Expectations of Approval
Chapter Fifteen: This school year . . .
Oliver knew Percy wasn't paying any attention to the sorting ceremony. He was worried about his results? Maybe taking the test after such news must have been horrible. No Percy knew the results already. He was debating something. . . he was worried about something.
So Oliver continued to watch Percy while he felt Anne's jealous gazes on him. He didn't look away from Percy, his worry for his best-friend the only thing he was allowed to show. Anne knew how he felt, he had never made any effort to hide it from her, from anyone except Percy. Percy could not know, it would cost Oliver their friendship. It would cost Oliver his friendship with Anne. It was odd what she had asked him to do. She never tried to kiss him or get him to forget Percy, nothing you would expect from your 'girl-friend'. She just kept them apart by one condition: Percy has to make the first move, he has to confess and his intentions had to be crystal clear.
He did not dare to dream that could happen. How could Anne think it? Though there was a voice in the back of his mind that assured Oliver of something more could happen with Percy. He would not chance it. He could not lose Percy now. Kind, klutzy, intelligent, loyal, funny and cute Perce. The one the students had started to see and begun to love him for. In truth Oliver had was a little jealous of all the attention Percy had been getting. But it couldn't be helped, Percy was becoming more gorgeous by the day.
He looked way towards the ceremony. At the end of this school year even before the end of this school year Oliver knew he would not be able to see Percy as much as he was used to seeing him. Things were going as planed for him as he had had the summers to practices his skills because Anne's father covered Percy's fees. He had even made some connections, his talents seem to be appreciated. As for Percy things were going just as well, Pomfrey was going to tell him his score the next day before breakfast. Oliver already knew that no matter what had happened over the summer Percy couldn't have possibly failed and with what Pomfrey had planed from him passing Percy would be going away for some of the school year and the rest would be spent in the Hospital Wing.
After he graduated this year Oliver was planing to sign up with any team that would seriously offer him a spot, not the maybe he had been reserving lately. The chances were high for him to succeed and when he did he would be gone for months.
-Thoughts-
'What will you do if you failed?'
'I'm not going to fail . . . '
'That's the spirit! So . . . what are you going to do when we pass?
'I, I'm going to be a Medi Wizard . . .'
'Yeah, we are. But you know, now your parents have to know, you can't hid your profession forever. Well unless you want to run away and start a new life as Henry Fuller, a shy-'
'Shut it. I'm not going to run away. I'm going to be Medi Wizard'
'Yes, I know. When we pass, we will be a Medi Wizard'
'Why don't you do something instead of telling me what to do?'
'Because you say I'm not real. . . you nut job, how am I supposed to 'do' anything?'
'I really have gone crazy'
'you are not going crazy, we already are. Do you see the difference?'
'I'm going to kill you'
'Now why are you harboring such suicidal thoughts? Why can't you accept that you are we . . . ?'
'Because I would never act as shameless-'
'No, because you would never admit, ask, reach for what you want. you are too scared to move with out a push or an excuse, you can never fight. You are a coward'
'You are just reckless'