I run out the Social as fast as I can, I don't like being in that place. The stairs didn't affect me as I went down, I suppose its because of adrenaline rush. I don't get it often, so it's a weird feeling to gather within yourself. Catherine Cassidy. Cassidy. Lux Cassidy. So many thoughts going around my head as I leave the double doors of the Social. I don't need to go back there for a while. Something like a name makes me feel so weird. Joyful, confused, sad, happy. The emotions going around my head a crazy. I need to ring Bug or at least find him, he'll be at his apartment, not far away from here.

I find the apartment, to be honest I don't like it, but it's a great place to hide from everything; it's a great place to escape from the world. Hopefully I'll be living here soon. Lets say hopefully. Bugs there, waiting for me and he gives me a massive cuddle. A great big bear cuddle. its obvious he's missed me, but sometimes I wonder does he miss me or the sex? I kiss him, I do love him, he's been there for me when no-one else has, and I need to honest with him. The kissing continues until I move away. He thinks he's done something wrong, but he hasn't. I've just got to tell him. He's got to know. I know the name of my mother.

'Bug, we got to talk,' I say sitting down on the mattress.

'Lux, whats up? I've missed you,' as he wraps his hands around my waist. I hold onto his hands, I don't want him to let go. I never want him to let go.

I take in a deep breath, 'I know her name,' I sigh, Its too much for me to say the rest. I lean in on Bug's chest. I love Thursdays, they're great days. Me and Bug time, most of the time.

'Who's name Lux, what have you found?' He questions. He's so caring and loveable and amazing.

'My mom, her name,' I smile and look at him. He suddenly moves away, all of a sudden so angry that I'm confused as to why 'Bug,' I scream.

'You think that by you finding your mom's name, you'll be able to find her,' He's seen what I was about to say next. I sigh. I want to cry, I don't like it when Bug is like this. I hate it I HATE IT. 'Well you won't. Don't you understand, we're your family, me, Tasha and Gavin. Not some poxy person who gave birth to you,'

'Please just stop shouting,' I whisper. I'm so scared of his eyes when they're like this. So evil. So scary.

'Why should I, don't you get it. I'm your family, that's why you're getting emancipated, so that you're with me, forever,' He continues to shout. I can't stand it any more.

'Fine, I'm off,' I scream at him. I get off the mattress and leave, just before I close the door he shouts 'Good, and don't come home tonight,'

I don't know why he acts like this. He takes after his father. But he said he didn't want to be like his dad. He didn't want to be an angry person. I'm crying as I leave the apartment place. He scares me sometimes. But I love him so much. Fuck him though. I want to find my mom even if it kills me. I want answers. Screw him, and Tasha if that's how she is too. More questions though, what am I going to do about sleeping tonight? I can't stand my foster home. Its horrible. What am I going to do?

I carry on walking. I need to carry on walking, but then I realise something, maybe Cate and Ryan might help me with my search? I'll ring them when they're on the radio tomorrow. They'll help anyone. Its only fair, right? I deserve my chance for happiness. I've been through enough of hurt in my life. I just want to be happy, and maybe finding this Catherine Cassidy might help, but that name is quite familiar. I need to walk to think this through, so I just walk. I don't know where to, or where abouts I'm going, but all I need to do is walk.

That ties up Bug, I don't really like him as a character really :/ and the actor is English and best friends with Ed Westwick. Shock horror or what. Anyway, sorry for the short chapter. When Lux and Cate meet, which if I knew myself I would tell you, it'll probably be the end, because I don't like writing long stories, it annoys me. Please review, pleaseee? I'll buy you some awesome cookies. Oh I've watched the whole series now. YAY, I would like to thank everyone who recommended SideReel. Its an amazing website. But yeah, please review…