotte, what the fuck is going on?" I yelled, trying to get her attention. I was already racing for my car with Peter right on my heels.

"Major, hurry! I can't control her." She screamed. "We're right on the edge of the city limits, two lost hikers. I couldn't stop her." She sobbed.

Fuck. I knew this was a bad idea. This wouldn't be a problem except she was bound and determined not to hunt humans. God, why couldn't she just be a normal vampire?

"We'll be right there." I said, snapping my phone shut. I had a feeling this was going to get pretty ugly. She was still a newborn vampire, so she was still stronger than normal, but she had been resisting human blood since she's been changed. There was no way she would be able to hold back after getting the first whiff of the human scent. And I wasn't dumb enough to try and stop her. That was suicide, even for me.

Peter and I both caught wind of their scent at the same time. He jumped out before I could shut off the engine, and I followed suit, running into the woods after him. About six miles into the forest we came upon Charlotte, who was standing perfectly still looking straight ahead. I followed her gaze and saw Isabella sitting on the forest floor with her head on her knees rocking back and forth, muttering, "I'm a monster," over and over again.

"She won't say anything. And she won't let me closer." Charlotte whispered.

I didn't know if Isabella was listening to us or not. I looked to the right and saw two bodies, both male. I stepper closer keeping my eyes on Isabella though. If she was going to attack, I needed to be ready.

She didn't move from her position though. I walked at a humans pace to her until I was standing directly behind her, looking down at the top of her head. The two males were probably in their late twenties, early thirties, both dead as can be.

I could smell their cold blood on Isabella, and knew that she lost the fight within herself. She wasn't ready to be around humans yet. The hikers were just in the wrong place at the wrong time.

"Isabella." I said gently, putting my hand on her shoulder, "It's okay. It's not your fault."

She didn't say anything though, just kept rocking back and forth, not looking up. I looked back at Charlotte and Peter and motioned for them to leave. Isabella didn't need an audience for this.

As soon as their scents faded I sat down in front of her Indian style.

"They must have been lost." I said quietly, "They would have died from hypothermia after another few hours."

"Well then they would have died naturally." She replied, "And not by the hands of a monster."

"Isabella, your a vampire darlin', you need blood to survive. Humans kill each other for sport. They are monsters to themselves." I reasoned. "Your also a newborn and haven't learned to control your blood lust yet. That's why we have been keeping you away from Civilization. If you are that determined to not kill humans then you need to take this experience and learn from it. But if you are willing to give into what comes natural to you, then we can take this experience and use it to our advantage."

"I don't want to kill humans." She whispered, "But I don't see how I can settle for animal blood after I've already had the taste of human blood." She admitted.

I could tell that she was still torn up about this and now she was fighting with herself on going against all she's ever known. The Cullens never fed from humans, only animals.

"What if you didn't deny yourself human blood?" I asked her, "What if we could even it up a little bit?"

That got her to finally look at me.

"How?"

"Instead of just eating humans at random, why don't we only hunt the evil humans?" I suggested.

I saw her swallow nervously and knew that even thinking about hunting was making the venom pool in her mouth.

"Can we discuss this another time, when I'm thinking rationally?" She begged.

"Of course." I replied, sending her a wave of tranquility.

I could feel her gratitude at my help. "I'll always be by your side." I promised her.

"I need you right now Major." She whispered, looking me in the eyes, "I need to forget. Please."

I nodded my head and pushed her onto her back, stripping her of her shirt. If this was what she needed I was more than willing to offer her my services.

BPOV

I could hear Jasper, Peter and Charlotte talking around me, but I didn't care enough to try and listen to what they were saying. I heard words like depression, and numb being thrown around but they made no sense to me.

After Jasper found me in the woods, he made love to me and then he brought me home and laid me on the bed where I haven't moved. Not even to hunt. My thirst was unbearable and yet I bared it. I was a monster. I killed two innocent men. I wish I could have confirmed that they were rapists or murderers or something, but I had no idea. For all I knew they had a family and children.

"Isabella, you need to hunt." Jasper's voice startled me, I didn't even hear him sit down on the bed beside me.

Could vampires go crazy? Could we die of sorrow and remorse? Could I die from not eating? I didn't want to die. I didn't want to leave Jasper's side ever, but at the same time, why should I get to live? Why should I get to get my happily ever after when those two men would never get theirs thanks to me?

Jasper's harsh voice startled me, I couldn't even pay attention to my surroundings. When did Peter get here?

"I can't Peter, I've tried! I can't get feel her emotions and her shield is blocking me from sending her any." I heard Jasper say. He sounded beyond frustrated but there was also a sadness in his voice.

I don't know how much time passed. I was too far into my mind to come out though. All I saw was black. Was that the color of my soul now?

I don't know what happened or what I did, but suddenly the black lifted and I could see again. I could feel so many emotions coming at me from all angles. I could hear Jasper and Peter on the other side of the door talking.

"Okay, I'm going to set it in the room and see if that brings her out of this state that she's in." Jasper said to Peter, "Be ready just in case." he warned.

Why were they whispering, and why were they nervous? The nerves coming off of both of them was enough to even make me a little scared. And just what the hell were they planning on putting in here with me?

"Major?" I whispered, wincing at the incredible burning in the back of my throat.

I felt a small breeze and looked up to see Jasper standing over me with an incredulous look on his face. "Isabella." He breathed, wrapping me up in his arms.

"Animals." I said softly, I knew that he would understand. He was my Major. My rock. And I was ready to join him once again. No more wallowing in self pity. Jasper was right, I needed to learn from my mistakes. As Jasper scooped me up in his arms and ran me from the house I got a better look at him. He had dark bruising under his eyes and he looked....defeated in a way. Did I do this to him? How long was I out for?

I could vaguely smell a herd of elk nearby as Jasper set me on my feet, clutching onto my hand.

"Stay right here." He commanded before running off into the forest.

I didn't have time to think about what he did or where he was going, when he was back in front of me carrying a dead elk over his shoulder. He dropped it to the ground at my feet, and stepped back.

I took a deep breath and could smell the animals blood and knew it would be no good in another couple of minutes. I lunged myself at the corpse and began to drink from it greedily. I didn't notice that Jasper had even left my side until he dropped another elk beside me. I flung myself at that one and began to drink it dry as well.

Four elk later, the burn in my throat had lessened dramatically. I felt stronger, and more alive, if that made sense. But I needed something more and the only one that could give me that was my mate.

"I can help you with that Darlin'." Jasper said from behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist.

Without responding I turned around so that I was facing him and lunged. I wasn't as strong as I was, but I was pretty close. We went flying into a tree and snapped it in half. I didn't care though, my only thoughts were that Jasper was wearing too many clothes. Something inside was telling me that Jasper was Mine and that I needed to show him that. That I needed to physically mark him as Mine for all to see.

"Don't even think about it." Jasper growled out as he attacked my lips. He plunged his tongue in my mouth and massaged his tongue with mine.

We both struggled for dominance, him trying to get on top of me and me trying to rip off his clothes and bite him.

Suddenly we were flipped, and might have taken out a few more trees, when Jasper was on top of me, my shirt ripped right down the middle and I had no idea where my pants went. Meanwhile his pants around his knees.

I could feel the dirt scratching into my back, but it wasn't a painful sensation on my marble skin, it was just....there. I knew that we were both getting dirt everywhere and we probably would look like cave people after this said and done, but I couldn't bring myself to care.

I saw Jasper's cock standing at attention and briefly entertained the thought of biting it and marking him there. Bet that would hurt like a son of a bitch.

That thought made me pause and debate and in that split second Jasper managed to grab my arms and hold them above my head with his hand, using his other hand to hold down my hip. I wanted him inside me, make no mistake about that, but I wanted it to be done my way. I wanted to be on top. I wanted to be in control.

"Tough shit Darlin, I'm in control of you." Jasper hissed as he plunged his cock inside me.

Jasper continued to thrust inside me while I continued to try and flip him over. But there wasn't much I could do with no hands. I tried to free them but it just made Jasper hold on to me tighter, pushing my hands and my body further into the dirt.

I turned my head trying to bite his arm, but that just made him plow into me even harder.

"You will learn, Isabella, that I am in charge." He grunted.

Suddenly my orgasm washed over me and I cried out, my walls clenching his hard cock painfully. I felt Jasper spilling his seed deep inside me and I slumped against the forest floor, the fight clean out of me. What in the hell was I thinking, trying to dominate the Major?

I heard Jasper chuckle as he stood up and re-did his pants.

"That's the vampire in you trying to control your mate." Jasper explained. "Usually the female vampire will try to exert her control on her mate and from the people I talk to they let them. They will let their mates bite them and be the ones in control once in a while."

"But you didn't do that." I whispered. I felt awful for trying to bite him, knowing it would hurt him.

"No." He said easily, "I will never do that. I will have control. You are mine, just as much as I am yours, but I will always have the ultimate control over you." He said, holding out his hand to help me up. It wasn't necessary, but I recognised it as his way of showing me that he would always be there for me.

I stood up and watched as Jasper slid my shirt off of me and replaced it with his shirt. I was going to run out of clothes if we kept this up.

I stepped forward into Jasper's arms and let his feelings of love and content wash over me. "I love you Major." I said, wrapping my arms around his waist. Yes, this was where I definitely belonged.