Disclaimer:
SM: What did you do to my characters?
Me: You'll just have to wait and find out. *grins evilly* Wait … does this mean I don't own them?
SM: Of course not, look at the copyright!
(Not real conversation, lol. If I actually do have a conversation with SM then you'll know, because I'll have died and not be updating for months on end…)

A/N: I told you you would hate me! xD But since everyone freaked out (and I got three reviews in under three hours! :D Thanks!) I decided to go ahead and write this chapter really fast and post it. Oh, and to clear up any confusion, the vampires that were on the hunting trip came back only a few minutes before Ness and Jake got there, but Bella hadn't gotten back yet. Kudos to "Can't Be Saved" and "Lost and Found" by Senses Fail for the great inspiration that got you this chapter so fast.

EAN: *re-reads disclaimer* Well, I didn't die and I didn't talk to SM... Damn. I have no excuse for being absent for so long. Warning: Language and emotional issues.

Chapter 9: A Few Plans for the Future

Edward's POV

Oh. My. God. What have I done? I just bit my daughter's boyfriend for getting her pregnant, and now he's going to die. Not to mention that my daughter just mutilated herself to the point to where she passed out! My thoughts chased each other around my head, one crazy idea followed by another. But then one more thought crossed into my mind - the only one that mattered - that might work - I didn't know if it would, but I had to try.

I rushed forward, took Jacob in my arms, and immediately clamped my mouth to where I had bitten him. I repeated what I had done for my beautiful wife, Bella, and tried to suck the venom back out of his body. Apparently I had let more venom flow than I had meant to, because after two minutes, the blood still wasn't clean. And then, a second later, it was. The blood tasted so fresh in my mouth that I had to force myself to let go of him. With a gasp, I did. I suddenly felt almost like Carlisle, saving lives… Although, I realized, it was me who caused the problem in the first place. The feeling quickly faded.

"Carlisle, we need you!" someone, I think Alice or Jasper (maybe both of them?), yelled up the stairs.

I tried shaking Jacob, but he was still unconscious. However, his heart was hammering away, much faster than it had been, and I took that as a sign that I maybe, just maybe, had saved him.

As Carlisle came down the steps, Emmett and Rosalie tried to explain what had happened, and he ran Jacob up the steps to the in-house hospital that he had set up in case something like this - well, not exactly this, but something of vampire nature that couldn't be treated at a human hospital - happened.

I crawled over to my daughter to find her blood flowing from her arms and dripping out her mouth. I gasped inwardly, suddenly realizing the extent of the damage I had done. It would be an amazing thing if she ever, and I mean ever, forgave me.

Suddenly, I noticed Carlisle hovering over me, and he gently took Renesmee from my arms. I felt a sudden moment of loss as he rushed her up the steps and I followed in horror.

"Carlisle, please tell me that they'll-"

"I don't know yet… The venom should have killed Jacob as soon as it entered his system, but it didn't. And since you cleared his blood of it, and his heart is still beating, I take that as a good sign, but I wouldn't get my hopes up if I were you," Carlisle warned gently.

Renesmee's POV

"Jake? Jake? Jake, where are you?" I screamed. No one answered me. I was in a small white room, almost as if I was dreaming. I lifted my arm up to eye-level and saw blood. Then I suddenly remembered: I was pregnant, Dad had bitten Jake, I had bitten myself - the vampire equivalent of cutting, I thought to myself humorlessly - and then passed out.

So … I was in a coma or something? I couldn't be sure, but that sounded about right. I was lost, drowning in an ocean of fear, haunted by the sound of Jake's last breath. I guess that I deserved this torture, getting myself pregnant, after all. But Jake hadn't deserved this - he hadn't deserved to die. I only hoped that I could quickly follow him into whatever abyss he went into.

I was still in my coma-like state. I wished my brain was making it up, but it wasn't. I didn't want to give up everything, but it's entirely possible it would happen. I just wanted to die at this point. Jake was dead and it was my father's fault. I had nothing left to live for.

Except for what's in my womb, I reminded myself silently. It's a part of Jake - and I can't lose that.

And in that instant I opened my eyes. I blinked, making sure that it was real, and then looked around for a minute before finally resting my eyes on my father. He had his head in his hands and was mumbling something about how everything was his fault. Mom was rubbing his back sympathetically.

"Shh, it'll be alright, baby," she said to him gently. Neither of them seemed to notice that I had woken up yet.

"I-if Ja-Jacob had di-died it would definitely have been all my fault!" he finally whimpered.

Did he just say what I thought he said? "Jacob's alive?" I screamed, the happiness in me starting to boil over. This started a brand new wave of tears, but this time of happiness.

My parents gasped and stared at me. "Nessie! You're alive!" Edward ran out of the room and literally a second later came back with Jacob. "Carlisle forced him to stay in bed at least until you woke up," he explained. I ignored this fact, just happy to see Jacob alive.

"I was so worried about you," Jacob said. "Why the hell would you mutilate yourself like that? You drank so much of your own blood that you went into some type of coma for three days!"

"Three days?" I said in horror. "And when did you wake up?"

"An hour ago," he admitted sheepishly. "Carlisle took care of school stuff. Said we were really sick and had to go to the hospital here but that we'd be back by the middle of February for sure…" He gave a shaky laugh.

"Oh," I said. "Wait - there's one thing that I don't understand… How did Dad's venom not kill you? I mean, I saw him bite you with my own eyes!"

Everyone was silent. Finally, Edward answered, "I sucked out the venom."

I was baffled at his extreme sudden change of heart, but didn't question it. I was happy with the way things were. "Th-thank you," I said, tears welling up in my eyes again.

"C'mon babe, you need to get up. Please, at least eat something. F-for the baby's sake," Jake whimpered to me the next day.

I had refused to get out of bed, still in shock of what all had happened. I wasn't myself anymore. Not after something like this. I may have been grateful that Edward had sucked out his venom, but I hadn't forgiven him for biting Jake in the first place.

"Ness, you really have to eat something. Anything. I'll take you hunting if you want to, or maybe-"
I sighed.

He had been with me ever since I woke up, refusing to leave my side to eat anything himself. "No, Jake. I'm not hungry." I never had been very good with lying, and I think he saw that.

"Ness you know that I know you're lying so why won't you eat anything? Why won't you - oh my God!"

"What?" I demanded. All I had done was sit up in bed and throw the covers off.

"L-l-look d-down."

I looked and horror spread across my face. "W-w-what the fuck?"

"Carlisle!" Jacob called. Carlisle came in quickly and asked what was wrong. "N-N-Nessie's s-s-stomach."

Surprisingly, Carlisle laughed. "Well, when one is pregnant the stomach does tend to grow quite a bit."

"B-but why this fast?" I asked him in shock. "I only found out I was pregnant a few days ago!" I had seen plenty of pregnant girls before, and my stomach had to have been at least half the size of many of the full-term pregnancies.

"Well, you're a half-vampire who grows extremely fast, and Jacob is a werewolf who also grows fast. Therefore, it would be fitting to have an even faster growing child," Carlisle reasoned. It actually was a good point. "However." He sat down. "Ness, Jake, I need you to be completely honest with me - it's essential. Was your first time really when Edward found you? Or had you had sex before?"

He was so straight about the question that it caught me off guard for a moment before remembering that he was a doctor - but still, he was also my grandfather.

"Yes… It was."

Jake looked like he had been stabbed in the back. "Of course it was! I haven't ever been with anyone but Ness, how could you dare accuse me of-"

"Jake, shh, that's not what he meant. Calm down."

He slowly relaxed and stopped shaking. "Sorry," he mumbled. "I'm just … nervous, I guess."

Aren't we all? I wondered.

"It's alright, Jacob. Perfectly understandable. Now, have you two decided what you're going to do with the baby? You know that there's really only two options considering what the baby is."

"I-"

I cut Jake off, "We're keeping it, of course. I can't kill it! Right, Jake..?"

"I-I... Well…"

"I don't believe you!" I scooted back on the bed and covered my stomach with my arms protectively. "You want to kill my baby! After everything we-"

"N-no! Ness, you know that that's not-"

"Yes, I do know! I know that you don't care anymore! Just go away, Jake! Go away…" I curled up in a ball and burst into tears.

It was at that point that someone came in the room and started rubbing my back.

"Shh, Renesmee, it'll be okay," Bella said reassuringly. "You know that Jacob wouldn't want that. Right, Jake?"

"Yes, of course I wouldn't!" he said quickly, relieved that he had finally managed to finish a sentence. "That's what I was trying to say the entire time! It'll be hard, but I don't want to kill our baby, Ness!"

"O-okay," I managed to sniff.

"Now," Bella said, "how about you two, me, Edward, Jasper, Alice, and Carlisle go on a hunting trip? That way we'll know if you're okay."

"Alright," I sighed, brushing my tears away. I needed the blood desperately, and I'd do anything to get away from the memory of what had almost happened to Jacob and what I had done to myself. "But only if we don't run too fast and we stay close to home, 'cause I have a killer headache, not to mention really bad nausea."

Bella murmured something about how I had no idea what bad nausea was like, but said, "Okay. Now all we need to do is get you into some clothes that fit." She paused for a moment, then called, "Alice!"

I hated getting dressed with Alice. But today was different. Since Jasper (who had been shocked but almost … pleased?) had found out Jake and I were emo and told Alice, she had apparently burned all of my old clothes that I hated and bought me some new ones that I loved. So today, she forced me into a band t-shirt, some stretchy leggings, and a pair of Converse. I loved it - it was totally me.

Now you would probably think that becoming pregnant would rid me of my emo-ness (does that even count as a word?) but it didn't. I was still my old self except for the fact that I had a huge stomach. I just liked everything about the emo look. It was just … wonderful. Much better than the stupid scene kids and their Hello Kitty and Care Bear shirts.

So after Alice was done working her magic, we headed out to hunt.

A/N: You may love me now. ; )

EAN: Sorry if the whole scene comment annoyed you. I dunno what Nessie was thinking saying that. (Although I do hate it when they wear little kid shirts... o_o)