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Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. If I did

Chapter 12

Renesmee's POV

He was starring right into my eyes, but he wouldn't move an inch. I was practically willing him and starring him down, hoping that he would close the space between us.

The time seemed to stretch and my insides felt like they were going to combust any minute now from the want of his lips. He still did not move and just continued to look into my eyes as if I were the world.

Jacob Black…kiss me already!

For a moment, I wished Jacob could hear my thoughts. I wish that he could feel what I felt.

Why didn't he just kiss me?

I knew I wasn't like Patty. Or probably nothing like the girls Jacob had fooled around with before I was even born. But I didn't want him to treat me like I couldn't be liked…romantically. In fact I think I deserved a bit more then Patty. Fucking fake Patty…

I would have gasped at the sharpness of my thoughts but I was quickly lost.

His eyes didn't move from my face. They locked with mine and I could feel the tension wrap around our bodies and fog up my thoughts one by one.

My head was telling me to retreat. To look away and to remember everything that had happened. But those thoughts were fading away like fresh smoke released into the air.

I could see his black eyes swim with thoughts and it made me angry just realizing that he had to think this through. The way his jaw clenched instantly made me lick my lips.

I Deserve. More. Then. Patty.

I knew that if I wanted this I would have to play dirty. I needed him to realize that he could want me to. I just prayed that his wouldn't push him away. I couldn't always be the innocent Nessie.

So with out thinking a single thought, I trapped his face in place and leaned in to crash my lips with his. Everything faded then.

Deep down I was braced to expect rejection. But nothing in that sort came to find me. So instantly I gave into this want and licked Jacobs's top lip.

My lips were completely inexperienced but the response Jacob gave back instantly, told me I was doing something right. I molded my lips against his, wrapping my own around them. His lips were incredibly soft and full and they filled me with his warmth that was pouring into my mouth and burning me into life from within.

My heart began to pound even faster then it normally did and I knew that he could probably hear it. It was like a helicopter initiating inside me and suddenly I was flying high.

I had never felt like this before. This was completely new and exhilarating and this kiss was suddenly something I felt like my life depended on. I needed Jake…to kiss me. To want. To survive. He had me shaking from the nerves. Shaking from the feel. Shaking in his warm arms trying to wrap some type of reason around this situation.

Oh yes, this was like those romance novels I loved. Better then a romance novel. My first kiss…with my best friend...how perfect.

I could feel Jacobs's lips sucking on mine, trying to taste all of me as if he could. Stiffness was now growing on my neck at the uncomfortable position we were in but I quickly ignored letting this feeling take over. I was completely consumed into the heat and I almost didn't notice when he pulled away. I gasped and slowly opened my eyes, instantly feeling too cold be this far away from him…

This was enough time to let the thoughts slowly start to make sense again. And then I felt his hot hands grip my arms and before I knew it he was lifting me over the ground pulling me towards his body which was now laid out on the sand. The thoughts quickly were gone again.

I reacted quickly when he set me down on top of him and turned around to face him. Once again without a thought, I placed a leg around either side of him and sat on his lap straddling him.

He quickly pulled me against him and I could feel my toes curl on the sand as I felt something hard rub against the surface of my tie. My lips quickly found there way towards him and this was perfect. This kiss had me seeing sparks under my eyelids. It was as if this was always meant to be.

I didn't know what I was expecting. But it definitely wasn't this.

My senses were engulfed with Jacob.

He was the sun. He was fire. He was everything. And he was also very excited. The stiff member in Jacobs's pants grew impossibly harder and I almost thought it was a pole in his pants.

My heart was beating terribly fast and all the emotions I was feeling suddenly started to make me feel faint. The newness of this was almost terrifying.

I moaned as I felt Jacobs's hands grip my face and crash against my face. His lips were now molding against mine a bit more frantically with hunger. I put one hand on his chest and realized that I wanted this. I wanted this feeling to last forever. And most of all, I simply wanted Jacob Black in a very naughty way. I moaned loudly-

I don't know what happened then but suddenly Jacob wasn't under me any more. I found myself on my knees, but with nothing under them but sand. I opened my eyes quickly, shivering from the cold and the emotions. I looked around for Jacob and sighed when I saw him.

He was standing about 5 meters away from me, his whole frame gasping and shaking, staring at the ground. My thoughts felt like syrup as they entered my brain and slowly I started to recognize this as rejection. My heart sunk in my chest as I finally began to regain control over my body again and it started to feel like my world was spiraling down. I could feel the tears pooling into my eyes and my face felt like a waterfall was about to emerge.

I watched him as he caught his breath again and let the tears fall.

What have I done?

I watched as he erected his figure and turned to meet my eyes. His face which has been like stone instantly fell as he saw me. Regret maybe?

I dropped my face in shame and tried to get up. My pajamas had sand in them but I couldn't find the will to care. I tried hard not to but I failed as a sob came from my mouth.

This hurt more then I thought it could? Was I really not as good as Patty? Was I not as good as those other girls who had Jacob to themselves? Was my mother better then me at this? I suddenly wanted to throw up.

Instantly I felt a light breeze and Jacob was standing right in front of me. I looked at his feet and refused to look up.

When I felt his arms wrap around me in an embrace I didn't push him away like I should have. Suddenly Jacob had become my worse weakness. His warmth made me feel more then a tad bit better.

Was there a chance that Jacob could still be my Jacob? My best friend?

"Ness. Baby. Don't cry" Jacob whispered in my ear.

Baby? Jacob hadn't called me that since I was well..a toddler.

Of course I forced the tears away in order to stop him from feeling guilt but the damage was done and the pain was there. For a moment I thought that this moment would be the best moment of my life. But, boy was I wrong.

I sniffled one last time and heard Jacob sigh as I remained silent to his unanswered question.

I dared myself to look up at him and saw an agonized expression that hurt even me. I felt a tear escape the corner my left eye and I just couldn't help it.

"Nessie honey. There is no reason to cry. I'm not rejecting you. I hope you know that right." He said, his voice sounding more confident then he looked.

I narrowed my eyes and looked at him, hoping that he wasn't just saying that. And just when I was about to look down and cry again he gave me a dazzling smile. The smile that belonged to me and me only.

"I mean it Ness."

And that's all it took for me to swallow up my childish cries and squeeze his whole body. He was like home and I wanted us forever. In whatever form that could be.

I considered kissing him when I felt a tickling feeling on my feet. I pulled away and struggled a bit as Jacob barely loosened his grip around me when I saw it. Right between Jacob and I there was a baby sea turtle crawling towards the ocean, fighting to reach its destination. The turtle was so tiny and incredibly cute that I couldn't help but smile at the sight. I could feel Jacob looking down to and I felt his chest move before I heard his chuckle.

"Will you look at that?" He said. The smile evident in his words. Again everything was forgotten.

I pried out of Jacobs embrace and fell to my knees again. I leaned in carefully and studied the turtle's tiny shell. I tried to find out what type of sea turtle it was, but I came up with nothing. The book Grandpa Carlisle had given me on sea turtles wasn't as fresh in my mind as I wanted it to be.

Jacob joined me on the ground and we sat there in silence, watching the first of many find its way into its new home.

I stared at the tiny turtle struggle in the sand until it was many feet away. In my head there was only silence and serenity and I could keep my thoughts from drifting away towards Jacob.

When the turtle was finally near the wet sand I looked up at Jacob and watched him as he looked at the water. His hair was moving with the wind and his strong jaw was set at the perfect angle. He looked incredibly handsome and fierce all at the same time. But still, nothing but peace radiated from him. He was like pure light in the darkness that I found completely attracted and addicted to. I was about to gravitate towards him when I looked to my left.

I gasped at the beautiful sight. In the sand there was a moving dark trail filled with baby sea turtles. Some were racing; others looked like they were limping. But they were all in a hurry to find the ocean. To find home and the sense of safety.

I thought about how many people actually feel like that. About how many people spend their whole life on a journey trying to reach something that feels like home and feels safe. It almost hurt to imagine those who never made it to the water. Because I knew there were people in the world who looked for love but left with nothing but a series of disappointments. Even I knew that life couldn't always be easy and simply. But for those who did find that…well that could probably be the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen.

The moons light would reflect on their tiny shells causing a glitter effect to cloud around them. I smiled at the scene, noticing that this was the beauty of life that looked so magical. This was the beauty of living and breathing. I couldn't help but stare and feel even emotional about this scene.

I don't know how long Jacob and I sat there. I also don't know how long it took for him to jump over the turtles and settle by me. But it didn't matter because I could have stayed there forever. I could have stayed there for eternity watching these cute little figures slide there way over to edge of the water with Jacobs arms around me.

They would watch us as we watched them and we only hoped that they didn't think we were there parents.

The sea turtles were now very close to the shore when the sun began to rise. A blurr of orange grew in the horizon and finally the first turtle was pulled by wave into home.

I looked at Jacob and smiled widely.

"It's kinda beautiful, isn't it?" I asked him. He nodded and smiled, squeezing me.

"It is"

Then I heard a loud screech in the air and turned my head to the sky to find where it came from. I could see a flying bird circling the air above the beach from where we sat.

"Wha-whats that" I asked. Hoping that it wasn't what I thought.

Jacob stiffened next to me.

"It's a hawk. Looking for breakfast" He confirmed and I was instantly on my feet.

I looked at the trail and saw that half of it still had a long way to go. I began to shudder at the idea of that vicious bird coming down to swipe them.

"It's ganna eat them, Jake! We have to stop this!" I yelled, looking around frantically.

There was no time to think because all of a sudden there was another horrendous screech and I could easily see the bird diving for the trail.

All of a sudden Jake was next to me. We shared a knowing look and suddenly a smirk birthed on his face.

It took a mere second for us to both yell out and bolt towards the shore where most of the turtles now where.

"AHHHHHHH" We both screamed in union as we tried to scare of the hawk.

I caught sight of Jacob as he began to wave his hands in the air looking like a huge toddler going physco. I stopped screaming and instantly started laughing. I still ran but I couldn't take it. This was too funny.

Jacob was now right next to the turtles running up and down and around them with his waving hands in the air. His screams came out animalistic but it only made the scene funnier. Little by little more sea turtles were swept away by the waves.

I finally reached him and started imitating his movements and continued to scream. We did this for about 3 minutes, screaming and laughing uncontrollably all at the same time. It didn't help that Jacobs's screams sometimes came out sounding more like a dying girls from a horror movie.

When I looked up, the hawk was long gone and the end of the turtle trail was almost swept away with the ocean.

I ran to Jacob and wrapped my arms around him laughing at our moment. The smiles we both had on our faces could light up the other half of the world!

Our laughter died as we watched the penultimate sea turtle reach the water and swim away.

My heart clenched and swelled a bit but I smiled nothing less.

Finally there was one more turtle left and now the sun was complete visible. It reached the water before the wave reached him and it swam side ways, almost as if it wanted to watch us as we watched him.

Stupidly I found myself waving goodbye.

"Bye little turtles" I whispered. "Go find home safely"

Then I felt Jacob kiss my forehead and I smiled realizing that I was home. And that I was safe.

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