I HATE MY COMPUTER

I wrote this chapter, and didn't save it, STUPID ME

It's like still a tab, but it wont open up the document, stupid Microsoft Works, ergh.

Anyway, Thank you to all who put websites onto the reviews, none of them worked properly, like I would get so far and BAM! So I've watched like 8 episodes, but 5 of them not till the end. I'm going to buy it all on DVD I think. I love it so much. Anyway, here is the chapter (kinda)

I walked round the corner, listening the sounds of people, the business of the crowds. Its so fascinating. I keep in mind that I need to ring Bug, and Natasha, but there was time for that my conscience told me, egging for me to go to social. Not like I like the social, its too formal. Everyone thinks Sunnyvale is my proper home, the foster families were just houses. That's not true to me, really, this place is my home; it's the place I go when no-one wants me, just before I go back to Sunnyvale. Just before. Not today, today I'm going on my own accord.

I recognize where I am, and half hour later I see the building. That building. So many memories. I think to myself that it might be the last time I see the place, no it won't. But at least I'm here for myself, no-one else. Me.

The colours, it changes, always blue, but different colour for each section. First, you have the tots, I missed that stage as I was in hospital, then it's the young kids, ages 4-8, I remember that section… Just. I kept going in and out and in and out. The never ending circle. That was a Turquoisy colour, I remember it because I didn't like it very much. Then you have the next section, 8-12 year olds, the ones that could still be adopted, possibly. No-one wanted me, so I spent most of my days in foster homes, possibly a few in that place. Section 3. Finally, the 12-18 year olds, the mature ones, the ones who knew the system by now, or would fast learn it. You go in, end up in Sunnyvale, get fostered for a bit as the babysitter, do something wrong, and then get put back in, the cycle starts again.

I'm in the middle of the last section, and hopefully this will change, someday. I just want Sunnyvale to go, I don't want to be there anymore, I don't want anything to do with that place, it kills me. The only good thing about it is Tash, she's my sister. Not technically, but morally, she's amazing. Been my friend for years now. I remember meeting her like it was yesterday, she smiled at me, that was the only thing to make us best friends, smiling. What a powerful tool, a smile.

I decide to go up the stairs, its all the way at the top, the final stop. I regret the decision to walk up the stairs, so much exercise. So much walking, the steps are so deep. I recognise the reception area, specifically the person there, you get to know the staff really well, even though their not your case worker. You always say hi, be polite, the only thing you really can do. Inside you're burning up in rage, wondering why you haven't been placed in a good home, wondering what is wrong with the system. You can't say that though, you think to yourself they're trying to help so I nod to the receptionist Amber and head my way to my latest case workers office. Forget her name, dunno why I just do.

I recognise my case workers office by the fact it's the largest room at the top, she's the case worker for the worst kids. Yes, I'm classed as one of the bad kids, I'll let you know when I'm told why. The name on the door is Fern, so I guess that's her name, and knock the signature knock. She says 'come in' and I open the door. She seems to smile at me as I walk in to sit down on the comfy chair. I realise how tired I am, damn those stairs, and look at Fern.

'So Lux, why have you come to see me on this very fine day, shouldn't you be at school?' I recognize the tone of voice, the certain patronising one she uses a lot on me. Her words are like she cares, but her tone of the voice speak very differently. I decide on a sarcastic approach, the only way to shut out my anger on this case worker, she gets on my nerves, her four months as my case worker and she found me a crap home. Now I'm stuck being the babysitter, again.

'Well I should be, but if you see the school you put me in, Thursdays are off days,' I reply, almost with a hint of a smile, it shows how much she cares because she should know that by now, 'Anyway, I've come today to see you because I want to ask you something,' I stop, now I'm here, I don't know whether I should ask at all, but then I remember that Tash wants me to be that thing, where I'm looking after myself, but I need my parents signature. Before I'm able to speak, Fern does

'Lux, sorry, I'll try and see about moving schools, but that probably won't be possible, what do you want to ask me dear.' I know full well she won't, she's got so many other cases she probably won't have any time for me, and school is a minor issue in the social world.

'I want to know my parents,' I state simple, the look on Ferns face was joyful, she looked shocked, possibly because she doesn't know.

'I don't think that's a good idea, I mean, you're sixteen in a few days, why don't you come back in a few months,' that's when I realise she has my file with her, open.

'Can I just have a look at my file?' I ask, knowing full well she has no choice but give it to me, as it is my file, and it has my mother's name on it, but Fern is too dumb to realise this.

'Sure,' she smiles and hands it to me, 'I hope this wasn't a wasted journey,' she goes back to the computer to do some paper work, I open to first page, scan in the birth certificate and the name 'Catherine Cassidy' and I thank Fern and get out of the Social as soon as I could. Catherine Cassidy, Catherine Cassidy. I'll have to google her when I get home. I do recognise that name though. Umm.

Little more to add to it, haha, please review, it makes my day, and thank you to everyone who reviewed the last chapter, you guys are awesome.