Author Note: Hey, sorry about not writing and posting anything for a while, it's been pretty damn hectic at my end. What with it being my final year before i'm off to Uni, so my school is determined to work me to death before i leave =S
This is more of an update into the going ons in my life, but i thought it quite related to Lilly's situation here so yeah, once again it's pretty much just random thoughts, which is kinda why i called it a drabble so =)
Anywho, tell me what you think.
Disclaimer: I do not own Hannah Montana or any of the characters (but it'd be a heck of a lot more interesting show if i did XD)
Hey, it's me, Lilly, again.
I was just, y'know... thinkin'. About her. Again.
I know I said I wouldn't but I just... I can't help myself.
Y'know, you always think how great it would be to go out or fall in love with your best friend. Y'know practically everythin' about them already; you're so freakishly close that datin' them wouldn't even be that big a step.
But when you fall in love with someone, I guess you never really consider the consequences. And believe me, there are always consequences.
Datin' your best friend... well it'd be truly amazin', that's for sure. Maybe a little weird at first, but once you get used to the fact that you can call them 'babe' and kiss them whenever the heck you like, it's pretty much the greatest feelin' in the world. Havin' the one person you trust, the one person who is always there for you, really be your everythin' is... I can't describe it! I hope you all get to feel that some day.
But then again... I hope you don't.
Just in case.
If somethin' goes wrong, or things change, then you don't just lose your girlfriend or boyfriend, you also lose your bestest friend in the whole world too. You might gain one thing by goin' out with them, but if you lose them, you lose two things. It's a double whammy and it doesn't exactly feel all that good.
I wish I'd thought about it more, thought about what could happen if somethin'... I wish I had thought about it before I fell head over heels in love with my best friend.
But I didn't. I got majorly screwed over and I lost everythin'.
She left... She left me.
And I don't think she's comin' back... I don't think she's ever comin' back for me.
It... It just hurts. I realised it a while ago, I guess. But I've been so numb for so long that I never even...
I want her to come back.
Back home, back to school... back to me.
Most of all I want her to come back to me.
I miss her. I can't even find the words to say how much, because if I think about it too much, if I let myself think about her anymore than I already have, I don't think I'll be able to get back up on my own.
I need her, I love her so much!
But I guess she doesn't need me... I guess she doesn't... love me... anymore...
She left.
No last kiss, no nothin'.
...She didn't even say goodbye...
She just... left.
I have to go. I'm startin' to feel again, and the pain is almost overwhelmin'.
But I'll be back again, and again, and again... until I finally just give up.
Talk soon.
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Author Note: I am actually working on some other stuff atm, two Camp Rock stories, so i shall get them typed up and posted asap. Promise =)
Oh and one last thing before i go, just wanted to say a massive thank you to the most amazing guy ever, Lord Jellyfish!! He's a brilliant beta and an awesome friend, i wouldn't be anywhere without him =)
Heh so in a bit all, hope you guys are having a good december =)