My Life, My World, My Independence Chapter 3: It's Izzy Now Take Me to Your Leaders, a twilight fanfic

Chapter 3

BPOV

I met up with Jacob, locating him easily in the crowds. When he saw me, his jaw dropped. Literally.

"Damn, Bells. You look…look…..You look hot as hell!"

"Number 1: Thank you. Number 2: It's Izzy now. And Number 3: Why do you assume hell is hot?"

"Ha, ha, Izzy. Very funny. Your welcome by the way. Come on. Let's get to the cars and to Volterra."

We walked to the car in silence, mostly due to the fact that Jacob was glaring at everything male in my path. That, and I was getting nervous about meeting the Volturi…..again. H HH

I plugged in my iPod to the car's dock on the way to the castle, since there was tons of traffic in and out of the city. I looked in the rear view mirror to see Jake doing the same. I put on What If by Plain White T's and started singing along to the lyrics, finding that they described my situation perfectly.

What if nobody likes me
what if I don't succeed
What if I give it all that I've got
and I still don't got what they need
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
will I be that small

What if she doesn't like me
what if I'm not her type
What if all the girls that ever like me
Are not the kind of girls that I like
What if I meet the right one and screw it up
Will I consider myself a failure
will I give up

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

What if they don't like me
what if they think I'm a joke
What if they act nice to my face
But they hate me and I don't even know
What if they end up stabbing me in the back
Will I consider myself a failure or will I fight back

What if nobody likes me
what if I don't succeed
What if I give it all that I've got
and it's not good enough till I bleed
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
will I be that small

NO!

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
(makes me want it more)
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
(harder than before)
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived
(never even lived)

The song finished, and I let go of my past. It's over. It's done, and I'm moving on.

I realized that life is short, whether or not you've got eternity. It can end at any point. If I dwell, I'm never gonna let myself really live. With that thought, the hole in my chest closed. I was ready to face whatever fate could throw at me, and I wasn't scared, and I was most certainly not heartbroken.

Finally, we reached Volterra Castle, which apparently had a parking lot. I smirked and stopped the car, motioning for Jacob to do so as well.

He rolled down his window and I rolled down mine.

"This is it Jake. You can't come with me."

"Why the hell not?"

"One of the leaders has a vendetta against werewolves, and I will not risk you or the pack. Besides they might look at me with kinder eyes if I don't walk on with their biggest enemy at my heels, dontcha think?"

"Alright, but I don't like it. Call me whenever you can Bells. I'll miss you."

"Bye Jake."

He drove off, back the way we came, and I watched him turn the corner in my rear view mirror.

I sighed, and started my car again, entering the parking lot.

A male vampire stopped me.

"This is a private lot, Miss. You cannot enter here."

"Actually, Sir, I believe Aro, your master would very much like to see me."

"And why is that, Miss….?"

"Izzy. Isabella Swan. The human with knowledge of vampires, and former fiancé to Dickward CULLEN."

"Well, then, I apologize for the holdup Isabella…."

I interrupted him mid-sentence. "Call me Izzy, and no need to apologize. I understand."

"Izzy then. I am Alec. I believe you met my sister Jane last time you were here, did you not?"

"Yes I did. Pleasure to meet you Alec." I smiled at him, and for a second it seemed that I had dazzled him.

"This way, then. Park your sweet ride, and I will escort you personally to the masters. I can't very well let you become a snack, can I?" He smiled at me, and I swear my heart skipped a beat. What the hell?

He ran along with my car as I pulled into the spot he pointed out to me. Once I parked, he opened my door for me, like a perfect gentleman.

I took the hand he held out, and I felt a shock pass through us. By the look n his face, he felt it too. I froze, and then stepped out of the car.

"Fuck. ...woman.i .seen. I can't imagine how perfect you would be when immortal."

I blushed, and my heart beat quickened at his words. Why was the hot male specimen affecting me so? I had no idea, but I intended to find out.

"Okay. If you are done ogling me, do me a favor. Take me to your leaders."

He laughed and led me through a hell of a lot of doors, and we finally reached the doors to what I assumed was the throne room.

I turned to him nervously, and he gave me an encouraging smile, before nodding that I could proceed.

I took a deep breath before pushing open the doors.

As I did so, the room went so quiet that you could hear a pin drop.

Every male vampire had gone slack jawed, and the women were glaring with jealousy. I also could of sworn I heard Alec growl softly next to me. At that, everyone regained their composure.

Alec's POV

Ugh. I was on duty in the parking lot for lack of anything to do around here. I am frozen at 20 years old, have no mate, am a vampire, and am currently bored out of my mind. God I sound pathetic.

Suddenly a red Porsche Boxter S pulled up into the lot. The driver was a human woman.

"This is a private lot, Miss. You cannot enter here."

"Actually, Sir, I believe Aro, your master would very much like to see me." As if the king of the vampire world would like to see a human unless it is for a meal.

"And why is that, Miss….?"

"Izzy. Isabella Swan. The human with knowledge of vampires, and former fiancé to Dickward CULLEN." Fucking hell. So this is the human I've heard so much about. But why hasn't she been turned yet, I wonder. I better take her to Aro.

"Well, then, I apologize for the holdup Isabella…."

I was interrupted mid-sentence. "Call me Izzy, and no need to apologize. I understand."

"Izzy then. I am Alec. I believe you met my sister Jane last time you were here, did you not?"

"Yes I did. Pleasure to meet you Alec." I swear my dead heart nearly skipped a beat as she smiled at me, and for a second it seemed that I was unable to have a coherent thought.

"This way, then. Park your sweet ride, and I will escort you personally to the masters. I can't very well let you become a snack, can I?" I smiled at her, and I heard her heart skip a beat. I grinned, glad to have caused such a reaction to her, but unsure as to why I felt such emotions towards a human.

I ran along with her car as she pulled into the spot I had pointed out to her. Once she parked, I opened the door for her, like the gentleman I remember my human mother raising me to be.

She took my hand, and I felt a shock go through me. We both froze for a second, and then she stepped out of the car. God help me. I actually felt my jeans start to tighten uncomfortably.

"Fuck. ...woman.i .seen. I can't imagine how perfect you would be when immortal." Did I say that out loud? By her reaction, it seemed like it.

She blushed, and my dead heart swelled at the sight. It made her whole expression light up beautifully. I could stare at her for days if I could see that blush. Her heart seemed affected as well as the beat quickened at my words. Why was this hot, sexy,, confident woman affecting me so? I had no idea, but I intended to find out.

"Okay. If you are done ogling me, do me a favor. Take me to your leaders."

God, was I really just caught eye-fucking this chick. And what's with the alien reference. I laughed at that one. Who refers to aliens when meeting vampires. I had a feeling life was about to get a hell of a lot more interesting.

We walked hand in hand in silence until we finally reached the doors to the throne room.

She turned to me nervously, and I gave an encouraging smile, before nodding that she could proceed.

She took a deep breath before pushing open the doors. As she did so, the room went so quiet that you could hear a pin drop.

Every male vampire had gone slack jawed and their pants tightened visibly as they took in the sight of her, and the women were glaring with jealousy and curiosity. I felt unnerved at all of this for some reason and I growled at them. This caused them to break out of their trances and got me a helluva lot of questioning looks.

Aro stood up and walked towards us. "Well, well, well. What do we have here?"