Thank You guys for the recent reviews! And also for all of those who have this story on story Alert. It means a lot even if just a couple of you are following this. :) Well here is chapter 4. It's kind of short, but I still hope you enjoy.
I was sitting in our backyard by myself, on my knees arranging some tools. I decided to plant the seasonal beautiful Lillie's so Grandma Esme wouldn't have to. She was always doing something so I took it upon my self to help. It felt so warm today. It was rewarding thing for me. That's one thing I liked about Towson, Washington. Unlike Forks there was a little more humidity that envelopes us in a little heat after the regular showers. It felt so nice and I was suddenly glad I was wearing a sleeveless short orange sundress. Its not like I got very cold in the first place anyway.
I was kneeling on the ground placing the small seeds in each individual hole when I sensed someone coming up to me from behind. I continued to work as I recognized the scent.
"hello Renesmee. Beautiful day for gardening, huh."
"Yes Nahuel, it actually is." I smiled genuinely and watched him kneel beside me. He was wearing a navy button down shirt in which he had the long sleeves folded up to his well shaped fore arms and the top buttons were open. He had a pair of dark slacks and dark blue converses. I had to admit that he looked like a model. I continued to stare at all his features..
how come I've never notice how handsome he was?
I realised that he was also looking at me quite intently down my folded body as well. He slowly made his way up to my face. I almost wanted to laugh. Once he met my eyes he almost looked embarrassed at being caught checking me out. He looked down letting the dark short curls on his head fall onto his eyes. His contradiction of Hispanic features flushed onto his pale skin.
...he is very cute.
He continued to look at me but started to pick up some seeds to help me. His hands were working in sync and perfection silently when he suddenly spoke up. For a moment I thought he was going to announce he was going to go back in. Then his eyes lifted up to my face once again and I decided to hold his gaze. He took a deep breath and started.
"You've grown up to be so beautiful Renesmee. Every year I see you, you just some how impossibly look more gorgeous then before. I must admit that you are one of the most apealling beings I have met in my time."
I stopped planting seeds and looked down scared at looking in to his eyes any longer. I blushed at his statement and felt very flattered. Sure my family always told me how beautiful and exceptional I was, but it's not the same as when an outsider tells you. I looked up and saw that he had helped me finish and was already moving off the ground. Once he was up, he outstretched a hand to help me up. My bronze curls shifted on my shoulders from the light wind.
I knew he was just being a gentle men so I took his hand and he pulled me right up. By the time I was up I was suddenly very close to Nahuels body. I could feel the body heat he offered rolling off of him. He looked at me very intently as to see what my reaction was. Frozen, I didn't move nor speak. I don't know how many moments passed but then a very familiar scent was near enough for me to smell. My heart skipped a beat. I wanted to intoxicate myself in it. I turned to where the back porch was and saw Jacob standing next to my mom looking at me and Nahuel with a blank expression. I took a tiny step back hoping that they weren't thinking wrong of this. I searched for my Jacob.
When our eyes met for a moment his expressionless face transformed into agony but just as quickly as it came it was gone. He was once again looking at me with a blank stoic expression. I could see moms hand resting on his arm as if holding him back. I looked up at her and found her smiling at me.
What is going on with Jacob? I questioned.
I hadn't been able to talk to him since Nahuel came over. He seemed to be distant and I wasn't sure why. He hadn't been over since and it had been two whole days. This was pretty strange for him. After all it was almost like he lived here. He was my best friend. And I really did miss him.
I knew Dad must have told him to back off. I instantly felt guilty. I knew Dad was doing it because of me and my thoughts. Jacob was probably angry at me for getting him in trouble....that had to be it. Why else would he stay away for so long.
"Would you like to go inside, Renesmee?" Nahuel asked, noticing probably my longing expression.
I very much did. I suddenly wanted to run to Jacob and apologize for what have might of occurred between him and my father. If anything I was scared. I was scared that Dad had told him about my slipping thoughts. Jacob didn't need to know just how much I marvel his laugh. How his body just makes my stomach tighten a bit. How his embrace warms me from the inside out. How his friendship some how just wasn't enough anymore. That would be so embarrassing. But not just that. Jacob had the power to reject me. He could easily assume that I was just a child and that my feelings were irreverent.
Oh God, Jake would probably flip.
Jacob was the one I could always run to. The one who holds me when I cry. He has been everything I needed for as long as I can remember. I couldn't bare to loose him. My heart clenched a bit. I suddenly wanted to sprint towards Jacob and jump into his arms. But when I looked over he was suddenly gone. My mom stood on the porch with an apologetic smiled and turned around to go back inside. My insides seem to fall.
Why did he leave? Does he know??
I was panicking. Not my Jake. He was upset. I couldn't stand to know he was upset. It has always been as if his pain is my pain.
I turned to Nahuel. "Yes Nahuel. I would actually like to go do something"
and without waiting for him, I turned and walked in.
As soon as I walked through the door all I heard was silence. Normally the T.V was on or Emmet would be on the X-box. But today he was on a hunting trip with about half of the family.
I walked straight through the living room and the kitchen and towards the garage door. I made a beeline for my red mustang. I opened the door slowly trying to think through if I was really going to do this. I was.
I slipped into the car and put my key into the key slot. This was the first time I was going to drive my first car. I turned the key and the car stirred to life. The growl it made was so satisfying and rich. The power felt sturdy and willing. I was already in love with this baby and I suddenly realized that Jake knew what I liked before I did. I smiled at this and decided that going to La Push and find him was a good idea. I put my foot on the gas petal and was on my way feeling a slight thrill and a couple of butterflies fluttering there wings in my stomach.
Once I arrived to Jakes house I noticed there were one too many cars in his drive way.
Did Billy or Jake have company that I had not been told about? Was that why he has not been around lately. I pondered and hoped that that was it. I parked the car beside the road and pulled my self out of the car. I leaned on to my red convertable and wondered if Jacob had already smelled my scent and knew I was here.
I shifted my wait around the car and nothing happened. I could hear faint voices coming from down below in the garage from the distance.
I rubbed my hands together and realized I had started to sweat a little. I was a little nervous having to face Jake. After all, If he knew what I was feeling everything would be so awkward now. But this was Jake.
Since when does he make me nervous?
I started kicking pebbles and looking at the ground. Waiting....
What If--
Foot steps interrupted my thoughts. I looked up hopeful that my big werewolf was walking towards me. But I was instantly disappointed. It was a werewolf alright. But it wasn't my Jacob.
Embry was walking up to me quite slowly for what I was use to. He had a hesitant look on his face and a worried expression.
"Hey Embry" I greeted and smiled warmly at him. He was now standing infront of me
"Hey Ness" He responded. He had a small sad look on his face.
"Is everything okay" I asked before thinking. My curiosity was always looking for ways to show itself. He gave me a wary smile and nodded.
"Yeah...things are..okay." he responded in a shaky voice. Was it just me or is he lying. Then I thought of a conversation Jacob and I had had about a week ago. He had mentioned Embry's mom was fighting cancer. Maybe he was just worried about her. I suddenly felt for him. It must be very hard to have to watch his mother fight for his life. I was actually pretty concerned.
"How is your mother, Em? I hope she is recovering and feeling better."
He looked at me with surprise but it faded off in recognition that Jacob had probably told me. He looked into the distance and then answered.
"She is doing much better now, Ness. She is out of the hospital and eating well. It is a great relief to see her better. Thanks for asking Ness. It means a lot." He responded with a warm smile that told me he meant every word. I put my hand on his shoulder. And he brought a hand up scratching his head in almost embarrassment.
"Of course Em. You guys mean a lot to me. If you ever need anything we're here. Seriously---"
And then my eye caught something behind him. There was a dark skinned big guy laughing and talking in the distance. Jacob looked so appealing. I wanted to hear his laughter closer. It was quite delicious. And then all of a sudden there was a girl coming out of the garage too. She reached out towards Jake's hand and was laughing with him. I strained my hearing so I could hear better.
"Thanks for coming." He told her leading her out of the garage. He was still smiling.
Her blond hair was shining bright against some sun rays that had some how penetrated thick clouds. Her jeans were clearly hanging low on her hips. Her huge boobs were noticeable from even up here.
And then it hit me. I knew her!
"Of course Jacob. Anytime. As a matter of fact I was hoping we could see each other again.....maybe...lunch sometime?" Patty asked him.
PATTY!? What is going on. My stomach dropped and I felt Embry stiffen next to me.
He had been spening time with PATTY! I was horrified. What the hell...Driving instructor...Fake Patty?
My chest began to clench repeatedly and dread started to fill me up. I felt rare tears wanting to surface. But if I started crying there was no excuse. Jacob was nothing to me. And apparently wasn't interested in being something to me either.
I looked back at Embry and forced a smile. He looked like he wanted to say something to me but didnt know how to say it.
"errr......sure. That would be..nice" Jake responded. Obviously still not aware of my presence from down there. I was forcing my feet to move. My body took a couple of seconds to respond. I felt like melting on the gravel under me.
"I th-think I should go, Em. Please take care." and with that, I got into my car and left.
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