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I parked the black rental outside of the rather large house not far from the city. I stepped out and headed through the gate up the stairs and knocked on the door. Before the door opened, I felt the pain assault my head and I bent over holding grabbing my head, "What do you want?" a voice asked from the doorway.
"I'm…I'm looking for Bonnie", I gasped trying to concentrate.
"She's not here".
"But is your son?" I asked, "I know that she came here looking for him".
The pain stopped suddenly and I stood up gripping onto the door, "Luka…Bonnie came here looking for him".
"Luka has not seen the witch".
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Yes".
"Well can I ask him that?" I replied.
Jonas looked at me from head to toe, "You and your friends ruined everything…"
"You mean by killing Elijah…he kidnapped a Bennett witch…he got what he deserved".
"I knew that he would suffer for that", Jonas replied stepping back, "come in".
I stepped into the house and looked around at all of the dark arts artifacts decorating the house, "Where's Luka?"
"If I tell you where Luka is…you will have to make a deal with me".
"I don't make deals", I answered.
Jonas shrugged, "Then you won't find the witch or Luka".
I clenched my jaw, "What do you want?"
"When the time comes…you will help me kill Klaus".
"Wait…you want Klaus dead?" I asked slightly surprised at this turn of events.
"Yes…he has something of mine that I want back".
"And that would be…?"
"I will tell you where Luka and your witch are…if you agree to help me kill Klaus when its time".
"Fine!" I agreed, even though I had no intention on keeping my promise, "where are they?"
"St. Louis Cemetery…they are meeting there at 11".
"Are you lying to me about this?" I asked.
Jonas smirked, "I have no reason to lie…I want you and your witch out of this city for now…you will draw attention".
"Thanks", I deadpanned as I turned and sped out of the house.
SSSSS
I put my hands deeper into my jacket pockets as I waited in the cemetery for Luka. It was hard convincing my dad that I just wanted to go to sleep, so that I could be all better tomorrow. Now that I found myself standing in this cemetery, I suddenly felt a little scared. My emotions were all over the place and my body was humming with nervous energy. I wasn't sure if I could trust Luka, but something told me that I needed to know what happened.
"Bonnie", Luka's voice drifted from behind me.
I turned around and saw him standing next to a headstone.
"Why did you want to meet here?" I asked turning around at the dark cemetery with old headstones all around and creepy tombs.
"It's pretty poetic for us…don't you think?" he smirked.
"So I want to know what happened with Elijah…Damon compelled me and now I can't remember anything, so help me remember what happened?"
"Bonnie…I can't do that…"
"Why not…you owe this to me…you helped Damon to compel me and now I have a hole where those memories should be…I'm having panic attacks…nightmares…please Luka, help me remember…please".
Luka shook his head, "Bonnie, I was there…trust me, you don't want to remember".
"Isn't that a choice that I should make?"
"Bonnie…"
"Luka…help me to remember", I whispered, "please".
Luka took a deep breath, "Once you remember…you won't be able to forget".
"I know that", I breathed as I closed my eyes as he raised his hands to touch me.
When two hands touched my cheek, I felt a familiar feeling and I opened my eyes to see two crystal blue eyes staring back at me. I snatched his hands off of my cheeks as I looked around for Luka, "Where is Luka?" I asked.
"I'm right here Bonnie", Luka replied coming up from beside Damon, "Bonnie…I'm sorry, but I really can't help you here".
"Luka…", I said walking over to him as he disappeared before my eyes. I searched around and realized that he had disappeared leaving Damon and me in the cemetery.
"I don't want you here", I said walking past him as he grabbed my arm.
"Bonnie…we need to talk", he replied.
"No…why…why do we need to talk…I don't want to talk to you…you lied to me…you compelled me…I hate you!" I shrieked at him.
I could see him visibly recoil at me, "I see why Katherine never loved you…you're selfish…you only want what makes you happy! You don't care about anyone but yourself…if it makes Damon happy…then its ok…everything…EVERYTHING that you've done to me has wrecked my life!" I went on attacking him with my words.
I watched the tears appear in Damon's eyes as he swallowed, "I'm…I'm sorry".
"Sorry…do you think that fixes everything! I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I don't even know what's real…what I feel for you…I don't even know if that's real anymore or if its something that you planted in my head".
"I would never do that to you".
"I don't know what you would do!" I screamed as I waved my arms in the air.
"I would do anything to save you and I have! Don't you think I know that you would hate me because of the compulsion…I knew that was a possibility but you didn't see what I saw coming into that room…I saw the person that I love traumatized on the floor after killing someone who was trying to kill her…I saw your eyes…when you looked at me you were afraid of me…you were terrified…you were bleeding, you were dying and you didn't want me to touch you…how could I stand there and do nothing…how could I do that?" he asked walking closer to me.
I shook my head as I felt him wrap his arms around me, "Maybe I didn't do the right thing…but I did the only thing I knew to do…I had to save your life and if it meant that you would hate me forever, I was willing to sacrifice that", he whispered in my ear.
I stood with my arms by my side as he hugged me tighter.
"Damon", I said quietly.
He dropped his arms from around me and stepped back.
"Can you please go back to Mystic Falls…please", I whispered.
"Bonnie…"
"Please", I said with my voice cracking.
Damon looked at me, swallowed hard and nodded as he turned around and walked slowly out of the cemetery.
SSSSSS
After leaving Bonnie in the cemetery I walked Bourbon Street and found a nice bar in an alley. I plopped down on a stool and ordered a beer. I stared at the bottle as I downed it. "Bourbon on the rocks", I ordered as the bartender nodded pouring the drink.
He slid it over and I gulped it down without a second thought as I held up my finger again to order another one. Who was I kidding thinking that the witch had changed? She hadn't…she was still as bitchy, judgmental, and overly emotional as she always been. She attacked me with everything that she had in the cemetery when all I did was attempt to save her from going through hell knowing what Elijah did to her. She repaid me by throwing Katherine in my face…well the hell with her and Katherine…two bitches that didn't care about anything and thought they were superior to everyone and everything. I didn't need her or Bonnie.
After 2 hours of compelling the bartender to continue feeding me bourbons, I stumbled out of the bar and headed down the alley. "Hey…looking for a good time…blue eyes?" a sultry feminine voice asked from one of the doorways.
I turned to the doorway and noticed a very busty blond wearing very little looking back at me licking her lips, "Actually…I am…", I smiled as I followed her into that doorway.
"Soo…what exactly do you consider a good time?" she asked looking at me from head to toe.
"Hmm…let me think?" I smirked as I vamped out, "this!"
I grabbed her and sunk my fangs into her neck as I pulled her further into the doorway and allowed her blood to flow into my mouth as I tried to forget the name Bonnie Bennett.
SSSSS
Somehow I managed to become quite the actress in New Orleans. After the cemetery scene with Damon, I decided that whatever memories that I had of what happened with Elijah were lost forever and I needed to focus on enjoying my time with my father. He informed me that as soon as we got back to Mystic Falls, he had to handle an emergency in California. He asked me if I wanted to come with and I declined. I needed to get back to school and try to concentrate on repairing my life.
As soon as we drove up to my house, I saw Caroline outside. She smiled as my dad parked the car, "Hi Mr. Bennett!" she grinned brightly, "did you have a nice trip".
"We did…we did…Bonnie, I will carry in the luggage".
"Actually…I want to kidnap Bonnie for awhile…I need her to help me with something", Caroline smiled as she looped her arm through mine clearly confusing me.
"Ok…well see you later Bon, we will talk before I leave tomorrow morning", my dad nodded going in the house.
"Caroline, what are you doing?" I asked as she lead me over to her car.
"We are going to talk Miss Bonnie Bennett", she replied as I slid in next to her in the car.
"Caroline if this is about Damon…"
"Bonnie…listen, can you just drive with me and when we get to where I'm taking you…can you just listen?"
I sighed, "Fine".
Caroline smiled as she continued to drive.
SSSSS
The curtains flew open as I shielded my eyes from the sunlight coming in the room, "Stefan…get out!" I barked.
"Late night?" Stefan asked.
"What are you my dad?"
"No…I'm someone that is trying to stop you from making a fool of yourself".
"A fool of myself…oh no Brother…", I replied sliding out of the bed, "I've already done that…letting the witch know that I may have cared about her and her basically throwing it in my face…oh no…I am done being a fool…now, I will do what I want when I want".
"Oh so you don't care about Bonnie anymore…it just went away?" Stefan raised an eyebrow.
"Well you know as well as I do that I can turn it on and turn it off at will…so it's permanently off…that witch is nothing to me".
"Really…she's back from New Orleans today".
"Well that's good…hope she had fun, I know I did", I smirked as I picked up the bottle of bourbon on my dresser and began drinking it.
"Damon…this is not the best way to deal with this".
"Stefan…take your advice somewhere else…I don't want to hear it, Bonnie and I are over…there is no going back…I had a moment of temporary insanity when I was with her and now its over…end of story…I should have stuck to just getting her blood", I replied.
Stefan sighed from behind me, "I don't believe you".
"I don't care", I answered as I heard Stefan sigh again and walk out of the room.
I slammed down the bottle on the dresser and looked in the mirror.
SSSSS
"Caroline…what are we doing here?" I asked as Caroline stopped near the tomb.
"Bonnie…a couple of months ago, Mason caused my mother to find out that I was a vampire…when she found out, she was soo destroyed…she hated me…she didn't want me anywhere near her. I…I think to a degree she was afraid of me…it broke my heart Bonnie. My mom is all that I have here in Mystic Falls and the thought of losing her terrified me. We kept her in the dungeon at the Salvatore house and before letting her out…I had to compel her to forget. Before I did, she thought that she would be able to handle it…but Bonnie, I knew that she couldn't. I'm dead…her daughter's dead…I'm a vampire…that is hard to come to grips with and I know that she would always have that fear when she looked at me and I knew we could never be the mother-daughter that we could be if she knew about me…so I compelled her…did I want her to know the truth? Of course I did…but I realize that sometimes…what may not seem to be the right decision on its face…is".
"What are you a Damon supporter now, Caroline?" I asked turning to her.
"No…I'm a Bonnie supporter", she said, "and you've been heartbroken since all of this started. I know that you're angry at everyone for keeping this from you…I was too, but Bonnie from what Elena tells me…things were bad and in Damon's own crazy way, he was trying to help".
I shook my head, "I don't know Care…"
"Bonnie, I know that you are hurting and its not just because Damon compelled you…it's because you love him".
"I don't love him", I denied.
"Yes…yes you do", Caroline said wrapping her arm around me, "and that's why you will forgive him…because you know deep down…as much as I don't want it to be true, he loves you too".
I wrapped my arm around Caroline and leaned my head on her shoulder, "I am soo messed up".
"Nope…we're the new normal", Caroline answered.
SSSSSS
I stumbled into my bedroom after spending some time at a very nice bar not far from Mystic Falls University. I closed the door as I shook off my jacket and then I saw her sitting on the edge of the bed. The moonlight was casting a soft blue light on her and she looked like…she looked like an Angel. "Damon", she whispered as I leaned up against the door looking at her through my drunken eyes.
"What are you doing here?" I asked walking over to the dresser pouring a glass of vodka.
"I came to talk".
"Oooh now you want to talk…you know what Bonnie, I think you said all that you had to say in New Orleans".
She stood up and walked over to me, "I deserve that".
"Oh you do…wow…is the witch actually accepting that maybe she's not that perfect and she needs to take some of the stuff she dishes out?"
"Damon…"
"What Bonnie…you can't possibly be here to chew me out some more, so what are you doing here?"
"I wanted to tell you that I understand now", she spoke up as she reached out for my arm and I drew it away from her.
"Oh do you…and what gave you this epiphany?"
"Caroline…she…she explained to me what its like to be…"
"What a vampire? She's been one for less than a year and now she's an expert?"
"She knows what its like to love someone…see them suffering and do whatever you can to stop it".
I scoffed as I downed my drink and grimaced as it burned going down my throat.
"Damon…do you know why I was really angry…why I was soo hurt…why I wanted to hurt you?" she asked moving to the other side of me.
"Humor me", I answered turning to her.
"Because I thought…I thought I was losing what was real…I thought that the feelings that I had for you…the feelings that made my entire body come alive when you touched me…the feelings that caught me by surprise…the feelings that screamed out to me that I had fallen in love with someone who I used to despise were fake…manufactured…I was angry…and I wanted to hurt you the way, I thought you had hurt me".
"So you thought I compelled you to love me…well that's great…thank you Bonnie".
"Damon…I was wrong…"
"Yes, you were wrong…so very wrong and I was wrong…I was wrong to think that you and I were anything more than some sex that I liked to have…often…but I have to admit that you need to brush up on your technique a little, since you so nicely let me know that I ruined your life…I've been finding women who don't want anything more than a roll in the bed with me and trust me, I make it worth their wild…and you know what…", I replied moving closer to her as I saw the tears pool in her eyes and I decided to go in for the kill, "I think they are enjoying it and they haven't once accused me of ruining their lives".
She let the tears fall and I felt some satisfaction as she wiped them away, "You're just trying to hurt me like I hurt you".
"See…you didn't hurt me because I really didn't care Bonnie…you gave me everything I wanted from you…what else would I need from you?" I asked.
"You're lying", she replied.
"Actually…I'm not…there's actually someone on their way now…now, unless you want to be here to watch the festivities…I think you better go", I said.
She shook her head.
"Bonnie…go".
"I'm going", she replied as I watched the cold look come across her face, "I hope you have fun with her…and I hope she gives you crabs", she snapped as she breezed past me rushing out of the room.
I chuckled as I sipped on my vodka.
SSSSSS
I headed out to my car and struggled with the door. I felt the tears leave my eyes as I kicked the tire hard. "Stupid…stupid…stupid…I hate this!" I screamed as I covered my eyes.
"Bonnie?" Stefan asked quietly from behind me.
I straightened up and wiped my tears, "Stefan…Elena…hi".
"Bonnie…what's wrong?" Elena asked coming closer to me.
I shrugged, "I just need to go…"
"No…come inside…you're upset".
"No…I think I need to go, I just want to say that I'm sorry for exploding on all of you, I know that you were only trying to help me…I just…I didn't know how to process it", I apologized.
Elena hugged me, "You don't need to apologize…I know that it was hurtful, but we only wanted to protect you".
"I know…and I'm sorry…I should go home, my dad's leaving tomorrow…"
"Oh Bonnie…do you want me to come with you?" Elena asked.
I shook my head, "No…it's ok…be with Stefan", I answered.
"You sure?" Elena asked.
I nodded as I got in my car and drove away from the Salvatore boarding house.
Sooo they've both hurt each other, where do they go from here?